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 54° 
Chloe
I have
been sober
for about
8 months.
Go me.
 47° 
The Non-Poet
life is like
when you're
a little kid
and you
discover that
there is more
than twenty-four
crayons in the box
that there is
the possibility
of forty-eight colors
of sixty-four
of one-hundred and twenty
that there are
so many shades
of love and anger and peace and despair
and absolute bliss
and the ability
to express them all
are now
in the palm
of your hand

life is
colorful
beautiful
thought-provoking
lovely
soulful
heartbreak­ing
inspiring
and absolutely wonderful

every day is
a new sunrise
a new chance
to transform into
the butterfly you
want to be

go out there
and change the world, kid
 28° 
matthew
unspoken words,
years of silence

it is time
to spread my wings

to embrace;

i am transgender
 25° 
Ashly Kocher
My name is Ashly (yes spelled without
the E)
I was born without a windpipe and was 3 months premature.
I underwent surgery for a tracheostomy and died on the operating table.
I was revived.
I was hooked up to many machines and my parents were told I wouldn’t live for more then 3 days...
If I would survive more then 3 days I would be hooked up to machines my whole life and be in a “vegetative state”
Doctors told my parents and family “I would never live to see my 18th birthday.”
I lived in the hospital for almost 2 years.
At age 2, I myself, ripped out my tracheostomy (which could have killed me)
My family rushed me to children’s hospital and the doctors decided to let the hole in my neck close and see what happens.
My doctors don’t know how I made it through the night or days after.
I went home after a couple weeks and that’s when I started living my life as a “normal” child.
All of my sisters were involved in dance classes, my parents( doctors didn’t agree) enrolled me in to classes.
        THATS WHERE MY LIFE CHANGED
Dance became my passion, along with gymnastics and musical theatre.
Something my family, doctors or even myself never thought I would EVER do.
On my 18th birthday it was a mixture of emotions.
I made a milestone that no one said I would ever see.
I competed in dance and gymnastics until I was 19 years of age as well as did over 60 musicals at my local theatre company.
I never thought I would ever have a boy love me because I had “too many problems” or even get married for that matter.
Fast forward, I am now almost 33 ( June .11th is my birthday)
Married for almost 8 years to my best friend.
Happy doesn’t even cover what I feel everyday waking up next to my love.
We may not have a “family” of our own but we are happy and in love over the moon with one another.

So why did I just ramble on with this?
Because I’m a MIRACLE and a SURVIVOR.
Even though I don’t remember much from my childhood and what I and my family had to endure, I have been fighter since my first breath.

I’M A SURVIVOR and I’VE MADE IT....
Just a little insight to my story. I left out some details but y’all get the idea. Hope this helps to feel why I write and my story.
 15° 
Nylee
Wrapped in silk and satin
she has been waiting
long.
She doesn't expect him
not anymore, but habit
stays.
She nor grins,nor frowns
standing at the end of her lawn
alone.
The day count lost numbers,
lost many days and slumber
hours.
Hope faded, love went,
only she stayed
so far
.
 15° 
KMH
You can pretend
That the black gloss
On my lashes
Will glue my eyes shut-
Make me blind to truth;
To ‘true knowledge.’
Go ahead.
Tell yourself
That my red-painted lips
Only spout nonsense.
It will only make it sweeter
When my wing-lined eyes
Give you whiplash
as I walk past you
To get my degree;
My award;
My paycheck.
Maybe if you’re ‘nice’
I’ll buy you an ice pack.
feminist makeup
© KMH 2018
 13° 
The voice
I stand in the middle of the room
My classmates are commanded to listen to me
I am the 14th person to present and so far, everyone has done a good job

I stand in the middle of the room
I begin to saw the name of my project
“My Poem”
I cannot remember what it was about
I do remember, what I felt

I stand in the room,
Hoping that everyone feels what I felt when I was writing it
I felt excited, my stomach had ‘butterflies’ I think
I felt the heat in my heart and the cold on my shoulders.
I felt the tingles all over my body, and the air escaping me

I stood in the middle of the room
I stand in the middle of the room
I was in the middle of the room and said
“My poem”
I heard a chuckle.

