You were so pretty
I got so curious
I went to you
I got ****** into you dark realm
Not knowing that you were a black hole
You engulfed my entirety
And left me with nothing

Sometimes I don't know what to do
when it comes to you
because I know
you don't like telling the truth
I want you to trust me
and just tell me what you want to talk about
It's the only way
I know how to make your day
Or if you don't want to
maybe we could just sway
to the song I've put on replay

You've done more than enough to brighten up mine
I'd also like to be the reason of your widest genuine smile
and get rid of your horrible painful thoughts that are in a pile
I'll come to your soul's darkest part
and shine

That one person who can't speak out through their mouth
So they turn their thoughts in an encrypted
set of words

Sa mga tala hihingi ako ng paunawa
Mga bagay na di ko na dapat ginawa
Pero sabi nga
Baka naman daw masyado lang akong walang tiwala
Sa sarili kong balisang balisa
Mga bagay na di ko na maipaliwanag
Kaya bang linawin ng ng mga talang aking laging tinatawag?
Sabi ko gusto ko nang lumayo ngunit sabi ko din "wag"
Di ko lubos maintindihan
Kung ano ang dahilan
Paano na ba iyan?                                
Maipaliliwanag mo ba kung bakit ngayon wala nang laman?
Kasi nung huli kong tinignan
Lahat tayo'y masaya laging nandyan
Ngayon... bakit?
Bakit wala nang laman???            
Pati puso ko di ko na maramdaman
Sobrang sakit na hindi maipaliliwanag nino man
Ayokong umalis nang hindi ito ayos
Pero di ko talaga alam kung anong gagawin kong kilos        
Dahil sa tuwing ika'y kaharap na
Lahat ng aking mga tanong ay biglang nawawala nang parang bula
Di ko alam kung paano ka kakausapin tungkol dyan sa sitwasyong di kaunaunawa
Kalagayan natin ngayo'y kaawa awa...

Di ko na talaga alam...
Sa tingin ko'y ako na'y naging mangmang
Kaya isang kudos na lamang
Para sa ating lahat

I guess no gifts or amount of cash
could top you up
Just seeing you stand there
has filled my face with a smile
and makes my heart almost
pop

Let me ink away your entirety
Explain every detail of you in a poetry
State the wonders of your personality
And let me bid you goodbye
As I let that paper with my poetry fly
I'll finally set you free as I cry
I hope one day we'll pass by each other
In some other place at a different time
When the pain finally decided to sublime

Everytime I dream of you
I always wonder whether it's true
In those dreams of mine
We both seem to get along so fine
In my dreams
We were both inseparable, it seems
In those dreams
Your smiles were mine to keep
They all make me want to continue my every sleep

For only in my dreams is where I can talk to you...
For only in my dreams is where I can be with you...
For only in my dreams is where I can hold you tight...

Cause in reality,
I know this may sound funny
But none of those exist
Believe me, cause I too want to feel the actuality
*Even for a small fraction in time...

You're seen as somebody who is unexpectedly soft
fragile
delicate
vulnerable
In fact, your persona was described as tough
firm
strong
mysterious
I wasn't that certain yet when I saw that pure innocence upon your eyes
little did I know that you really were deception
yet I still saw your true reflection
Now I can never look at you the same way
I look at you now with so much care
I painstakingly want to be your very own bubble wrap

An encrypted note on a papyrus
An ancient mystery that refuses to be solved
But I saw through your wall
Now I could sense the tears wanting to come out like a water fall

*I finally deciphered your intriguing paradox

My days are filled with nightmares
My nights are filled with day dreams...
*How ironic isn't it?

sabi mo ako lang talaga
bakit nagbago bigla?
ano ba talaga?
Sa iyong mga binitiwan na mga salita
ako'y napatulala
Di ko kinaya ang sakit na nadarama
mga pahayag na sa aki'y tumatama
tagos sa puso ang pana

ako'y iiyak nalamang
sapagkat alam kong wala na
sana nga meron pa

To them, you're just a somebody
But to me, the way you love me unconditionally
It makes me so happy

Cause I know I can depend on you
You will always know what's true
Because it's you
You know when i'm feeling blue
I'm sorry for the pain and sufferings I've caused you
But I know you'll still be here

Thank you for being more than just a mother
You became a nurse (literally), our guide and the best teacher
Thank you for enduring the pain of being away
Just to make us stay
To the very school we wanted to be everyday
No one can ever be greater than you
Because to us
You are the elite! You are the best of the best!

