If somebody must suffer
Oh then please let it be me
I'll walk in solemn darkness
Just to give you light.

I've faced my demons
And I'll face yours just the same
I'll dance with them
As I did my own
I've danced with the devil
For nights unending.

Give me your pain
And free yourself
Surely I
Can take the burden
After all I may just be human
But sometimes
That's just the best **** thing to be.

There so much I want to say to my dear old friend...
But I doubt I could even manage to hold my pen in my hands...

There's so many things I want to say.
So so very many feelings to write about and get off my chest.
The worlds spinning way too fast for me to follow.
Oh well, I guess. Sometimes there just isn't anything left to say.

I promised you I would never leave.
I swore to myself I would never let you go.

I've still kept my promise.
I still haven't let you go.

But you've just disappeared.
Vanished without a trace.

My dear, we've both hit rock by before
Smashed, crashed, and burned
But now take my hand
We'll let the wind hit our wings
And now we'll take flight
Let's fly away
And find our own little world.

Love is blind
But I am not
And now I
Must watch you
Fall in love
With someone else.

My heart
Like any other muscle
Will rebuild itself
So it is stronger
And harder than it was
Before it broke.

I just pray
That my own heart
Does not become so strong
Because if it does
It will be
Like a heart of freezing stone.

I wonder if she knows
that now when I smile
that tears cascade down my eyes
because when I am smiling
I begin to remember
all of the memories
of the times when she
pulled me back
from the depths of my own mind
and brought a smile to my face

Last night was a terrible night for me.

I was told I'm an amazing person
My girlfriend told me that
Or should I say my ex.
Because she told me I'm amazing
As she also told me she has found someone else.

Am I really that amazing
That you've found someone else
Who can fill my place so easily?

Last night was a terrible night.
Today feels like a terrible day.
I'm looking forward to a terrible month

Last night was a terrible night.
I cried myself to sleep
And woke up with tears in my eyes.
This terrible morning isn't getting any better
As the tears continue to flow.
I think tonight will be
Another terrible night
I'll cry myself to sleep
Because otherwise I'll drive myself insane
And then I'll wake up
Again
With tears on my face
And scattered on my pillow
As I reach to pull you close to save me from the nightmare.

Only to realize
That you're not there any more.

When people ask what's wrong
I'm just going to tell them it's a long story
Because I really really don't want to tell people the whole story
Because that story
Now comes to an end...

This isn't a poem and it's not meant to be. I just want to make one thing clear. This is more of a rant so ignore this if you'd rather not read. My girlfriend broke up with me tonight. She keeps telling me I'm an amazing guy that I'm a great guy. But yet she's leaving me. For another person nonetheless. The things that does to a person... To be told that they're so amazing that their girlfriend is about to leave them behind for somebody else. I really don't know how to deal with this. I'm trying not to just stay here in my brand bawl my eyes out.

Loneliness is the pill you forgot you swallowed.

Tasteless and formless
Moment by moment
It chokes me to death.

My mind is at war with itself.
Neither side willing to give an inch to the other.

"It's like 2 sides
Of the same coin"

Is that what you think?
Is that what you say?

Well flip that **** coin already,
Tell me how this all plays out.
Take me from this constant hell.

Oh look, it's landed on its edge.
Balancing precariously in the middle, just like me.

Now tuck me back into bed,
I guess I'll just sleep forever  
In this haunting nightmare.

I've got a friend
She truly is something
She's such a wonderful girl.

This wonderful girl
Feels dazed and confused
Overwhelmed and unequipped
To handle the trials
That lay ahead.

My wonderful friend
Is more wonderful
Than she'll ever know.

This wonderful girl
Is tough and capable
She can handle herself
In any fight.

However, my wonderful friends
THIS wonderful friend
Has been stripped
Of her pride
By societies jealous thieves.

My wonderful friend doesn't feel quite so wonderful
More So like she's meek, incapable, and unimportant.

Dear friends,
Allow me to set
The record straight.

That beautiful, amazing, strong, intelligent, incredibly wonderful girl is who that wonderful girl truly is.

