Today I went to London Town
A city famed for its wealth and crown
But the reality will make you frown

There are no paths of gold here to be found
But a sea of homelessness to drown
Occasionally a passer-by bends down
Chucking a coin in to a hat or cup
As though they’d pick something dodgy up

If they placed it in their hand
But most walk by in a dreamland
Pretending they don’t even exist
Crossing the street on a pivotal twist
A quick pirouette, ensures an inconvenient truth is missed

Today I went to a matinee
A luxury, a theatre play
I traveled the train without a worry to pay
Simply swiped my card the contactless way

Indulged in a big meal out
For fifty quid it was a reasonable shout
While across the road is this girl hanging about
And her dogs called Buster, I found out

I gave her some change and the time of day
Asked if I could stroke her dog, she said I may
On the girls lap Buster lay
Eyes wide, grateful for love I sent his way

She needed twenty two pounds
For a full week stay at the shelters grounds
But the funds she said she never found

“When I come back I’ll bring you a drink”
She asked for hot chocolate
I gladly agreed
I called the Salvation Army where she said she’d be received
Providing she had the money to leave

My call was in a queue but nobody picked up
I wanted to pay so she and Buster could snuggle up
Somewhere warm, even for just a week
So her ankle could heel and they’d get some sleep

I walked to the corner where I promised that hot drink
I looked around, took a double blink
Buster and his owner where gone, before I had time to think

Now I’m home in bed, heating on
Hoping they are somewhere warm
Praying that they gained some profit
I never delivered the promised hot chocolate

I’ve had this feeling, ongoing for a couple of years, or more
Like the relentless moped rider who mounts the pathway outside your door,
Risking his life without a helmet on,
And others may too soon be gone,
As though its his mission to break you down and irritate,
Mind and body debate, until my shell accepts defeat,


It’s easy to make excuses when you feel this way, they say,
But I beat myself up, day after day,
If I sleep too late or hide away, exhausted, unable to concentrate,
The guilt pulls in my gut, like the church-bell ringers tug, slow, robust,


Without question, prescription or doctors review,
I take the mind numbing pill just to get through,
There’s no need for appointments or long waiting queues,
It’s ready and waiting with the supermarket crew,
among other essential survival tools to accrue,


I’ve fought so hard to come off this drug,
I’ve reduced the dose, though it’s not enough,
I’m shamefully addicted, though the GP insists they’re not addictive,
If only I could have predicted,
Without my fix I’m resticted, spaced out, blurry eyed, inflicted,


Out of this darkness I see lots of light,
I’ve allowed myself time and space to get it right,
holistically and patiently, I’ve learned is key,
Though the shame of depression will never leave me,
It’s an unattractive weakness, but it wouldn’t stop my attraction to you,
It’s my own insecurities that I need to break through

I see you not, but completely
Your eyes twinkle
You and my thoughts smother me in goose pimples
Pores, blemishes, weathered wrinkles
Delicious Pigment, salt and pepper sprinkles
Your imperfections are my weak spot
Aesthetic flaws a turn on
Dark lashes
Dreamy brown eyes
How your eyelids crinkle when you squint in the light
An impulse to run my hands through your ebony hair
behind your ear, let me linger here
And down to the sides
Of your neck
Your skin reacts with my breath
To touch with mine, that bottom lip
That thought's enough to make my tummy flip
The desire to explore your face
Is impossible to articulate
I don’t possess the vocabulary
To do you justice poetically
But can we get back to your neck
For just a sec
You know, that part just below your ear
Has me longing to place my mouth there
And I’ve not yet mentioned your hands
How I yearn for them to explore my lands
Entwine them in mine, till the thickness of your fingers and the Slenderness of mine, in time, demand change
I’ll open my palms inviting your embrace
Aroused by the pressure and the weight and pace
Your fingers trace my face
And brush my lips, I turn my head, closing my eyes
Savouring the skin on skin collide
In encouragement and moorish praise
Wondering if our thoughts are the same
Speaking words I would never have usually found
Or said out loud
But how can I rephrase
I'm high on dopamine pathways
My mind a maze, my body ablaze
You are a drug
I can't overdose enough
My brain rewards with desire and lust
An addictive thrill, a heightened rush

Daydreams end and drugs wear off
Realities crush
Until the next time I get high on you and us

Early autumn skies
Thick with heavy clouds
Dusky pink hues and midnight blues
Some stripped naked trees
Some gold-orange leaves
Eerily bending in the breeze
Rain falls cold
Quiet yet bold
Filling muddy, earthy moulds
Sun rays strong and low
It comes and goes
Leaving lovely afternoon glows

