Kitne din hue,
Khud se nhi mulakat hui;
Khamoshi ki chader odhe pta hi nhi chala,
Kb subha se raat hui;
In ulzi ulzi julfo ko sulzaye,
Kitne din beete;
In aankho ki kahaniyo me dube,
Jaane kitne hafte beete;
Kitne din hue,
In tute sapno ko seete!
Arsa hua,
Khud k haal chal puche,
Uf! Kitne din hue,
Is duniya me kho se hye hai hum,
Khud ko kahi bhula sa diya,
Bs zindagi me ye hi h ek gam...
- $D

When my stars had decided not to spark,
& my moon had also hidden somewhere;
When the lights had left mine world in deep dark,
& I really needed somebody there,
I found my so called lovers nowhere...
So Honey,
Will you stop your lies,
Cause I know I'll never ever find you by my darkest sides...
- $D

At first,
Meeting someone like that he found scary,
But looking at her half face, especially those red shiny lips peeping from a black umbrella,
He found her a black dressed fairy!
She bent her back towards his right & rubbing her frozen fingers on his right cheek she wiped his tear!
She than came as closer as she could to his right ear,
Said in the sweetest voice he ever heard,
"Gentleman you look tired & wet;
Come to my place & have some rest!"
His eyes shaded no more tear,
Now he forgot all his fears,
& looked at her!
Falling till her waist she had dusky hair,
Curly at the ends!
As she shook her head or blowed the cold air,
They moved like snake,
Ah! With her every move she gave him a heartache!
She had deepest curves he had ever seen!
Oh, to hold her, he was so keen!
He looked at her down to upside,
With his not so experienced eyes,
& bit his lower lip in delight!
She walked lost in her own self,
Swiftly!
Oh God to herself he was now confound!
But she walked creating curves on the ground,
Like a snake,
A snake he would like to stop,
& get deliberately poisoned by her,
"But how could her poison win over Jane's elixir?"
He was confused,
& to look at her, she have him an another excuse...
-$D

The sun had left the world dark,
& that day on his sky no star did spark!
His moon, his Jane had gone,
Now he was left all alone...
Dark bellied clouds captured the sky,
But all he knew was Jane left him saying,
"To call me now, you don't even try!"
He was going to catch a train,
But in way cats & dogs started to rain!
The rain drops were heavier,
But not heavier than his heaviest tears, filled up with uncertainty & fear!
He kept of going in some known, unknown streets lost in Jane's thought,
& finally he reached at a point where there was nothing, else than a board symbolizing to the right,
"The Cursed Port"!
Reading the board, he sadly smiled & said,
"Nothing can be much more cursed than my life..."
Without bothering much he went to the port's side,
& sat on the platform aside!
The waves rose like the hungry sharks,
to eat up those dark bellied clouds,
& the angry clouds attacked back with the thunder, the lightning, & those heavy drops!
All the warriors gave the loud shouts!
But unaware of all these he was filled up with doubts!
Nobody knows who won the war,
& all knew was that the love of his life had gone far...
Suddenly in his right ear, he heard a soft whisper,
Before he could understand it, he felt a feathery soft touch on his right shoulder;
Swiftly did he turn,
& by his side found a beautiful maiden!
             -$D

A pair of deep eyes,
Leaves me in utter surprise!
For a moment they will reveal everything out,
& in the next will hide everything in the curtains of shies...

A pair of sharp eyes,
Doesn't know how to tell lies!
They attacks my tender heart,
When being collided with that of mine!
Trust me, they change their colour a bit,
Just like the magical ones,
& how perfectly would they fit,
When looked upon mine!

A pair of my perfect eyes,
Who has stolen my heart,
Lies sonewhere far beyond the skies...

The sky may come out of the blanket of clouds,
& all the intellectuals of this world may become louts;
In opposite direction may these rivers flow,
& these winds may stop to blow;
But,
The love deep inside my chest,
Which you did enhance,
Oh the Prince of Preetiest Charms,
will never change...

