You thought it was enough
but I saw through all the hullabaloo and fluff
You can't fool me the same way you did to them
I saw every loose hem
I've been observing brightly colored canvas
and I've smelled different kinds of grass
You could say that I already knew you before you do
I could feel the same as you

Maybe this is the special connection between two people hidden in the word "promise"
but I doubt you'd feel mine once it comes because you've never observed me the same way I have...

I'm sure I was certain
Since when did I think I was a burden
Could it be? That I didn't see?
What's happening to me?

Slowly getting unhinged
All these stuff
They're driving me nuts
Maybe I was just a klutz

But oh please
take me away from this unbearable cage
called my thoughts
where doubt is certain all over the four walls

I no longer know where I fit
Feeling like a splat of dirt in the middle of a picture
Like an unwanted dust over a highly expensive vase
That feeling of being a trash in such a clean place

It's driving me crazy
It's utterly familiar to me
I guess it's called *insecurity

He was a creeper
I was a late night sleeper
Every night
he'll be under my bed
While i'm trying to fix
the loose thread
At night I try
But whenever he drops by
**I just can't

Love doesn't have to be for a certain person
It can be for a group of people with an unknown reason

You make my suffering feel worth it
when I get to see you at the end of the day
I try to keep my problems, confusions and delusions at bay
I try to be okay
But I guess I really need to find a way
to keep all my monsters away

I'll just keep thinking that you will
always appear before me after the rain and after a tiring day
*I'll stare in awe as your serenity sinks into me and engulfs all of the world's cruelty

You made me think
That in just a blink

We'll always be angels
But with hidden devil horns

You made me think
That they were a bunch of morons

You made them look bad in my eyes
I was too doubtful of my own opinions
So I went with what you think
Even though inside,
It was killing me to be such a madness

I believed it was fine
Because you said so they were a bunch of ******
But in reality
You just cant accept who you guys were

Covering up for you impure souls
I was too naive
But my eyes opened itself
And saw every single thing

Now i'm aware who're the predators
They were walking with me side by side
It was a good thing I switched lanes
With that I saw the true and purest hearts

Never again will I enter that dark, mysterious, full of mischief of a forest
For I will never lose sight of the sun ever again

Behold my ****** beating heart
deranged from the day we became apart
It longs for your twinkling eyes
mirroring your vulnerable soul, I heave heavy sighs

In a dim-lit chamber
through the stairs, I clamber
I clasp my chest
melancholy runs over me the best
witnessing the past along the corridors
my eyes seek for the one my heart adores

Remembering the constellations upon your eyes
I whisper to myself, wonderful lies
Beaming with tears, I fondly held your portrait
pondering upon the thought that i can never be your mate

Come with me into the woods
Let's jump on leaves
unleash our catapults of feathers
Swing on vines and climb on tree tops
run around nature's maze
and *live our youth

You once told me how great the sky is.
I remember you mentioning how each star brings such a wonderful bliss.
I wonder when you'll see me shining brighter than them?
When will you notice how much i'm trying to stand out?
I badly wanted to be a shooting star that'll make your eyes shimmer with glee as you see me pass by while you make a wish but at the same time I want you to wish for me.

But all these are just my hallucinations because I know for a fact that you're too far for me to reach yet you're already bright enough for me to see.

You, the one looking for an ally
the one to whom I gave an alibi
It's just that I thought you didn't appreciate
all of the attention I gave when you needed to meditate
Because you didn't know how worried I was
during the past
when I thought our friendship would last
yet I was the one who cut it so fast
I wanted to get involved so badly
because I have felt what you're feeling, sadly
I am sorry for constantly being rude
but I guess you can just give me food
and I shall listen to your story in a cheery mood
I shall help you once again
you can tell me all the pain
so now don't you worry
I'll be here to help you carry
all the pain that is making you weary

We live in a world of bluff
There will never be enough
It has been tough

My only answer to the Deception
Is Isolation

They said "Forget about them""Move on""Accept your fate"
But how am I suppose to forget the people who made me feel like I belonged?
It was a place I've never been and can never live without
It's like finding your true love
but in my case,
I found my rightful place

*And I will never leave.....

It doesn't take much for me to remember you.*
*Just a glance at the starry night brings chills up my spine
and a clear image of you comes up in my mind.

A friendship like no other
If one may be a bother
They still treat each other
More like brothers
From different mothers

More or less, inseparable
Both so lovable

Got separated by lang and water
Still friends whenever, wherever

One stomped at the door
Then the other fell on the floor
They made up for sure
Friendship, stronger than before

Maybe it's time I step out of my shell
Cause every story that I unravel
To a new world I travel
So I grab my gravel
To seek for bones that are like a puzzle

Every mistake that I commit
And every wrong that I admit
New ideas emit
I always learn from it

You were that someone
When there was no one

Thanks for lending an ear
I almost shed a tear
Yet I didn't want to show fear

I was falling apart
Thanks for having a big heart

The support you gave
It was all that I crave

Those words of encouragement
They gave me enlightenment

During those days my mind was clouded
My head was shrouded

Here I give you
A poem that may posses being blue
But let me be true
I just wanted to THANK YOU...
:)

I slowly reached out for you
ready to say the words "I Love You"
then I suddenly awoke to the harsh reality
where not a glimpse of fantasy
can be found
cause your allegory is bound.

Maybe being an idiot
is what i'm good at
Cause showing my true feelings
would cause so much embarrassment

Rejection is also a factor
towards this feeling
that I can't ever tell

I don't know how to act anymore
thinking that you like someone even more
it just hurts my feelings
My heart gets broken more and more

I just wish I have enough courage
to tell you the way I feel
Without hesitation
and this feeling of infatuation

But maybe it is all in my imagination
That you and I may happen
I just wish I could tell you
straight forward

Cause the more I go on
the more it crushes my being

Maybe you are the reason why things are still undecided...

