The church bells toll twelve And it's time for me to sleep...but do I? As soon as I lay my head on my pillow... My mind sits in the Past express And moves from one station to the other Suprisingly... the train travels back...instead of going ahead. I reach stations that were left behind Stations...I never wanted to reach.
There's this Pain...that lives beneath my heart And it eats it up like a termite...every night I can't define it...I don't know This sinking feeling is normal As I lost my peace years ago... But it meets me secretly on stormy afternoons And I feel overwhelmed...
But after all this...I still wonder When will I sleep? Sleep with dreams in my eyes And Pain gone away.
I loved sleep a second away from reality death for a moment heaven for a minute hell for a while but when they came the sleepless nights they made me so powerless even when stabbed my eyes they were open so just for a moment let me sleep so for a while, I can be with mother hah her warmth I forget it on the sleepless nights
She Spends her noons being asleep Disconnected with the world But She's awake at nights Dark thoughts are coming by She tries to Distract herself by thinking about the distractions she might need Thinking about the person she cant bring back into her life again But nothing seems to help Her failed attempts of distraction Has became an frustration by itself Because every thing she thinks Brings back the unbearable pain she had ..
A slow, pain-absorbent Difficult, depressing moment There's not much to expect But to wait when it will end when is your end. I'd rather Be extinct in an instant, expire abruptly Than decay and lose hope.
Those are the times Where mornings seems shorter And the nights seems longer Those are the moments Where you lay in bed With nothing but thoughts Thoughts in your head Feelings in your heart Sometimes even just wondering Why everything fell apart? Sometimes you’ll just feel empty You’ll just feel tired You’ll feel like being happy Was a facade you always lied Sometimes you’re just there Laying in bed No thoughts in your head Sleepiness wasn’t knocking on your door Seeing times passes by more and more You lay there with your eyes blinking Staring at the ceiling, thinking “Why is this happening to me?” “What was happening?” “What’s wrong with me now?” “What changed?” “Where did I go wrong?” You start to retrace your memories From the very beginning You start to think back about those times Even some bad endings That’s where the tears starts coming That’s where your eyes starts blurring You didn’t know what was happening to you You didn’t know if the sadness you felt was true Was it the sadness you kept for so long? Or was it just because you were tired of being strong? You didn’t know But you laid there Crying Sobbing Whimpering Sniffling Just letting out your emotions with this cry Without even knowing why But as you finish crying You started thinking Now you’re staring Not knowing what you were looking But you felt empty once again And the cycle starts over again Until sleep Finally comes to you Your eyes now feel heavy Your mind feels light too But you know that was already too late You accepted your fate Sleep was always came slow So now it was morning again And the night became another