Please be seated
I will be speaking my opinion
Into the record:
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It is hereby order
You shall...

1. Get in line
2. Do as you're told
3. Walk strait
4. Follow the rules
6. Don't make waves

Warning
The breaking of any of these rules
Will free your mind and your soul too!

P.S
Rule 5. Never gets followed anyways!

I realize this may sound
Well. Somewhat unnatural

Can you at least
Allow me to watch you
Watching

How soon love
Gets forgotten
Okay
Then Shall I bid you
Good night my love
!

I want her too much
But.............................
I'm just a good dude

I always support her
Ya...............................
I'm one of her fool's

I've had enough
Well......................
I'm up to my neck

As much as I try
Sadly...................
I cannot connect

It's time to move on
Slam!!!.....................
My heart is a door

I'll love her forever
But...........................
Just not any more.

I have nothing to hide
The door is open take a look inside
I’ve done my bad
Then set things right
Transforming my ugly
Into light
I’m not ashamed of who I am
This is who I want to be
Come on out and take a breath
Set your ugly free!

Okay all ready!
I feel you all
Suffocating me insane
I'm being drained
My energy flows
Downward
To the lowest of lows
Where lies the pain
That the miserable
Refuse to let go

Empathically
I am cursed
Tethered
To your emotional
Burst
I feel the babies
Crying in the night
My heart spring
Into thoughtless flight
The unrest of the downtrodden
Engulf my weary life

If I could only feel
Without a care
Turn away
And say a prayer
Someone else
I'd surely be
But that's just not
My destiny
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P.S.
So please stop thinking so loud!

Again she asked me why
Why do you help
That guy?
He's known
To cheat, steal and lie
Why in the ****!
Would you help that guy?
So..
I asked myself
And look inside
Then I realize
If he died
I'd cry
....

It's not actually a flower
It's a painting of a flower
No definition beyond
The flower's we see
Out on the lawn
Merely an image
Paint fumes replaced
The charmers scent
That once
"Meaninglessly"
Drew our mates

An orchestrated opus
Of wayward heart
Galaxies of lyric-less
Wayward stars
Glimmering
From who knows
Afar
Meaningless poetry
Is all we are

Why do morning dove
Insist to sing
Meaningless songs
Birds of prey scream
Blinding beams of sunlight
Reflect off mighty seas
Blinding our eyes
Yet still we believe
What meaning has
The giant ancient trees
Majestic mountains
Purple beauties
These impressions
Of nature only define
Meaningless poetry
That beautifully rhymes
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then i was lost
i know
i had paid
the cost
scars are
all i have
poetically
have i gone mad?

without a thought
i began this life
somethings sure
to come to light
an't got no lover
an't got no wife
this is not
a rant oh no
nor gripe
deep insight
can free the soul
i loved her more
then you could know
perhaps we met
in a life time past
happiness
wasn't meant last
and yet
we spiral down
and start again
for next time
we are bound to win

I don't always mean
These words I say
Nor these things I recklessly do
In the pitch dark of night
I suddenly awake
And frantically reach for you
Somehow you're still here
Then I realize my greatest fear
To be alone in this broken world
A single man without a girl
So I must admit
I need your love
Even though
I abhorred the crutch
Nothing is as it's suppose to be
Thank  god
For cursing me!
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I posses a lust
For things I know
Should never ever be
I hide these feeling
Beneath my smile
As my shameful
Demons flee

I'm sure at this time
You have your doubts
That's why
I wouldn't ever
Want to be found out

  Unlike the man
In the trench coat
I take a completely
Different approach
And so...
This is all that
I'll expose
A shadow of
My lustful soul
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I'm not going to wait
For you anymore
I'm going to change the locks
On my back door
Push a needle in
Go for a ride
Got to escape
These feelings inside

All I do fades to grey
I can't hear a word
You say
I can't take it anymore
I CANNOT TOLERATE!

I’m not gona' be your fool
Wouldn't give a ****
What you do
Push a needle in
Cause I'm never afraid
I'm gona' make you GO AWAY!

In the free world
Our hands are actually tied
We dine on corporatism lies
Manipulated by
The camera eye
We purchase
The blood stain petrol
Our footprint
Digs deep in turmoil
Dark money
In our accounts
That's what freedoms
Here in the US
Is actually about
We oil the jaws
Of the war machine
Then feed it
With our babies
Freedom
Seems to have
Made the free quite crazy

And so I must apologize
For our lack of control
Even our votes
Are bought and sold
Propaganda keeps us blind
These hands are tied
Please keep that in mind
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To and fro I travel
Yet I find no place to rest
My heart is but a shadow
Darkness with a breath

Home is but a memory
As I lay upon hard ground
And dream of ancient glories
When I was once renowned

Now I am forgotten
Demonized by lore
Cast into a hell dimension
Just beyond life's door...

