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Oct 2024 · 165
How it feels to breathe
Phia Oct 2024
The air I breathe
Feels like bricks
In my chest
Oct 2024 · 767
The daily routine
Phia Oct 2024
Wake up
Go to work
Lay in bed alone
Feeling the crushing weight
Of loneliness
And all my past mistakes.

Repeat
Oct 2024 · 192
AMB
Phia Oct 2024
AMB
Meeting you
Was like listening
To my favorite song
For the very first time
And already knowing
All the words

Already knowing
It’d be my favorite.
Reminiscent on what was once mine
Oct 2024 · 375
To love him
Phia Oct 2024
Loving you is like being awake
But falling into the sweetest dream.
Sep 2024 · 515
Miserable consistency
Phia Sep 2024
And now,
the only constant in my life
is my depression
i'm sorry that most of my writing is about my mental health and depression. This feels like the only place I can let some of it go so that it doesn't **** me
Sep 2024 · 930
nightmares
Phia Sep 2024
in my dreams
i am drowing in a sea of emotion.
my head held just below the surface of the water
and all i have to breathe through is a straw
i have these intense nightmares. In my dreams my chest feels heavy and i scream and scream but nothing comes out. It's like the air is getting shoved back into my lungs and I can't breathe. It feels like i'm suffocating and i wake up in a panic.
Sep 2024 · 1.8k
The moon
Phia Sep 2024
I wish for a love
As romantic
As the moon
A symbol of eternity, life, and love.
Aug 2024 · 337
Song pt 2
Phia Aug 2024
and when i see you
with your new love as i pass by
the smile and the laugh
of a man that was once mine
maybe that's just how all of this
is supposed to be

I think of our life
and how special our love was
I worry no time can heal
the loss of what was once ours
I just pray to god that
you won't forget about me.
A part 2 to the one i just posted. Again, open to any sort of feedback!
Aug 2024 · 285
another song pt 1
Phia Aug 2024
from the first date we went on
i knew that i loved you
adventures awaited
we shared all of the best views.
i think of our memories
and how they're a full lifetimes worth.

and since you've been gone
i've lost all motivation
the house that i live in
rests on shaky foundation
your love was the last thing
truly keeping me down on this earth.

And as time passes on
i know you'll forget all about me
the love that we shared
just a whisper of memory
you'll move on with your life
and leave me behind in '24

we had plans for our future
and the rest of our lives
ready to take on the world
and whatever problem arise
it just kills me to know
that I can't call you mine anymore
This will probably flow weird. i wrote it with a tune stuck in my head so the tempo of this matches the tempo of that. Open to feedback :)
Aug 2024 · 614
Different days
Phia Aug 2024
Some days are good days
Some days are bad days
Some days I simply exist
I live for the in between
Aug 2024 · 253
The way I loved you
Phia Aug 2024
I loved you with my entire heart
my entire soul
my entire existence.
Every broken part of me
belonged to you.
Found this one kicking around in my journal. I can't tell if these poems sound unhinged...
Aug 2024 · 227
My friend depression
Phia Aug 2024
The curtains close
And leave me in a suffocating darkness.
My senses shut down
And I feel trapped.
My depression, the only thing in the room that I can acknowledge
Sweeps me into her arms
And comforts me with the idea
Of eternity.
Another take on When the Curtains Close - BPD from a few weeks ago. I wish I was a better writer to explain my feelings. Thank you for reading.
Aug 2024 · 616
Love
Phia Aug 2024
I would crawl
across broken glass
just for another chance
at a love like ours.
For the most part I'm okay. I love the relationship that we have now and I wouldn't change anything about it. Sometimes though I wish it could go back to the way that it was.
Aug 2024 · 341
Good byes
Phia Aug 2024
You were the last thing tethering me here
Phia Jul 2024
The curtains close
And leave me in suffocating darkness.
My senses shut down
As I scramble for some semblance of safety.
Only once the curtains have lifted
And the light shines through
Am I able to see the extent
Of the chaos and destruction that I’ve created
It’s like a dissociated nightmare
And a lucid front row seat
To the brutal and ugly aftermath
A little self reflective piece
Phia Jul 2024
It’s getting late now
So pull me in tight
Whisper I love you
And kiss me goodnight
Before you go

Will you remember me
When you go away
Cause I was kinda hoping
that you would stay

Won’t you stay my dear
I promise it’s worth it
We’ll be together
Like it’s the last night of the earth yeah
We’ll sit and watch as the stars explode
But they’ll never shine as bright as your soul
And I promise that I’ll never let you go

It’s getting late now
So let’s look to the sky
Make wishes on airplanes as they
Float on by
I’ll run away
The moment you say so
Just take my hand
I don’t care where we go

