When I was only six,
I wanted to see what's behind the school's gates
I wanted to run, play, and eat a huge bag of chips
At those times, I only wanted playmates

When I was thirteen,
I wanted to see what's behind the walls of my classroom
I want to know what it feels like to be a teen,
I wanted to experience kissing an older girl with a fancy perfume

When I was sixteen,
I wanted to go away from a place called "home."
I wanted to find myself in a new place I have never been
At that time, I wished to be more human than an obeying machine

When I was twenty,
I thought I had it all in my palm of my hands
I had her, an apartment, small job; I never felt empty
I thought I figured my purpose, but she suddenly walked away

I said to myself, "I thought had it all,"
But it was not meant to prolong,
I found myself staring at the ceiling and becoming suicidal
I left my family and she left me for another one.

I wish I never left my home,
I wish I have never been this negative
I want to start another life,
Somewhere far from my mistakes

I love you but I doubt it now,
Maybe I was caught up by the feelings
I never understood after I said my vows
I will never forget how we fell in our own demons

I love you but goodbye my lover
Tonight, I will be leaving your side and go back to the moon
Maybe we were not meant for each other
You are the sun; I was not enough for us to carry on

I love you but fate won't let us stay
"It's you. The one who won't let us prolong."
Your words struck me and I have nothing else to say
I don't think this will be a mistake, I thought of it as a favor

I love you but I understand you have to leave me
You calmly said though I know how my words angered you.
My happiness is to the best degree
You assured but I do not understand your laughs in my view

I love you even though you broke your promise
You said as your words break down to the floor into pieces
I picked them up and became modest
But you refused to and swept it, turned them into the other places

I wish being naked with the other's fine without lust
**** those who think being bare is for ***
"Send me nudes." Yeah, send me your inner secrets without disgust
Heroine, we don't need to love through ****** subjects

Let's get into new adventures, maybe we should smoke first?
Lie down against the grass or sand and admire the stars,
"Send me nudes." we say, let's be bare because we're scared of this
I know those ****** words will not save what's ours

Bright lights at night filled my eyes with wanting
Structures with old stories, they told me the past
The doe stood there at the other end, patiently waiting
Once again, I ran towards her; this will be the last.

But the feeling between the city and us,
Makes me worry that you will not love me forever
You held onto me, "hush, my love. Don't make another fuss."
Why do I feel that without you I could never better?

You act nothing whenever you lay with another man
But here I am, waiting for you to come home.
The dinner's raw and your love's gone
If you will feel a little empty, I will love you more.

Just don't leave me under the roof of Barcelona,
I don't want sleep nor listen to their words
Those animals will never understand what we've done.
They will never understand why I fell in love with a *****.

I remember your stare as soon as you saw me
We were at a bar, and I smiled as soon as you did

Aubrey, You are crossing the paths.
In my head, I play a memory of you
I keep on seeing little signs
But I can't catch them, all I get were these aftermaths

You wonks sank deep, and my hand touches your skin,
You took me for a ride and I visualize lips

Aubrey, You are crossing the paths.
In my head, I play a memory of you
I keep on seeing little signs
But I can't catch them, all I get was the aftermath

Whenever I see your face,
I fall in love each time; I got lost in your voice

Aubrey, You are crossing the paths.
In my head, I play a memory of you
I keep on seeing little signs
But I can't catch them, all I get were these aftermaths

At the ocean, we join and dance until we fall
Because anything we ever shared here will soon fade
I sang your voice and my love for your overall
Our feet's buried on the sands and we were afraid

Aubrey, You are crossing the paths,
In my head, I play a memory of you
Only a memory of your laughs
Something I could hold onto
Because none of these will ever stay.

