Sitting, curved down
with my legs folded.
Dark cold, in ragged gown,
I've been scolded.

Hatred poised the innocent flower,
wilted the bud before bloom.
Eluded from its growing power,
and vased me in this dark room.

Several days without water and food,
the flower froze as in a frame.
Bonney structure lay as good,
player was done with his game.

No ashes sprinkled in my name,
No final words uttered in grace,
No one even came to claim,
And thus, closed went my case.

But I am, still not free,
from this bound of hope.
My spirit, searching for those three,
who later tied me up with a rope.

My spirit would not rest,
till all three are dead the same way.
Making them feel at their best,
I'll make sure, they all pay...



©sim

The smile, the beauty, the style
Disappeared within life's mile
Your talks, your walks, your moods
Vanished like a deer in deep dark woods
You changed,
How you changed?
There are no feelings to exchange,
How strange!
Now you stay out of range,
One moment you are within my reach,
The other moment you are out-of-reach,
I feel the stone cold stigma in you,
But you have denied my view,
I saw you talking to yourself,
Which I thought was normal for oneself,
Little did I care then, that you were two within one,
A hard fact to understand and overcome,
Was of a personality disorder syndrome,
Of what one could say of schizophrenic state,
How could I understand this so late,
You are no longer same for me,
Neither you want me around nor see,
Doctor's have done their best,
Is this my life's real test?
It's ok to walk away from me strangely,
But I will not give up easily,
There are chances you will be fine,
I will not abandon you cause you are MINE!


©sim

He looked weird
With his long beard
Seems unshaven for many years

Walked like a turtle
With a shiny armor like metal
Hung around his neck were cups and kettle

Swagging with baby like steps
I heard Tip-a-tip-tap
With his walking stick and a whitered cap

I watched him from far
Away from my car
Hip-a-didal-do why you stare like am at a zoo

He mumbled loudly like a roar
From a lions cage somewhere at the core
I kept my pace to see him more

A small man perhaps a dwarf
Making his way towards the near wharf
I decided to head off

As I turned to go
He startled from behind
Saying Sip-aa-say-so

Leaving me speechless
With no clue
Of how he got me out of the blue

He taped his stick
And sat on a brick
He totally looked sick

I said "hello"
He replied "ello"
"I am a weird fellow"

He looked away
Far to the other way
Got up and started his weird song

Tip-a-tip-tap Tip-a-tip-tap
With a say of little
Here I see a cat in the middle
Whose with me...Whose with me
With cups and kettle
Sip-aa-say-so Sip-aa-say-so
With nowhere to go
Hip-a-didal-do Hip-a-didal-do
I have no clue...

©sim

For, my soul is a knight
Darkness stays out of sight
My eyes captures the vision
Of my life's daily mission
I know, you must be thinking
That I am too obsessed and certain
But assuring, my ego is sinking
With a diverse challenged pattern
The insights are behind my smile
When you see me walking a mile
Burying away my grudges and pain
For all the positive energy I can gain
My mind is at echoed peace
But my practice will surely reach
To my embodied childish soul
Peeping in the light, like a timid mole
Feathering my innocent broken heart
That had flames and was ashing apart...


©sim

My mind dwells in a prison
Of its own thoughts
Reasoning out a reason
While untying the knots

My heart, a swamp ground
Where all my emotions sink
My feelings wip around
Stirring my blood, like ink

One drop from my wrist
Soaks within my writing pad
My teary eyes, full of mist
Shows my undesirable regret

This mind, this heart, these eyes
Drown in the darkness of pain
My tongue speaks of thousand lies
While my eyes, drizzles like rain...

©sim

I gave you my heart
You broke it apart
You reached for my soul
That was your ultimate goal
You threw me in the flames
To let burn, the unclaims
My captive soul cried
And over and over tried
But there was no escape
As the shroud was taped
I begged for my freedom
From his evil kingdom
But he let me burn--dead
And took my soul, instead...



©sim

I love the flowers
But hate the thorns
Love rain showers
Until you were gone

I hate my being
You teared my heart
In vain I sing
Saw your depart

The flowers wilt
For you are no more
Drowning with guilt
Who cares anymore...

©sim

Darkness speaks a volume
In a tone,
That fumes my blood,
nurturing my energy
with the rhythm,
that's now, a song.
A tongue of voices
hovering to the tune
picking up the pitch,
that almost hinders the ruin.
A stigma touch
lost in the delusional vibes
with cries of glory
praising the lives.
A hit pandemic carcass
Brews with a story
We all know about...