I tried to escape,
I tried to fled,
But nothing in my control I had!
My heart denied,
But all my senses intoxicated,
In your liquor!
I took steps bit-by-bit,
To be your!
Like a fish,
moving in the depths of life's sea,
Got stuck in the waves,
& is moving  out to the death's  peaceful shore without her wish...
& now that you're just a step far,
I have found you the brightest star,
Brighter than the success' Sun,
Brighter than any lively fun!

So hearby I declare myself your prisoner of yours,
Oh Princess of Charms!
Cause leaving as small thing as breathe to get you,
has no harms...

I, Me, & Myself...


...I'm complete!!!
Now I need nobody else!!!

Like holding Sun's hands comes morning,
& night, holding those of darkness,

Like money comes holding the hands of ego,
& status, holding one's dress,

Like the troubles come holding the life's lessons,
& relations, holding selfishness,

The same way-
The beauty of my thoughts,
The charm of my body,
The shine of my eyes,
The glow of my face,
The happiness in my toughest phase,
Comes just with your presence...

Like pain comes holding tears,
The same way,
Your absence, holds all my sorrows & fears...

Bit by bit
It's eating me...
- the depression!!!

Bit by bit
I'm drowning...
- in this melancholy's ocean!!!

Firstly my toes,
Then my legs,
Then my nose,
& now the one left is just melancholy & not me!!!

I can no more breathe!
But I can see,
I can feel,
Myself fading away,
In this never ending fountain of melancholy...

Unobserved,
Unremembered,
I have gone on that side of this ocean all alone...
Now left is merely melancholy
& faded me,
All those fake lovers & relatives being gone...

Hoping that you will  understand,
Why I did so,
My dearest friend,
I know I promised to never leave you,
To never hurt you or anyone else,
But the things have slept away from my hand...

My dearest,
Sometimes even when a thousand lamps burn,
There is a corner of darkness left...

My friend,
Even when the lips are smiling,
The heart can bleed with tear...

There isn't a thing like I don't trust you,
The fact is that all the stars shine so bright,
But the one you can reach to are few...
....& you my unreachable star,
       who became mine sitting seven
          oceans far!

Oh my dearest one, I do ******,
As much as the last drop is trusted to quench the thristy's thirst..

Don't you worry, my love!
Cause I believe we'll meet!

Yes, we'll meet,
Beyond this night, beyond this sky,
We,
The two love birds'll fly...

Don't you shed these pious diamonds, my sweet!
Cause we'll again meet,
We'll meet when the moon'll be kissed by the sea,
& when the sun will go to take rest,
On his beloved, night's breast...

Don't you be gloomy, my heart!
Cause we'll meet,
In the deadly silence,  & midnight's dark,
So bright will the two spirits spark...

Don't you look back again, at this separation, my dearest!
Cause this is our last separation,
& a step to make us the closest!

We'll meet when our souls will be free from all these humanly binds,
When this body & all these relations will be left behind,
When we won't have any fear,
& in land of love,
We'll be welcomed with flying colour...

Then these songs of melancholy we won't have to repeate,
& I know we'll definitely meet....

Can't wait for a 100th follower now...

After the sun goes to rest in the curtains of darkness,
& after I shut the curtains of consciousness,

After the day's hot winds get converted in the evening cool ones,
& after with my all works I'm done,

After the stars start dancing on
night's lullabies,
& after all the movements of this world get freeze,

After the night jasmine opens up to bathe in night's shower,
& after I feel & again try to forget this loneliness's fear,

After these tides, by this moon, get seduced,
& after I think of getting this tiredness & stress reduced,

After there left is merely the darkness's marks,
& after from my face I wash away all the masks,

After the world sleeps
on the bed of night,
on the pillow of dreams,
in the blanket of silence,
& all the light did night sweep,
I'm ready to sleep....