She knew she had been thrown away
By someone who said they wont go anywhere

Her heart is made of gold
Molten by his affection
Forged together, they're better than the old
She thought it was a genuine attraction

The man looking at her
Thinks that she's not enough for him

His heart was steel
Molten by her beauty
Forged together, but this one was not for him
He thought she's filled with stupidity

It wasn't their fault they swam in the Pacific
With different perspectives and feelings
We are never alone, will find the best for us
The ocean's huge, there's nothing to worry about
Maybe the drowning with the wrong one's our greatest fear

The look in your eyes
Brings the melancholic nostalgia of a lover
I was disturbed by the presence, completely mesmerized
It's impossible to begin when knowing you're spoken for another

In a quiet shore, I saw you stroll
Following you as you're contemplating with an aster
You are my favorite, a definite goal
Nothing to really hinders me, even him, they don't matter

The moment when you saw me,
I thought you would despise to look at my face
I know I was not important anymore
But you ran to my arms and cried that night
We were once lovers destroyed by wealth

There at the long wide hall
A lady in a teagown she was not so tall
He shoulders were hugged by a shawl
The place was large, she looked small

At the sight of her shuffling towards the altar
She halted and looked from afar,
Near to where I am seated, I was alarmed
I swore I was enchanted by her, she's a beautiful star

The benches were empty and soon became silent
The candles she lightened emitted a lavender scent
Making me wonder what are those weird candles meant
Maybe a lover who fell in his eternal rest?

Who knows why she had such unique way to pray
More than those sweet-scented candles and papers she laid
You can see a vivid remorse on her pleasant face
A little grim on her face that I will never forget

She looks so heavenly
Behind my lenses she actef weirdly
But I really fancy this sweet lady
She kisses mine so delicately

Once your nails digs in,
I feel insanity creepin'
They're **** amused while lookin'
To us, they couldn't do what we're makin'
Gladly getting down your knees

You pray loudly with a microphone on your hand
A sensation of a holy touch climbs up to my mind
For some reason, my heart doesn't beat like they planned
Getting inside the vacancies and your voice disbands

Why don't they just tell us we're fools making this work
When we are nothing but pretentious ******* faking how love looks
You have gotten the idea of the papers you gave zeros *****
I've been here for a while and ran from every hook.

Maybe at my dreams
I'll see you lying down the shore
close from the sea
And when I see you, I will make it sure
You will never ever leave

But the sickness was good racer
Time was a good maneuver
You said it's fine and I should not recall all the matters
Even our plans to see the great louver

At night I always remember you
when the moonlight shines down
I recall the things and you were withdrawn
By death and given up by life

From there I knew you are lying with the stars
I have been trying to come up a lot of good stuff
But in the end, it was not a really good start
I know I was ready but circumstances were tough

Every now and then, I see you standing
In the middle of nowhere
I was there chasing you
but you were enveloped by the light
And I woke up into another day,
Thinking how awful it is to never bid our goodbyes.

Far across the ebony sky
You lie there quietly, staring at me
As if you have not heard me cry
You have seen me dance in glee

The eight star, counted by many
A chosen speck of light by the deities
To fall in love with an ordinary
I don't think you will fit in this foolish society

For the more, you show your form
The mass will show your pretentiousness
Though I'm younger than them, I can handle your storm
I know some of them will call me blasphemous

A doe of great beauty and love
you balance my life with your weaknesses
As you hide your realness, more will ever disapprove
Even if they hated it, they will be the witnesses.

Pray before you head to sleep,
The devil loves to sneak when you're in deep
You know when you're feeling empty,
He'll fill you better but soon you'll feel guilty

Be careful with the devil
He'll be with you and support your evil deeds
He loves to pretend he care and all
But he doesn't, he only wants your soul

There was a time I could reach everything
All of them are carefully placed inside my head
None of these will ever be ******
No one would ever get this finished
We dreamed of doing something we like
After we both say let's live together, you and I
Both of us would try and fly
Reaching the sky where our love's define
Through the cold fine and crisp wind
trying to tell me I'm no longer there
Every memories decline
Emotions come align
Angels have fallen from their clouds
Making me sick, and I felt completely abandoned
Heavens broke down to the ground
I saw myself staring at a river of devastation
Dreaming is the only way to see the forgotten life.
You and I.
No more lies.