I don't want to leave you, she said
If I could, I'd stay forever but I can't

I wonder what's your reason
to commit such an act of treason
During the night
When the stars shine so bright
I love seeing your sleeping face
You're like a delicate antique vase
Why must your time with me have a limit?
Cause when the morning comes, he wakes you up in just a minute.
I try to make you stay
But you'll just say
If I don't go, there's going to be a huge price to pay.*

But who am I to question
even though I feel so much depression

For I'm just a futon
for you to lie on

The most beautiful and colorful
frogs are the most poisonous ones.

The most elegant flower
has the most numerous
thorns.

The prettiest smiles
hide the most evilest grins.

*So be careful who you bump into

What if our brains are just huge memory cards?
What if the reason why you're forgetful is because it is deleting stuff to make up space for other stuff?
What if you're brainy and the reason why you're forgetful of memories and blissful times is because your brain deleted them to make up space for memorizing academic related things?
Isn't that just so sad?

Don't ever make me think that I made the wrong choice by sticking with you through thick and thin because I might just leave one day and that'll leave you into thinking "why?"
and you'll never know the reason because you never did the effort to make me stay....

Sometimes I don't know if you're just naive
Or if you are doing this cause this is how you really are
But either way, what you are doing
Is not resulting to good
If you continue
The bond you created with us
Might just snap
And it might be late for you to save
So please try to fix the way you go
The way do
The way you talk
We wary the way you act
It isn't funny anymore
It hurts us more and more

Alam ko may problema
Pero wag ka masyadong mag alala
Kasi sobrang nakakairita
Ayoko nalang magsalita
Baka mahampas kita

Ako nalamang ay titingin sa kawalan
At magiisip ng mga bagay na walang katuturan
Kahit papano, pinagagana ko naman utak ko
Di sa paraang ako'y madedehado

Magbabasa nalamang
ngunit sa isang salita't ingay mo lang
baka di kita matiis at masampal kita harap harapan
kaya kung pwede lang
wag kang umaktong mang mang
na tila di mo maintindihan ang sino man

I don't get it
How the people I love the most
Could be the reason
To why my being wants to burst

This world full of tragedy
To the point when you'll feel raggedy
I don't know what's worst
Loving someone whom can never be yours
Or be loved nothing more than of a friend

Every night
i'd wait for a shooting star
and wish for you to be truly mine

Let your mouth speak the unspoken
Let your eyes explain the un-explainable
Let your mind think the unthinkable
Let your heart love the unlovable
Let your gentle hands cure the incurable
And let your faith make you result a *miracle

There's no need for deep words
and rhyming schemes
Just pour your soul out into this world
and let it do what it's told

*To express your sober thoughts

I can't explain
How it turned into an excruciating pain
I was just standing on a plain
Now I feel like rolling down from a mountain
Please take me on a train
And set free my tired brain

Why wont you fly
Up in the sky
We're just passing by

Make the most of your time
As you hear the bell chime
It may be the last verse of your rhyme

Tomorrow is unpredictable
A time we cannot be despicable
For we must treasure the unbelievable

Inspiration
When will you come to my IMAGINATION
I don't know what to write
Should I fly a kite?
Or maybe take a bite?
Or perhaps something about a fight.
But I want it to be about LOVE
that symbolizes two doves

Your first time doing something is the last time you do it for the first time....

My heart starts to race
whenever I see your face
This feeling that I can't contain
and my composure I can't maintain
For whenever you come near
redness on my cheeks start to appear
Just a glimpse of your entirety
leaves a smile on my face for eternity

Sa t'wing ika'y papalapit
Ilong ko'y umiinit
Please lang, kilikili mo'y **** ipit
Pahinge nga ako ng sipit
Ilong ko nalamang ang iiipit
Dahil pati mata ko'y namimilipit

I wish I'd just bawl
I wish I'd just cry out loud
I wish to just scream it all out
I wish to just let it pour like a waterfall

But maybe it's too much that not even a single drop comes out...
It's too much for my soul to bear that it can't produce a liquid called tear drop to clean my broken heart

I think I almost ran out of words
But maybe you're just one stubborn child
To whom I need to repeat everything to get it all into your hard knuckle head

Maybe it's gonna be worth it
Im still not giving up so why are you?
Neither you or I have found our answers
so why are you telling me everything's gonna be up to no use?
Why are you telling me you're useless?

I myself have thought almost the same telling myself "You can never be like them..." but I found my own voice speaking back to me telling me "One day you'll see... One day you'll gleam with glee..."

And now here I am... Not much achievements but I sure am quite satisfied

They say "Why would they get so involved in your life, care for you and make you feel so loved and then leave you as if you never existed?"

Haven't you asked yourself? Maybe it wasn't them. Maybe it was you. You didn't think they'd ever leave up to the point that you didn't care if you don't show them any love and care.

To top it all up you didn't give enough attention and importance that's why they felt as if you never really appreciated all of the things they've ever done.

I think it wont hurt to believe in something everybody doesn't even agree on because being different means maybe someday... something will change and go with the way everything you wanted it to be...

It was love at first sight
if it's possible,
Love at first bite

We live in two different worlds
never meant to clash together
a vamp who wanted my blood
a human who only ate "food"

But maybe we ain't different
maybe we are alike

For we both eat flesh
Tear down souls
and enjoy a refreshing red liquid

Maybe it was just us
thinking that you were the bad guys

Maybe we are just all the same

Maybe we were meant to be
*just not in this dimension