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465 · May 2021
m y . w o r l d (Pt.3)
xavier thomas May 2021
Wasted time and money on fake leaders  cause they got the best of me
All of my uncles help me back on my feet when they started investing in me
Gave all of the women and cousins praise for always protecting me
This black life is far worst than easy
Jump in the fire, feel these flames with me
459 · May 2024
Night shift 🥱
xavier thomas May 2024
Up again.
Can’t sleep well due to overthinking.
I guess.

1 min- I’m up watching tv, reading poetry, watching funny videos.

1 min- my body is shutting down, quick pass out,
phone in my hand slipping,
half asleep dreaming.

R&B plays
helping me dream better.

A rain storm
randomly appears,
singing its wrath through the skies
keeping me up, mannnn time is flying.

It’s not even supposed to rain tonight til Thursday.
It’s 3:30AM, yet, I swear it was just 2AM.
Alarm gonna go off soon.

If I think, God must be talking to me.
I need to go to bed
458 · May 2021
lil' mama
xavier thomas May 2021
Now as we sit, sip while smoke swisher sweets
Let me take you back in time
When I met my cherry plum with private benefit privileges
My college chick, cute Laos, do anything for me
Everyday we stay on campus, she made a house key for me
Drive me home after school to work, very supportive to me
Gave cash, ran my bath, clean clothes, a lot of love to me
Even tell her folks she at her girlfriend’s, when she staying with me
Jealous when another lady around, highly clingy under me
She a cutie, very ambitious, trying to be my “Mrs.”
Cooking bacon & eggs Saturday morning in my kitchen
Not to say I wouldn’t claim her as “Mrs.”, she deserve a chance
Her love for me is above me now, that’s out of my hands


                                                                                             Just saying
452 · Dec 2021
Master Plan (pt.3)
xavier thomas Dec 2021
big dream & grind
a player with odd circumstance
battle life with a game of chance
practice hard through the trails
you’ll be rewarded with a great big smile
be thankful for the past
life will change for you very fast
Oh, oh, oh, yeah…..
If the basketball could speak to me one-on-one…
Because it saved my life
452 · Oct 2021
#16
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#16
Dear God,

The other day I learned that I was not ready for marriage yet. I still have a few old doors that need to be closed in order to fulfill my promise. Not many, just a handful. I need to get my finances in check, as well as receive a better job. Work on my brand so I can quit my 9-5. (Boy I can’t wait for that day.)
Secondly, I need to continue to speak with you and my partner about us moving forward together. That this is not only what we both want, but what you want from us. That you approve our marriage or not.

November 2, 1990
Ask questions
449 · Feb 2022
Am I yours? (Pt.3)
xavier thomas Feb 2022
For awhile now,
i been thinking i came back into your life
as a friend and not a potential husband.
Simply because you needed a friend,
to help you get through whatever you’re truly battling that i'm not aware of.
Show you a different path where you can grow vs Chicago.
Leave the pass behind for good and be truly happy somewhere else without worry about
what others may want from you
or feel like you’re being used.
Even though you pushed me away, I still love you
446 · Apr 2021
Run to
xavier thomas Apr 2021
Now where did you hide to, hide to?
I think I just spotted you boo
And I see you smiling, smiling
Only a matter of time before I catch you

Where did you hide to, hide to?
I think I just spotted you boo
And I see you smiling, smiling
Only a matter of time before I catch you

I promise to protect you day and night
I promise to help you grow a healthy mind
I promise to cheer on, when you cry
I promise I’ll fight for you, love

Now where did you hide to, hide to?
Only a matter of time before I catch you
Just my child & I
443 · Nov 2019
Sensitivity(pt.5)
xavier thomas Nov 2019
Rubbing your shoulders
While stroking your curly hair,
Your cherry kiwi scent
has me walking on thin air.
I softly push up against you,
The sweet melanin skin
Letting you feel me as I feel you
As a chuckle comes out and I begin to grin.
Happy to be your Companion
My life, my half, my best friend.
Because love tonight has been delightful
I don’t want this to end
story about a couple going to the park + 5 senses of the human body
443 · May 2021
m y . w o r l d (Pt.2)
xavier thomas May 2021
Pray today death don’t stand next to me
Don’t place that on my worst enemy
But enemy watch how you address me
I’ll disrespect you respectfully
Don’t ever try to play with my worth
Or these holy hands will replace your legacy
Put your attitude to bed restfully
Give your demeanor a new remedy
434 · Oct 2021
Dancing Machine
xavier thomas Oct 2021
starting @ the top of the key

two cones. one at the 3-point line to the right. one at the free-throw line to the left.**

