An ache,
Keeps me awake...
A burning sensation drives me insane...
A typical thirst seems to burst in my vein...
I feel am awake yet am asleep...
Tossing and turning trying to leap...
Sweat drops making uneasy to concentrate...
Of what am dreaming is of my creminate...
Seeing myself set alight an image figure...
A weird look while I was the main trigger...
Who is the other me? I got to see...
A rising desire in attempt to be free...
I hear voices whooping in my ears...
Trying to focus but am captured with fears...
I closed my eyes to shrug off the feel...
To wake up and break off from this reel...
Few hours have past, laying as dead on my bed...
I recall the dream,  Now I really feel scared...
It's morning, yet a part of me is still away...
Where could it be? , perhaps lost its way...
I for the other me was burning my feelings...
It's so disturbing now to remember such killings...

©sim

In my dream
Am broken
My fleshes eaten
My body rotton
My bones taken
As ritual of token
With words unspoken
I broke through
Wide open
My leased body
In the ***** oven
Unworldly beings
Never ever seen
I was soon shaken
To waken
From a bad dream...

©sim

The rain pours unsteadily
Like how my tears do
Slowly and swiftly
Turning my days blue

The beats of my heart
Struggles to pace
Leaving me shattered
With a puffed up face

Sitting by the rear window
Glancing at the raindrops
Pouring tears inside
One slit and the blood drops

Slow breaths but still alive
A prescription to pain relief
Has plucked my senses
And refreshed my mind

Gone are the loved ones
As I remember and grief
Accidents happen rapidly
Leaving lives blown,
             like a quivering leaf...


©sim

My eyes close every morning
And stay open each night
The dreams I've lost moaning
Upon which I try to fight
The misunderstandings growing
I did have a clue
You despite knowing
Turned my days to blue
It's quite upsetting to know the reasons
But didn't know you'd change like seasons
What else is there to take from me?
Take every of the things you see
I am just left with my breath and a heart beat
You crushed my soul and dressed up neat
Waving me a goodbye with a throw kiss
If only it mattered to him, how much I miss...

©sim

Once I flashed like a cosmic star
Shone like a diamond from afar
An introvert with a class
My dreams transparent like a glass
While many challenges toss me in a corner
Picking myself up has become an honor
However, dreams shattered like thunder
Disappearing the gravity from down under
Let alone on a lone path of misery
Living through, has become a necessity
There is no complain of life that I am in
Yet negative auras surround me from within
As I smile and push myself forward
The bad energies lag itself backwards
Such life is a matter of living
Consuming positive auras and giving
To the unfortunate who are grieving
I am sure,
              love makes their soul light up when receiving...

©sim

While receiving the daily alms
From houses far and near
A blind beggar walked passed
Wiping off his sweat and tear

As he neared the temple steps
To praise and thank the gods
The people laughed at him
Leashing out hurtful words

Some sitting on the steps
Taunted him of being blind
"O' blindman you can not see god"
"How will he accept your praise of kind"

"If I can't see, he who sits on the shrine"
"It's totally fine to pay my respect"
"Atleast my god can see me if I can't"
"And like you, he will never reject!"

I watched the entire scene silently,
Of the people with the same beliefs
A blind can not offer praise
Coz his doings are based on griefs

How meek and judged, the people are
Believing in everything they see
Hearing people preach of god
Forget that god resides in you and me...

©sim

My heart is broken
My soul is torn
My spirit has woken
My body all worn

My bones have shattered
My eyes are closed
The vultures have gathered
The deads aroused

My heart now bleeds
My soul deliberately shivers
My spirit helplessly feeds
On the flowing rivers

I was hated by many
Loved by few
I never owed a penny
But who knew

I was stabbed in the heart
On a cold drizzling night
Awfully broken apart
No, I wasn't in a fight

Left to die with so much pain
My life in complete vain
Dragged in the stormy rain
And shoved in a clogged drain...


©sim

Fueling my day with a refreshing drink
Over a cup of coffee, my mind sets to think
Another long day with you off my mind
A lie I tell myself each day that you off a kind
Each sip from the cup, brims my eyes with tears
So much of you left in my head, though its being years
Looking at my phone with your picture on the wall
Everytime I sight it, I wish you would call
Leaving my cup half empty, my phone beeps
Thinking its my work call, I quickly take the last sip
The voice kicked my emotions high
When he called and this time he didn't say goodbye
My heart glows with love again but on guard
Not expecting too much, this day is gonna be hard
He hasn't forgotten me, I am still in his heart
Meeting at the same place where once we grew apart
What's gonna be this time, I hope it's our new start
He adores my love, he's still my part...