©Seema Sen, 2020

In the rain,
You boarded the train,
So many stuffs clouding your brain,

I could see the tension rising on your face,
One could tell the wrinkles by trace,

Silently I speak seeing you seated in front of me,
You gazed my way but pretended not to see,

What could be the reason behind your sadness?
Looking away I drown in my own madness,

We have been traveling together for few years,
Yet none had guts to talk cause of our fears,

As we reached the destination, I saw you leave,
I watched you from behind, touched your sleeve
You never responded, that made my heart grieve,

I left the cabin last, noticing a business card,
Flipped it up, I saw scribbled "life is hard"
As I reached my office, I dialed the number on the card,
A sad voice answered, sorry this call is barred,

I called again, this time, I spoke first,
Hi, am Sim, we travel in same train everyday,
Saw you sad, couldn't help calling you today,

I hope I could help if only you could talk,
Lets meet at the coffee shop down the block,

I saw you seated at the usual place,
"Black coffee please"!, I ordered in pace,

He looked relaxed, as our conversation started,
All this while he was thinking of me, which startled,

Things got smooth after a long walk,
With coffee in hand and him with his talk...

©sim

If I had wings
I would fly to you
Whilst the wind sings
Guiding me to you
My dearest love
I want to show you
The stains and scars
Of my crazy heart
All this while kept
Hidden from you
Your trust has won
I will tell you my pains
But remember you've sworn
Not to use it for your gains...

©sim

Above
Below
Core
Dust
Every
Figure
Grieves
Helplessly
In
Juggling
Kneeling,
Lost
­Motivation
No
Opportunity
Plighting
Quite
Rigrously
Silthering
To­wards
Upper
Veins
Where
Xenophobic
Yarns
Zapping

©sim

A wrecked knights plea
In the stormy night
For some food and shelter
Till the approach of light

Dripping and drapping
Some dragging and begging
For the light not to come
While, praying and nagging

The spirit of dead surrounds
While rain of fire showers
Upon the half dead knights
Feeding onto their powers

I am lost to continue this journey
The fog fills in the sight
Howling, splashes all I hear
The hell breaks, tonight...


©sim

I feel the poison flowing in my veins...

   The upcoming darkness shall never prevail...

       My hunt will begin soon, once I recall the trail...

              With shut eyes I picture my enemies fail...


*
©sim

Deep within my soul
Whirls a dark corner
Blinks of my teary eyes
Shows its true owner

Wrapped with rooted claws
Yet, my appearance so neat
A prison out of reach so deep
Even my heart quivers to beat

My soul aches in pain
Upon the dark eclipse rise
I've been fighting this a lot
But now all stir in lies

I'll soon be a different kind
Strapped in with black cord
For my soul is captive
In the realms of the Dark Lord

I am powerless and confused
Walking with an empty head
I do not know myself now
I think, I am already dead...


©sim

Waiting for you on the wet muddy trail
Each day you promise to meet, yet you fail
With my umbrella, standing on this pouring day
Looking hard, looking for you to come my way
It gets dark, so I just return sadly to my house
Seeing lovers on my way some with their spouse
Together with each other, seeing them makes me sad
Internally my heart burns and my mind turns mad
How could you do this to me?
Why are you making me suffer?
Or am I too crazy to walk on any path you desire
I guess you are too busy or just a typical liar
Just by the thought of a liar makes me vehement
Each day you ask me out, has now become a torment
I will no longer walk on this muddy trails
I will no longer wait for you like a forgotten mail
I will just grab my feelings and bottle it up in my heart
I wish I knew this game from the start
But as I hung my head down and walk away
My tears submerge with the rain along the way
I wasted and gave my time that you took for granted
You could have just told me, that am no longer wanted...


©sim

Secrets buried in my heart
As my deep eyes tend to speak
Am an angel from the past
That everyone is trying to seek

Lost in this world of fools
Struggling to free my wings
Breaking all the divine rules
As my fears draws within

My wings freed but torn apart
I kneel to summon my powers
To revive me from the start
While dropping down from the towers

Magical stardust sprinkles on my wings
The moon at its peak full on beam
Rays of spectrum surrounds like rings
Pouring the magic like a flowless stream

New wings and a crown on my head
Sets a sparkle in this dark night
A joy of praise, I gracely send
As I am ready to take my new flight...

©sim

I'll spill my heart to you
But question is...
                              will you listen?
In case my tears come to console
Will you look into my eyes...
                               right to my shivering soul?
Like as usual, if I breakdown crying
Will you think...
                              am just hopeless?
Worst than a whining child
My emotions speaks...
                              but does it reach your heart?
You are going to make fun of me, I know
As you've done in the past...
                               isn't it?
Typically, I'll just smile as I always do
But will you see...
                               beyond my smile
I can shadow off my shattered heart
And you will never know...
                               when it will break apart...
Thank you!


©sim

...and this rain has become my recent enemy
...intoxicating my mood
...torturing me
...doing no good
...oh how much I miss you,
...this rain
...brings in the longing and pain
           my arms, await a hug from you
           my lips, await a kiss from you
           my heart, awaits a satisfaction from you
           my body, awaits a touch from you
...this rain
...brings in the longing and pain,
                                                   ....of you!