Inside
&
Out

I dont know anymore,
I'm spending too much time
Staring off into the great beyond
Beyond these four walls
Beyond these bounds in my mind
Hands tied, mouth gagged.

Are you made?
I'm not angry or mad.
Then what are you?
I dont know.

I've always asked for the truth
And I'll return nothing but the same.
So honey, please, give me just this moment,
Just this second of respite.

Take all the time you need
To figure things out.

Pardon me sweetheart,
I don't mean for you to rush,
Please take your time
And use it to its fullest.

I wish I would take
my own ******* advice,

If only I could hear myself speak,
But these voices in my head
Are screaming.

God, please, honey save me
Friend please don't let this
Be the quiet bang
That we go out with.

Because while your time is spent
Shaping your mind
And your future,
I've started talking to these
******* walls, surely they
Are friendlier than those
That speak inside my head.

Save me please
Before I melt away
With these voices
That surround me
All the time.

I'd give it all up
If you would please
Just be you again.

How are you?
I never thought this **** question would be so difficult.

I'm fine, I tell you
As I quickly try to
Change the subject.
.... I always asked you to tell me the truth about how you felt, but I just don't want to cause a problem.

I'm really not fine I say,
I'm really not ok
As I try not to be too blunt.

I want to tell you the truth
No matter what happens.
..... You always told me the truth
About how you felt,
But I just don't want to be the problem.

How are you?
I never thought that question would bring tears to my eyes.

Whoever said
"The truth will set you free"
Is a ******* fool.

You've got a heart of gold
    You must be an angel
       Well, you see dear
        Gravity still exists
                  And this
                    Angel
                         Is
                         •
                         •
                         •
                         •
                         •
                         •
                         •
                         •
                    Falling

I'm falling safely
Into your arms.
Oh?
Where did you go?

We can't change our fate? Our destinies are set?

Who was the one to determine this? The one who now brings so much inescapable sorrow.

How do I comfort my girlfriend, tears falling from her eyes, when nothing I do can change the outcome?

I guess sometimes we're stuck with our lot in life. No sense in trying to change it, right?

Maybe so, but seeing those glimmering tears fall from her eyes I shall not accept this. I shall change the outcome and make the world a better place.

I know I can't fix everything and I know I can't save everyone, but **** please let me save her.

How hard can it be? Poetry can break the normal rules, or follow them just the same, or even yet write its own rules. There is no teacher breathing down my neck, holding my grade in a vice. Nobody is forcing me to write these poems, yet I feel compelled to create them.

Ive got so many words to describe just what I want, but somehow none sound right.

I know just what I want to say and who to say it to, but I can't confront these demons.

How can I have all the right words, but put them together all wrong?

Little lady,
would you like to borrow mine?
So you could see like I do,
Clear as the summer sky,
All your beauty,
All your grace,
All those smiles,
That belong on your face.

Little lady, little lady,
Try my glasses on for size.

I say I love you

And you say you love me too.

But do you know what I mean?
What I truly mean each time I say that I love you?

My dear every day I discover something new about you that makes me fall in love with you all over again. These things shall never pass from my mind for they are my true ideal of my true love.
The way you smile, so genuinely at me and hug me so tight as if to say you're never letting go, when I help you be confident.
The way you realize that I can't always be the strong one and the way you make me even stronger by being my strength in my toughest times.
The way we laugh off all the questioning eyes and pointing fingers and instead find ourselves held in close company in each other's eyes.

Because, my dear, sweetheart I mean all this and more when I say I love you and those words ring more true with each passing second.
This is why you're not only my girlfriend, but my forever and always, and I shall love you every moment of my life

Forever and Always...

My blood is the ink
And my body your canvas.
Like an artist crazed, you tear me open ever more
So not to run out of paint.
It's time I shout: never more
And stitch myself shut tight
And store my beautiful colors inside.

When she's at her best, so am I.
When he rocks the world, I'm right by his side.
When they strike just the right chord, I'm there strumming along.
When she is under the weather, my umbrella tries to cover us both.
When her smile fades, my smile is wiped blank too.

However one fear remains. In the chaos of empathy, when I am laid bare, am I still I?
Or have I become all the he's, she's, they, and thems that I appear to mimic.

