My mind is in a foggy state
when I’m waking.
Condensation leaking from
my concentration.
Can’t tell the difference,
what’s real or my imagination.
How can I keep my world from quaking
when every little thing
grows bigger and the ground starts shaking?

Conscience coincide with science.
I could never follow trends,
I’m too defiant.
Indigo until the end,
I’m too reliant.
I **** everything in silence...
You and I, a plus.
Me? Alone?
Minus

I️ am a lonely faucet
crying crocodile tears.
Bound to the fear
of facing my fears.
What I see ahead of me
is darkness beheading me;
any future is dead to me.
I am a zombie,
I slipped like I'm wasted
and feeling sloppy.
Currents take me to the flood
to drown me in tsunami
with my senses left behind me;
everything is dead around me.

Life can be a hex,
overdosing stress.
The moon will call
and after all,
the colony recalls.
Better on and better off.

Figured you had enough
because I'm alone.
Dialing to call your bluff
but there is no tone.
You think you wanted more,
but I could've shown you more.

Figured I fell too deep
in the abyss of my dreams.
Underwater underworld,
don't wake me from sleep.
Figured that you figured me out,
but nothing's what it seems.

Prescribe me prescriptions
to bottle these emotions,
devour my devotion
and keep refills in motion.
Above the surface is dry
but underneath is an ocean.

Tainted by the truth,
I fail before the finish line.
I fell the more I closed my eyes,
and it's the easy way
to get away, to contemplate,
is it my turn today?
To see what's left after fate
is to no longer see anyway.

Fixated,
I'm bound to the stake.
Chest ripped wide open,
here's my heart to take.
You thought love was fake
until you felt the warmth I gave,
but then it was too late.
I'm hanging by a string,
I might let go of this thing
that's been keeping me
from being me.

With no options to weigh,
I pull myself away.

Mama, where is the light?
I'm lost in my direction,
my heart beats deep in the night.
You were the only one who'd listen
but I continued to hide
behind the truth that wasn't missing.
You are gone and I'm still living
but not really living.
Nothing but pain that I've been given,
I've been driven
to the neverland of nothingness.
Mama gave her all and nothing less,
but what she left behind was all a mess.
She was here and felt pain
but still loved the same way
and that was a beautiful gift.
Only for her sake, I will never take
no one else for granted that way.

Picture waking up from a bad dream,
mama is fixing herself
something to eat.
I'm so happy she's here,
I don't want her to leave,
but she looks at me sadly
like she couldn't believe.
Only then I realized,
I'm still in a bad dream.

I'm weeding,
cutting these emotions
from the roots beneath.
I'm heated
while the sun is burning me.
Indigo, where do I go?
We go
as far as we can
from the low.
The low is your ghost
awaiting the host.
Wading from what's
waiting below.
Storm reigns
to take away our pain.
We drown and die
in the name
of the higher place.
Overdosing, overthinking.
I'm sinking
and you're winking
on my way downward.

I find myself
questioning what comes after,
the eyes roll back
and the lids stay closed.
I find myself
looking for the hereafter
tripping over bones.
Reflections staring back at
my soul,
as if there's something wrong.
I find myself
on the other side,
can't seem to coincide
with my other life.
I divide,
multiplying override.
Losing track of time,
my mind don't seem to mind.

This black and white place
is missing the grey space,
I pace with a ******* face.
Stuck in hereafter,
I wonder what comes after.

The woods here know my pain.
I come here to release restrain.
Feel it invade the veins,
filling the empty space.
A substitute
to somehow change this attitude.
This phase is rude
to even consider staying
though it's overdue.
To be so different,
sometimes something's
wrong with it.
Alienation comes with it.
You're not alone,
we're all a part of it.

The stems from the trees,
branches and leaves,
reach out for me.
Can I stay here and grow with you?
I'd really like to.
Bleeding and blue,
keep bleeding with you.
Only dying for you.

There's nothing left
so what is there to lose?
Guess I'm the left
opposing your right.
Every fight alters the light
that used to shine bright.
There's nothing like
a forbidden love,
a sordid spoiled fruit
you keep throwing up
until I've given up.
Your lies cut through my neck
and the effects
have caused another train wreck.
You make love
seem like a war that never ends
that no one wins
inside my head
you never get it,
it's pathetic.
You make love
feel like a drug
you only found
dug in the mud
and you just gave it up.
There's nothing like
a mind you redefine
to fit in between your lines,
a mind that uses time
consumed with parasites.

People always leave
broken leaves under trees
so indecisive I deceive
my inner means
and what they really mean.
Eyes in the screen,
a silent scream.
I am the shadow king
of my loneliness
in a world of bad luck
where my spirits run amok.

I'm stuck.
Listen to the words
that I took
from the birds
that are hooked
to the chains
with no gain
and free from the outlook.