Nothing but destructive change
Hitting her hard, I was in range
For me, it was a lovely image
Bloodshed, bruises were made
She winced, holding her thighs
leaving the pain all behind,
Her face of sunken ache reminds
All of the alchemy she had done to me,
Oh boy,
She says the death does not terrify her
but time was, it was a lonely whisper.
Understanding the truth but writing down the lies
Folie a deux—The magic you used,
to create the madness of two
you were right,
I am the Frankenstein.
But drinking the same infected blood
creates a stronger bond?
Look what we have done?
We are better than the sad fools in flames
The world is, in fact, a place for sadness
That is why the joy's in important on our mattress
Longing for ******* and gasps
In darkness,
I'm the panic surrounding you
But, dear, trust the fear and madness, it's new
New to the world who likes old
Old like the glittering stars but already dead once told
The life beyond the door's beautiful
For those who wanted to die like a fool
Do you think what they do is cool?
Believe me, They're lesser than a whole.
A bunch of hypocrites.
My darling,
What's the catch?
They will never last,
But so are you, never special—
Never you were,
But we have everything here
We will make it—
Only the two of us.

I was in a late night drag race
Dirt, smoke, and vaunt's covering his face
I heard he wanted to let me try defeat's taste
But I'm a clever man, I should not haste

A single stroke of mine's luck
I know his soul will get struck
By angry waves, and sturdy rocks
No matter how it was planned,
You can never beat bad luck

The engines brought life to the vehicles
With his ride, it looks unbeatable
But for me, his ways indeed detectable

Screams filled the cliff with another life
All of us suddenly feel so safe
But as soon as we started, it was a relief
because of his roadster fell off the cliff

All of a sudden,
The chicken game has ended.
Her lover's life has ended
Everyone's smiles, and laughs died

let the silence be
the noise
in your early mornings
filled with smoke,
subtle noises from homes,
and dry leaves lying against
the ground.

You hear the howling at a
distance by the wild hounds;
the hands filled with soil,
clothing went ***** by
dust and coal.

A man dies with regrets
and charges
But the faith of everyone
never changes
The foes come forth,
escaping the barriers
towards the north.
A morning of soon
destruction and terror.

Long ago there was
a war between men;
They fought for glory
and gold;

Their swords clashes
like pen;
papers are the people,
ripped and worn out
as what the older ones
told;

I was young when I
learned the world was
made up of soil and
blood

learned that death is
more certain at ten
I saw myself in the
middle of chaos;
none of us know
when will it return

Until now, it's still hurting me
Even though I started everything again,
At midnight I feel vulnerable from everything
The cold wind sends chills down to my spine
Like how her kisses were before to me when it touches my skin,
But they were warm and her pairs were tender

The feelings come down swiftly
After the knife of the past reality incision my skin
Liquid oozing down the layers of my epidermis
The feeling stings badly and I could not show how painful it is
It seems the feelings are biting down my flesh

A lot of them have been saying desiring is easy
Liking someone new is quick,
Finding someone who will give you much attention's around the corner
Trusting and making relationships isn't difficult to do
But for me lately, everything seems to be made for the fool.

They say, "you got tons of admirers but you dwell on the past for too long.
Why not like one of them and move along?"
It's easy for their words to tell what the other should feel
And what should they do,
I do not get happy by loving someone because they love me first,
I just want to find someone whom I will love and be again my first.

It is a fact that we tend to feel overwhelmed by new one's existence
But it takes too long for me to feel what I felt when I saw her
It is not because she's above all women,
It is because the investments were long and deep
But I will surely get over it,
in all due time.

There's nothing at all
When ourselves fall
Down the crack they call
Breaking and crashing after our tragic fall

There's nothing anymore for us
Before we made love but now everything's a fuss
Call me a coward and let your mouth say more cuss

There's nothing for you
You lied to me, telling me I let you flew
To the arms of the enemy who said he will take care of you
Do you love me? I asked and said you do.

But why all of your promises,
it curled and broke,
crumbles down my feet
I felt our world falls apart before we meet
Maybe because we're not meant to be

I heard you calling my name from afar
staring at me after the structures fall apart
The collision of cement, glasses, and metal
Created flames and ashes bursting out from
the windows which were lethal

The ashes fall down and covered my innards making me sick.
Making my stomach curl and burn, I can't read your tricks
The vivid image of buildings fall and collided with the ground and air,
Is your image of you calling my name from nowhere

During the nights, I don't want anyone else
but your ghost finally leaving my back,
I want you elsewhere but buried under the mantel of my dead conscience.