For the third time
I'm going down
I won't becoming
Near or around
I lost my memory
Which makes me a fool
I am a cancer
I am a ghoul
Treat me how
Ever you need
I am but a wiping boy
Down on my knees

Deep inside
I once survived
Restrained within a cell
Living life behind bars
Nothing more precious
As single piece of mail
Waiting on a visit
To ease my prison hell

I love them bigger then life
But I was forced to send them
To live with my wife
A ****** off the streets
Who long ago left me
And so I started to write
Poetry saved my life!

The Angel of death
Voicelessly whispered
To the Ill forgotten struggles
Of my unrestrained id
"I am here to recall your soul
So...How do you want to go!"
Perhaps...
A bullet in the head
That's what John F. Kennedy said
You can chose
The hangman's noose
When the bottom drops out
You'll be hanging lose
Chose to drown in a dream
Wake up gasping
Turning green
Oh what hell is planed for me
If we all must pay
For ***** deeds
A fire as hot as eternal death
A burning soul
Is all that's left
Old age is such a bore
You decide
Here some more
Cancer seeps
And creeps within
A mutant growth
For every sin
Radiation your only choice
Speak now your inter voice

Death is beautiful
For the righteous few
An extended dream
But not for you!

Strutting like a rooster
In the hen house of love
Crowing and a pecking
At a pigeon then a dove

Spurs *****
Feathers flying
I struck and stuck
A duck just lying

Fertile are the eggs
My girls tend to lay
Let them hatch
Or eat them
With some bacon
If you crave

My meat no longer tender
Unlike the farmers pig
They won't eat me for dinner
And so I get to live

Strutting in this farm yard
I surely have the life
****-a-do-doe-do
I crow
With all my might!!
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This is where the world ends
And I begin
So why
Are you on my cloud again?
Looking down
You only see my feet
I'm up here
You don't have to reach
Your god complex
Is not invisible
Why are you always miserable?
You forced your way
Into my rhyme
Heavy heart'd on my mind
I've no solution
Just these lines
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We pay our debts
Sometimes
Empty-handed
We walk a fine line
Nothing is the way
It’s supposed to be
I still love her
She don’t love me.

Heads up
We're all gonna die
Heart's finally quit
Eye's no longer cry
From our birth
It's one big struggle
Even the rich
Have their troubles
So...gender up
Take that helm
Life's too short
To simply settle
I'm talking to myself
There's no one else
More worth gunning for
Politics and Mother Earth
Will always be at war
We came alone
That's how we leave
Life began form a single seed
And empty vessel
Full of needs
Thirsty, hungry
Selfish greed
That's how we started
You and even me
But what of the other end
Do we lose
Or will we win?
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I wish I were
A man of might
I would protect
****** tight
Keep it pure
Fertile seed
I am but
A bad disease
I wish I were
A chimpanzee
I would swing
In every tree
Limb to limb
Between knees
Catch a whiff
Lumbar cheese
What I really mean
I wish I were
Something else
I get bored
With myself
Traveling alone
Living the life
This time around
Without wife
I wish I were
A man of might!

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O­h ionic sky above
Let loose your naughty rain
Crash your clouds in thunder
White lightening flash in vain
Hydrate this thirsty dryness
Plaguing my barren glands
Set forth her winds a blowing
From where sweet love began

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B­lizzards, tornadoes, hurricanes
and typhoons
The Mother Nature of me
wants to stir the storms of you
My deepest desires dwelling inside my mind
Hitting my heart like thunder and lightning
Sparks intensified
Walking on clouds dreaming of you
Spinning in whirlwinds my teardrops of truth’s
Catch me for I’m falling from heaven above
With the wants of kissing your angel lips of love

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Flower of the morning dew
My gods approve of only you
Wisdom of my sins ascend
Guide my wonder to your ends
To where the storms begin

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A mighty volcano burning deep down within
Raging passion swirling a cyclone of sins
Drenched in a downpour of lust
An eruption of showers quenching our thirst
Changing the atmosphere as our bodies collide
The binding of our hearts together
forever entwined
Infinite our love boundless by time
For I am Yours and You are mine

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Untimely reminders
In the mist of might
My love is to weak
To do what's right
..............................
Believe in thy self
There be no other
Carried on lost wind
Return to your mother
For out of the earth
The seeds of light bloom
Fed by the sun
Crest by the moon
A love that's as real
As a raging typhoon
Reborn refurbished
Destine for doom
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No ending
Just beginning again
Tossing and turning
And bleeding to live
How much more
Do we have to give?