I ignored it because the ‘in love’ heart in my chest was more excited than It should have been
I continues and my voice began to play tricks on me
And the r’s rolled and the words were suddenly in another language
My mind still ignored it and continues
Because I felt I could write, and read this and everyone could love it

I stood in the middle of the room,
I waited for the, applause, the smiles, the congrats, or even a simple ‘good job’ like everyone else
Instead…
My teacher said, work on pronunciation. She said it again. Pro-noun-ci-a-tion
Ok. ‘Work on grammar.’ ‘Work on sentence structure’
“Work on being American” the chuckle said
Or the person who chuckled?

It didn’t mean much, you know
I loved writing so much that it did not matter
I would be a writer, I would continue to
STAND in the middle of the room and share my talent
And when I did, he chuckled
She chuckled, I was Mexican

Not a writer. Writers can’t be Mexican
Unless you write in Spanish and in Mexico
But I was too American for that at this point…

SO the next time I wrote I was ashamed,
Maybe if someone else wrote my writing?
But it didn’t matter,
When the teacher began reading,
The chuckle reminded the class it was the ‘Mexican’ who wrote it

“Mi nina” My mom would say
She reminded me that no only was I Mexican
I was a woman,
Only men thrive in this world
I believed it
And that is why my name is ‘The Voice’
Not my actually name,
Disclosure: I accept criticism on how to better my writing
NOT on what to write or on my background
Thanks, for a lesson I will never forget:

I make my own destiny!
 12° 
Ugo Victor
I can't sleep
Everytime I remember your words
They snap and recoil
And hurt me awake
Next time when someone
Promises me forever
I'll just smile
Look them in the eyes and ask
How long is forever to you.
 12° 
Chloe
Like an old friend inviting you to come inside.
Familiar. Comforting.
It will grasp you in its arms and hold you close;
And when you're ready to leave, it wont let you go.
You will beg and plead to be happy,
and it will put up a fight.
It will make you think that the only way to escape it is to take your own life.
If you are lucky, you can break free;
and it will sit and watch you from afar.
Calling your name.
Welcoming you back into it's arms.
It will intrude your thoughts.
Make you think you are worthless.
That you're better off dead.
Just keep telling yourself that it's all in your head.
Keep moving. You will get far.
Depression is not who you are.
DISCLAIMER: This is only from my personal point of view and how my battle with depression has been. Even though I am trying to recover, the battle gets very difficult for me sometimes and I have to remind myself that I am not my mental illness. My mental illness does not define me.
 12° 
Diya
I am now braver than thee,
Not a frightened coward anymore.
My heart has turned into an oak tree,
Rigid enough to deal with a carnivore.

The nightmares are friend of mine,
Building power in me after every wake.
More adrenaline is now secreted by my endocrine,
Making me ready to fight even with a venomous snake.

Wanna know secret to my rejuvenation?
The answer may turn you blue.
Still, listen to my citation
I am brave cause I've dealt with a predator like you.
This is just a fictional write...
Thanks for reading ❤
 10° 
AS
Disprove your foundations,
Prove your strengths.

Show them how you can grow,
Even all through the unbalance you've known.

Show them how far you can go,
Opportunities all earnt.

Show the power from the inside,
Claiming it with pride.

Proving after doing everything to survive.

That you're more than living,
Just to stay alive.

Achievement in growing from the tradgey and pain.

Achieving reaching the middle of the maze.

Make the past a haze,
Move forward,
To shock and amaze.

Remember the hardships were a phase,
Preparing strength for better days.



© 2018

Abigail Sheard
 9° 
Stella F
I do not fear the darkness that reside inside of you.

I have sat outside the gates for years listening to the whispers, the screams

I, your fearless warrior queen, waiting obediently for you to open the gates

Hear my war cry, and when the time is right
you can let me in to fight
I always try and explain this to people,
I am not a break down the walls to come and save you type of women,
But I am always there waiting and ready when you need me to fight alongside you. In a sense this is what I want as well, I don't need someone to save me, I want someone to fight with me when the time comes
 9° 
Nylee
Will I find you
in the shadows
looking over me
Will there be you
or it is just the continuation
of recurring hallucination.

It is getting trickier
to place you between
the imaginary and real you
both out to mess around me
your madness is catching me
the shady creature
filling my head space.

Manipulative ways
simply tracking my businesses
connecting into the web
stalking at all time
triggering an all kind
paranoia.

Invading in was easy
but the red light is on
between the scenes
the mask flew away
true colours will come out.