Droplets of water fall graciously down the skies
And all of the students will think of suspensions of classes
Those little bags of waters hit the ground and smashes like glasses
Pieces of it embraces the cold pavements creating puddles

Lightning ran across the cloud like human veins
Giving life to the dead and dark clouds
Thunders roared like the orchestra playing a vigorous melody
Leaving a shock to the ears of the mortals

I bet God is the greatest artist that never signs his works
Its hands left it there to be used by everyone
Though some of the abuses is masterpiece
God is generous and understanding
Because not all people were given the sense of art
Nor a great understanding with things,
So its hands take his brushes and paint it again,
creating a new piece of his changing canvas

Keep her warm
and hold her tight
She sweetly stares and say,
"I love you, my love, I do"

As he pressed his lips to hers
His heart embraces hers
He knew he loves her dearly

When their fingers intertwined
The worlds collide as one,
A garden of roses, blooming.

And as they both whisper,
"Heaven's in your arms."
Everything seems to be worthy of a love song
"Keep each hearts, play this song
In life that sweetly grows—
like a life of a rose"

The sheets blew by the wind
Covered the skies with a
pitch black like colour; and
The eyes of a woman flutter
open; emitting the greatest
Light mankind had ever seen,
She was little and a bit distant

And Most of them never payed
any attention to the existence
of her beauty; until a curious
Man lifted his sight, looking at
twinkling bodies and settling
His sight to the little celestial
Object lying quietly against the
Darkening cloth of the night;
None of his words could ever
Reach her ears neither of hers,
His hands failed to touch her,
Distance was the enemy and
also how they were created.

The man was blinded by the
kind of spectrum as she tries to
Send words of her adoration
To a mere mortal longing for
The love she could never return

Sitting alone in a park
and a familiarity sent
chill inside your spine
like a spark; the sudden
even playing in front
you took you to your
tomorrow, and all you
could think of is a
vivid memory of your
the warm home you
came from; the vague
feelings took over
soon as you heard a
song and surprising
noises of the children
playing at the other
side; you never felt
so nostalgic with it
"I feel like this thing
Happened before?"
you thought and
your girlfriend came;
everything vanished.

—Deja Vu

you arrived your home,
exhausted and hungry
Yourself felt detached
with everything inside
The home was unheated;
it has been years after
your parents died from
sickness and accident;
Your chest felt heavy
and an overwhelming
feeling oozes down
like what you have felt
awhile ago at the park;
uneasy with the tight
unnamed feelings, you
felt negativity inside;
the detachment tires
your whole being more
and you will see yourself
crying to release the
uninvited feelings

—Jamais Vu

You came in a swift motion
Justified that there is a notion
Between you and I—our collision
In the midst of chaos, love was
our suspension

Miles away from your hands
Your presence was like the warm
island sands
You touched and filled me but your
presence swiftly ends
Falling back at night to the home I
will never understand

A sound and light on my phone
Surprisingly gave me a huge hope
In this facade, there was a golden
rope
I climbed and you were there; a
champion for my love

Time ticks and days die,
Your little letters of love makes me
smile
Just like the daylight, it died; you
said sudden good byes
A little tear, I wiped with fear as you
tell me, "I'm sorry I lied."

I had loved you with all the stars,
The love we had before is now far
Lost, I think? But you left a
significant mark
I thought you were my home, but
you are just a little landmark
Back to where my soles embarked

I love you, but it's just the internet

Every image of you buried
in different parts of my skin
Every line you gave, I carried
in different places of Berlin

Each time they mention love,
it breaks the little things inside
Even if still a mourning dove
I know in time, wounds heal from above

Love is such a sad word,
Sadder than sad, there are tears
Misunderstood and unheard
Everything about love is all that they fear

They say love hurts the most
But I do not blame the heart
They say love hurts the most
But I think humans had done their part

Wounds will heal
The next will soon arrive
The future will also be real
Regardless of the past, the hope doesn't subside

The difference with you, sadness
You are the extreme loneliness or madness
You are temporary, and you can be thrown away
Once the circumstances change, you fade away

The difference with you, anger
You are the height of any issues and murders
You make them impulsive
You absolutely love it when they get abusive

