I hate having to hide
What I feel inside
I am crazy
But the best people are
All I want is you next to me
I just want to be let inside

I want that midnight stroll,
Under that moonlit sky,
With both of us blushing,
Not being able to hold a gaze.

With smiles from ear to ear,
Biting our lips so lightly,
Slowing our walking pace,
Until we stop.

With my hand on your waist,
Moving my hand towards your cheek,
Brushing that one hair from your face,
Being nervous before our embrace

I know I push myself too much on you
Secretly I think you will help fix me
But it seems all my dreams
Are just an escape from this place

My focus and drive are now
On something new
One day I will look back
And forget about all this blue

I wish for once,
This would be different,
Nothing has changed,
Maybe I should be patient,
But I've waited 2 years for this,
I can't give you anymore

Today is the only reason you have a Facebook,
So people you once knew, say hello on this day,
Just a reminder that you exist, as sad as it is.

But you want one message more than others,
I left the silence because maybe just maybe,
Today is the day ... we might talk again.

Effort was attempted, but mistiming by both
But I'm left with where was my message?
I didn't want silence today, Is this a sign?

I say I'm ready to give it a rest, but we all know,
Within a heart beat I would want us together,
Maybe you genuinely don't care.

Happy ******* birthday

I wake up and I want to cry
I wake up and I want to hide
I wake up and pretend I’m fine

I tell myself

I will be fine as I hide my thoughts
I will be fine as I put on a fake smile
I will be fine as I try not to cry

A pretty face
Then my wall goes down
That's all it takes...

I feel like centuries
Have gone by
But it's been days...

I'm not build for this world
I fall deep and hard
And end up being the fool

We have been here before
Standing on the edge of a cliff
Knowing if we both jumped
We would pull through together
We wouldn't fall, we would fly

I should have jumped back then
I was ready, it was time
Praying
As I took the leap
Would your hand would reach mine?

This time, the cliff is not as steep
As I steady myself
Less sure now, as I was back then
Praying your hand will grasp for mine
It all feels rushed, time is on my mind

If with one kiss,
You can feel the pain,
This year has given me,
I will forgive you for everything.

I recently passed that park
The one where you told me
With tears rolling down your face
'Your gonna hate me'

It never felt real
I wasn't mentally there
All I could do was sit tight
And prepare for a dark, dark night

I have seen so many things
Good, surprising but also soul destroying.
I am changing everyday
I don't know if it's a good thing or not

it's been a while
Since I felt like this
But my god you I miss