I left my conscience here.
I don't want to wake up if you're not here.
Aware of what is not clear,
I steer my eyes until you're in rear.

it is much more than darkness
it is a world
something is keeping me here
the smell of desperation rots the air that fills my lungs full
the ashes of my past fall like rain
I am existing here
but not living there
shadows surround me standing in mockery
are they keeping me here?
they have no face but I can feel them
looking at me
judging me
I can hear them laughing at me
"You'll never get out."
"You'll never make it out alive."
"You'll never be like them."

while the earth feels uninhabitable for someone in my state of being
I search the darkness for meaning

Trapped in my darkest days,
I'm chained to the sight
of glad people in their light.
No, something isn't right...
I'm not supposed to feel
the need to see the other side.
A feeling I can't deal
or cast away in steel.
It's there, so comfortable in it's place
that it could never be replaced.

I don't have a name,
just a picture hung without a frame.
Dust at my corners;
what am I made of?
Blackened mud and
forbidden love.
I'm not the one that
you're thinking of;
I'm just the one that
you're picking up
when you need to feel
something real.
I been missing pieces
since we broke apart.
I better rehearse
and just play my part.
Notice how my pain
is a work of art?
Paint me all the colors
in your Mozart.
Even though in my soul
it's completely dark.

Cut open my face,
that would only make it quicker.
I chose my fate,
so could you make this quicker?
You are not you
and I'm half of me.
Trapped in typhoon,
a war under moon
goes endlessly.
The night befriends you
to help you cut through.
What's left here is
nothing for you.
I left there, stayed here
with you.
No rights, I went left
with you.
Held tight, I spent
nights with you.
Then hands grip my neck,
no gun at your head.
A quick loss of breath,
look what love did.

Feel the heat
of a genuine passion
burning in your meat
like a love in old fashion.
They don't know love
like I do,
to embrace every thing
that makes you.
A shooting star
falling from space.
You know who you are
and that's tough
these days.

Body heat is extracting
the way we feel in collision,
something so everlasting,
It's much worth the impaction.

Your mind is so beautiful,
mine is a funeral.
I sleep among the dead
thoughts never said,
so unforgettable.

Guess I've made my bed
a dark space in my head.
Your content summer
breeze
left me under thunder
and took the ease.
I never plead
for your mercy, because
I can pretend I'm not me,
take the liquor to spill
and remove pain with pills.
I can pretend I'm not me,
if that makes it easy
for you.
I can do many things,
I can see everything,
thinking of anything
that could mean anything,
that something is coming.

Something is coming for me...

Question marked eyes
was only pain in disguise.
Life surely does imply
that we all die
in time.
Couldn't kiss your face
cause it's not your face
no more,
no more than I could
touch the cold leather skin
that's no longer yours.

Somehow still waiting for
you in your absence.
Lassitude evades my conscience.
I don't mean to question the science
but we felt no force could
break the alliance.
I guess it doesn't matter now.
But what exactly matters now
is the smile on your face
that is never replaced
from my mind now.

I'm thinking how you thought now.
I'm walking like you walked now
I'm spitting your slang and there ain't
no other thang I'd rather talk about,
than you...

I love you.

I lose myself
deep in thought.
Still I took
what darkness brought.
A war commenced,
my mother fought.
She lost her grip,
her soul was caught.
Here I am,
a dark brainstorm.
A silhouette set still
waiting to take form.

Seems like everyone is fighting but me.
I could be anyone in another reality.

Wish I could take a pill
and be invincible.
Takes power to make everyone incredible.
I'm an animal
without instinct.
Potential in a lockdown precinct.
Yet I swim through the deep end
from the end back to the beginning.
I will find my purpose for living.

Moonshine on my sinful skin
as I tug you in,
don't wanna die again
but I'm dead within.
Taking your precious time
manipulating my eyes
to comply with your disguise.
Your teeth seeps in my neck
stealing my flesh
until there's nothing left.
Away the night went with theft.

Up goes the sun,
you know what that means?
In comes the noise
and out leaves the peace.
Day leaves the side of me
that is sweet.
Armor to shield the snakes coming for me.
Indigo movement for eternity.
Government failing us for we need to speak.
Dragging us down into the crypts of beneath.
A new world of unity our purpose to lead.
Believe in yourself for a real
life that will change the world until
your mark is made and fulfilled.

Wish they'd understand.
Could I live with myself if they don't?
Or go harder and write this message louder.
Fools chasin' these streets and white powder.
This city ain't a place I can show
the art that created my soul.
But it's the only way they'll know.

I don't feel too safe with these walls down.
I think love is coming for me now.
Filled with thoughts but none are coming out.
Do you look at me like I'm your bait?
Will you tell the truth or make me wait?
Common sense is blurred in fear of pain.
I can read the message on your face.
Anyone out here could take my place.
Light is dimming in this long tunnel.
Running blind and covered in rubble.
Still pleasure in this pain as I fumble.
Where am I to go?
Will I have to go alone?
On a repeating flow.
Forgot everything I know.