Holes in your plans
aren't as visible to you
the green figures
through the night vision
has come to play too
this exposure to the truth
keeps me sane
you got a new player
in this game.

I am counting the days
waiting for you in the shadows
to watch you
fall into your traps.
 7° 
Meera
You’re not a poet because you know those ‘fancy’ words
You’re a poet because every word you write comes straight from your heart

You’re not a poet because people admire your work
You’re a poet because you write for your own contentment and not for people's consent

You’re not a poet because you feel alone
You’re a poet because pen and paper are your biggest companions

You’re not a poet because you understand emotions better
You’re a poet because you let them flow freely

You are not a poet because you’ve failed in love
You’re a poet because you’ve been in love deeper than anyone else

You’re not a poet because you are strong
You’re a poet because you don’t hide your weaknesses

You’re not a poet because you can heal hearts
You’re a poet because you know what it means to be broken
Dedicated to all the poets here. I feel happy to be a part of the community.
 6° 
AS
It snaps,
It bites,
All whilst the body tightens
.

Alarming how it frightens,
Loosing sight of what is right
.

Hit by delusion,
Creating at times devastating confusion
.

At times it subsides,
In these moments the sun can rise
.

A week,
A day these normalities drift away
.

Unable to display the faith or usual insight.

Lucky these moments do not dominate,
Refusing for this to be my fate.


Anxiety attacks,
But with force and practice it retracts
.

Days are needed to submit,
Loosing a few battles to score and overall win the war.


Anxiety you will not absorb,
The bubbling cannot afford to control or to continuously floor the inner core.


The tactics at command,
Each corner to surprise and end the Reign in defeat.


You may attack,
But a warning I'll always fight back.


© 2018

Abigail Sheard
Since I've recovered/my PTSD has subsided, anxiety has played a large role in my life.
With mindfulness and a lot of coping mechanisms, I've been able to manage the flares. Turning flares into a few days or a week at max, instead of being dominate for months.

It may not seem much, but feeling in charge and seeing the improvements offers so much hope.

My hope is that everyone finds a way to tackle and fight their inner demons.
Anything is possible, just takes a lot persistence and **** of a lot of strength.
 6° 
andromeda green
Are you okay?
Are you alright, are you fine, are you good?
Are you adequate, are you decent?
Are you emotionally stable, sleeping without crying, smiling because you want to?
Are you breathing without questioning, are you waking up without trying, are you eating without throwing up?
Are you reading this poem right now and thinking no?
Are you thinking for the first time, will I ever be okay?

You will be okay.
You will be alright, you will be fine, you will be good.
You will be adequate, you will be decent.
You will be emotionally stable, you will sleep without crying, and smile for the happiness blooming inside of you.
You will breathe without questioning, you will wake up to a new day, you will eat easily
You
are going to be okay.
So please smile sunshine
It’s a fine new day
To be okay :)

- a.g.
just a reminder that everything gets better folks. please, please hang in there. i believe in each and one of y'all.

UPDATE: thank you so so so much for 7.9k. the overwhelming amount of comments and messages and loves make me feel so happy to spread this poem. thank you.
 5° 
Elizabeth C
Sometimes I think about you
And when we were together...
I think about how ****** I was. How I could have done things differently.
I regret the way we ended.

Because I wish I had given you more ****.
I think about how I laid down and took your lies with no backlash.
I wish I had realized how unhappy I was sooner.
You were unhappy, too, but you decided to cower from reality for 6 months.

I think about how you distracted me with presents,
Using sweet nothings you didn’t believe as the bow.
We stayed together only because you hadn’t gotten laid yet.
I was your almost ***** paid with false affections.
I think about how we should’ve broken up sooner.
How I was ****** to not notice the signs that you were checked out.
Or that I was checked out.
All we did was annoy each other,
But we covered it up with “I love you”s and kisses.

I mean how could I not fall for you. We had so much in common.
We both liked choir and anime.
We both loved you too much sometimes.
And we both hated ourselves because of you.
You gave us both new insecurities.

Oh and the effects you had on me.
You made me question my feelings for you for the 3rd time,
After having me help you date my friends.
You convinced me I was the only reason you hadn’t killed yourself,
So I was scared to expose either of us to this.
You made me feel like I would only be good enough if I did everything you talked me into.
You carved out my insides so that I’d feel empty without you.