The difference with you, attention seeking
You often deceive, telling everyone that everything's depressing
You urge them to mislead them, you want them to think depression is foolish
You find your peace when they get all the attention you have wished

The difference with all of you, I'm what they called "depression."
A mental disorder which seeks medical assistance
None of these changes can me go away in an instance
I make them turn their backs to their healthy lifestyle
And push them to an irregular and abusive lifestyle

Not everyone who I possess, slit their wrist
Some of them can actually resist
I never gave them the chance to articulate my causes
That is why people call them nuisances

The others think it's just feeling and temporary
No, I'm not, I'm real and far more than ordinary
I do deceive people by making them do happy things
That is why others tell them what to feel and do, saying it's nothing

Not all people whom I hold onto right now
Recognize my existence because I keep it low
I'm not sadness, anger nor attention seeking
I'm something you have to pay attention to because I'm not joking.

What if this attention or what mortals called fame,
Vanish all of a sudden, will you still stay the same?

What if time slowly takes my voice away,
Will you turn your back and finally stay away?

What if life keeps me under the soil of the earth,
Will you ever voice out all the pieces I've written for the youth?

I'm a small pilgrim of the earth,
I'm the most trusted of the Deities
I'm the enemy of the mother planet
A tiny dust breathing under the vast skies,
Soon I will die and be one with the ground
And fade away like the sunset,
Letting the dusk that they call death
Take over and be in union with the night sky.

The two worlds stretches between the two lovers
After the man could no longer believe that it was over
The Midnight blossomed from the darkness of the night,
He found himself struggling to hold her tight

"Oh lover" he said,
"If only I could tell you all the words stuck in behind my teeth
Those words that were not supposed to kept inside my mouth
I would not return here endlessly and regret so much."

Love exists when two souls collide,
After eternity vanishes with the crashing tides.
And as soon as the lovers encounter the perfect ride,
The other falls down; death finishes grips on its neck.

L'amour.

At 1:14 in the morning, We breathe a different air.

Mirror Mirror on the wall
Who's the fairest of them all?
A lady wearing white and she's quite tall
Running, slipping into the waterfalls
Liquid pierce her skin, she heard the killercall
"Lady, lady where did you fall?"
Tears mixing with water, she never felt so small
In the forest where she's the prey, predators are all
She swam to the ends and at the end the lady crawl
Her appearance was terrifying but once considered a doll
The anger filled the man who got drench with ethanol
Fire and greed should have perished the fairest of them all
But how fortunate she is, God's with her all along.

Haunting, Fleeting, extraordinary, mild
Your images flow in the sea of my mind
How your body float gracefully from behind

A laugh comes out from your mouth,
Catching some air before swimmings towards me
You did love the water as you told me

My arms wrapped around your waist
And I kissed your pinkish lips to taste
My love, I'm sick from our memories

I could not anymore sleep,
Now my heart and mind are in deep,
Your image flashes as I shut my eyes completely

Darkness resembles your presence
Leaving me broken and oblivious lost its essence
Knowing tonight, you're with someone else

I'm turning the lights off
shrugging the thought of you off
call me a coward for not fighting for you, lover
But the moment when I saw you with one another,
I knew that it was over.

I guess I was in love with you swimming
Enjoying the rain while skinny dipping
You are now a memory I'm trying to perceive
I was not a loss for you, they say,
But I dodge a bullet for not letting toxicity to stay.

Good bye.

She rolled to the other side time
Idly waking up from a long slumber
A smile paints on her lips upon hearing chimes
On which they call another sign they should remember

Creeping from the home of the creatures
Another season was born under her care
Her favorite colors were warm tones
So Wanderers saw trees with such color and designs

Autumn, the seasons of pumpkins
You'll see little ones painting their skins
She is the end of a long summer ride
From a distance,
He watches her blow colder winds to the tides

She sadly watches her lover getting dismembered
By high waves crashing against him
And the sunset withdrawing his full image,
"No one can bring warmth and happiness but you."
She shuts her eyes, collecting Summer's image on her mind.

