When listen about date of exam
Feelings got high and uncalm
Being company of books inevitable
Now condition of students deplorable
Having pressure smacking clock fatuously
Yawning and laziness offing continuously
To see books again and again become petulant
But thinking about exams it takes dissentiment!

Due to exams sleep devoured
Neither subject nor weather favoured
Time ate to last morsel the pleasure
And to do best alter one's nature
Pretending today's work to next day
Lastly purge to  get something we have to pay!!

So many times
Whenever i got chance
In every circumstance
I expose my feelings
For her it's thrilling
She is normal
Even so formal
But i can't help myself
In such type of dealing!

I miss your sitting
             beside me
My hand in your hand
            holding tightly
Sitting on one bench
                       together
Warming ourselves
        2 cups of coffee
And that cold weather !

Telling things about
                   ourselves
Which are unknown
     To me and to her
Now uncared about
           coldness and
Persons coming
             and gone
Being first meeting
Seeing in her eyes
Busy in get- together !!

In the library trying
                          To read
Eyes are sleepy
Yawning is continuous
To save me
A cup of coffee what
                        I need!

Looking out from the
                         Window
Nothing new only sunshine
                          So
Made myself busy in counting
                                          Fan
Other time spreading fake smile to
                                Unknown man
Whenever try to read words
                              In book
I am sicking of laziness
Which is crook!!

Having time with my
                 First girlfriend
I hold her hand
               In my hand
Gone to movie theatre
Before the interval
I hugged her many
                       Times
  And had a kiss
                    Later!

     I felt exalted
Out of the world
Happiness flickered everywhere
I walked in the seventh heaven
And feeling of ecstasy
Which refrained in me
All i wanted that time
            Was to share!!

The next morning
Having the same excitement
Of yesterday feeling
I told everything with joy
  To my friends
       Here and there
            I didn't care
Was it wrong or fair?!!!

      She slapped me
Made red cheek of mine
You exaperated her
Asking about that time
  Now *******! you felt fine!!!!

Newspaper on the floor
It's already 9:38
Oh! **** i am
    very late
I missed my
     breakfast
Being a lazy mate !

With half opened
                  eyes
Neither i arise
Nor open the
              door
Already in blanket
I will be sleeping
                  more !!

Now finally i arose
           with a bang
Because my phone
                     rang
It's already 1:45
so much in haste
            and hype
Barely i have lunch
It's not a instance
       of a single day
It's a often play !!!

Trying to stand
  '' go, go..go"
As said my friend
    But of no use
I found no reason
  So much confusion
Desert in my throat
    I filled with water
But it helps
       Of course not !

Many thoughts came
                 and go
A river of ideas
              In my mind
   With fast flow !!

Neither star nor moon
I give you ever soon
Not in habit telling a lie
You believe me as true guy
Nay me fond of to boast
Because i exact know true love's cost
Can't promise to you fatuously
To stop smacking heart obviously
If life does not exist
Where the love persist
Not love render body to other
Love's fidelity among couples at par
Being body's pleasure short lived
Have no conform cause true love thrived!

Having many irons on fire
Willing to die in harness tire
Take boll by horns to weather
Bound with the birds of feather
Sweat, thirst being leap in dark
Can see rotten vest pale mark!

Yet throw gauntlet to cut a gardian knot
Exalte the trap wince it's fate wrote
By the pinch of salt to stop
Make out rest on laurels! nope
Being at sea about own strife
Do i drag it or the life!!

Everyday in library
She sits in front of me
Or i can say
I want to sit there
To make her see!

She is very calm, very quiet
Her eyes looking straight
           Towards the book
Catching the words
          Neither left nor right!!

       Smiled once in a day
       It seemed as if
   Sun comes out from
                       black clouds
        Her face shined
    In the same way!!!

       I tried to see her
       To read her face
       For having clues
Not a single wave of
         Expression i seen
                       It's abstruse!!!!