And then you left.
And I believed I was as broken as you had made me feel for the last year.
I thought I wasn’t good enough.
Perhaps I wasn’t.
Because I wasn’t your *****.
Because I didn’t fix mistakes you didn’t bother to tell me about.
Because I wasn’t a mind reader.

But guess ******* what.
I don’t regret anything.
I avoided your school and met the love of my life.
I built myself up from the remains you crushed under your shoe.
I learned from mistakes I made that nobody told me about.
I became a woman from the girl you manipulated.

So yes, I still think about you.
But not in the way you think.

Because why would I ever think about you,
Other than to remind myself how lucky I am to not have you in my life
Anymore.
 4° 
AS
Strength in the way we invent,
   To splendour in our achievements.


No longer the reaping of belief!

                                               Confusion!

Delusion!

                     The insecurities fighting
                                                 through!


The fire inside,
Mightily spinning,
Flooring expectations.


          Following our own set of rules,
                      Becoming the true truth.


Transcending out of our youth,
Travelling miles,
In moments travelling mentally a lifetime.


                         Today is where it starts,
                                Authentic to bloom.


Swaying away from the others who stray.

                                            The boxers,
                          Lost in a world of labels,
Disabled from what they've remained,
          To continue the lacking game.


Sprung free,
This life is not what you need.


           No satisfaction to this slippery
                                                          grease­,
                                  A body growing old,
     A mind misdirected and betrayed.


In your way,
Divert your gaze,
Away from the same.


          Accepting the strange ways that
                                                         appear,
                          But once you get in gear,
                              Let your soul appear.


A complete,
A connection to the right direction ignored.


     To be what you've always meant
                                                             to be,
                                            A controversy,
                                                The heat.


Beats living a life in which depletes,
Creating defeats.


                             Take hold of destiny,
                                                          Unpin,­
                            An essence not in grief,
                But retrieving what it seeks.


© 2018

Abigail Sheard
About being yourself no matter the expectations of life you shatter, be what makes you happy.

X
 4° 
Brianna Love
You think you’ve broken me down
that I’ll never stand again,
you think with hateful words
you’ve landed the big win.
So you think you know me…
I’m a pushover because I’m kind
don’t underestimate,
I actually have a powerful mind!
You don’t know the whole of it
and never, you truly will,
unlike you, I could never hurt another
out of hatefulness or thrill!
You are powerful with judgment
and you think you give a great show,
so go ahead, pick up that rock
give it a good hard throw!
But, remember this sweetheart
actually, it’s something you should know,
karma pays back in triple
YOU REAP WHAT YOU SOW!
I’d tread a little more lightly
if I were YOU,
all that hatefulness you put out
well, eventually darlin,
that bills gonna come due!
~
This Is Dedicated To My Troll With Love!
Merry Christmas!!
 4° 
AS
To dream,

To feel,

To learn how to truly deal.

To get past the point of reprieve,

To move forward through numerous

Fields.

The hope to carry forward,

No longer plodding along and now

Appealing to what I feel.

No longer life is wrong,

I've found the niche,

The place where I belong.

As now ambition is in gear,

To the new path,

To home.


© 2018
Abigail Sheard
 4° 
AS
Strength in the way we invent,
To splendour in our achievements.


No longer the reaping of belief!

Confusion!

Delusion!

The insecurities fighting through you!

The fire inside,
Mightily spinning,
Flooring expectations.


Following our own set of rules,
Becoming the true truth.


Transcending out of your youth,
Travelling miles,
In moments travelling mentally a lifetime.


Today is where it starts,
Authentic to you.


Swaying away from the others who stray.

The boxers,
Lost in a world of labels,
Disabled from what they've remained,
To continue the lacking game.


Sprung free,
This life is not what you need.


No satisfaction to this slippery grease,
A body growing old,
A mind misdirected and betrayed.


In your way,
Divert your gaze,
Away from the same.


Accepting the strange way you appear,
But once you get in gear,
Let your soul appear.


A complete,
A connection to the right direction ignored.


To be what you've always meant to be,
A controversy,
The heat.


Beats living a life in which depletes,
Creating defeats.


Take hold of destiny,
Unpin,
An essence not in grief,
But retrieving what it seeks.