Chand ko chandni ka tohfa ** tum,

Savere  ko suraj ka saath ** tum,

Mere dil k samandar me motiyo se chupe ek khubsurat raz,
Meri zindagi ka sabse khubsurat ehsaas
                                ** tum,
Aur  kya kahu?

Bas  meri  har  subha pr  aus  ki bundo se likhe  naam,
Meri  har  raat  ke har  aakhari jam
** tum,

Meri  aankho me bas  chuka ek khubsurat khwab,
Mere khuda se puche har  ek sawal ka jawab
** tum,

Meri  adhuri aas,
Meri  pyas
** tum,

Meri zindagi,
Meri khushi
bas ** tum...

Despite of intuitions of something wrong,
She went out on her daily late eve walk,
& took her phone along,
To get a nice company & someone to talk,
As she took a few steps,
& went out of her street,
After having a doubt,
& choosing a new way
that day,
She heard the dogs crying aloud,
& she knew it wasn't a good omen,
But she couldn't understand a thing & took step to that new way she didn't know when?
As she entered the street,
A nice perfume did her nose surround,
But she saw nobody around!
Suddenly street lights burst out,
& she gave a loud shout!
She switched her phone's flashlight,
But her fully charged phone suddenly showed "battery low!"
She now listened a whistle & as she looked backward she saw him giving her a bow,
He the one with that nice perfume,
& the conversation did he resume,
He looked directly in her deep brown eyes,
With his strange shimmering green eyes,
& said,
" Hey young lady!
I'm hypnotized by your beauty... "
"What!!!" She said with a little anger,
"I, I meant to say,
Why did you come here & when,
Can't you see it's about to rain!!!"
She looked at the clean sky & shining stars,
But suddenly she saw lightning,
heard thundering,
& the dark clouds captured the sky,
Before she could understand a thing,
The big water drops fell upon her head which those cruel clouds did bring,
Surprised she suddenly asked,
"It seriously rained, how?"
He took her milky white hands in his snowy ones,
& took her to a cottage nearby,
& said, "This one is my!"
She tried to take her hands out of his,
But he didn't leave,
She looked at his shiny strange green emerald's eyes,
But the shine was burnt in the fire of lust,
Now all left there was the hunger & fire of lust,
She tried to release herself but all in vain,
& she was feeling a strange pain,
He kissed her snowy white nervous hands,
He kissed her blushing cheeks,
He kissed her cheery lips,
He tries to arise all the lust present in her,
& she was filled with tears,
& his touches & eyes,
Enlightened the same fire,
the same desire,
in her eyes,
& they started shining so bright,
& together did they spend the whole night...
Her sleep was disturbed,
When her phone ringed,
She took it up,
It was her friend,
"Hey where are you? Be quick!
If we are late again, Principal will lead us to our end..."
She was numb,
She was shocked,
She was lying undressed in someone else's bed!!!
She remembered last night's incident,
She looked after the strange host,
& saw a portrait where it was written,
"Sir Joseph D. William
(1898-1937)"
She was shocked & thought,
"How is it possible, was he a human or a..."
But the reality was now the host was gone,
The things left were
the unanswerable questions,
the unrealistic memories,
the unbelievable reality,
& she...
...along with that mysterious pleasant smell,
with a great fear,
& nothing to tell...

I'm dead,
I have already committed suicide,
No you can see me,
You can feel me,
You can read me,
But you can't find even a single reason to call me alive,
No I haven't got cut on my hand,
& haven't ever tried to hang,
But I have got my heart bleed,
I have got it broken,
I couldn't actually die,
& sorry I'm unable to keep myself alive,
Not my fault,
cause I'm the one
never loved,
never cared,
never caressed,
never being consoled,
never being hold...
So here is a midway,
So here is a dead me,
With a human body,
Healthy & fit
A ***** kit!!!
What if I can't cut my lifeline,
I have already cut my connections with life & now I think it's all fine...

My intoxicating & love filled eyes whom you did admire,
Are now filled up with revenge's fire...