(Just so you know)

I drown in your heavy heart ache
I get intoxicated
On your drunken bourbon blues
We have so much more in common
Then you think
Poor old broken me and the likes of you

Heavenly this Hell among us
Feel the burn of unadulterated lust
For most of us it is a must
Invisible deities we needn't trust

All this sadness giving birth
Was it karma or some sort of curse
Is the sinner less then what he's worth
The Reaper reaps the young of heart
Whilst we grow old waiting to depart

White knuckled we desperately cling
Straining to live whilst we're suffering  
Such an exciting unattainable theme
Life is but a beautiful, beautiful dream

A moments of passion
Paid for in blood
Bleeding to live
In the name of love
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I had forgotten
The smell of my own
Yet as it squished through my toes
It when rate to my nose

I thought to myself
Oh ya, I'm one of those

I embarrassingly admit
As a single parent
I was quite unfit
Unprepared
For the mothers role
When I lost my children
I lost my soul

My truth will never stammer
Nor stutter as I write
I've done both good and evil
Behold a waste of life
Forgive me
Forgive me not
That's just how it is
I hope
Your love
In your next life
Learns to finally give
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There was a time
When the evil in me
Simply took over
I tried my best
To never be sober
I had no need for morals
Not a thought of tomorrow
I lived out my deepest
Emotional scars
Needles, crack pipes
Kicked out of every local bars
Truly
I never anticipated
Getting this far
But here we are
I've no need to be a liar
My soul has been chard by fire
My poetry reflects
A man with nothing left
Nothing left to lose
Accept for you
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It has been broken
For several years
Not a word of truth
Unspoken stares
I'm not the one
Who hurt you there

I am a bad man
That's the name of my song
But I have never
Ever did you or anybody wrong

Deceitfully innocent
She runs the show
Cordially manipulative
You'd never know

I do her bidding
To secure our roof's
All my worth
Wasted in youth
She holds my deed
She knows my truth
She hides my keys
My only proof

In paths of duality
I follow her down
I am her shadow
I make no sound
I am the hollow
Inside her shell
I am the fire
Burning like hell

Emptily I ride
And somehow get by
She tolls the rope
I never ask why
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How quickly form mind
A memory slips
Dust in the winds
A careless wisp
Not even a trace
Of a loved ones kiss

But I was there
I held you close
Of all your love
Mine was the most
You left me behind
A scab less ghost

Out here in the ether
Fond memory seether
Sleep tight my love
For I'm with the Reaper
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If within the limitation of parentheses
(Throw away information goes here)
Holds the reflection in a greater sphere
I hold in my heart (Mostly in my art)
The thought of you my dear
Your heart should be aware
(Written in the stars
In our private holy hemisphere)
We have always
To each other been near

Sub-atomically we arrived (In ethereal beauty)
Aesthetic attractions draws us
Again we manifest (Another mess)
Until we learn the laws (Of eternal rest)
Then shall we begin again (In thee end)

Disturbing are my dreams
Sleep full of tragic memes
I can't seem to work them out
All these problems
Facing south

I can find no solution
For global unrest
There's far
Too much confusion
In this major political mess

Tossing and turning
All through the night
Mainstream media
Nothing but lies
Propaganda is served
As innocent children
Suffer and dies  

Now I need to wake up
Try and collect my thoughts
Certainly there's something
I can do
To save all they've loss
Take to the pin
Take to the streets
Why must
My empathy
Run so ******* deep!

This is a poem
About ***
Deep lustful
Honey dripping
Perhaps you'll be next
But then again
This is a poem
About sin
And in the end
Sin always
Seems to wins
So instead
This is a poem
About doubt
Because surety
Is but a silent shout
And all these thing
I need to get out
That's what poetry
Is all about!

Sometimes
Promises get broken
Subconsciously unspoken
After all
You can always say
You were only joking

I'm not afraid anymore
If you're going to leave
Close the cellar door
I've been in your chains
For far too many years
It's prime time for a cure

I peeped the light
Things can only get better
You can keep my coat
Just let go my sweater

Do I know crazy
I know him well
Too much time
In and out of hell

Even the strongest
Can't keep
The sky from falling
My motor's running
My mind keeps stalling

Here I am
If there’s anything you need
My heart is racing
My brokenness is in the lead!

I dreamed about love
so deep I cried

So beautiful and unattainable
Yet still I tried

I tried to hold on
As long as I could

Yet my dreams are so often
Misunderstood...