I feel bright,
I see light,
Lifted burden,
Self inflicted to uplifted,
One simple move gave me a whole new
Energy,
A focus on the here and now,
The sky, the ground!
I feel free, unshackled and me!
What a relief!
I’ve been so blind not to see,
I put myself inside a prisoned mind,
I’m looking at the sky,
The sun the clouds,
I laugh out loud,
As I finally see,
The strength in me

Your smile is more
Than a craving
Of a sugary quick fix
It’s as essential
To my survival
As water
And food

I could make excuses
Defend my ways
But
I enjoyed the virtual embrace
Your voice
Your face
I was feeling displaced
In a state of haste
I won't deflect the pace

I pictured your hands on my body
And my body in your hands
I longed for foreign lands
Where the seashore lapped the sands
Entwined like our hands
Sea and setting sun become one
Without dusk, dawn would never come
And the song birds wouldn’t have sung

Since Tuesday night I've felt a bit *******.
A negative energy feeling about the situation.
You no doubt think badly of me and I totally get that.
I didn't intend to be dishonest or morally ambiguous.
I wasn't even initially attracted to you.
But then you evoked an interest.
I liked your humour, your bluntness, confidence and when you told me little details about you.
You turned me on. You turn me on.
I wanted to know more.
You excited me and I enjoyed it. I became attracted to you.
I admit, I never discouraged you.
You never asked me personal details and didn't divulge your own.
I assumed that was because you were just having fun, which was fine.
So was I.
I'd never done this before.
Online with someone I've never met, it's all new to me.
Attraction is a strange thing.
Maybe I'm unsatisfied, fed up or stagnant with where I'm at.
Maybe things happen for a reason.
I don't know.
Who says what socially acceptable limitations are.
I want you to know though, I didn't mean to deceive you.
I actually wanted you to know but I wasn't sure you were interested in knowing.
I don't want to be a freak and make a dramatic deal over it when you probably couldn't care less.
I don't like the thought of making you feel crap about it though.


So I wrote something down. I guess trying to explain. Didn't want to fire it off at an inappropriate moment or you may not want to hear it at all.
Which is fine.

Leave my head in the clouds, where fantasy dreams are found

Let me float away, the hours of the day, where unrealistic thoughts can play

Allow me just today, to sink in to my mind, leaving reality far behind

Please give me the time and space, to witness the moon kindly take the suns place

Lighting up the blue night sky, stars humming a gentle lullaby

The beauty, the simplicity, as sun and day withdraw and moon and stars dance till dawn

I dream of laying on your knee
While you softly read me poetry
A quiet corner in the park
As daytime fizzles in to dark
Sharing Italian red wine
Before I take you out to dine
Somewhere quiet and unassuming
With a jazz musician crooning
Today has ended far to fast
We both wanted it to longer last
Should I book a nice hotel?
I want to stay under your spell
I go ahead and book the room
Where we promise only to talk and spoon
Spooning leads to touching
I admit it's what I was lusting
Now we're here wrapped in white sheet
Can I lay on your chest and drift of to sleep?

Moving so softly as though my petals may fall, I let you continue on your delicate journey
Walking through my garden in bloom, you nourish me
You take the long way round and linger, till daylight is no more
Only by moonlight I see your lips trace mine, pinkness entwined
Inhaling floral scents with quickened breath

You took me to beautiful places
sensual sunsets warmed my bones
My toes curled as you made me moan
Waters lapped the shore
I arched my back and pleaded, more
Skies a midnight blue, scattered with tiny stars
They glistened in my eyes and reflected back in yours

I don't care that she's known you long before I
You'll never do with her what you did with me that night.
We kept the fire roaring despite the outside rain
Even after parting, I was left a ball of flames

For one night, let's not be coy nor shy
Together we'll sing the sweetest lullaby
For one night, let my dreams come alive
My muse, in you, where fantasies thrive

For one night, give me your mouth, your tongue
Keep me wanting more till morning comes
For one night, I'll give myself to you
By sunrise you'll want me badly too

The seasons change
The dead leaves drop
It appears the same
But it's changed a lot
The cycle of nature
Or the circle of life
So much beauty
So much dies
a consistent motion
As our friendship once were
Now it's dead leaves
Left on the floor

Sometimes friendships have to die
It shouldn't be me always having to try
Unreasonable expectations, creating unnecessary tension
You'd rather see me in debt
Just to attend your lavish four day event
Come on, remember where you started from
Entitlement has a sour face, greed is a lonely place
Fake friends are ten a penny
You surround yourself with plenty
Speak your mind and share you thoughts
But don't expect me not to talk
Wind me up and believe you're lies
Are you that self-centred, someone just died!
It's all hypocrisy while causing more misery and you expect an apology!
I'm sorry I couldn't afford to go
I'm sorry that you're acting so low
I'm sorry I didn't want to be there surrounded by that smoggy fake air
Not that you'd care
I'm sorry someone died so I wouldn't have gone regardless
I'm sorry you can't grasp reality, I'm sorry you're so heartless

