I know I know, it’s been a year since.... well yeah, lol. I been watching you on social media, working daily while being home alone. Sitting in the void, during quarantine, with nothing else to do. Besides play with your pets to keep yourself occupied. But I have one favor to ask. Because this has been heavy on my soul & my mind. However, I’m going to be blunt. I want to swing by your place, so we can reunite like old times. Take it nice & slow, steady, and patiently. Escape these dark days & wake up early morning as we watch the sunrise. I want to see you.
submerged in a cascade of cacophony, my pieces wade like fish, into semptember's silvery net so its plundering pull would heave them out from their misery, grant them purpose in the mouths of fortunes, that gobble them as delicacies; they wither, till my egg-fragile heart unravels itself, savors the warmth of the virgo sun, and hatches immaculately, into me.
You see my icy disposition but never questioned Is he as stone-cold as his eyes? Or is it all a lie? I have gotten good at masking all the damage I have gotten good at presenting the perfect package But underneath the visibility, you would see oceans of feelings You see the tip of the iceberg, my ego If you never dive in deep then you'll never truly know Who I am when I am alone or when I feel at home The scars underneath these modest clothes The tender warm waters birthing a rose For my prince charming that can melt my throes Waiting for the day I can really show Who I am without attack
guilt me like a cancer manipulate me like a taurus if i was the first verse, you’d skip to the chorus i tape glue and sew but you’re the one who tore us ripped me into pieces and i made myself something new i recognized myself you’re lost not knowing what to do play dumb like a pisces and lash out like a scorpio if you’d give me up for anything it would be half an oreo maybe four quarters or a dollar but you could never change had a heart for everyone but i was never in your range impulsive like an aires confusing like a gemini you my day 1 and i love you turns into there cant be a you and i you “never wanna make me cry” but can never keep your **** dry eyes red like im high you “never want to say goodbye” but the second things dont go your way you fly but you could never be the bad guy? act out like a capricorn stubborn like a leo how you beat yourself up but wanna be everyones hero? your double life is really a triple i should call you trio if ‘paid in full’ was my life you would be rico how my own girl crossed me? then made it my fault that she lost me? then told everyone she tossed me? don’t care like aquarius outted me like a libra you beat around the bush when i made it black and white like a zebra how i told you tell me the truth and you made up a story you cant lie on someone who loves you and bask in glory i paved the way for you and you act lost like dory and i still found you careless like sagittarius critic like a virgo how you tell me to “never leave” but you go? how you use the water you drained me of to grow you’re not who your instagram shows i see through you, commando you cant flex on me if you know what i know
some say they do not belong to a person to an object to a place or to anything. i, however, belong to the world. she [the world] that has taught me who i am who i want to be and who i do not want to be. i am a product of perfect successes and miserable failures [for i have been built by both] i am the difference between mistakes made and plain ignorance. i belong to the world that continuously shows me evil and terror and hatred and love and care and compassion. she has raised me to be a creation of something taken for granted and she is teaching me to not follow in her footsteps.
inspired by Abel Tesfaye [The Weeknd]'s "Belong To The World"