Smoke **** 24/7,
Work from 9 to at least 11.

She's everywhere,
But I don't want her to be anywhere.

hey, whats poppin' B?

Negativity is his psychosis,
Sadness is his daily dosis.

Flying high, flying low
Falling hard, falling slow

A game so full
A game so cruel
Cutting your skin
Drinking some fuel
Bashing your head
Feeling a fool
Picking your nose
Dripping some drool
"You're an idiot"
"You're a tool"
******* your blood
Eating your stool
Feeling so fly
Feeling so cool

A game so great
A game so small
Someone will rise
And someone will fall

Thought you won
Then you lost
Felt the warmth
Then the frost

Step back
One more time
Walk forward
Feel sublime
Crash course
"You are mine."

I'm me
You're you
You can **** my diddy
If you don't like what I do

You know,
I always want the greatest
But when I do
I get the least
Life has this seemingly eternal push and pull
Where the more you want something
The further it moves away from you

And then when you stop chasing
It comes back to you
But when you open your arms again
The cycle repeats.

I'm so tired.

I get what I want
Until it's taken from me
I reach my success
Until it's taken from me
I meet who I need
Until it's taken from me
I fight for what's right
Until it's taken from me
I run towards my goal
Until it's taken from me
I'm pulling my weight
Until it's taken from me
I spend all my energy
Until it's taken from me
I live my life
Until it's taken from me

I should've

Throbbing little mosquito
Sipping on some wild doe
Going with the wind's flow

Buzzing ominous lullabies
About the blood queen's paradise
Flying to the land where they'll rise

She'll nurture them with all her love
Deep inside a dark cove
Until the buzzing
Stops.

"Thank you for helping me."
- "Thank you for letting me."

Whiskey all day
**** all night
Yank a knife in my side
Beat me to death with a pogo stick
Cry to me and call me a ****
Your face is making me feel sick
Don't mourn me.

I climb your wall of infinite disparities
I scratch my leg on your thorned stories
I cry my tears over your heart that bleeds
I'll lift up a thousand stones
I'll call you with a million phones
I'll give you all of my bones
For I smile every time you look at me
For I open my doors if this is where you wanna be
For I'll be with you whenever you need me

Crystallized cards and bleeding hands
Empty minds and dull reflections
Desperation spread accross the lands
People divided into seperate sections
Skins burnt crisp by brands
Bodies braking down by neglection
Time without the flowing sands
Faith lost in crucified interception

I wave my wings
And weap my tears
I glide through the sorrow
And fill all the hollow

I'll carry you back
Back to where you started
Say farewell with a smile
Return to the world of hearted

Looking down once again
I see you, my friend
Lost again, hollow again
So I wave my wings
And weap my tears
But this time
You're not here

A poem a day,
Keeps the psychiatrists away.

There's a huge gap between
What people say & do
And
What people think & feel
I have love for whom are aligned.

A coin so dark
A coin so red
Once lucky I bled
Hope I was still bleeding
Because the heart is still feeding
On what we're all needing
Now you might once feel like you're freezing
So listen to this message I'm heeding

They say I'm tripping
But I'm completely f*cking flipping
Lost my mind on a railway
So I think I wanna go bail, ey?
They say I'm tripping
My mind is dipping
They say it's chipping
I think I'm flipping
Pickle Rickin'

Are people their opinions based on reality
Desperately trying to find consistency
Being unable to meaning anarchy
Realizing facts are fallacies

Or is reality based on people their opinions
Finding a way out of being god's minions
People stranded, counting millions
People clueless, depressed civilians

I woke up and now I'm here
High flying, low falling

Busdriver making a sharp steer
Used to be good and now I'm balling

Still getting wasted every day on cheap beer
I wanna go fast but secretly stalling