© 2018

Abigail Sheard
 3° 
September Rose
Once we were on fire
Young    rebeliouse   free
We stormed the castles and took to the skies we flew we dreamed
We were ablaze our light setting raging screaming fire to the world around us
When our thoughts could not sit in silence any longer
When the kids were engulfed by a wave of fury of the injustice done by this world before we were even here
We screamed and demanded
OUR VOICES WOULD BE HEARD
But now it rains
Now the cold heavy water blankets the restless
The fire has been drenched in worry and stress
The brutal downpour has distracted all with false life or death
The blaze once 100 feet high now nothing but a charred soul

And all the ones put out by the rain
to tired to fight again,
pray on the generation next
That their fire is enough to best the storm
 3° 
AS
I want more,
all I want to do is explore.
Not letting life slip by,
to take flight and not care about getting everything right.
To really live!
Not being the person just to give!
A vision,
just a dream no more,
now to embody which is truly in my core.
To live each mystery,
not reliving each history.
Life a dance floor,
ready to host the fire inside.
Finally I'm ready!
To take charge,
let loose a riot.
No longer afraid to open the moments of the unexplored.
No longer cleaning up anyone else chores and gore.
That power is no longer a sin,
that it's finally my time to win.
My drive is more than being alive,
not to standby to have a stereotypical life.


© 2018
Abigail Sheard
When your finally ready to take life by the horns, to embrace what you truly are.
 3° 
AS
A woman who deserve an applause,
A woman who made history.
A monarch, who went large.

Cleopatra deserved a BAFTA,
with her poise and grace.
Never her make-up or hair out of place.
Her skin as silkier than pouring rain.
Her power, her reign, the way she pushed forward half of the human race.
Beauty within and out of her face.
That fire, the burning to stay strong.
To love, to ****, to move forward to what  was left within the dust.
I always wonder why, how she never let everything pass her by.
In the power of the summer sun, I feel her inside as one.
Her warm embrace, a woman who gave the race a taste of strength.
An icon above, but her beauty and mind lasting throughout time.
Leaving the world combined by natures grasp.
This leader to the rest,
loving too deeply and moving forward at her best.
Swept away from the might of life,
a legend to shine in the mind until the end of time.


© 2018
Abigail Sheard
 3° 
AS
I've found one of the greatest joys
In life,
Is finding ourselves and pursuing
Opportunities that seemed IMPOSSIBLE
.

YES,
The aftermath and the struggle in
These revelations stings and throws
Life temporarily through utter
CHAOS.


But isn't that how true growth
BEGINS?


This is how we learn to conquer,
Creating a future safety to enthuse
Your whole with resilience and
STRENGTH.


The mindset to question
Everything,
Even most importantly OURSELVES.


A path which sets us on a course to
THRIVE,
With a lifetime of satisfaction.


© 2018

Abigail Sheard
More of a long winded statement, than a poem.
 3° 
Jamie Riley
Why didn’t you lose when it was on the news
And hundreds of thousands of people accused  
you of scandal and incompetence?
You never revealed your conscience
or any remorse for your play boy antics
so far removed from your pedantic
stereotype as a political leader
more like a ****** wheeler dealer
pervy old ***** geezer
over cologned and greasy heavy breather,
machinating falsifier
misogynistic *******,
machiavellian Italian stallion;
Faccia brutta o sfacime no?

