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Apporva Arya Jun 4
I told her to leave.
I am miserable .
Wont be able to give you anything.
But she stayed...
Now I am more miserable.
Now I am more afraid..I am afraid she is also a journey not my destination.
When was the last I ever held Helen It seems now
such a long time
ago
sad I'm now growing old memory not as good as It once was
So through the poetry, I'm writing of my darling
just In case, I grow
to
old and my memory fade even more loss of memories I fear the
most
But If at leased written down all my
memories they'll remain forever In time
and should I grow old which eventually like or not It will
happen
but at least when It does my family and friends
can for themselves
just
how true and brave to her end  their Mother my
Wife truly
was
Helen, there was never a braver woman who fought her whole life through illness terrible pain against all odds right to the end "God Bless Her"
Johnny walker Apr 26
Oh how I remember long
before Helen's illness took hold we wake In a morning lay laughing and joking
and right there on spare of the moment no plan, It would be let's go out for the day
what about the bills I'd say, Helen's reply stick a note Johnny pay next week
up to the train
station
off to the seaside, we'd go without a care In the world
because we were so much In love
that was all that mattered bills could wait I miss those days so much  It's wasn't long after
that
before Helen's disabilities started that robbed her of so much In life worse for Helen was her loss of Independence
slowly
taken
away from her bit by bit till she ended up totally reliant 0n la wheelchair
had to sleep with an oxygen mask and  had to carry an oxygen cylinder and mask
where
ever she went and Helen survived to be In Hospital four consecutive years each time she was close death
I was told to prepare for that possibility of her not being with me but each time Helen won against all odds
but last time Helen went In I knew she wasn't going to make for she had lost the will to live for she had lost all her
Independence
to be not able to do
just simple things In life was too much of a struggle for her and despite the fact she loved
me
and her family and friends she reluctantly had to let go because of her poor quality of life and  such dreadful
pain
suffered to point no amount of pain killers
would touch her
pain
and suffering similar to what Helen
suffered I know much more if Helens struggles Helen was a true
fighter
but like all good fighters, they know when they are beaten as was In Helen's case bless her soul she stayed brave to the
end
Helen was a true fighter and fought her battles right to the
for like all good fighters that know when they are beaten
and except the loss
Johnny walker Mar 27
Sat drinking a cup coffee watching people passing by without my wife who
used to be
with
me
very few people that pass me by even notice I am there and the people who knew my
wife
well they don't know me anymore so I've gone from being known to a total stranger through the loss of my
wife
Its almost as If I don't exist anymore I can walk down the street no one stops or talks to me as they did with my
wife
like a ghost I can walk down the street without being
seen
which suppose has Its advantages as I can get on with my day without Interruption
Since Helen been goneso to are her friends apart from family who have always been there for me just as they were for my wife help me so much
Johnny walker Mar 24
Through abuse as a kid when I became a young man I was never able to form any relationships
so finally when I pluck
the courage to ask Helen
out

It was as If I had come to Helen with the Innocents of a child any Intimacy I knew nothing had not even kissed a girl but I knew I loved Helen and didn't wont to lose
her

So everything Helen thought me everything there was to know about love, Helen never ever faulted me for any of my failings In *******
department

In the early stages of our relationship many times sitting on the end of the bed apologising to Helen having got her aroused and then felt I'd let her down

Helen never complained
but Instead to she comforted and encourage
me which started to give me confidence that I had never had
before

I owe so much to Helen for her understanding believe In me eventually Helen became pregnant and gifted our
wonderful
son

But sometime you have to believe In someone give them a chance you could end up being pleasantly
surprised
Helen never ever faulted me for any of my failings to which In the early days of our relationship there were quite a few but she believed me
Johnny walker Mar 16
Everything between Helen and I was always shared no secrets or lies between us did we ever have a friendship and a love that stood the test of
time
No mattered what was ever thrown at us throughout our lives and the time we had together
but we always stayed true to each other that the only way true love ever
lasts
For true love Is what Helen and I really had the wedding vows we made for better or for worse both us truly meant and we stayed faithful to each other to the very
end
Staying faithful to each other no matter what that true love Is all about
She come with beauty


She goes with unhappy


As she takes the hearts


She has no mercy


Her heart knows any kindly


She was very smart


She passed and looked


With the end of her sight


The hearts become imprisoned


She ordered ,they obeyed


She talked ,they listened


She pointed ,they raced


She stood ,they stood


She moved ,they followed


She went , they were gone


Who returns that run?
smart, obeyed,ordered, beauty, mercy,
Mary Frances Aug 2018
I opened my door to someone
who I thought won't leave.
I was torn apart.
Then you came.
You let yourself in
through the window and stayed.
And I feel alive again.
Death Horizon Aug 2018
Now I see

What I should have done, what I should have been
I don´t hate you...
I won´t hate you!

I just saw in you and him

What you and I didn´t had

And I´m sorry if i, me, myself was not capable
Of being as good of a ridding angel as he is
i just feel so small right now
As if my heart is about to explode out my chest

it all hurst so much now
how could i waste so much time
in someone who doesn´t even love me

Now I see,

But you don´t see me anymore don´t you...
it just hurst so ******* much sometimes
Jamilla Jul 2018
When you see her
She looks perfectly fine
Look closely into her eyes
You'll see a hundred reasons
No, a million reasons
That you should have stayed.
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