the heart beats as much
The person I've been waiting for has arrived at the building gate
accompanied by chanting holy prayers
you walk confidently
I'm waiting nervously
Finally this day has come, after so many hundreds of obstacles and stories
our love is completely united
legitimate ties that are woven into a path
ready to grow old together
fight for dreams together
some people say that
falling in love is easy
but in fact love is the readiness to allow another human to fill a part of us
just like a puzzle
Does the puzzle piece fit?
there are hundreds of pieces scattered about.
to make it whole,
there are many things that must be passed
lost, difficult to match or swapped
my feelings are contained in lines of words
filled in a gas balloon
Fluffy in a sweet cake
depicted in a beautiful painting
don't you realize?
my feelings continue to grow and inflate
This silent is mine
I’m feeling alive in this empty space
Without us, without your stories
Our cycles, *****
Sorrow, regret and solitude are endowed for you
But you can't abolish all the memories
the heart too damaged
the sight too blurry
Don't try to disturb anymore
I just want to live in my own chamber
Loving is not that easy
We ended these badly
Someone with beautiful brain
He always listens
Even without communications
Hope I see you sooner
Cause you want to see me better
i am wondering what would happen further
i hope the door is still open
but don't know when i will enter
Katanya aku berani
suatu masa pernah kuikuti bela diri
tetapi dibilang seperti lelaki
sedikit sulit untuk merelakan ucapan lewati kuping kiri
padahal seringkali harus kulakukan segalanya sendiri
kadang pernah berandai punyai saudara atau saudari
Ya, aku tahu itu cuma mimpi
Kusyukuri saja dan nikmati
Katanya lagi pasti semuanya dituruti
tidak seperti yg dipikiri
terkadang kucicipi sunyi
namun ada yang lebih sepi
toh nantipun disana* juga sendiri
bila boleh meminta..jangan pernah pergi, pelangi
bila jujur tak bisa ku sendiri
ajariku tuk lebih dewasa lagì
dengan warnamu ku pelajari
bahwa hidup miliki arti
there are people I must thank.
when i feel happy
whatever happens life continues as long as there is oxygen that fills the space in the lungs.
"Don't forget to eat" he said.
soon we will leave, wait for the rain to subside.
there are some things that I don't allow the horizon to know.
don't get bored making stories with me.
some are hard to explain.
I've been holding it for a long time.
it hurts, like a slash.
this heart screamed for a long time.
I feel unappreciated even by the people closest to me.
I can only tell God.
I will not allow the world to know.
this is too painful.
I'm between silence and sadness
I can't talk about my chatter
I don't want people to know
drowning out my voice is what I have to do
silence has taken root
rain falls on my cheeks
let everything settle in the chest
then let me borrow your name for me to paste in prayer
the earth is old
more vulnerable to damage
the earth is full of heavy burdens
the earth is hurt by ignorant hands
when the earth is no longer friendly
when the earth starts to get angry
humans start to fret
the earth is no longer the same now
humans must begin to improve
sometimes the sky isn't always blue
the sky is cloudy,
then this land is surrounded by water
sometimes the waves don't chase each other again
choose silence but come suddenly
then everything's sank down
sometimes the wind doesn't always touch friendly anymore.
with its strength, this place is in ruins
sometimes the mountains are not as beautiful and cold as ever
smoke soared into the sky
lava spread everywhere
this place becomes *****
but it must be remembered, there is always wisdom behind the disaster
when I'm in a mirror, my image never laughs at me when I cry
never berate when I'm angry,
never angry when i sulk,
then it doesn't ignore me when I'm complaining
how crazy I am
chatting with mirrors
but I believe in me inside there
although sometimes, the hardest thing is fighting my ego
deburan ombak bersatu dengan asa
namun tak memecah karang pengharapan
serbuk- serbuk pasir adalah partikel kecil impianku
tak apa diinjak- diinjak
karena untuk menjadi langit
aku masih terlalu awam
teruntuk atau kepada
engkau atau kamu
tersayang atau terkasih
bulan berdesir pelan
menyelusup ke sela- sela kabut hitam
malam yang pekat
aku tak sendiri, ada sepi yang mememani
aku mengisahkan padanya
perihal perih tapi tidak sakit,
tentang rindu yang tak berujung temu
aku ingin memberitahunya
aku senang jika ia mendengarkan cerita- ceritaku
aku akan menunggu
biar waktu yang akan membawamu
disini aku memelukmu
dengan mantra sakti yang aku miliki
you or you
dear or beloved
do you know?
the moon rustled softly
sneaking into the black mist.
its thick night
I am not alone, there is lonely accompanying
Regarding pain but no pain.
hope that never disappears.
it's about endless encounters.