You prized a Ruby above the rest.
Bunga bunga what a pest
she leaked your private fetish fest,
poor Silvio you did your best
to hide the bribes, the bets,
the ******, the drugs, the threats.
But you never really did care
what was right and what was fair.
You got all the attention, all the fame
and made the liberals look like philistines
by shrugging allegations that would define
and force any other politician to resign.
You waited until Italy was ****** dry;
for her wallet to exhale a defeated sigh
when you decided to resign.
How could the euro ever survive
with you wanting to prioritise
Your ******* *** drive?
 3° 
AS
Life is not free,
it comes with a cost just to breathe.
The expectations not to be emplaced on the seed.
Judged for how they choose lead.
Punished for how they believe and chose to breed.
Marked and abandoned,
for choosing to see and to move away,
to reject disgusting displays.
To be shown disdain for following their own way.
Blamed when they choose not to stay the same.
Cost of the invisible chain,
placed on the terrain of birth.
Dependent to the pain,
to the mother who reined.
Tossed away when finally mirrored the destructive game,
patience snapped and apologised for the same way the birth-maid acts.
Distanced to detach,
to move away from the shame.
A promise made when a little babe,
to never be the same.
Shocked on the way,
they pushed patience down the drain.
Enacted by refusal to be the *****,
to take the blame and defend the endless plague you enrage.
Expected to be thankful,
guilted to stay in line.
Manipulated every time they attempt to  fly.
Co-dependently wrapped,
to give meaning the way in which your life lacked.
An ear to smear all your hate,
fear and tsunami tears.
Flooded in your pain,
you  the victim and to take no blame.
Born a parent in the early days,
cleaning and protecting you from the dirt you spurt.
From the countless monsters in which you learnt.
Sadness,
that you ever witnessed that level of madness.
Not to be kept to your past tense,
to swallow and drain with your inner hallow.
To clip their wings,
as for only you they can sing.
To demand,
offended when the glove is on the other hand.
To not poison others land or be offended when they flee.
When the hunger to find serene,
**** dry for too long.
Came to a point,
grief hidden within the earthly core finally exploded.
No longer naive,
willing to adore or ignore.
Needing to breathe,
to speak,
to burst out what has been hidden underneath.
To truly breathe,
to find reprieve.
To heal from the demons which deceived.
To unfreeze the mind,
from all the other monsters you missed slip by.
Not to be told that I lied,
because it breaks your ******* pride.
Not to be hissed at or dismissed,
for what you missed.
Life has been,
was what I owed,
for being brought up and given food.
The basics to accept the rudeness and being clueless.
Don't give birth if your child does not come first,
don't let them bleed to feed your own needs.
Recognise they're a child,
not a friend to take care after you've gone wild.
Not to be confined in places they seem wise.
A child is a gift,
not someone to heavy lift.
Not to manage your whims.
As a child do not owe,
no entitlement to treat them low.
Rid of your countless rules,
the one's incredibly cruel.
Those only practised by the few,
the ones who spread the blue,
to those who surround.
Unable to find stable ground.
Life should be free,
in this way you see,
it cannot not be.
Children deserve to breathe,
not to have them mentally disciplined onto their knees.


© 2018

Abigail Sheard
Poetry is my release, a place to reveal and heal.

I am very lucky that my anxiety and depression no longer fully control me, it has taken a lot of hard work though to get to this point.
 3° 
AS
Do not touch!
Am I asking too much?
It's enough that all you seem to do is look.
You don't even give me the grace,
to even look at my face.
Remember I am part of the human race,
not some buffet for you to taste.
As the race of life is a difficult run,
with the objectification and sexualisation.
Remember I am only looking for friends,
I can find who I want and when.

Dreaming of a world where there is no need to defend.
Or where I don't need to lend my voice,
for those who haven't discovered yet that they have a choice.
No I won't smile, lie or let you **** my dignity dry.
I will always fight for what is right, no layer of myself or respect will die.
No longer will those achieve a rise, as behind a community lays.

A strength is growing everyday,
we will have our say.
No longer sitting by in shame,
with our bodies recalling the pain.
As these conditions have gone along too long.
No longer to carry on these remains, with both genders mounting rage.
Young and old to those who have beholden, crying out for these cruelties not to worsen.

Now we are on the same page, let go of your reins and control.
Others boundaries are not your own, even mind, Body and soul.
Respect theirs,
as they respect your own.
Release the conditions unknown,
to protect the ones you love and know.
Let go of the entitlements,
the one's that creates everyone else's pain.
Remember your whole is only your own.
Deliberating in the ways that you go and in the actions which you show.
As Yes,
You don't own or have the right to play a White Knight to those separate to your own.

Remember that their mind, body and soul are not yours to hold.
Let go!
To the entitlement of those who are not your own.
The force, manipulation and those who creepily persist.
Leaving marks,
for years to come.
Making it difficult for the victim to exist.

Hyper vigilant by the hurt,
not the person they once were from birth.
Fear controlling who they let near.
Triggered to tears to the memories,
at the hands who felt it their right to abuse.
Taking away the rights to chose,
being the biggest to lose.
When time drags along,
a broken inside from what went wrong.
These moments messing with your sleep and controlling you by emotional peaks.
Detached from our bodies, disconnected from the beauty we once embodied.