Tunnel vision, not checking my rear
Think I'm running but I'm crawling

I should smile because life is dear
Was excited but now I'm yawning

I hate people that are fake
I stake those people and throw them in a lake
I'll pop their eyeballs with some darts
I smoke another spliff with some lofi and Mozart
I choke once again on your empty-*** platitudes
I see you think you're all high but you're on low altitude
I notice you think you're so great but I hate your attitude
I despise the fact that you'll probably call me crude
I laugh at the idea that you won't make it, dude

Maybe I just need someone to feel what I feel
If you do, my heart you can steal
I'll spin my web on a hollow reel
Better myself, for you I would kneel

For you I'd become unbreakable
With you I can feel stable
And you might feel like a fable
But I know you're there
Even if I don't know where

I tried talking online,
I tried breaking my spine,
I tried eating like a swine,
I tried waiting for a sign,
I just want you to be mine.

I tried finding a girl,
I tried jumping in life's swirl,
I jump further the more I sink,
I feel scared but don't even blink,
I like milky skin, with accents of pink,
I tried connecting but can't find a link.

I know what I want but I probably don't,
I think I'm sick but can't find an antidote,
I wanna jump in front of a car on a busy road,
I should but right now I'm tasting some self-loathe.

Besides, I'm writing this,
You should be here, you don't know what I miss,
The last one, to end the night,
Please stay with me, for I feel so much fright,
And I feel like I'm blessed with blight,
Yes you, you wonderful reader,
You probably are, also a bleeder.

Please love me.

I'm gonna go buy a gun
Cause I wanna go have some fun
Been a while since I felt the sun
Plenty of money but still a total ***

Tasting some steel deep in my throat
Scratch my ******* on a splintered boat
Fill me with whiskey till my stumache explodes
Sack me with stones till I no longer float

Always care too much and get hurt
Every time I get a little more burnt
What you looking at, ****?

sigh.

Crack my skull,
Feeling so dull,
I was feeling so full,
But now I lost it all,
I wish you would call,
But I know that I'm feeling so small,
I feel like I'm lost while I crawl,
I know that it isn't your fault,
You make me numb and yet feel so full,
Feeling so dull,
Cracking my skulI,
I want to hold your hands so I just hope I haven't lost it all.

Step, ground breaking
Crack, heart shaking
Bleed, falling shards
Shatter, picking cards

Rolling dice, losing all
Flying down, slowly fall
Sinking deep, pull me under
Shouting silence, I will sunder

Sleep, mind cracking
Break, stress capping
Run, fast forward
But time, can't be bothered

Hi, hey, here I am again
Looking for a friend?
Still here, no worries!
Still full of follies?
I can fix it, I swear!
Hey, wait, you still there?
Hold up, please don't go!
Don't run, I want to know!

Hi, hey, here I am again
Looking for a friend?
I swear, I can be one!
All good, it'll be fun!
Hey, wait, you still there?
I can fix it, I swear!

Are you hurt, feeling despair?
Weight heavy, save you a prayer?
Hey, wait, don't feel sad
Smile, it's not so bad

Hi, hey, here I am again
Looking for a friend?
Still here, no worries!
Still full of follies?
I can fix it, I swear!
Hey, wait, you still there?
Hold up, please don't go!
Don't run, I want to know!

Your existence is a thorn in my thigh
Because all I want is to smoke and get high

Unraveled, its folded again
Broken is the place in the hearts of men

Shedding my skin times a tenfold
Filling the cracks with liquid gold

Everywhere we are, nobody goes
The scent of desperation flows through my nose
Because I don't even care about ******* some hoes
And people act like life is just a bunch of shows
And **** im tired because everyone rows
Pulling my weight but nobody knows

theres a darkness chasing me
trying to catch up with me
feeding off my memories
it feels like an eternity
free me of reality
I wanna start a killing spree
no longer feeling empathy
I cannot seem to find the key, but
I gotta try, please hear my plea, but
I'm still stuck in continuity, but
I gotta try, please hear my plea, but
..
it aint getting the best of me