(Cross-over right to left; spin-move left to right; gather myself, **** fake, lay-up)
2x

(Between the legs right to left; cross-over left to right; jump shot)
2x

(Spin move right to left; behind the back left to right; lay-up)
2x

(Behind the back right to left; between the legs left to right; floater)
2x

(Step-back right to left; inside out cross; dunk)
432 · Feb 2022
Play me for keeps ❤️
xavier thomas Feb 2022
the attitude upon on your face
intense pressure coming my way
lowkey, feeling it too

my heart, I know you want it
battling me on this court for it
trying to get me to see your point of view

maybe it’s the drive
maybe it’s the ambition
burning desire you showcasing within you

this is overwhelming
I see your affection
play against me, show what you can do

we should
compete a little
play a little
bet who wins against who
if you
score a little
defend a little
and win, my heart will belong to you
come play me
429 · Sep 2022
Blogs
xavier thomas Sep 2022
You were the one hitting my line, throwing me signs, trying to catch my attention. Then I give you the time of day, & now you’re unsure???? Stop being indecisive🙄😑
428 · Mar 5
Young Poor & in Love
Heal through my love & I promise you forgiveness.
Keep your temple strong, but your mental stronger for me.
Intimately connecting my soul onto …

Love yours
428 · Mar 2021
Relatives
xavier thomas Mar 2021
Where’s your faith for me?
Where’s all that energy transferring from you to me?
What ever happened to
“I believe in you Zay”
“Let’s go Zay”
“Praying for you Zay”...
It’s so funny how I can cheer you on in your darkest hour
When your light becomes dimmer & dimmer into the pitch black void
When your demons surround you in your bedroom attacking you in your dreams.

I can lead us in prayer & God, himself, gives us power to overcome obstacles together.

Yet, when I’m down
I receive a closed mouth full of sand & a mind of emptiness from you.
You are only here to absorb energy
427 · Apr 2023
Peace- Piece?
xavier thomas Apr 2023
Is it peace
or a piece
that you desire from me?
Peace- loving grace from me
Piece- taking my light from me
421 · Jun 2023
Default Triggers
xavier thomas Jun 2023
Sometimes
Idk how to tell you how I’m feeling
Because I’m so use to
Giving the default response
-“ I’m doing good & you?”
Your words, not my actions
416 · Jan 2024
Reckless
xavier thomas Jan 2024
Just talk to me nice now, baby,
ohhhhh

Take me to the edge , connection til the end

Got me thinking this life is truly worth livin’

In my feelings like, oh my, time is really on our side

Baby, I can not breathe,
without your love next to me,
ohhh
Baby, I can not breathe.
Definitely no, ohhh

I’m just reckless like you are
I’m just reckless like you are


Hmm, make me love again,
just

You made feel love again, oh

Your actions deeply talk
as
you communicate your thoughts
ohh

You’re the only one I desire towards, darling, mmm
I desire to pleasure your every need, babe
Place your love all on my faith
Let me mend your heart, my darling

Everything I’ve done, you’ve done, it shows
Goal is to make you feel right at home
There’s no need to ever feel alone
Now let’s  grow together in this brand new home, baby

You won’t feel alone, won’t just feel alone, baby, oh

I won’t make you feel alone, won’t make you feel alone, lady
Make you feel at home, baby

You’re the only one , you know
You’re the only one , you know
408 · Jul 2018
“Mmm mmm mmm”
xavier thomas Jul 2018
I wonder…
What it is like to be in your shoes?

To know that there’s a gifted soul among us is truly astounding
Makes me curious of your inner rose that has yet bloom to its full potential

A delightful view of quality skin
A smile that holds great value
Or perhaps a voice that sails 1000 ships at command;
Simply beautiful

The pleasure of knowing your existence
An angel with a bright halo
Has been blessed with pure beauty

Capability of attracting others
with your charm is unexplainable
Like falling in love, which is unforgettable

Extraordinary star work:
Sparks shooting upward; shape shifting into star never vanishing away
Light shines so bright it suppresses through the clouds
A kiss of sunshine will always brighten another angel’s day