Won’t you stay my dear
I promise it’s worth it
We’ll be together
Like it’s the last night of the earth yeah
We’ll sit and watch as the stars explode
But they’ll never shine as bright as your soul
And I promise that I’ll never let you go

So don’t change your mind
We’ll leave this town behind
So don’t change your mind
We’ll leave this town behind

Won’t you stay my dear
I promise it’s worth it
We’ll be together
Like it’s the last night of the earth yeah
We’ll sit and watch as the stars explode
But they’ll never shine as bright as your soul
And I promise that I’ll never let you go
A stupid song I wrote when I was a teenager and in a songwriting class. Thoughts and suggestions would be greatly appreciated cause it’s a mess 😂
Jul 2024 · 440
The way I feel
Phia Jul 2024
I hate that I’m not stronger
I hate that I’m so scared
I hate the control that you still have
I hate that I still care
I hate that I can’t cut you off
That my lips can’t say goodbye
I hate that you still make me laugh
I hate that you still make me cry.
I hate that the only time I write
Is when I’m writing about you
That after everything that’s happened
Your love is still my muse.  
I hate the fact that I still love you
Even if it’s not the same
I hate that we’re in this ******* mess
And I’m the one to blame.
But mostly I wish I hated you
As much as I hate me
Cause maybe then I would be happier
Maybe then I’d finally feel free.
Jul 2024 · 540
Another one for you
Phia Jul 2024
I am defeated
As I lay myself bare
I have nothing left to give
Just some ramblings after another difficult conversation
Jul 2024 · 366
PRH
Phia Jul 2024
PRH
The same lonely walls
Sterile rooms
And dead eyes
Jul 2024 · 246
Loneliness - 6 words
Phia Jul 2024
The loneliness
Is swallowing me
Whole
I hate feeling this way
Jul 2024 · 540
Catharsis
Phia Jul 2024
The sky is crying
And so am I
It’s been a hard month
Jul 2024 · 325
A. B. Again
Phia Jul 2024
Our souls intertwine
Differently now.
My heart beats
Differently now.
Your presence feels
Different now.
Everything
Is
Different
Now.
I love your presence and your company, but nothing is the same anymore.
Jul 2024 · 376
8-words
Phia Jul 2024
I could’ve spent the rest of my life with you
Jul 2024 · 313
I wanna get better
Phia Jul 2024
It’s an odd thing
You know
Having a front row seat
To my own self destruction.
Being so mentally broken
Yet so painfully self aware
I wanna get better
Jul 2024 · 477
Our little infinity
Phia Jul 2024
And in those moments,
However fleeting,
I thought we would make it;
I thought we were infinite
I miss you
Jun 2024 · 641
Music
Phia Jun 2024
And so I wait
For the ghost melodies in my favorite songs
To stop whispering your name
You’re everywhere
Jun 2024 · 770
Smile
Phia Jun 2024
I don’t know the last time the skin
Kissed itself on the corners of my eyes
My laughs are as hollow
As the smile they emanate from
Jun 2024 · 327
An exposed nerve
Phia Jun 2024
You peeled back all of the rotten layers of my existence
Until I laid bare before you
And you planted kisses on my skin
And in those moments I felt seen
I felt understood
I felt loved
Now I feel like an exposed nerve. Cold and alone and in pain
Jun 2024 · 620
To build a home
Phia Jun 2024
Some moments I think I’ll be okay.
Like the earth beneath my feet isn’t shaking
Like my castle isn’t crumbling
Like every fiber of my existence doesn’t belong to you.
But then the earthquakes come
And the waves of emotion ensue
And I’m forced to face the fact
That now I’ll have to cherish the thought of you
For longer than I had you
And I’m forced to face the fact that I will not know The amazing things you’ll do
Nor the amazing person you’ll grow to be
I will no longer know what it’s like
To kiss you
To hug you
To laugh with you
To hold hands with you
To wake up everyday next to you.
To make memories with you