She's the daughter of a noble
Her images were unforgettable
Warmness covered my skin
Once she starts to touch mine
Her lips are richer than roses
Words purer that any slates

But she sleeps on her capacity
She wounds other's esteems
Then she blames and destroys
And I tried to hold onto her tightly
words tried to remind her worth

yet,
She responded by storming out
Perhaps caught an aeroplane
Leaving me standing at the shore
She ran away with her heart
I was left empty, hoping for her
But the sunset settles down

so it ends,

                            au revoir

Her adoration's long gone,
all they did was to argue
So they decided to leave all behind

They left their things
Got up, rolled their sleeves
Went up to the hill and saw the cliff
And they gaze o'er the whole land

"Parting's such a sad word."
She said but he smiled
"It isn't." the lady was puzzled
"Watching you go with my heart,
That's enough for me. I'm happy."

I met a ballerina named, Elise
Her favorite song's Fur Elise
The first time I saw her's leaping
I was amused; everyone started clapping

Oh, my heart flutter in joy
I saw her smile from the stage
Her smile precisely fits her face
Her performance was talked in Illinois.

I was boy and all insecure
I couldn't tell her how much she made me sure
Of how living could be this good
Even they say I'm your fool
My eyes only long for you
Heart's all yours, and that's true

Too bad I could show you,
All the success I have made
You rested early that the world thought,
I was left aching for your love
All my life I only drew you,
listen to your favorite songs,
And I rested well beside you.

Another fragile Hourglass takes place
As solace slipped from the grip of ebony
Fulfilling another twenty-four to humanity

Heavens turns another blank page
Writing the course and expanding existence
Of beings living in a soon to be perished planet
Whom supernaturals called them as pilgrims of faith
And race embodied a serpent's deeds and values
despite such contrast, freedom is still evident

Come forth another a mysterious lasting day
At five, few eyes slowly flutter open
Like flower do when the coldness
And strikes of spectrum embraces them
Along with the rest of the creations
Another slate for each individual
To live their chances as they please
And dance with time's tricks

Dusks comes and the remaining sands
Sliding down the little hole in the hourglass
Darker hues creeps down the forest
Warmer hues hugs the shore
Soft, calming breeze hits the skin
Finally ebony withdraws the light
And Luna came along with a needle
She sewed another night together
Along with the constellations and the moon
Ending each person's day with a point
Or mortals called it, sleep.

I was fifteen when I learned about tricks in life
I was with someone older and they, say it's fine
Adventurous and tested all dangers,
I saw myself pushing her against the corner

At past eleven we met downstairs,
I asked her the dangers but frowned and said, "I'm not like those liars."
My hand was on your lower back
I lifted her shirt while exploring her mouth, "****."
A whisper comes out from her lips,
"You're too naughty for your age." Placing my hands on her hips

The locking of our lips lasted longer than I expected,
She became aggressive; I felt totally connected
She unbuckled my trousers and began teasing
I was innocent and scared with whatever pleasing
It was fast, I totally forgot what we're doing,
But I felt something came, and she continued swallowing
At my young age, thought it wasn't known like those videos
I never felt so horrified with the picture, I felt like and idiot.

And we did more than I imagined,
but as soon as I again hovered on top of her
She pushed me down, "I'm leaving." It was a blur.
I hear her phone rang twice,
but on the third time, she took the call
I suddenly got sober from a fool's paradise
She picked her things up mumbling, "I'm heading home Paul.

Every night, I felt more alive
During the day, my bones crumble
My eyes hurt and muscles ache
I live for the my pen sketching lines
I entrust my passion with my skills
I never thought I could actually execute this?

There are times I party until collapsing
Funny how I fill myself with alcohol
but fall on my knees at two
I'm so young but ashamed of it

It's so hard for me to accept before
all these words that I should learn more
Six times a day I spent mourning
instead of motivating myself in the morning

At the table, they tell me what to do
But ****, what should I do?
I feel myself fading from existence
Do I still have a chance?
I'm already twenty
And I'm still here sitting pretty.

Scary it is, I feel scared to find myself alone
unlike before where I enjoy being lone
My generation and the younger ones
Are far more notorious than what you think

I want to go somewhere I could call my own
A perfect place for me to settle down
but I could not imagine myself living in a mansion.
You might think I'm insane,
but my heart feels lonely between the stone walls

I spent my life looking for happiness
I was left nothing but expectations getting ripped
My life missed all the opportunities and second chances
I seek for what I should have rather felt.