Touch your imagination.
Expand your power of creation.
Millions of souls reactant to your work.
Millions of people grabbing on to their worth.
You're a diamond covered in dirt.
Find something great far in the outskirt.
Brace yourself for the truth will hurt.

I'm blunted when the grey clouds come.
The grey clouds come when I'm blunted.
The stars always keep it one hundred.
Keep it one hundred like the stars.
They don't really know who we are.
Who we really are they don't know.
Maybe you could understand me in video.
Visuals can give you understanding.
But 20 years of being misunderstood could make you lose your understanding.
I bite at my lip when I'm nervous.
Have I really found my purpose?
Sometimes I don't think about it 'cause I begin to think if it's worth it.
I don't wanna miss this high.
The higher I get the more I miss it.
I don't wanna miss this high.
But in the morning I might forget it.
I don't wanna miss this high.
'Cause when it's gone this pain is gonna fill it.
I don't wanna miss this high...

When the day goes night.
Ascend into the sky, we do.
When everything's not alright.
Ascend into the sky, we do.
This is not real life, you are in a blue dream.
If this was real life, they'd call it a daydream.
The lonely kids are tired of pretending.
Their last option awaits, descending.
Parents on a blind search for what is missing.
All they ever needed was to get away.
All they ever needed was to feel the wave.
All I ever wanted was to save them.
From all of the corruption and mayhem.
Life needs a button labeled "redo".
If we do, what different would we do?
You see, there's others that loathe you.
But they'll never know what it's like to be you.

Long before the summer came.
I figured out your name.
Little did I know of you.
I should be hiding from you.
When we kiss is a storm we create.
By the end it's too late.
Then we watched it all fall.
Without thinking to think tall.
This happens to us all.
Who will survive this ghastly burn?
Eventually the tables turn.
You will find your reason for
the future and forevermore.

It's a cold, cold world.
Better be careful, little girl.
The earth will swallow you in whole.
Even in the comfort of your home.
Only the strong survive.
So where do people like me reside?
Starving for greatness in my purpose.
Cold night breaks me down to consider if it's worth it.
There's a demon inside to tell me otherwise.
Want to feel special. Want to feel alive.
Is there really a light?
Or have I been tricked by the illusion of life?
The fights in my mind of good and evil.
What to believe is not that simple.
Eyes sewn shut by the devil.
Suddenly my dreams are in trouble.
Is there really a light?
In the deep of night, out of sight.

Underneath the moon, in the sea.
The only place away from chaos, in peace.
Plunging downward into the deep.
To extinguish this burning flame in me.
There isn't true life without death.
Death of the old me.
Sensing awareness in each breath.
I just want to go away in peace.
Underneath the moon, in the sea.
This is the place to be.
Although I feel this life isn't for me, I have to believe in something or else I'll fall for anything.
I've never lived before.
Eternity spent, soul locked beneath the floor.
Realization seeps into my pores.
This is the calm before the storm.

The view of the shore.
What does life mean anymore?
On the land, I'm feeling so restless and my confidence is so scarce.
Burning heart, I'm selfless and conscienceless, but these dreams help me to bare.
There is goodness with you to spare.
Ignorance polluting the air.
So I'm underneath the moon, in the sea.
Embody the art within the.

I'll take whatever comes my way.
No longer happy with myself.
Although you've taken my pride away.
I believe these drugs will help.
The devil's sitting on my shoulder.
Angel's nowhere in sight.
I pray that when I get much older, everything will come to light.
When it comes to the end of day.
My demons will come out to play.
What I thought was happiness isn't true.
Look at the stars, they shine for you.
The storm has come and I can't see them.
Don't want to be here, I'd rather be them.
Do you ever feel like your world's at end?
Desensitize my mind and all that is meant.
How can I believe that my heart is heaven sent?
Repeatedly convinced that I am not who I dreamt.
Wish I could see what I saw when I slept.
My heart in his palm, that he kept.
Optimus Prime on a pretty orange pill.
Swallow my pride and my body stands still.
Numbing every emotion that I could possibly feel.
Seems as if I don't know what's real.

Your skin's so pure and humane.
Sure you have what it takes to make me insane.
Soft lips and soft skin convinces me that you're the blame.
Vision me on the hood of your car, cliche'd kisses in the rain.
Although you don't know me.
After the night, you won't have to worry.
With a Virgo touch so worthy.
An undying spirit so earthy.
Wish you may hold me forever?
Stand within the clouds together?
Continuous nights like this, we'll phase every weather.
Goddess of love, I could do no wrong.
Kiss me hard. Kiss me long.
****** me deep to our song.
Feel me strong.
**** with me heavy and a lifetime of pleasure awaits.
Such a far distance away. Such a true feel at stake.
It's up to us to design a future that we glimpse in our mind.
Making something out of nothing is our shine.
Don't be afraid, follow me and climb.
The future is yours, pay attention to the signs.