I admire those lips, arched like Cupid's bow,
delicate pink like roses grow
Smooth delicate petals light but robust, yearning for the warmth of my touch

I adore your skins brown-golden hue, smooth as caramel,
exotic yet homely somehow
As infused morning tea with its gentle scents,
A regular ritual with a power intense
a comforting blend from a faraway friend

A washed up shell basking on the sea-shore,
you're beautifully unique, that's for sure,
for I've never felt this way before
Eyes alive, glistening bright,
share tales more eloquently than your mouth might
Two brilliant diamonds say more than words know,
intricate facets reflect
What only unassuming beauty shows

Floppy ebony hair, declares a youth untamed,
but the grey wispy edges proves there's been change

I could lay right here, right now
Gaze at your picture and touch myself
I could lose reality and lose time
As I lay here and close my eyes
Seeing my hand in yours and your hand in mine
Entwined
I'd open my eyes
It’s all in my mind

Two months past and you didn't consume my mind
Despite the lust I kept hidden inside
Until once again you hijacked my dream
I wish I knew what it all means
Why is it impossible to read your vibes
You give me an inch but I want miles
Showing keenness has never been my style
But how you press your lips together and smile sends me wild
How the sides grey and the front strands stray
How your eyes say more than you intend them to say
Or maybe my thoughts leading me astray
Surely you're aware of your teasing way

The butterfly flutters,
Her wings,
She dances loud in my stomach,
The mere thought of you sets her a flutter

The stars,
They twinkle,  
Like finely cut diamonds absorbing all light,
And reflecting in your eyes

Your Smile,
So forever,
That when I observe,
Silently, I say to myself,
"oh my god"
That smile heats my entire body

A body,
So moorish,
In lust,
I bite my lip as I envision,
My palms against your skin,
Caressing the softness and the rough

I feel inspired when I read your poems
When I look outside
Or see the ocean
When my dog glares in to my eyes with love
And the other waits insistently for a fuss
When I rescue the bumble bee from the conservatory
And place him back on a blossoming tree
When the sun is shining down on me
And we hold hands
Reminiscing of those golden sands
Dreaming of adventure in foreign lands
I feel inspired from wise old words
Of Rumi, Dalai Lama and Shakespeare's verse
At times my sensitivity is a curse
It pains me to see suffering
My innocence diminishing
I can't harden to the harshness of a gluttonous world
Prioritised by numbers, income and yield
They say eyes are windows to the soul
The rest just shell and beating heart
My view from here is pretty **** smart
Life's to short to not get lost in art
Don't dwell in past pains and misery
When there's a great big beautiful world to see

Excited for the gifts
This planet kindly gives
The wonders of the world are generously rife
It really is a magical life
If we are wise, we'll open our hearts, eyes and minds

I long to see Japan's elegant cherry blossom land
Geisha girls, eerily still they stand
Cooling faces with fan in hand

Walk for hundreds of miles, along the river Nile
Meeting friendly souls with weathered faces
love as their principle basis

Whiteness the overcrowded Mumbai station
Then rush to see a tea plantation
Where on your way your heart longs to stay
Here, forever you could lay
There's a calling from the hills, the wildlife thrills
But why stay still
There's plenty more to feel

The vast African plains a plenty
Where it may appear, but it's far from empty
This is the magnificent Serengeti
Here I'm in my element
Let me enjoy admiring the elephant
A powerful earth rumbling migration
Sees a whole new destination

Tysfjord with its breathtaking views
Norway is an artists muse
A landscape so still and stunning
To be offered more is a second coming
When night arrives with it northern lights
You'll be mesmerised by the natural sight
You'll stay up all night long
As morning is blessed by orca's song

Rumi was a wise old soul
His words are timeless
His advice is free
I take his writings literally

"Why stay in prison when the door is so wide open" ~ Rumi

White privilege' a phrase I didn't understand
I accepted every man
And I assumed the rest of the world did too
Sure, a racist joke is fine, whether crossing a black or white line
It's just comedy after all, no malice is meant for a fall
Together we'll still stand tall
But then I looked outside of my world
Where the conscious stereotype in abundance sprawled
From another's point of view, it's a completely different view
Even in this time and day,
If your skin isn't 'white' you're likely to pay
A price, of some sort,
As professional worlds are warped
Why can't a black actor play James instead of Jamal
And what if you let the brown guy play the lead role
We are a multi culture,
Our screens should reflect the present and future
Who cares for the colour of your skin
Ability in your craft is how you should win
So, looking through some casting calls I see instantly,
The affect white privilege has on this community