©sim

They called her ugly
And she cried in silence
I walked to her
We sat and talked for few hours*

My theory 1
While God was making you
He received a call
So he quickly tried to finish the physic of you
Only left was to put a soul in you
So he went to attend the emergency
By the time he got back to you
He realised that you looked ok but not perfect
Since he loved you so much he placed a beautiful soul in you
Therefore, my dear a person with the right vision will see this beauty beyond your ugliness

My theory 2
God made another, very beautiful person
The perfect being, the mesmerizing body
Everything was so godly perfect
As God was about to put a beautiful soul in this body
He was called in emergency, so he left his work there,
By the time God got back, he was bit disturbed
So he placed an ugly soul in this perfect being
Realizing later of what he did
God said, only the people with the right vision will see what you are from within
Likewise, my dear many will be enchanted by your beauty and this beauty will cover up your ugly soul
After this talk this girl felt happy and glad
That she was worth the same as the other made by the same God
Be blessed of who you Are from inside out...


©sim

I dream of no one
As you are my reality
Besides you, I have none
You are my serenity

My love for you is beyond these ties
Not of any hatred or sorrowful lies
The depth of an ocean shall be my witness
Our souls shall always unite

I kiss your lips and hug you tight
You are my world, you are my knight
You make me feel beautiful and bright
No matter how dark, the night

Lay here in my arms
Let me feel your beat
Your sneaky smile, plays a charm
Now I feel the heat...


©sim

Sitting out on the porch,
Watching the **** cockroach,
Flying from wall to wall,
Oh! I've just seen it fall,
Now running on the floor,
It neared the main door,
With a blink of an eye it disappeared in the dark,
Not long I saw a shadow mark,
And that of a tree gecko leaping from the side wall,
Flew in the cockroach from the tree tall,
I saw the gecko aiming at its prey,
Moving slowly camouflaging itself as grey,
The roach froze and Bingo! the gecko caught its prey...

©sim

The rain is falling
My heart is calling
Emotions are crawling
Tears are rolling

The sun stopped shining
My mind kept whining
Feelings almost breaking
Through nights awakening

Rain and shine
Washed away by wine
A trait of a liar - pain
Freezing my body then my brain

An empty bottle - unlid
Loving you - I did
Hurt throughout, left in mid
O' what a way to get off rid

Days would return for you
Running and searching in view
For I would be gone by then
With a written letter -
                                   and a broken pen...


©sim

My pen is broken
My watch is broken
My heart is broken

The ink is soaked
The watch is choked
The heart is stroked

My pen strapped
My watch tapped
My heart wrapped

Pen was cleaned
Watch was whined
Heart was bandaged

Hand began to write
Watch turned the hour right
Heart sank with plight

I capped the pen
When the hour turned ten
I let my heart learn

©sim

For the people I have known
From my past to present, whom I call my own
Am I alive in their thoughts
Or just a buried memory, I hope not!

I always think of the one's I've met
The one's that are not easy to forget
These are the people who are now hard to get
Busy with their lives, I would most probably bet!

Yet, here I pen my write
Of these wonderful people that tagged along
Life was almost like a movie song
Until I was left alone to fight!

Walking alone on the rough paths
I often wandered about others
With whom I felt, now apart
In my own dark world, am going  end to start!

Everyday seems same,
As if the Gods planned a game
Betting on me, aiming at me
I do not utter nor do I blame!

Years have passed, am not the same anymore
Once a cheerful, now sitting a bore
With every part of my body full of aches and sore
My heart ripped off till the core!

I am alive, I live for each day
With open and close eyes, I usually stare
The paths on which I walk today
Maybe it's just a challenge to bare!

Tears do fall like rain
When no one is around to feel my pain
Each day my brain plups to stress and strain
Yet, I bury my sorrows and all my pains!

Now I rest my pen here
As tonight seems a night to sleeplessly stare
Creepy thoughts crawl as fear
Light at the end of the tunnel, in my sense...is rare!


©sim

Who would want to gather
The ripped pages of my heart
Drowned in pain and solitude
Like lying in a rusted cart

Faded ink, tell half stories
Dirt patches with blurred writing
Torn edges, blood stains
Emotions died around fighting

A drought in the tear glands
Unorganized memories scattered
A lifeless body with no hope
None to them, I ever mattered

My bed, like an open grave
The four corners seem to sink
My brain has stopped working
My eyes won't even blink

But there is still a tiny light
Far, that I can see too well
Perhaps my hope is slowly reviving
From the time I blindly fell...