So please think and reframe!
Don't take opportunities each and everyday to someone's size,
age or state.
Don't be the reason they break.
Take accountability in the ways you've betrayed.
As I doubt it will haunting you till your dying day.
Don't be offended by those who've feel it is right to fight.
A hope to protect others,
to the predators unknown.
An experience I would not wish,
no one deserves to walk around half alive with mangled insides.


© 2018

Abigail Sheard
This poem is a thought provoker for both genders, of all ages and backgrounds. As I know we've all been touch by this pain, sadly there is no exclusion for abuse....only if you're very lucky.

I know  that survivors can heal and we can become thrivers.
The point is we shouldn't be wasting years of out lives to do it.
I myself am lucky to be at the thriving stage, but life shouldn't have to be a fight to get by or to become normal to exceptional.

Something I desperately don't want for the next generation!

https://hellopoetry.com/collection/27582/thought-provoking/

P.s. My dearest apologies if I triggered anyone.
I am very lucky that my anxiety and depression no longer fully control me, it has taken a lot of hard work though to get to this point.

https://www.reddit.com/r/ThrivingNarcAbuse/comments/8ydqko/the_journey_to_thriving_an_honest_and_hopeful/
 3° 
Druzzayne Rika
What day it is
what place is this
Answer is there
I can see
but cannot see
the book is open
unreadable

the seamless
more I know less
up to the point
I know what I want
till nothing to
wait for
the sour feeling
keeps coming

driving slow
not missing sun's glow
it is bright
like always
beating on its own
the little heart
from its start

many branches
of the root
all stretches
out
to find a better place
participating in
every race

further apart
from where I had started
no closer to the end
it is no better than
if I just stop
midstep

it is not money
not for this journey
all I do
is do it more
candle is melting
all the wax
how can I reform
myself

The structure
all that matters
is that it stands
no fall, no toll
it is not as simple
to make the life boat sail
 2° 
AS
Bounce back,
You can't help in the ways your inners attack.
Find hope and joy,
In the ways you do not lack.
This is the task,
Yes some days you need to be alone.
Just so you won't blow,
I know that it takes its toll.
Life is too short to carry on such lows and woes,
Just keeping pushing yourself to grow.
Do not miss out on the wondrous show.
Remember to flow,
To walk before you can leap.
The knowledge you are not made to live the everyday,
Maybe a carnival parade.
Raiding all the information accessible,
Helping the talented and the unmissable.
This is the different person's gifts,
To find what is always missed.
Here to assist!


© 2018

Abigail Sheard
 2° 
AS
I popped a bubble of reality,

the one you made me breathe.

Moving away from delusion and the

way you deceived.

In which you felt,

it was your right to make me bleed.

Viewing the unseen,

which led away and continued my stray.

Now,

each and every day,

exploring deceptions and perceptions

in array.

Learning new realities will stay,

until my dying day.

Whilst stagnant you remain.


© 2018
Abigail Sheard
 2° 
AS
Mind, body and soul,
that is the way to go to become whole.

Making the best out of every test,
but remembering to take a rest.
Not to arrest your woe,
as that will trigger lows.

To love oneself,
by not putting yourself first, you react a curse.
Only to blast out your worst,
blurting out distain.

These our ways in which I've found gain:

Nutrition to brain,
keeps the swelling away,
lowering anxiety and pain.

For the mind research and unwind,
remembering to be kind.
As everyone has a fight inside,
never actions aimed to make you blue.
Understanding oneself prevents the whole world being blind,
pity for those who hurt and you left behind.

Exercise for the body,
a place to release,
finding inner peace.
Away from frustration and anger which disallows you to sleep.

For soul love thy self,
letting go of those behaviours which you replay.
The ones which scare everyone away and cause you further pain.

As not everyone is to blame,
it gets to point where you become responsible for every choice.

Remember to give room for your own voice!
As it will give you opportunity to rejoice and move away from those who repeat.
Those who beat your whole away.

Though there will be rain,
a promise these things urge change.
Maybe months or years,
you will no longer dominated by tears.
Loosing the fear,
looking forward and holding onto those who are dear.


© 2018
Abigail Sheard
 2° 
AS
A mystery,
Originally dressed in catastrophe.

Always reaching for peace,
To see,
To believe,
To find the beauty in everything seemed.

Now finding hope in everything dreamed.