I don't know what it is or how to find it
Your eyes, your heart make me carelessly free-fall
Your soul igniting my soul, sets me alight in hot flames
There's no warning, no caution, no harness for protection from falling
I enjoy the phantom aches and pains

Can I love with my eyes alone
Can I love what I'll never know

It's simply and effortlessly you,
A complete creation, a package brimming, spilling sweet alluring wine
Drunk are my senses, drunk I'm happy to be
If it's the only way I feel you,
Right next to me

Taking up my time
Your face fills my mind
You know that feeling when your young
When a first love interest is sprung
I think they call it butterflies
I'm in a constant state of anxiety
Or is it excitement
I can't tell, but there's no need for enticement
I don't want to work or eat
I can't sit and read or watch the Tv
It all seems so pointless to me
I prefer to while the time away
As I lay
With thoughts that you're also thinking of me while I think of you
You see it's not a blessing because I can't function right
But it can't be a curse because I see you in  sight
I'm addicted to the adrenaline that fills my chest
Pounding through my body even when I rest
Such a bizarre concoction
To uncommon not to drink the toxin
Why bother to read the caution
I enjoy that unknowing state
The lack of control over fate

Poetic grace angelic flow
Nurturing arms forever grow
Beauty so stunning an aura so unknowingly cunning
Divided by deep eternal love and untamed frustration
Her passion extreme and strong
Her eyes fierce and feral
Her heart pours an everlasting hope that the next day will be better than the last
Make no mistake, once under her spell there's no undoing
You wouldn't leave if you could
The hold isn't by shackles or ties
But by the purist air you could ever breathe
The crystal waterfall that caressed your lips
Wild lush meadows of floral bloom
Darkness of the sky and warmth of the moon

It's actually ok to cry
To let emotion fill your eyes
For tears to reach the edge
To spill over and fledge

I thought it was a sign
Of weakness of the mind
I would stop my heart
From talking with my head
Change the subject
Think of something else instead

But now I understand
Hardness isn't bold or grand
If something hurts my soul
It's ok to let it show
For being touched by what is sad or wrong
Can only make me wise and strong

My inspiration, it comes from you
You see,
You're not only the sun
You're also the sea
You're the waves that rhythmically flow
You're the tide that comes and goes
You're the bobbing rusty boat
The cocky seagulls gloat
You're the smell of crisp sea air
The merry-go-round at the fair
You're laughter carried in the wind
And ice cream dripping on skin
You're wrapped up fish n' chips
The brave that take a dip
You're the walk to the end and back
You're the sleepiness I lack
Once home and unpacked
And the ***** laundry stacked
I replay it in my mind
Knowing you're never far behind
You're in everything I see and do
My sweetest dream is always you

I've back spaced
I've deleted
No words
I'm defeated
I don't know why
I put you so high
Away I can fly
When I waste a day
Without regret
Of all the things I did
With someone I never met

Warm candle light
Back drop of dark night
Sweet soft music
Arouses senses
I can taste the atmosphere
Oil I pour
To touch is to explore
But not just skin on skin
Details deep within
Are you just like me, getting high on joys of Spring
The Suns Ray's, the daffodils gaze
The cherry blossoms haze
Or are you a little darker
Like a warning tribal haka
A performance for they eye
Deep inside you cry, till tears run dry
You no longer know why

Is your coffee strong and black
Or sickly sweet of bitterness lack
A limited edition book
Hardback, rigid spine
Securing tight the story inside
I won't hesitate to turn your page
Of autobiographical love and rage
I'm not interested in what you show on stage
Your brutal truth is what I crave

I've decided to stop reading the news
It's full of contradiction and misinterpreted views,
Bending of truths like a novelists muse
Inciting inspiration, stimulation, radicalisation but, never the truth of the situation
Just a public announcement of the wrong account, a miscommunication or fake revelation
Is it an attempt at entertainment?
Lacking empathy, a cold report with no sympathy
Of death, disaster and misery
Attacking humanity
As they relish at the world flying in to abyss
I can't be alone wishing we would all hug and kiss
So, instead I've turned to poetry, where theres no need to encourage, provoke or lie
For words of poem can reach the sky, you cant deny
My interpretation is all I need to see
Where thoughts can wander, minds can ponder
I never need to wonder, if what's written is fact or fiction
As a poet spilling his heart on paper, writing fast, creating friction
He goes to war with every etching
Of love and emotion of pain of gain
It's truer than the mirror in which you see your face
It reads like silk and flows like lace
Spilling over with generosity, leaving a genuine taste
Whether of love or hate, faith or sin
It's come from within where only truth can win