©sim

He raised high, like a star
Into the bleak sky
Full of dreams, yet so far
Where the armed angel lie
A drop of rain fell that very moment
Right into the heart of the earth
More drops followed, only to torment
The one, to whom I gave birth
My child, my grave maybe deep
But my love for you is deeper
I have been put to sleep
Yet, I'll always be your well-wisher
I am your mother, afterall dear
You may forget me, but how can I?
Your million dollar earn per year
Has parted you from me, why?
Call me, when you in need, my brave
I'll always watch over you, my child
Remove the weeds from my grave
As my existence, has vanished in the wild
When you breakdown, and yearn for my love
Remember to watch the same sky
Flying high, I'll be the white dove
Because a mother's love, is not a lie...

©sim

I am a bad liar
Emerging from a fire
With a rage of thunder
My head buried under
Like a loaf in a pan
The gist of an angry man
From the cloud of fools
Where no one rules
Why the mentalation
A feel of hesitation
Here sitting lone
Shivers through my bone
Carrying burden of the past
My sleep comes last
Whom am I fooling
There's a force that's pulling
Into the abyss noon
Thought of death so soon
Yet, I breath again
With the same pain
Living, counting my days
As my head lays
Towards the sky
But then...
It all seems a lie

©sim

The morning dew on the grass
Feels like sheets of glass
One could walk on bear foot
To feel the chills and pure bliss
See how the dews drop to kiss
Each flower that blooms today
An amazing morning, a lovely day...

©sim

A princess to be,
No one yet to see,
The witch has kept me high,
Where no one can reach even if they try,
Living and learning the world through books,
The witch has cast me with good looks,
Up high in the tower is where I reside,
Waiting for a rescuer to come by my side,
With locks of hair braided tight,
I know my prince is out of sight,
Soon I shall be free from this dreadful lonely place,
Where I have been kept like a prisoner in a tall case,
Today I saw a handsome guy on a white horse,
Dressed like a prince wearing a holy cross,
Our eyes met but he could not reach me,
He assured that he will come back for me,
I let my hair down and up came my dream,
Took me away while the witch cried with scream,
Locked up high she lives in the lonely tower,
Without any sorcery without any power...


©sim

Birds in big cages
So beautiful and rare
I've drawn on pages
To show and share

Am not an artist
But I've done few sketches
Vectors and shadings
Only real eye catches

To me, it looks funny
My drawings are terrible
To see real ones, you need money
Oh and my sketches are horrible

Some say, I've done good
My drawings look like birds
I guess, it's just my mood
Being unrealistically absurd...

©sim

The demons within weakens my energy source,
******* my thoughts blocking my mind with force,
My heart is bleeding, am gusting for life,
Feeling slashes over slashes with a sharp steel knife,
A mourning pain bearing every night,
Caught in the storm with shock and fright,
Fogs blurring my vision to see ahead,
Unaware of the dangers that awaits once led,
Out of positive energy feeling guilt inside,
Non I can see walking by my side,
No light, no positive vibes, no auras surround me,
Am left to find my way back to free as I want to be,
This happens every night when the moon is full,
I feel my mind getting twisted shrugging off the pull,
The hideous demon roaming in my mind growing cold,
Stirring a whirlpool to be drowned yet I hold,
For the night to pass till I meet the morning lights,
Feeling better to be out of the miserable nights...


©sim

The voices in my head aren't real,
Real to my ears are the hisses and whispers
Whispers of who, as I turn around to see
See if there is someone, but no one besides me
Me and the silence are besties these days
Days pass and I hear same on alternative time
Time of the day mostly towards the noon
Noon goes by and night approaches soon
Soon after the sunset, all becomes calm
Calm as in, no hisses or whispers in surround
Surround of breezy moon filled night
Night of romance, full of love
Love of that whom I miss
Miss but its being too long since we spoke
Spoke last, few years back I remember
Remember all of the shatters you drowned me in
In the loneliest path, you left me to freeze...

.....Now I sit quiet and breath,
                   for my life is worthy and not just some shyt!!!


©sim

Close your eyes
Hear my voice
Forget the lies
Ignore the noise
Just hear me out
Feel my agony
I will not shout
To these misery
The ache of plight
You out of reach
Took your flight
Yet expect to preach
Such hideous task
You drew me in
I took off your mask
You poured out your sin
My world crushed
You were sick joke
Life you trashed
My tears soaked
Eyes open wide
Another committed sin
My body you hide
In a ******* bin
You set me on fire
My spirit cried
Wrapped me with wire
To free, I tried
It was too late
To have me recover
Now I'm your fate
You shall discover
I am dead already
You my prey
Just be ready
I'm on my way...