Reminiscing a vision of bliss

I wonder…
408 · Mar 2022
After the game #mad
xavier thomas Mar 2022
-Let me tell you why I was mad, bruh
-Fans are always pushing for more than enough
-Rumbling their voices during games and such
-So i burn their opinions through this blunt
-We give it our all, even when it is rough
-Earlier, that’s why my anger was build up
-Sometimes those voices get to my head, thinking to much
-So I get high to let it go, let it go, let it go
Conversation:
heart to heart- soul to soul- brother to brother
~one man to another🏀
402 · May 2021
m y . w o r l d
xavier thomas May 2021
Life and sins have been compromised
Depression is heavily energized
Swing my temple here side-to-side
Given will power, I can’t associate myself over this thing called suicide
On this battlefield, fighting with myself, trying to not make Jesus cry
400 · Jul 2018
Blooming Flower
xavier thomas Jul 2018
-Roots:
Standing independently perfect,
Mastery of nature.
Connecting with nature’s health,
No fear in danger.

Keeping the glow from sunshine,
Glimmer in color essence.
Growing into your petals,
Spiritual aura of mystic presence.

Each one begins to open,
Bound to a limitless thrive.
Being the only one of its kind,
Happily fighting to survive.
-Prowess:
400 · May 2021
Fatigued
xavier thomas May 2021
i’m not your supporter
that you can just mooch on
nor call to attend to your every need
398 · Sep 2021
When Flesh Roams the Earth
xavier thomas Sep 2021
I’m a…

Middle-class sinner, athlete village breadwinner.
The man in the mirror is a sweet smooth operator.
Too unique in my skin cause “Black Lives Matter.”
A young discipline brotha, who one day will meet his maker.

A “Chi-Town” Legend; south side lands are what I represent &
Against all odds, I battle victorious as a strong veteran.
Never threaten, but these quick lightning hands will do some holy damage .
Cause I come from where God’s from, the pearly gates of Heaven.
398 · Sep 2022
Ms. Indecisive
xavier thomas Sep 2022
It’s not fun
reinsuring
my position with you,
looking from my view,
when those feelings
became one sided.

It’s not fun
accepting
those false facts about how
you’ve done a full 360 change,
not realizing
you’ve fallen back into the same space.

It’s not fun
watching
you go back and forth
with your state of mind
when you simply can’t
decide on what you want.
398 · Sep 2022
“Put Money On It!”
xavier thomas Sep 2022
Two good friends : JJ & B
both battling one-on-one.
A $100 bet on the line.
Who’s the better big man
on the court at the park?
Score is tied, 7-up, game point for either one.
Things get chippy down to the wire.
Trash talking, cussing,
elbows thrown, emotions high,
people commentating the sidelines.
“Game! Money time!”- is called after scoring the last bucket on JJ part.  

Until B refuses to pay.
From one man to another,
pride and ego is in the way, *** rushing the arena, causing havoc.
Brawl almost break out, one-time is called,
crowd scatters like roaches away from the sky lights as sirens flash below.
From one man to another,
lack of accountability was held from this bet.
392 · May 2020
Shower 🚿
xavier thomas May 2020
I vision you here, in this hot shower with me.
Washing your body down with Dove Soap.
Creating circular motion on your chest as you smile,
while I grab your waistline.
Feeling all over your back
arms
kissing your stomach &
touching places I know I shouldn’t.

Temperature rises, the air is foggy.
I hear your voice in the mist whispering my name.

This moment is so surreal ,
until the phone rings on the counter.

& then I open my eyes,
turn off the shower,
realizing my mind is playing tricks on me.
--Close your eyes--
383 · Sep 2020
My hands
xavier thomas Sep 2020
My hands were never created to be put on a woman.
Unless I was ready to make love to you

My mouth is not made to lash out,
Simply uplift you from depression. You matter

My eyes are not to wander.
Just to see you in my life

My ears must not hear evil.
But to hear you sing lullabies at night

My actions are not meant to plant seeds in
every woman I see.
Only in your garden, my seeds will grow in strong soil, you’ll see.

My mind is not designed for manipulation.
Seek wisdom so that we become closer because knowledge is power

My soul is not corrupt.
It serves a purpose that will inspire you
I serve a purpose
372 · Dec 2021
#35
xavier thomas Dec 2021
#35
Dear God,

Man I’m tired of this toxic trait going around.
Why am I always being pushed away in the end every time someone catches my attention?
I’m just tired of feeling abandoned after putting efforts into a new relationship.
I mean it’s like the new norm & seems to be ok to push folks away when it’s actually not. I may not know what people go through all the time, but please keep them away from me. I’m done feeling hurt after I caught feelings for someone, while planning a future. High expectations.
It makes me question if it’s even worth giving someone new a chance now-a-days.
Please help.