©sim

You are not my King
I am not your Queen
Your hands are covered in sin
Yet you vowed to win

Put me in a dungeon
Or lock me up in a tower
My heart shall not melt
Useless would be your power

Dare not force me to abide
You may be brave
But I am not walking by your side
I desperately yell for my grave...

©sim

Let those tears fall
It is not the end
Construct another wall
Build a castle instead

Smile for awhile
And breath the breeze
Breakthrough the piles
Don't hold that sneeze

Let it go, let it blow
Live your life as you want
Live with past or be slow
But never say, you can't!

©sim

The flame is blue
Infront of you
The sky to is blue
Up above you
I am out of view
Find me quick
Amongst the few
Make your pick
A dress of red
Lose hair curls
About you I've heard
I am not of those girls
That play around
Love is my gift
With that I surround
Give me a gaze
Here I lift
My hand to call you
With the burning blaze
Moving towards me
Together we stand
To watch and see
The flame till end
Eyes search for the link
As they start to tame
Unable to think
You start your game
Of hide and seek
Who would win
Will find in a week
It's no sin
To love you like this
A fulfilling desire
Everytime we miss
But this time,
You turned a liar...

©sim

Here we live
Here we die
With all I give
Yet I don't cry
You blame me
You taunt me
My tears have dried
Even when I tried
You harm me
You walk all over me
I see you sad
I see you happy
I think about everyone
But for me, none
I will do my best
On whatever test
I am a mother
And also a father
I am Earth,
Where you took your birth...


©sim

Bearing a heavy load, on my chest
I asked the wind, to push me ahead
Wind said, to lie down for a bit and rest
But my heart feared, my mind scared

One step at a time, to the peak of the cliff
I saw the giant waves clashing upon the fleets
Standing, staring with all my muscles stiff
My heart throbbed, and paced the beats

The dark clouds gathered, sign of a storm
Thunder, lightning, rumble all giving me a call
The lord of death, in its disguised form
I lost all my senses, and I began to fall

So wrong, was I, to nail my own grave
I regained my consciousness, under an old tree
The conversation with the wind, did save
As it put me in a deep sleep, to break free

A dreadful dream it was, to finish my worth
But the living nature helped me gain
And brought back my senses forth
Healing my pain and,
                   washing away my load with rain...


©sim

Miles away I see the crowd
You amongst them
Venging so proud
Laying dead are few
In blood slayed pool
Someone out there knew
You're not an artist but a tool
Someone to banish the wrong
It took time so long
The shadow caster
Of the ravishing past
You the death master
Disguised as the pastor
Has done the dark deeds
Laying away as the soul pleads
No mercy, no love, no care
You forgot the bonds we share
Now you have become a dark soul
So cold, so bold, with ego you hold
Your head up high
Far away, I wave you a goodbye...

©sim

A bleeding heart
A broken pen
Painting an art
With soaked hands

Sorrows deepen
Sinking in darkness
My vision weakens
Losing its sparkness

As you stare from the sketch
Grinning at my pain
I put on color to match
But it washes away like rain...


©sim

A chill ache of fright
I sit here writing tonight
Nothing feels alright
Night is no longer bright

The air seems damp
People crying in their camps
Far away lit are the weak wreckered lamps
Streets overcrowded with empty traffic jams

The night has turned silent
The BANGS! and firings has become violent
The powerful has shown their talent
The leaders abandon with no relent

No rivers flowed in pure
No medicines available to cure
Every epidemic spawn to lure
Death has come upon for sure

Will there be a grave sight?
No one alive to take either flight
Everyone knows the war wasn't right
But weary matters handed in plight

Bloodshed stamped everywhere
Families dismantled from far and near
I myself feel am not getting anywhere
From this graveyard there is no escape to dare

The approach of twilight
The gunning and bombing in daylight
Unpredictable killings and fights
This has dropped the earth from many heights

I see my upcoming death
I feel my stuckup breath
My tears have dried
From so long cries

The world is literally torn
When the evil got born
In its web the humans sown
There is no next dawn

The ground shaking mad
Drowning in the dead
The ink has turn red
I feel the dead wreaths on my bed

Another day left to be
Another trench left to see
Another life left to flee
Another room unlocked with key

All I hear is...
BOOM!!!BOOM!!BOOM!!!
Outside my wretched room
The earth, the humans, the livings, here comes our DOOM!!!
BOOM!!!
Alas!!!


©sim

Tired of tears
Waited for years
Your fake promises
Make believe misses
Dragging with time
Dangling like chimes
Somedays you'd call
Saying you at the ball
Dancing your life away
A realisation shown my way
As you have found other
I was a standby rather
Consoling my heart
I thought over from start
Every lie turned true
Facing all, I got through
Now it's just me alone
With a heart of stone
And YOU,
                    Unknown...!


©sim