©sim

The court ruled
the verdict,
Guilty to fall
in love,
The attorney made
a predict,
That my love will fly off
like a dove,
The sentencing came rather
from above,
But why am I dead, yet still
burning in love...

©sim

Into the sky
I see you fly
I doubt my vision
But you on a mission
You have metal feathers
With a shiny armour
Very proudly you fly
With untamed drama
An air strike flight
Shooting in the skies
The day seems night
How fast the time flies
The peacekeepers
Rescuing the survivors
The hell gatekeepers
Leash with tank drivers
I am a child of today
But tomorrow I may never see
Gunning and shooting all the way
Escape seems not a key
Surrounded by forces
Am lost in the middle
Wondering the causes
Of a naked needle
Onto the helpless people
That strive to survive
Stained in blood, some now criple
Few still alive, am one of them
SHOOT US DOWN!!!
As I light this lamp
Oil drapes on my gown
Death surrounds the camp
What day is today?
What date is today?
Don't mark my death
Don't light a lamp.......
........in our memory, I pray!!


©sim

The demeaning pain, gusts through my heart
With every single blow of the words, slapped into my ears
An echo of love and hate spewing down my veins
Screaming those romantic words, that once carried beautiful meaning
Dark clouds poured and raged a heavy storm
In which my tears were washed down
And,
once again I got torn and broken
By that someone.....who was my own



©Seema Sen, 2020

When the winds will blow
And the stars will glow
When the waves will pour
And kiss the sandy shore
When the dark night shines
On the growing vines
When the thorns will wrap in
And I bleed from within
When my lips get sealed
And no one by to heal
When my tears will dry
And my surround gets dead
Don't you cry
Don't get sad
Just wipe the dust off my lips
And kiss me a goodbye
So my spirit feels at bliss
While flying out, up in the sky...


©sim

I've already been to those cliffs
Which he mentioned earlier
After all my cries and sniffs
I managed to break through the barrier
*
     The limits that are bounded within
     My self restrictions of moving onward
     The ugly scars and my torn skin
     Has eventually led me forward

     One step at a time, reaching to the peak
     Wild winds pushing me from side to side
     As I search for the answers that I seek
     Where in my head is there a place to hide

     Thinking over my past and present thoughts
     Of my importance in his life for once
     A feeling of regret and self pity caught
     Now I realise why he's gone for months

     My ego and arrogance standing like a wall
     Not letting my love and emotions flow
     A last gasp on the edge, before my fall
     He grabbed me suddenly with a blow...


©sim

I felt his gaze
Upon my face
Let low my eyes
Felt rumbling butterflies
No, it was not for me
Or may be
I looked again to see
But gone was he
Was he really eyeing for me
Or was it the other
The one standing behind me
I walked away thinking
To spend my night drinking
In a distance I saw him
Wasn't clear as it got dim
I felt injected
By his gaze
So intoxicating
Full of amaze
The urge to see him again
To drown in his eyes again
Putting my head back
To relax with my latte
Felt someone touch my neck
Startled I ****** back
Hitting my head on the side rack
I saw him smiling
Oh what a timing
He asked to join in for latte
Admitted his gaze
That left me in ablaze...


©sim

Another life, lost
It's such a pity
Up the bay coast
Near the city

You and me
Truth and a lie
How do you see?
A knot or a tie

I scream
You shout
Like that dream
You had doubt

Took your way
In the car
Till this day
I hear from far

Accident caused
Your body found
Speeding forced
Car tumble around

Me at the scene
You in blood
Tortured my sin
Tears now flood

Dressed in black
You in coffin
My emotions lack
Thoughts popping

Buried in peace
I sit on your grave
Torn in piece
For you, I crave

Beside my grave
You lay buried
None were brave
Else we'd be married

Tears more tears
Screams and shout
Fear! now I fear
Which way is out!!


©sim

Beyond darkness
There is no light
I try hard to see
Even in the night

What is this light?
That all talk about
My eyes are restless
My vision is a doubt

I try to see the sun
With my bright eyes
Nothing as per reason
Maybe it's all lies

Yet, I try again to see
But this darkness
Won't fade away
Instead it's drowning me

Blind! That's what I am
Leaving in a world
With no light to guide
And hence being called,

The blind...

©sim