My hands feel the unwanted fire seeping inside me
All these losing myself and stress gets me
I don't know why I am like this,
I get called weak by many
but I'm a hero of my story
I get called wicked by some
But ****, I am the all of it.

The nights I spent inking papers
I saw myself getting exhausted to achieve perfection
should I give up? I think I should
So I dropped my pen and pursued something else

I stood in front of strangers and led them
I listen to their voices, but I couldn't handle my own
My feet started to ran away from myself
I was **** afraid of my ghost

I saw my feet got bruised
I lost everything and got myself abused
I spent countless nights over my heart
who beats for uncertainties
but what a fool, I held tightly to it.

For once, my head thought my heart is my hero
It's hilarious seeing my weep to over a heroine
I thought and believed was mine,
I realized she belonged to herself

My body got wasted with no alcohol
Drained from lemons, I kept on getting
I feel like bursting everything out
but If I do, I will lose it again.

A day ago, I got a memo that I should get it
I should catch my superior's drift
That playroom does not fit my age anymore.
But my heart thought this was a perfect place?
Should I let my alter ego fall in peace?


I forgot I was not anymore young
But I'm still embarrassed
My mind caught the idea of drifting soon
I should retract everything and come back to my roots
because I couldn't stay in paradise forever

My face should not be shield by art
instead I should make myself my masterpiece
What the **** have I been doing all my life?
I regret that I let myself lose everything.

The door's closed
opportunity knocked
I want myself getting hit
by harsh words to pull a new me
I never knew that anywhere is a paradise for me
If acceptance's stamped on my feet,
Morals and knowledge circulate harmoniously inside.

Keeping my head up is what I need,
To leave the paradise, I've been
The people who had lived and died
Will soon return to their lives
Carrying nothing on our backs
But memories of the place we will leave behind.

No one ever gave the luxury that his greedy heart desired.
And so he chose to become the creature of fire.
The flames which they whispered
To be destructive and vicious.
His eyes mirrored the depths of hell
That was once angelic and precious.

His heart has been corrupted and withered.
Now his lips spoke evil for any man to do harm.

I knew him when he was young
He was a noble
But now the doubtful,
The altruist and witty since youth
Turns out to be someone who will deny the truth.

I came from a generation that stuck in between the nostalgia,
The grandeur of aesthetics and hypocrisy in the genitalia
Too many amateurs which they called pretenders
Too many pretenders which they called profounders
Of Artistry in every countries culture.

I am not the most impressive writer just like Shakespeare
Neither close to the modern writers on which they give praise
My age is a few leaps away to the end of my youth,
At twenty, I found words of impulsiveness and courage elicit from my mouth.

I am just someone who embodied the face of my leagues
They call me the soul of their generation as they please
I may write pretentiously, but I speak for the marginalized
I dream for my inked piece would reach them, I hope to get them amazed

I am the soul my generation
A little careless with my actions, telling others I'm brave
A little wild, yet I screamed that nothing bounds me
A little innocent with life's surprises, and so I apologized and called it as a mistake.
I'm a few every people that you've met.
I carry the pieces of the individuals who have touched me
I flow like the river which takes parts of the fallen objects in me.
Vulnerable to anything, Easy to gain what the heart desires
Misunderstood like the innocent criminals,
Goes along with changes
I'm maybe everything they thought I am
I'm maybe someone you never thought I am
Or nothing in with your choices
But one thing's for sure; I'm free.

The man gave him food to dine
But he rejected it and said he's fine

The man comes back, gave him clothes to feel comfortable
But he folded them and returned them to the hands of fortunate.

The man tried to offer an of belongings for him to live well
But the poor man rejected and said, "This isn't fair."

Confused and offended,
the fortunate began to question the other.
"Poor fellow, Why do you choose to suffer?"

He took his hand before saying,
"why do you need to offer your belongings
when can you teach me how to achieve such things?
Teach me not how to beg, my friend.
But bring me to my senses to be responsible and let me mend
All broken dreams that I once saw in my slumber,
Teach me how to strive
So I could bring you pride."