Now the past which passed you will not destroy!

For my whole is now deployed,
Evoking opportunities and joy!

The strength remains from the pain,
Pushing to appreciate each and everyday.


© 2018

Abigail Sheard
 2° 
AS
Indifference,
Detached.


           No more time spent to react.

Now the drama is clear,
The poison lingers in your fear.


                      No longer to keep near,
                             No longer attached.


Now the facts are apparent,
   The lies now transparent.


             Peace in the space in-between,
                           Happiness to truly see.


This is my final goodbye,
Time to go and live my life.


              No longer stuck in your rife,
      Now finally no longer consumed by
            Your knife.


Evaporated,
Now the wound is healed.


© 2018

Abigail Sheard
 2° 
AS
Finally I have a drive to do more than survive.

No longer riding along with the tide.

To live,
to be equal to the way I give.

To always say what I want each day,
without being afraid.

To be engaged by each day.

To be my best,
even if it creates a mess.

Never to be less than I perceive.

To always have something up my sleeve,
to never again be so naive.

Not to be expected just to please,
to learn to lead.

To make magic happen to those who I surround,
as now I am truly found.

To be the one standing on the tower,
no longer the one bowing down.

Ready to prove myself now!

To create throughout,
to stand out from the crowd.

Compelled to rise up high,
to spread my wings and fly.

Now the sky is finally mine!


© 2018
Abigail Sheard
 2° 
AS
Against the odds,
That's how life has gone along.

Trying always to do what is right,
Now without dimming the inner light.

Plagued for years extremely by PTSD,
Loosing my mind through the tears.

A time of showing strength,
Finding my feet to where I'm ment.

Keeping the urge to stretch and grow,
To move along to the inner sing along.

Anger and pain that reside,
To time set only to be mine.

The flashes have become rare,
Which at one point were difficult to bare.

Years of stripping back all the layers,
Completing the impossible cares.

By setting a steady stream,
With different compartments to sink my roots deep.

Reaching a feeling of nearly complete,
Accepting moments are needed to seep.

The opportunities to learn,
Not going on constant repeat.

Allowing yourself to breathe,
Occasionally allowing moments of grief.

Feeling of relief,
To the progress I keep.

Accepting at times needing to go in deep,
headstrong against this disease.

Days to weeks to months in reprieve,
Taken its temporary leave.

Tactics up my sleeves,
Giving choices to believe.

That the monster will no longer reap,
Destroying the insides as it leaves.

Faith in the process to succeed!


© 2018

Abigail Sheard
 1° 
Her
My name is Erin
and i was *****
at the age of 7

it has taken me
14 years of my life
for those 13 words to escape
my hollow mouth

the only questions i come to now
is why
why lock me in that room
why take everything from me
my innocence
my purity
my childhood

in my own room
where my family trusted you
where i trusted you
the night terrors i have to this day
still haunt my mind

like a never ending
drive in movie that plays
over
and
over
only the moon in the night sky
isnt made to be found here
there is no light in these terrors

i cant sleep this time of year
because every time i do
its you
in that room
locking the door
shutting the windows
******* me
yelling at me
every single night
i close my eyes

it has taken me 14 years
to accept the fact that i was taken by you
i have been numb ever since
left in the dust
rotting away at the core
thinking i was nothing
thinking i deserved nothing
because you took everything

but not anymore
i will recover from this
i am strong enough
i believe in myself
i believe in my own happiness
and i promsie
that when i have children one day
i will never ever let them rot at the core
i will find happiness
the darkness will not take over this time
 1° 
Larri
Welcome to the group,
Call us the forgotten troupe.

Hitchhike our way to victory,
Write down dreams of royalty.

Paint stripes on a horse, we better spice up our act.
Sorry we're not rich enough to buy you honest facts.

Welcome to the group, call us the forgotten troupe.
Quiet down, sing aloud, the cops come after you.

Don't call us rebels, that's merely stereotypical.
Don't take what I say for granted, separate sarcasm from the literal.

You have a million dollars but refuse to pay?
Left behind in an abandoned maze.

I'd as for a penny, but you'd break it in half.
I'll have to sneak in, on the weekend, when you're low on staff.

Call myself a Robin Hood, but Locksley is too far away.
I'll stay here in my broken town, rhyming away.
Might elaborate on this in another poem, enjoy! <3
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