We love you Mama! :D

Slowly
Day by day
The fragments of my memories of yesterday
Gets lost among the recesses of my mind

I wonder
*If they'd ever live again

You were once my rival
Someone who's the best in over all
But never have I imagined that i'd fall
And to think that you'd be called
My everything and all

Now I don't know what to do
With these feelings that wont ever go
I just want to be with you

When you're around
My heart can't stop beating aloud
With just your touch
A red face would be bound

The only thing through my mind
Was how to beat your kind
But now all I want
Is for you to be *mine

To the moon and stars above
Would you gladly listen to my plea?
I badly want to flee
To the mountain top I shall go
And scream to my heart's content
Cause I no longer know
Up to when I shall endure
This unspeakable feeling
It's been following me everywhere
I dont know how to put it into phrases
What more into sentences
Not even a word could express it
Too much thought is taking up my tired and restless brain
There's just so much pain and confusion
I can't even come up with a single conclusion
Everything ended up like a convulsion
But I know there was a root to the problem
Now we need it to be uprooted
Because the bigger it grows
It might soon become a tree and bear
Unbearable fruits      
These fruits look delish but you'll never know that it'll make you perish...

Tell me when... When will this end?
Cause it's gnawing at my chest cavity and it's making the floorboard shriek
It scares me to the bone
And it has made my soul unconscious...

Ibaba mo kasi yung baso para di ka mangalay.
Napaka simple lang naman ng mga sagot sa mga bagay bagay.

Good things*
come to those who wait in silence
*But work with diligence

With just one glance
I was lost in a trance
They say your name is Lancealot
Let them stare
I don't even care
Not even their glare would bother
And who the heck is Arthur?

Your face radiate such calmness
The way you sleep shows cuteness
Silent
Kindhearted
Yet so fragile
So vulnerable
I wish to see more
I wish to know more
One day i'd see you as another person
**The real you

You're like a lost child who keeps on wandering off
Me on the other hand keeps on finding you no matter where, when or even how...

A star lost in a wide ocean of other heavenly bodies
Yet I could still find you for you shine the brightest
But you shine not for me
Your light is destined for another
That's why they ask "Why bother?"
It's cause I wont ask for any other
You're the only lost star worth looking for

Ang sabi mo "Nagbago ka na."
Ang tanong, nakilala mo ba talaga ako?
Hindi naman kasi ako talaga nagbago
natuto lang naman ako
na di na mag tiwala sa mga taong kagaya mo

I guess no one would be better  
when it comes to being a leader

They keep on doubting your capabilities
but for me, you exceed all the possibilities

Your logic is limitless
Your wise words are endless

I can't help but say "wow"
the only thing left for you to do is bow

Everyday for you is just a day at the stage
I turn to each page
and can't help but still get trapped in this cage

I can't go around your final act
and that's for a fact

Your specialty is Deception
and I can never see through your undying illusion

I guess I understand now
what the true meaning of home meant.
It wasn't some sort of fancy place you bunk in,
eat at neither does it provide a shelter or a roof
over your head.
Home is where you feel yourself being yourself
no matter how stupid you get
or how much of a failure you become.

Summer's almost over
School's about to start
You ain't here anymore
But I get to see you today
I hugged you tight
And almost squeezed the life out of you
But maybe I just really miss you... :(

How do I get to know thee?
You’re even more confusing as you can be
An ancient writing on a papyrus
Hard to decipher yet so clamorous

You’re a puzzling piece of picture
Yet so interesting to venture
Deception is who you are as you say
but you’re still you in every way

A logical dude
Who could most of the time be rude
A ******* gamer
Who has no interest in being a painter

A general, leader, commander
Who can sometimes be a disaster
Yet you are indeed a great person
Whom we could surely count on

How do I mend thee? You’re going to need some stitches
I can’t count those numerous scratches
Give me a needle and thread
I’m going to stitch you up from your toes to your head

As time goes by, you’ll soon be patchy
Yet you’ll still look elegant to me
An abstract of a human soul
You’re already broken yet still whole

You refuse to receive what I want to give
But all I want is for you to live
Nothing more, nothing less
I just want to offer you my best

These may be just shards of a broken glass
But let me fit them with yours and it shall shine with class

How do I sing a lullaby to thee?
You were the pied piper with music so alluring it lulled me
I was sent away into a deep sleep
I saw you as you slowly creep

I sat and played my favorite broken consort
Thy soul beats like it has come to its last resort
You follow the sound of my harp
As I dance to the rhythm of thy heart

Let each chord be the voice and it will speak
As I strum and let you hear what’s on the peak
I shall sneak a glance
To see if you’re already stuck in a trance

I pour my heart out in this little piece of devotion
Each note of my song is filled with so much emotion

How do I unravel thee? I shall figure you out
Whenever I see you, I just pout
You’re the numbers I can’t decipher
Your music’s similar to a pied piper