December 11, 2022
Ask questions
369 · May 2024
That reason is
xavier thomas May 2024
Becoming her life
After the hard aches
Brought back
Those inspiring eyes


God gave her a soul with life
Jesus gave her a heart with faith
Parents gave her a home with siblings
I gave her a world with commitment
364 · Sep 2022
Moving On….
xavier thomas Sep 2022
Dear Hater,
Continue to take lead in the path of destruction while I’ll continue to take lead in the path of success 🤞🏾
362 · Apr 2020
Untitled
xavier thomas Apr 2020
Work on you brand God intended for you.
Focus building a team with the same goals as you.

Become an asset with your spouse who believes in your creativity.
Don't come around if you're only a liability.

Key to success is faith, focus, & being fierce.
Not a "9-5" job that includes a 4-year degree.

At the end of the day,
It really is what you know & who you know that becomes important.
Pay attention to all signs & don't forget this message in the morning.
You are way to valuable. Change your life the way you want it to be by any means necessary
All eyes on you
357 · Feb 2023
As you are
xavier thomas Feb 2023
You don’t feel loved cause
YOU DON’T FEEL LOVE
349 · May 2021
Affected
xavier thomas May 2021
It's f-k up
that I can be submissive
to your every need

Yet, you struggle being submissive for me
346 · May 2024
Say you love me
xavier thomas May 2024
Say you loved me for me
Yet, I’m being deceived
Place my faith on false dreams
Then you play me & flee

I’m just tired of playing your games for sure
Froze my heart for sure
Took this “L” like a fool
Became a dog cause of you
Love, i don’t want you no more
Someone will replace you for sure

No more, no
No more, no

Oh I bet
You’re regretting it now
I know you wish
You treated me different now (2x)

Want me back as your boo
A toy to re-use
Desperate like a fool
Karma’s cruel now to you

But I’m just tired of playing your games for sure
Froze my heart for sure
Took this “L” like a fool
Became a dog cause of you
Love, I don’t want you no more
Someone will replace you for sure

No more, no
No more, no

Oh I bet
You’re regretting it now
I know you wish
You treated me different now (2x)
339 · Mar 2022
#46
xavier thomas Mar 2022
#46
Dear God,

I’m trying to get her off the market so no one else picks her.
She’s too valuable to give up.

Lifetime Limited Edition

June 22,  2013
336 · Apr 2020
Explore pt.1
xavier thomas Apr 2020
You might be the one, you might give me excitement
We could be forever just don’t keep me waiting
Baby, feeling all your vibes, maybe to much of it
Kiss me how you want, you can take control of it
Why don’t we take a trip around the world, we can visit Paris
Don’t worry about your girls, they may get crazy jealous
Or I can take us on a cruise, it would be fun, wouldn’t it?
Know that it’s just us, & there is no replacement babe
xavier thomas Jun 2020
Police brutality is a huge factor
Continue to move forward & never look backwards
I pray for loved ones in 2020 that we lost
Fighting for equality like me no matter the cost
Police tells us nobody is above the law
Yet kneeling on your neck, staring you down as if they’re God
My weapon is my fist & my 45
I assure you I will protect my family & what is mine

Police brutality is a huge factor
Killing blacks one-by-one like we don’t matter
Rioters riot while protesters are beaten in the news
Cops speak in codes, waiting on a signal from their superior just to execute
Trying to survive 2020 dog, somehow
Praying racism will be gone so our color can bloom now
Being black in America is beautiful in my eyes
Keep chanting “BLACK LIVES MATTER” no matter what, & everything will be alright
329 · Oct 2019
Who am I
xavier thomas Oct 2019
"X"-is for xenial, how friendly am I face-to-face
"A"-is for adorable, I'm handsome in the first place
"V"-is for valuable, which I happily exercise
"I"-is for invincible, I can not tell a lie
"E"- is for elite, I know you love this flow
"R"-is for rare, upon you I'll bestow
My name is Xavier a.k.a Sweetness...and I came to say, "Hello"
323 · Nov 2024
My Daddy’s Sins
xavier thomas Nov 2024
Everyday, I ask myself:

“Is 20-30 minutes ⏰
of my pleasure
worth more than eternity? ♾️”
Carrying My Daddy’s Sins
322 · Feb 2020
CHANCES
xavier thomas Feb 2020
You wanna hang with the kid?
Well come through, I’ll be waiting for you.
I know you can’t say no to me cause I can’t say no to you.
Don’t be indecisive, be delightful.
Take your time & I’ll let you in.
Don’t pretend nor hesitate, keep that confidence.
Come take a chance with me.
I’m your lover cause I can deliver.

