i dont think about it
i just drown myself in work
im not thinking about it
i just drown myself with words

A poem a day,
Keeps the psychiatrists away.

Throbbing little mosquito
Sipping on some wild doe
Going with the wind's flow

Buzzing ominous lullabies
About the blood queen's paradise
Flying to the land where they'll rise

She'll nurture them with all her love
Deep inside a dark cove
Until the buzzing
Stops.

I just want you
Nothing more
Nothing less

Crystallized cards and bleeding hands
Empty minds and dull reflections
Desperation spread accross the lands
People divided into seperate sections
Skins burnt crisp by brands
Bodies braking down by neglection
Time without the flowing sands
Faith lost in crucified interception

Walking on planet earth
Seeing souls given birth
Walking paths far and wide
Seeing nothing by my side
Walking to my blurred out casket
Hiding from my blood spilled hatchet

lookin at black stars
and shining skies
listenin to running cars
and passerbies

I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better

I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better

I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better

I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better
I gotta get better

I gotta get better

I hate people that are fake
I stake those people and throw them in a lake
I'll pop their eyeballs with some darts
I smoke another spliff with some lofi and Mozart
I choke once again on your empty-*** platitudes
I see you think you're all high but you're on low altitude
I notice you think you're so great but I hate your attitude
I despise the fact that you'll probably call me crude
I laugh at the idea that you won't make it, dude

There's a huge gap between
What people say & do
And
What people think & feel
I have love for whom are aligned.

Step, ground breaking
Crack, heart shaking
Bleed, falling shards
Shatter, picking cards

Rolling dice, losing all
Flying down, slowly fall
Sinking deep, pull me under
Shouting silence, I will sunder

Sleep, mind cracking
Break, stress capping
Run, fast forward
But time, can't be bothered

she's having a life
while im just sitting here

my heart wavers
when I look at you

See for yourself
Think for yourself
Feel for yourself

You're looking at
The mask that
you put on the world

Flying high, flying low
Falling hard, falling slow

I tried talking online,
I tried breaking my spine,
I tried eating like a swine,
I tried waiting for a sign,
I just want you to be mine.

I tried finding a girl,
I tried jumping in life's swirl,
I jump further the more I sink,
I feel scared but don't even blink,
I like milky skin, with accents of pink,
I tried connecting but can't find a link.

I know what I want but I probably don't,
I think I'm sick but can't find an antidote,
I wanna jump in front of a car on a busy road,
I should but right now I'm tasting some self-loathe.

Besides, I'm writing this,
You should be here, you don't know what I miss,
The last one, to end the night,
Please stay with me, for I feel so much fright,
And I feel like I'm blessed with blight,
Yes you, you wonderful reader,
You probably are, also a bleeder.

Please love me.

Crack my skull,
Feeling so dull,
I was feeling so full,
But now I lost it all,
I wish you would call,
But I know that I'm feeling so small,
I feel like I'm lost while I crawl,
I know that it isn't your fault,
You make me numb and yet feel so full,
Feeling so dull,
Cracking my skulI,
I want to hold your hands so I just hope I haven't lost it all.

the things i do
the things i don't
i think i will
i think i won't

my brains, they splatter
u can call me a mad hatter
left or right, it don't matter
ill just keep climbing this endless ladder

The wind is cold
The sun is warm
My feet are sore
My heart is numb

im so bored man help me *** am i supposed to do with my life

Hi, hey, here I am again
Looking for a friend?
Still here, no worries!
Still full of follies?
I can fix it, I swear!
Hey, wait, you still there?
Hold up, please don't go!
Don't run, I want to know!

Hi, hey, here I am again
Looking for a friend?
I swear, I can be one!
All good, it'll be fun!
Hey, wait, you still there?
I can fix it, I swear!

Are you hurt, feeling despair?
Weight heavy, save you a prayer?
Hey, wait, don't feel sad
Smile, it's not so bad

Hi, hey, here I am again
Looking for a friend?
Still here, no worries!
Still full of follies?
I can fix it, I swear!
Hey, wait, you still there?
Hold up, please don't go!
Don't run, I want to know!

A coin so dark
A coin so red
Once lucky I bled
Hope I was still bleeding
Because the heart is still feeding
On what we're all needing
Now you might once feel like you're freezing
So listen to this message I'm heeding

I should've

I'm gonna go buy a gun
Cause I wanna go have some fun
Been a while since I felt the sun
Plenty of money but still a total ***

Tasting some steel deep in my throat
Scratch my ******* on a splintered boat
Fill me with whiskey till my stumache explodes
Sack me with stones till I no longer float

Always care too much and get hurt
Every time I get a little more burnt
What you looking at, ****?

Smoke **** 24/7,
Work from 9 to at least 11.

I get what I want
Until it's taken from me
I reach my success
Until it's taken from me
I meet who I need
Until it's taken from me
I fight for what's right
Until it's taken from me
I run towards my goal
Until it's taken from me
I'm pulling my weight
Until it's taken from me
I spend all my energy
Until it's taken from me
I live my life
Until it's taken from me

I wave my wings
And weap my tears
I glide through the sorrow
And fill all the hollow

I'll carry you back
Back to where you started
Say farewell with a smile
Return to the world of hearted

Looking down once again
I see you, my friend
Lost again, hollow again
So I wave my wings
And weap my tears
But this time
You're not here

sigh.

Maybe I just need someone to feel what I feel
If you do, my heart you can steal
I'll spin my web on a hollow reel
Better myself, for you I would kneel

For you I'd become unbreakable
With you I can feel stable
And you might feel like a fable
But I know you're there
Even if I don't know where

I'm me
You're you
You can **** my diddy
If you don't like what I do

burn all the bridges
walk on and
patch the stitches

burn all the bridges
move on and
**** some *******

burn all the bridges
fall down and
rot in ditches

I woke up and now I'm here
High flying, low falling

Busdriver making a sharp steer
Used to be good and now I'm balling

Still getting wasted every day on cheap beer
I wanna go fast but secretly stalling

Tunnel vision, not checking my rear
Think I'm running but I'm crawling

I should smile because life is dear
Was excited but now I'm yawning

red in my stumach
red in my eyes
a thousand red drops
dripping down my spine

I climb your wall of infinite disparities
I scratch my leg on your thorned stories
I cry my tears over your heart that bleeds
I'll lift up a thousand stones
I'll call you with a million phones
I'll give you all of my bones
For I smile every time you look at me
For I open my doors if this is where you wanna be
For I'll be with you whenever you need me

A game so great
A game so small
Someone will rise
And someone will fall

Thought you won
Then you lost
Felt the warmth
Then the frost

Step back
One more time
Walk forward
Feel sublime
Crash course
"You are mine."