Am I still I? Or is I like my shadow? Something that only exists because of another?

Everyone tells me I can do better.
But what can be better than perfect?
For she was exactly that.

When you said we needed to slow things down
I didn't think that meant you'd leave me here, frozen in time.

When I told you I loved you, I meant it. When you told me the same I believed that it was true. But it seems that wasn't quite so. Did you really mean it? Or was it a fleeting feeling that you couldn't be bothered to chase?

How can I begin to speak of her beauty

When just her smile leaves me speechless?

When I said I would take a bullet for you

I didn't think you would be pulling the trigger.

Dark as night it washes over me.
The waves as dark as those of the Styx.
My Achilles heel has become my whole body.
I shall save two obols for Charon
For every step I feel may be my last.

Farewell good friend
at least I'd like to say.

Your time is here
and I've just come.

I wish I'd known you better
so I could say a proper goodbye.

The stories I've heard
your joys i've missed

how I wish I'd been there
to share those times with you.

Farewell best friend
or so I'd  like to say.

I may not even be an adult yet. But I still know what I want. I'm not asking for perfection. Quite the opposite indeed. I'm looking for someone who knows how to fall. Who knows how to get back up. I wish for a girl who would love me with all her heart, for I would do the same. I hope to find a girl who doesn't care about ***, someone who is fine with just cuddling and being close, no promises of promiscuity. I wish for someone to call my own. In turn, I hope for someone to call me their own.

They say the good die young
But is that really so?

More so sometimes
It seems we're left to suffer.

Enduring the torment and scrutiny of every eye in the world.

It seems we're everyone's best friend
Until everyone forgets about us.

In the end I guess we might as well be dead.

Everyone's already forgot about us.

Since schools let out, I haven't seen you.
Have you been busy?

When I call you, you are never there.
Did your phone die?

When I look for you, you are nowhere to be found.
Are you hiding?

If I were to search for you, it would be for naught.
Have you led me astray?

Through all this searching, one thought has lingered in mind: Am I the one who's vanished?

Two people could never have been more in love than the two of us. A spark at first glance, suddenly roaring as a huge fire. At every moment we'd tell the other how much we loved them and how we wish they'd never leave. Two hearts and two minds, completely intertwined. But now it feels different. The light in your eyes has gone. My smile wiped from your mind. Is this what love is? A flurry of passion then nothing? I thought love was to be shared, nurtured over time, a never ending passion. As I lay here seemingly forgotten, in endless confusion, It seems "love" is just a syllable, it's meaning lost to history and its intent ignored in the doldrum of life. It is why I now ask: Do you even remember my name?

There may be many like you, but none so curious as you. For as broken as you may be, your only focus is mending the broken hearts of those nearest you, ignoring your own pain, in hopes of healing another. This cannot possibly last forever though. Given enough time, even the strongest may fall. Allow me then, the carpenter, to attend to you. To sand away the rough edges and glue the splinters together once more. I cannot stand to see you broken, a divine angel, fallen from heaven. Allow me then to take your place. Allow my dreams to be scattered like ash, that you may live out yours. In the end though, my simplest dream has been fulfilled. You are happy. So am I.

Sometimes it's a blessing, others a curse. Sometimes anywhere and everywhere in between. They can be the most comforting things or the most venomous. Sometimes good thoughts get interrupted by the bad and drag me down, but yet others still will pull me out of my own darkness.

Others are questions, whom, if I ever find the answer to, will just create more questions for me to answer. It's like roulette. You got a 50-50 shot. You could either bet it all on one go and come up big or you could lose it all. On the other hand you could bet in small increments, never winning to much, but then again, not losing to much.

How much are you willing to risk in an effort to gain?

I like her a lot
Maybe even enough to call it love.
I can't fix her past
I can't guarantee her future.
All I can promise is today
Here and now.
I can't swear to her shell never cry
Only that it won't be by my hand.
I can't swear that everything will be ok.
It won't be.
All I can swear is that I'll be there
Ready to protect her and comfort her
Whenever she needs it.
If I could give it all to her, I would
But I can't.
All I have to offer
Is my love and friendship.