My sweet cherry lips you loved,
Have now ****** the saltiness of my tears & are now poisoned...

You loved my rosy nails,
Who now have been transformed into the iron's nails,

The ocean of tears in which you left me to drown,
Have flooded me & now my heart is nothing but a deserted town...

Now I ain't the tender teen girl whom you could easily cheat,
Now I'm a lioness of this forest whom badly nobody can treat...

So now dare you not to look at me,
Cause the acid you spread in my life is burning yet in my eyes...

I love this lonely forest way,
Here I don't get any fake hope of gay,
Or anyone to break my trust,
Here isn't anyone to tell me the worst,
But here I'm left alone in the lap of nature,
I love to talk to the young trees full of life,
& those elder ones who are quiet mature,
The pure wind giving me the positivity,
& taking away all my impurity,
The sacred river taking me to the peace,
Here all my anxieties & tensions I do  release,
Here is a blessing of evergreen greenery & happiness,
From here passes the way of liveliness...

Every morning me...
Just after having my tea
...is back on my roof,
With my new book,
as an excuse,
But I'm back to my work...
My work -
         Of reading the stories written by the fog on the face of mountain,
        Of catching the momentary scrape on my body by the cool wind which won't come again,
        Of understanding the songs of birds,
     Of understanding the leaf's whispers to the buds,
           Of stealing the colors, & pleasant aroma from flower,
      Of listening the river's love hymns...
Every morning me...
Just after having my tea,
...is back to my work,
My work of collecting all these words of nature & composing new rhymes,
My work of giving these rhymes love's aroma & peace's color,
My work of being a title giver,
My work of being a nature lover!!!

A new life flourishing in an old,
roof - leaking, Poverty's hut,
Like in that filthy bog, a beautiful lotus is blossoming but,
I wonder will that lotus ever reach to its true place, the Muse's legs,
Or will it get lost like all others in the bog of poverty & lacks?
Will this lotus drown in this bog in this storm of malnutrition,
Or will it ever be able to get its basic right
- the right of education?
  I don't know, & neither do you all,
Cause this hut is surrounded by the suffocating smoke,
- which is tearing of the new life of this young child born in dark,
Oh wake up & save him, before the door of his life get shut!!!

On my way,
One day,
I met a handsome guy,
Who was on the seventh sky,
He told me I looked like a ****** ***!!!
& with his sayings I was embraced
I cried & went to the mirror,
I asked,"Do I look good???
  Am I too fatty or too slimmer??? "
Laughing at me it didn't answer,
I understood & was filled with tear,
Oh I didn't eat during day
& couldn't sleep in night,
It was like I wasn't made for this beautiful beauty filled site,
& hiding my face I went out, & stood aside...
I looked at the moon,
Jealous of his beauty I closed myself in my room...
I forgot the incident & was lost in the world of books,
No I wasn't at all focussing on my looks,
Oh after bending over backward for several months,
I got the fruitful results,
Now that handsome proud guy saluted me,
& the mirror couldn't match his eyes from me,
& now I stood in front of moon's fake light,
Asking it to ignite itself,
& be bright,
Else at his place, he will see myself!!!

With my heart weeping every moment,
& my deserted eyes not even shading a single tear,
Oh! I feel my every part screaming with pain,
But my tongue yet silent with a known  fear!
& no here ain't present  any of my lover,
Or anyone of my creditors,
      who owe a part of my love,
But in the similar faces left are just the pain givers...

I never fear of people,
But I fear closeness to them,
I ain't afraid to play,
But I'm afraid of loosing the game,
I'm not afraid of dark nights,
But I'm afraid of loosing myself in that darkness,
I'm never afraid of looking in their eyes,
But I'm afraid of being my secrets getting revealed in front of them...