Thy voice lures me in unconsciously
A sweet sound of serendipity
That’s composed in an ancient writing
Written on a papyrus that’s so inviting

A puzzle with an abstract image
Even more complicated than a broken page
I focus on solving your deep logic
Wishing that I have such magic

They say you’re unfathomable
Because I am the only one who’ll be able

The way you laugh
The way we used to run
Our weird antics
Those laughter filled with so much joy
Our carefree personalities
Getting all hyped up
Being sweaty and all
Bruises and scars

They were all part of us
The way it used to be
It was what I called paradise
Sometimes when I don't feel sunny
I thank the Lord for letting me be there
Heaven if I must say

Life took such a sharp turn
Never have I imagined
That one day
It'll all vanish from my very eyes

It took me this long
For everything to sink in
For me to realize
That it is now what we call History

Up to now
Every now and then
I'd relive every moment
Every memory
Every feeling
I've experienced there
For even my soul cant forget

It has been carved into my very heart

I wonder when will everything feel right
When you're not out of my sight
I saw you today
as you passed by my way
All I can do is glance
I'm stuck in an endless trance
but I guess half of me is afraid
afraid to take the risk again
For I remember when
I took a leap of faith
and let myself feel what I wanted to create

My huge jump left me in pieces
gave my arms and legs numerous bruises
"Never again"

But will never last forever?

I have pondered about this for a while
and I don't know how or why
but every time I gaze upon your eyes
I could see your very soul

Your soul is calm unlike mine
troubled, confused, tangled, anxious

When I stare at your star-like eyes
the stillness of your entirety
radiates through out your whole body
and it infects me

I can feel the tranquility
as soon as the windows to my soul
falls upon yours

Once I start writing
I cant ever stop

Maybe that's just how it is
Our train of thoughts never comes to a halt

We continue to ponder
Among the wonder
The world has to offer

Never have I seen your purest smile
Nor see it shine

I don't know if it's just me
But I know I can see

Those eyes didn't glisten
Your lips have never widen

You always say that you're happy
But please stop pretending
Don't think of me so lowly
I can sense that you're lonely

It hurts to see you like this
But what else can I do?
You never wanted me to
Be that one who catches you

Up till now
I don't know how
I want you to show

The place i'd mend
To let you know that it's not the end

Just show me your broken pieces
I shall heal them with my kisses

I don't know... Why not?
Isolation is my only answer to all the fake things that has been happening... I can no longer stand people who give you sweet cheery pies with rat poison in it... I can no longer stand all those who smile so bright who hides the stench of their bodies.... I can no longer stand the people with willing faces who keeps their evil grins at bay... I can no longer stand this world full of lies but neither can I resist lying to make my self happy...

But why can't I make my own paradise with a group of people whom I've already proven worthy of my doubtful, worried, excited, down, exhausted, happy, hyped up self?

I guess there will be no such place but can you please bear with me even just this once and agree with me because I ran out of options... I chose to believe in forever instead...

I've done my part
Gave you some pieces of my also broken heart
But I guess you're the only one who can fix yourself
Pick up your story up from the shelf
And put an end
To the suffering you've been through
Cause I no longer know what to do

Try to find yourself first, I guess
Cause we can't even get a grasp of your arm
as we delve in deeper into your soul of a dark abyss

You picked up my broken pieces
I gazed upon your lovely eyes
Expecting you to put it back together
But you dropped and stomped on it
like the beast that you are

I keep on coming back to those days with you
Those moments I wish I could freeze and relive again
There was no regrets
Only an eternal bliss

To the past I dwell
These past few days I haven't been feeling well
I hope you're doing fine
cause even though ever since I fell
I'm the one suffering in this one heck of a hell
I still want you to be at peace and in complete harmony

Don't let your eyes deceive you,
you are seeing through a filter
not in every perception
and the truth wont show itself
unless it is being sought
not just with unreliable thoughts.

Ang sabi niya sakin "Bat ka pa maghahanap kung nandito lang naman ako?"

Edi syempre sumagot ako "Ikaw ba ang hinahanap ko?"

it hurts me to the core
to see your soul
bawling on the floor

let me send you the rays of the sun
I'll shoot those demons one by one

I always loved feeling your hug
Your sweet kisses upon my lips
The way you hold my hips
As we danced all night long
To our most favorite song

But as we go on
Your hugs felt like my skin was being pricked
Your kisses stung on my fragile lips
That once secure hold now felt like a very tight grip
Our once favorite melody turned into a horrible symphony

I wonder where all the sweetness and softness went
*Cause all I remember now is this huge scar upon my heart