I want to tell him.
I'm happy if he listens to my stories.
I tried to wait
let the time take you, baby
here i hug you
with the magic spell that I have
the waves are united with hope
but it does not break the coral of hope
sand powder is a small particle of my dreams
it's okay to be trampled on
because to be sky
I'm still too ordinary
in a room
with a dimly lit bedroom lamp
my eyesight groped
on an object between other objects
Your face is clearly visible in a black frame
as if smiling at me
how long should I look at you unrealistically?
there is a sack of longing that I want to share
or it's fine if you want to add your longing too in it.
the voice of your heart is contained in the song
each verse signifies your race
there is a meaning behind a sign
rain appeared in December
I remember you
we run against the rain
sweet memories when you hold my hand tightly
pretend to love thats not necessary
I do need love
but if you don't intend to give it
better not at all
the stories that I've got
from a man with his guitar
everyday we talk about sweet thing
even we don't face each other
singing a song in every single chance through phone
I don't know how to say
you give paintings of me
send me your tasteful voice
with rhythm in every part
love song is always my favorite since I knew you
all the stories start when Harley comes
giving a cure of the craziest
voices of love coming through on the ears
stop the pain and make it better
take Harley's heart
the best couple in the world
too much words and laugh falling down to smiling hand
suddenly batman pursue them
broke the long term plan
Mr. J lost the Quin, lost Quin
the promise is the best deal
no one ever know until the last time
cause care isn't need reason
never need reason
like Mr. J and Harley Quin
and don't compare yourself with others
i am opposite my wish
it'll be difficult if there is no intermediary
falling down might be normal
toppled over? why not
just a dream bridge that knitted strong hopes
which becomes a need and strength
before you love a thing,
you have to love yourself first
then I slowly walked away
trying to run from the blue part of the heart
the wound does not look at anyone, does not see face or anything.
I have left all my heart.
but I found now formless.
I don't want to run.
Stay ... I just want to repair my heart back well
I know you accidentally made my heart fall and bruised.
it hurts really ... but it hurts more if I don't love anymore
because I believe, your heart is kind ...
like the wind in summer
its faint blew dry in this heart
Is that what is called failed?
my heart screamed loudly and shook the contents of my body.
already ... everything is useless.
my lips chattered softly.
I want to run away.
Where? but don't know the direction.
if gratitude is not enthroned in this self
already ... be patient! ... my other side is sticking out ...
just pretend I'm tough ...
in front of them ... my dear ones.
hope and prayer are clear. weeding my fear.
yeah i'm scared ..
make them sad.
but again ... already.
they just told me to be grateful ...
make it elegy
but tomorrow must be radiant
dibanding memperdulikan betapa rindunya aku
kamu lebih baik mengurus dirimu
aku akan urus urusanku perihal rasaku dan hatiku
aku harap kamu baik
seperti angin di musim panas
sayupnya menghempas kemarau didada ini
waktu tidak serta merta memberi salam maupun pamit
ia berjalan saja mengikuti poros
dan terkadang aku tak merasanya
kemarin rasanya aku baru akrab denganmu, setalah kebungkaman yang berbicara menahun
aku hanya bisa tertawa, jika aku ingat dulu.
kamu dan aku kemudian dibawa waktu untuk saling bicara untuk pertama kali
sebenernya aku dipaksa karena aku membutuhkan bantuanmu
aku memanfaatmu..agar kita dekat mungkin itulah cara-Nya
sampailah kita diakhir studi kuliah
topi bertali dan jubah sudah mantap kita kenakan
tapi dihari itu aku tak melihatmu
mauku melihatmu dengan jas hitam dan kemeja merah mudamu yang manis
tapi aku senang.
semoga kamu gapai maumu selalu
dan selamat.. aku masih merepotkanmu hingga detik ini
lalu aku perlahan berjalan menjauh
mencoba menjarak pada sepotong hati yang membiru
luka tak pandang bulu, tak pandang rupa atau apapun
sempat aku titipkan sepenuh hatiku
kudapati sekarang tak berupa
aku tak cukup mau untuk berlari
sebentar..aku hanya ingin memastikan hatiku kembali baik
ku tahu kamu tak sengaja
membuat hatiku jatuh lalu memar
sakit memang.. tapi lebih sakit jika aku tidak mencinta lagi
karena aku percaya, hatimu baik..