Oozing charm and fluency, over exuberantly, without vanity or pride or an arrogance of mind
remaining humble and kind
looking just fine
Not with the fittest physic or perfect teeth, manicured hands drenched in gold leaf
Or a sharp suit and tie which underneath emptiness lies
But a beauty that shines bright like a beacon
signalling hardship, success, failure, determination
Strong and truthful
Unapologetically flawed
Lost youth and adult gains
Ageing memories and hunger pains
slight wrinkles, cheeks with dimples
passion,
it's quite simple
perfection is meaningless
It lacks personality and taste
Humility, humour and good grace
The hard times you stared point-blank in the face
However, on the other hand
It's like you're from another land
Im lost
In your perfect imperfections
Filters and airbrush aren't a true reflection
Of the life you've lived of the story you've told
When you've been weak when you've been bold
what made you happy or caused you stress
How you like to chill and rest
Or put your mind and body to the test
I want to see what makes you, you
I long to see it all
For its what makes you beautiful

I'm jotting down words like there's no tomorrow
My minds thinking fast my hands trying to follow
I have so much that I need to say
But your intoxication led me astray
Not because I know your face or name
But the words you speak seep out through your veins
Those words remind me of a lovely lyric
"Oh I've got lightning in my veins"
By the great Rod Stewart
They aren't the best words in the song
"The rhythm of my heart is beating like a drum, with the words I love you rolling off my tongue"
Now they're the ones that get me every time
Turned up loud feeling the vibe, aching from the passion inside

Just as Elton performs his greatest intro
I listen to beat and it's you that I'm in to
The grand piano and the piano man connect as one
Just a mans feelings and an instrumental being, create the birth of a new beginning, a musical feeling has the listener stealing his emotional dealings

Funeral For A Friend / Song For Guy
This song has two titles, I think I know why
The music tells a story and the lyrics can't lie, Guy must've been one hell of a guy
If love lies bleeding in his hands and Elton John's one of his biggest fans

So,
I guess it isn't just me
Who cant find the words so lyrically
For This Song Has No Title, is another one
Maybe he wrote it emotionally numb
Or maybe there just aren't the words to express, the way the music beats powerful and strong through his chest
So this song has no title just words and a tune, I'll keep on writing by light of the moon

There's a fight between my head and heart
My head is yelling get up and start
Frustrated by your idle ways
You can't just stay in bed all day
Seize the day! Don't daydream it all away

I want to, honestly I do
But my hearts so heavy it's because of you
You give me these pains
You paint the images in my brain
That make me want to stay here and think
I'm afraid what I might miss if I blink

But you won't miss a thing, these thoughts aren't even true
If you get up and try, you might find something new
Something that makes you forget the pain
That makes you feel like you again

I'm being stupid I know
I think I'm enjoying feeling so low
I'm not being lazy, although it may seem
It's exhausting running your thoughts on my screen
And I know you're well aware of that
Your making my heart beat fast
Deep down you also want these images to last
If you let go, I could let go to
But it isn't really what you want to do
You say it's all me, but we work as a team
You paint the pictures I bring the steam
Without my fuel your paint would dry
Without your paint I just might die

She was the ocean
Humming enchanting song
Temperamental
Often wrong

He was the wind
Gentle but strong
Effortlessly Kissing her
As the day is long

She complained of her flaws and all that had gone
He told her he loved her all along
She dismissed his words
He didn't understand her rage
He was flawless on every new page
You don't have rips or breaks nor tone
You are the wind so strong and bold

My love you misread what you are told
I'm only strong when you are mad
I'm only bold when you're sad
My strength comes from you
I'll protect you from your storm
I'll hold you close and whisper your name
Until you feel safe in my arms once again
When you are calm and glistening bright
I'll tell you it's all going to be alright
I'll never tire of your changing moods
For I am the wind it's all I allude
I'll tell you I love you till the wind is no more
And the ocean has dried up revealing the floor

Hi

I'm kenya83
You don't know me

I'm not great at saying what I see
So I jot it down in poetry

When it's down in black n' white
I can recite it when the moments right

That moment may not come
But my song I would've sung

So I sing it to myself
And keep my dancing in the house

Scared you'll hear my melody
Or catch me dancing funnily

Through fear of looking silly
I may come across as busy

When the truth that does remain
Is that your vision eases pain

When will I learn that my only regret
Will be the moments with you I didn't get