I’ll no longer know what it’s like to grow old with you

You brought me peace
And happiness
And home
I don’t want this
Apr 2024 · 849
A.B.
Phia Apr 2024
I will drop everything,
and stay,
all you have to do
is ask.
Jan 2024 · 814
untitled
Phia Jan 2024
i whisper
"you are my everything"
into the darkness
in hopes that one day
you will echo them back from within
Nov 2023 · 6.3k
For him
Phia Nov 2023
You will always be
My favorite form of self harm
Oct 2023 · 1.5k
I will stay
Phia Oct 2023
I love you,
Ask me to stay and I will.
Tell me you love me
And I will drop everything
And stay.
Oct 2023 · 1.6k
In another universe
Phia Oct 2023
Every time I opened a door
I pray that when I walk through
I’ll be transported to another universe
Where you’re at home waiting for me
On the other side
I can’t tell you I love you. I can’t tell you I miss you. I can’t tell you I want you back
Oct 2023 · 766
If he is then I am
Phia Oct 2023
If I am left,
Then he is right.
If he is day,
Then I am night.
If he is right,
Then I am wrong.
If I am dusk,
He is dawn.
If I am here
Then he is there.
If he is grounded
Then I’m in the air.
If I am weak
Then he is strong.
And if things don’t change
Soon he’ll be gone
Silly little thought from group
Oct 2023 · 2.3k
You, my love
Phia Oct 2023
You,
My love,
Are a walking galaxy.
So full of beauty,
Mystery,
And passion.
You,
My love,
Are a walking miracle;
The entire cosmos in a single being.
You,
My love,
Have the universe in your eyes,
The stars in your soul,
And stardust in your bones.
You,
My love,
Are brilliant in every way.
Remember that the next time
Anyone makes you feel
Any less than what you are
Oct 2023 · 2.3k
To the Tornado
Phia Oct 2023
Since you've been gone,
I have been slowly rebuilding myself.
A garden devastated by tornado
will soon grow the most beautiful flowers.
Another random thought
Oct 2023 · 2.1k
Erosion
Phia Oct 2023
You peeled back
all of the layers of my existence
to reveal cracks
in my weathered being.
My soul eroded and destroyed
from the harshest of rains
and the most unforgiving storms
Just some random thoughts.
Oct 2023 · 3.3k
Dear Little Warrior
Phia Oct 2023
Dear fierce,
and little warrior.
The battle you are fighting
will not be won overnight
and your sword is so heavy.
You deserve to put it down;
you deserve to rest.
I wrote this for my friend, but really it's for everyone. It's to people who are fighting their own battles. Who are way harder on themselves than they should be. It's for the people who need to know that it's okay to take some time, it's okay to rest.
Oct 2023 · 2.0k
Dandelions
Phia Oct 2023
I’ve resorted to making wishes on dandelions
For miracles
I know
Will never come
Oct 2023 · 1.1k
6 words
Phia Oct 2023
Why am I not good enough?
Really in my feels tonight
Oct 2023 · 1.8k
To my missing pieces
Phia Oct 2023
I gave you
A piece of me
Under the impression
That you
Would put a piece of you
Back in its place.
But time and time again,
I am left wanting.
Empty
And alone
With nothing left
To give
Getting some feelings out. I am so sick of people leaving. I can’t do it anymore
Oct 2023 · 1.6k
Tattoos
Phia Oct 2023
She covers her body in art
Hoping one day someone will look at her
And think her beautiful
Oct 2023 · 4.0k
Headstones
Phia Oct 2023
Etched into my headstone
please write
"eternally happy,
eternally free"
Oct 2023 · 4.2k
Morning depression (TW)
Phia Oct 2023
This morning
I sat in the shower
Staring at the razor
On the edge of my tub
Wondering
If the water would turn cold
Before my body did
Oct 2023 · 1.5k
For Him (Part 5)
Phia Oct 2023
Your words cut deep
like daggers as they leave your mouth
but all my brain hears is
he loves me,
he loves me,
he loves me
Oct 2023 · 1.4k
For Him (Part 4)
Phia Oct 2023
I wanted you to love me
so I tried to play your game
I changed everything about myself
but for me you never changed.
I wanted you to love me
so I made myself so small,
but I loved, and cared, and nurtured you,
I wanted you to have it all.
I wanted you to love me,
I became a chameleon just for you,
I thought the harder I love, the better you'd be
but in the end that wasn't true.
I wanted you to love me
I changed my attitude, my clothes, my hair.
I  became so unrecognizable
you didn't even ******* care.
I will never be enough for you
no matter how hard I try.
I think it's time to let you go
I think it's time to say goodbye.
But God, I wanted you to love me
the way no one ever had
but now I've come to realize
loneliness doesn't sound so bad.
Just a late night thought. I **** at titles .
Oct 2023 · 2.5k
To Goodbyes
Phia Oct 2023
One by one
the list gets longer.
Promises of continuity
turn into emotional tourism.
The word "goodbye"
has built a permanent home
behind my teeth.
But despite the familiarity,
I am still left with a bitter taste.
Alone, I choke on the silence
as I sit in the presence
you once filled
wondering what the hell
is so wrong with me
that no one ever stays
Oct 2023 · 711
On Love
Phia Oct 2023
How many times
must I fall
before I stumble
upon the right one?
Just a dumb thought
Sep 2023 · 1.8k
A.B. (Part 22)
Phia Sep 2023
You are my favorite chapter
in the story of my life.
Your page is dog eared
so once I reach the end,
I can come back to you.
Random thought I had. I'm not sure if it's any good.
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