30 November 2018 20.37
I'm not Cinderella, who came to the party and met the prince because I didn't have those glass shoes
or being Ariel, exchanging the beautiful tail with feet for a man from another world
Aurora fell asleep long enough, then love came from a prince with a kiss, could it be?
then, should I become Snow White who was poisoned by an apple then fell asleep and the prince came just to be able to see me every day. No
could I have to meet an unlovely and cursed prince like Belle, and love him sincerely?
but I can't like Elsa that freezes the human heart
because I am still need love like Jasmine from Aladdin, but I don't want to be a present
I might have to venture out across the vast ocean to find the lost, yes it's Moana
so I have to be brave and tough like Mulan about anything that will happen in reaching the dreams and love that might not be easy
the rainbow has lost its color
covered in shackles
why did it suddenly rain today
in the heat of the sun
I want to be angry, but I have no power
you stupid! someone shouted, myself
just talk to the stone
aku bersebrangan dengan angan dan mauku
sulit jika tak ada prantara
jatuh terperosok mungkin hal biasa
terjungkal aku tak mengapa
hanya jembatan asa yang dirajut harapan kuat
yang jadi kebutuhan dan kekuatan
Nurul Amalia 15 November 2018 19 .13
terkadang untuk menggapai apa yang kita harapkan tidaklah mudah..hanya berdoa dan keteguhan hati yang bisa membuat semuanya terwujud..tentunya dengan usaha dan ikhtiar juga..
there are times when we pursue our respective dreams.
then go back and pursue our dreams ...
Nurul Amalia 14 November 2019 19.08
gelap malam membuka mata
hening pikir ku meraba cinta
begitu banyak lembut dan kasar
setajam sembilu selembut sutra
angin bertiup menghempas debu
debu kasar debu halus
cinta kasih yang ku tuju
tibalah aku pada dirimu
there are many ways to complain
there are many ways to sulk
there are even many ways to be evil
but there are many ways to do good things
when my fingers don't hold you
when my body is not with you
or four of our eyes do not look at each other
believe me ..
I always remember you here ...
Your laugh is crunchy with your joke
I'm happy even though it's just piling up miss
meeting is always my desire
wait ... I have to be patient
Nurul Amalia 9 November 2018 *16.21*
ada banyak cara untuk mengeluh
ada banyak cara untuk merajuk
ada banyak cara untuk jahat sekalipun
tapi ada banyak cara untuk melakukan hal baik
when mouth can't talk anymore
but tears fall down
it doesnt mean you are sad
but it means you are crying
cause heart will never lie
but lips can lie to hide good or bad things inside the heart
never regret anything you did with your pure heart to others..
at least you spread a nice thing
God knows..even when they don't
but you should happy with it..
itukah yang dinamakan gagal?
hatiku berteriak keras mengguncang isi tubuhku
sudah.. tak guna semua ini bibirku mengoceh pelan
ingin rasanya berlari jauh pergi
kemana? tak tahu arah jika rasa syukur tak bertahta di diri ini
sudah.. bersabarlah!..sisi lainku mencuat..
pura- pura saja aku tegar..
didepan mereka..orang terkasih
harapan dan doa terpancar jelas menyiangi ketakutanku
iya aku takut..
membuat mereka lara
tapi sekali lagi..sudah
mereka hanya menyuruhku untuk bersyukur..
menjadikan itu elegi
tetapi hari esok haruslah berseri
I can find you
even in crowded situation
and I will hug you
in every prayer in the mid night
there will be a time
we have no direct conversation
what should I do when I want to see you
what should I do if I want to greet you
what should I do if we do not meet each other
but .. do not worry I'll be fine
I will be fine
and I will embrace you in my prayers