Freed me, Freed me
You lost away
Have chosen your way
Why don't you make
         Me live free
Come to me
      You can see
I am breathing
In a prison of
          Your memory !

Wash it away, Wash it away
My mind, It's full of
Reasons about you
your way of looking turning
Back then smiles
Our endless talkings with
            A Long walk to miles
Lost in the dark
                   You
I just followed the
       Darkness
In the dark      
        To seek spark
                    Of my way true !!

I am fully dressed
Covered from head
                      To toe
But persons are
Looking at me
As to get the meat
The gaze of crow !

My knowldge, My skill
My nature, My will
My choice, My aim
My hard work, My name
They don't know these
                              Things
Never wanna care about it
All want they flesh
Don't they know that
In the depth of skin
There is a heart
Of which feelings
And emotions are the parts !!

Firstly
Please do one thing
Stop my heart first
I can't face with my person
                                A fight
Don't want to crush myself
                       After facing it


Now do what you
          Wanted to do
You wanted to win
               Over me
Now unanimously yours
But dn't think now
It's flesh of soil
Because that's what
          You wanted
  All the time
And did crimes
But now
My soul is with me
           **safe and free

Not so long ago
She told me
I want your hand
Please hold me!

In a very few time
She expressed her feelings
I can’t believe
Even don’t want to keep
Her words were fake
Girl with false face
So expert in such dealings!!

Were so far away
I thought it doesn’t matter
If you are enough better
To make a way
From heart to heart
Not to keep them apart
With the flow of love
By cleaning doubts’ dirt!!!

My words were alive
I was committed to keep them
Hers were only part of discussion
Of no value so shame!!!!

That girl, that night
      Till now
Not out of my sight
  I didn't sleep
Happy from innerside
  Feelings were deep
Girl! of brown color
   With bright eyes
Smile on face
   I felt very nice!

Sans anyone chance occurs alone
Thinking of couthy feelings  got up the pen
And nice debanoir therein whisper none
Some banal cliches to mind with whom what
                                                              new i can !

Same time notice the leaf to fall
But it's zeal to down for some time win
It's reeling making childish call
Gruff wind reave it being of nature's mean !!

Wind's deed to be gruesome
To deprive it from origion
Wind doing this continued but leaf's mum
Because of strength that's main reason !!!

She said to me
     hi, hi
I felt very
  shy, shy
I rejoiced without cause
  But don't know
      why, why
I want to fly
Up, up
In the sky
Without wings
High, high !

What i got
That smile is brought
Whether it is
     Reflection of love
Or attraction
       On every reason
I thought !

I did mistakes
Every time, every type
Nonsense things
Made me so hype
At that time
I was so agressive
Even so possessive
Whenever i saw her
With some other boy
Or even to enjoy
My feelings got high
I felt very bad
My face got red
I could'nt do anything
Anger made me mad
I only hurted myself
From outer to inner
I loser, she winner
I hated everything
She made me a sinner
I wept, she slept
I woke, she joke
To love her my mistake
She only mock
She replied
And apllied
So easily
So causaly
It's hard for me
Not her to see
Not her to talk
So alone to walk
In life
And to strife
To achieve heights
Two ways for me
To end or to be

I am a little rat
To make you  
       Out of the trap
With the teeth of
                  Reasons
With energy of facts !

I am little but
               Crazy
To make you out
               Of dazy
Only make me sure
You believe me or
                         Nor !!

Dear ! you cry
I don't know why
Because i give you
Reasons to be happy
     My ways
To make you out
Of the prison of
                 Grief
And life's mazes !!

Wings of hope
To elevate your confidence
                                       High
To change your rage
Into the stubborness of win
Heart with strong will
To fly in the free sky !!!

Thinking about i were in jail
So peaceful, all alone in a cell
Will have enough time to know
                                          myself
Reminding past things will also
                                           help
A notebook , a pen what i need
Everyone listens what my words will
                                                      tell!