You ready to take this ride?
Chicago Boy
320 · Oct 2021
#29
xavier thomas Oct 2021
#29
Dear God,

When is enough “enough” for you?
We (your creation) have sinned, cast stones, apologize for our actions, been forgiven, felt good, then repeated the same cycles for centuries to come.
So again I ask, when is enough “enough” for you?
Or you love us that much, hoping we’ll finally get the message.


February 14, 1989
Ask questions
319 · Dec 2020
Love Making
317 · Jun 2020
Represent Change
xavier thomas Jun 2020
YOU WILL HEAR US 👂
YOU WILL SEE US👀
YOU WILL RESPECT US✊🏾
PERIOD.
I want change so my kids can live in peace, better than I am right now
316 · Nov 2020
Take me there
xavier thomas Nov 2020
Touch me like it’s the first time

Touch me like it’s our last

Touch me like this is forever

Touch me like we moving to fast
316 · Nov 2021
Dear Trash Fans
xavier thomas Nov 2021
Who do you think you’re talking to?
Did you forget i’m human to?
Where did all your morals go? Or
were you born with ignorant stupidity.

To many times you cross the line
insulting racial slurs towards athletes
getting all sensitive, losing your mind.
Objects thrown, emotions shown
among the crowd time after time,
like how could you be so heartless?
What about being spit at on the court,
maybe the organization should have you fined
and banned for life from events.

Just because you bought tickets
to watch us play, doesn’t give you
the right to say nor do whatever
you want towards athletes.
This may be entertainment to you
but this is our career, our life, our job,
our occupation- to win games.
315 · Nov 2021
#31
xavier thomas Nov 2021
#31
Dear God,

Tonight I sin lying in bed.
As I fall asleep, a force begins to press pressure on my chest. Pushing me down into my bed. Attacking me with no warning signs. Trying to terrify me. I feel myself beginning to wake up; however, I can not open my eyes for some odd reason. So I panic with each second that goes by. Until it randomly stops. The pressure disappeared from thin air, and I open my eyes breathing real hard.
I don’t know what happened, but if that was you sending someone to come protect me that night,
Thank you.

April 24, 2018
Ask questions
313 · Apr 2022
Money talk
xavier thomas Apr 2022
our mouths talk checks,
what our pockets can’t cash.
Mr. KS
311 · Mar 2021
Diary 📔
xavier thomas Mar 2021
She always had an opinion

About the men she choose to entertain.

For her I’m one in a million

In her diary, I fit the description.

However; she can’t help but continue to

Run back to the villain who caused her pain

Because that’s the only man she’ll listen to.

She’s well educated, sophisticated, & independent

Yet, highly brilliant in being ignorant in choices.

A slave to her own prison

Who knows no boundaries to the poor decisions

Being made or how it’ll affect her condition.

Causing separation from soul to flesh or

Flesh to soul that’ll keep her head spinning

Minute after minute.

Eventually, those diary standards will vanish.

She will lose sight in that vision.

And that man [who’s me] will be re-wrapped

Like a gift, given to a new woman

Who will treat me like I’m her one in a million.
Blue Dreams
310 · Dec 2019
BLACK MAN
xavier thomas Dec 2019
Brave
Legacy
Accepted
Cherish
Knowledge

Mature
Attractive
Natura­l
307 · May 2020
What am I reaching for?
xavier thomas May 2020
Is it finally time to start a family with the woman of my choice?
Someone with class that treat others with respect?
Who, one day, will carry my offspring.
Teaching our sons how to become Kings & our daughters to evolve into Queens?

Is it me trying to get recognized for my accomplishments?
A young black man, age 26, hustling for what's mine for the taking?
Surpassing my limits, accept new challenges, place my awards on the wall.
Prove my worth to the world.

Is it money or fame?
To be able to buy a brand new car? Or purchase a new house this year for mom?
Maybe get on TV & tell my story of how I survived.
Perhaps give wisdom or confidence to the next generation.
-Just My Thoughts-
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