See those birds have come out of their hidden homes,
The sun had made hidden hills out of the mist,
& the birds have awoken the trees by singing sweet song in it's ear,
But I'm unable to see any life here,
Here in the world of humans,
I can see only the robots,
The robots working like machines,
The machines fueled with some food & water,
The machines busy in making money,
The machines away away from this scene of harmony,
The machines with eyes & fingers busy  on their mobile & laptops,
& with a thought to see themselves on the top,
See the birds have ended the song,
The hills are covering themselves silently in curtains of mist,
The tired sun is hiding bit -by- bit in the blanket of sky,
& look at these machines,
Still living life in a lie...
The moon is singing the song of peace,
& the stars are dancing,
Yet here is no symbol of life!!
These machines are yet shutting themselves in a rife...

My dearest loneliness!!
Some say you are my disease,
While some say the happiness of my life you will decrease,
Some say you are the dark spot on the moon,
& some say you will end me completely very soon,
But they don't know,
That you are the only one who make me accept my mistakes,
& never listen to my excuses,
They don't know,
That you are the morning for the rising sun,
& the evening for the setting sun,
You are the voice of my heart,
You are my part,
You are my introspection,
& you take me away from all the tensions,
You are my best friend,
Whom I know will be with me till my end....

My dear Shruti!
Who says your eyes have dried away,
Cause only I have seen your tears hiding in the ocean of emotions,
& only I have seen them coming out as pearls,
Which later on formed themselves in a beautiful structure named poems..

Looking at the sunrise
I wonder will my sun ever rise again?
Will I be able to feel that warmth for my life again?
Will I be able to find out a way out of this dark night?

The pain of my life,
The pain of my life,
Everyone else has left me,
From the day you have left them,
But I ain't worried at all,
Cause I know you won't ever left me,
I know it well
That you are the night ,
          And I'm the star,
I'm the blood,
                  And you are the war,
That we are partners forever,
Whom even God can't separate...
From the day you have left them,
But I ain't worried at all,
Cause I know you won't ever left me,
I know it well
That you are the night ,
          And I'm the star,
I'm the blood,
                  And you are the war,
That we are the partners forever,
Whom even God can't separate...

Looking all my efforts getting swept away in the ocean of nothingness,
My eyes have rained...
-A rain washing up all the broken pieces of those efforts,
Those efforts in vain,
Left my eyes filled with pain,
& an unknown emptiness...
-With a promise with myself to never do those efforts again...

Become a supporter,
The words I see when I come to read poems here,
Here is a nice world including fairytale, love, pain &  reality,
Hello Poetry the only place where I feel humanity,
Alive & breathing,
But looking at these words,
I seriously feel hurt,
Cause all I have is love, words, & feelings,
& to give I just have blessings,
But the day I'll have my job & salary,
I promise to support this wonderful world of poetry.....

Why are you hiding under the curtains of clouds?
Oh where is your shine & your proud?
Are you hiding something from me,
Or have you seen something you can't share with me,
Are those stars again teasing you?
Or the sea again tried to kidnap you?
Have you seen the real faces hidden in those beautiful masks?
Or again someone implicated you due to those marks?
Tell me...
Just tell me..
Your silence is killing me...

Missing you every time,
No I ain't fine,
I see your face in everyone I see,
You left,
But I ain't free,
Like a thirsty tree,
I'm waiting for your rain,
You have lasting effect on my brain,
I have searched you in the depth of sea,
In the bright stars of night,
In the soft touch of raindrops,
& I'm yet searching your light...

The difference was only of thoughts,
You said she was no more,
& I said she went to heaven's shore...

I love to be in hot summer's sunlight,
cause I know shadow isn't made for me,
I'm just happy with the black clouds,
cause I know rain isn't made for me,
I'm contented by the pleasuring waves of aroma,
cause I know the soft touch of flowers isn't made for me,
I love the darkness of night,
cause I know the stars & the moon ain't present for me,
& so sitting here,
I'm satisfied with what I have,
cause I know even if I'm unsatisfied,
these butterflies of happiness will never be back for me,
& after a while,
they will fly away,
& will go forever,
& won't come back for me.....