I wish she shared my sight
To see beyond the veil
To share my outrage
To recognize our hell

Global are my views
But she just sits at home
Watching CNN
In the propaganda zone

Evil is our government
An American has no say
All the wars abroad
Are illegal on their face

The deep state runs the president
The one percent renowned
There’s dark money in our politics
Our politicians are but clowns

This is not a conspiracy theory
This is all our fates
Close your eyes turn on Fox News
And pretend America's great

A life time of love
Can so easily slip
Beware of greasy palms
In your lover's grip
The jungle is full
Of tar pits traps
Hold on tight
I'll pull you back

Beware of the lions
Tigers and bears
Don't be a snake unaware
Tarzan the great
King of the jungle
On a slippery vine
He'd simply be Dumbo
Sooner or later we all stumble

Unworthily
Selfishness and greed
Such provisions
On this journey
No Traveler needs
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The winner's lose
Happiness descends
Death awaits
Rigor mortis sets in

An empirical delusion
Blinded by grief
The most logical wisdom's
Eventually deceive

At the bottom of ism's
Awaits the final collision
At the gates
Of all that rhyme
A funeral dirge
Reconciled with birth
In the calming state
Acutely sublime

How can the enlightened
Not fear death?
Surely we all
Struggle for breath
Holding life in
As long as we can
I will give you my heart
But only on lend

Perhaps Poet's
Understand the rhymes
Contemplative in nature
Destine to arrive
  Removing the blinders
That death is a lie
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I hope you have
A happy birthday
You never let me know
Born on the longest night
Severed from my soul

But I was first
To see your eyes
And feel your misery
Now you hide deep inside
But you could also leave

I'm sorry I went away
The choice was never mine
But if I had but one wish
I'd hope you'd read this rhyme
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I don't mean to be rude
But after all
That was yesterday
Moods get altered
And therefor
Feelings can change
My heart is a tainted thing

But to be fair
I get lost and I stare
But there's nothing there
I just stare in the air
It's safer not to care
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Ya...
But, but
I am crazy
You see what
You want to see
There's no mercy
No not for me
All the double
Negatives  
Are meant
To deceive
Please
don't
look
At
Me
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This may sound strange
But in my past life
She was my man
I was his wife
He beat my ***
In front of his parish
Bible in hand
He exorcised
Me with his he man
I had a demon
That wanted to live
He had a god
Who refused to forgive

.This time around
I am the man
Upon her being
I won't lay a hand
But she's still that entity
Who for some reason believes
There still a demon
Deep inside me
Two parts of a whole
Continue to roll
Out of control
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Before her life could take shape
While yet unable to communicate
Unable to put into words
Her pieces unable to merge

A fluttery butterfly took flight
She was never quite right
I cry to the sky in sincerity
Mend this broken part of me

And now
I cannot bare
To face the sun
To see the effects
Of all I've done
Before she was three
I broke her and me
.....
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Reject my love as you may
Slowly break my heart
Each and everyday
Beautifully Broken
Here I lay

And with
In my poem
All that could ever be
Remains unknown
Cryptic in origin
The soul's entries

Be still
As I convey this hug
Engulfing you
In my love
Close the blinds
Lock your legs
Read not these words
I insist to say

Hit like
Just to be nice
A heart that's been broken
Lies
Hidden behind
Star struck eyes
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Look at this mess
This baggage
Is all I’ve left
My portion
Hard pressed
I have fermented
Nonetheless

Aged and seasoned
Blemishes and lesions
Yet my austerity
She finds
Somehow pleasing
I seek no reason
That would surely
Be treason

She gets drunk
And high
On me oh my
I get low
Fast but slow
We are of one soul
And now you know
Fermented wine
From years ago!

Dear Julie
How do I convey
My heart dances
In child's play

Are you young?
Are you old?
Are you warm
Or fat and cold?

Where do you live?
Besides in my heart
You are an invisible
Beautiful art

I'm not looking for ***
I'm not trying to own
It's just my heart
Exist here alone

Dear sweet poetess
I need not know
In my heart
You're all ready home
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This isn’t a case
Of writers block
Tides have turned
The winds have stopped

Unread poems
Sacks stuck at home
Unposted unknown
Dear Eliot
Where did you go?

All my thoughts
Demand to rhyme
Contemplating
Line after line

Dear Eliot
What is this evil
Who downloaded
This poetic upheaval
Within your cyber grip
You control the trending list

Where approval declines
We are poetically confined
Dear Eliot
Have you lost your mind?

In a sudden
Burst of
Synaptic re-uptake
My euphoric
Feelings stall!
Flipping
My switch
Bewilder
Bewitched
‘And so I build
My wall's...

Nagging lies
I close my eyes
And search
My memories
I grasp for love
And drown in grief
Alone I bleed in peace

I read your mind
Your star struck eyes
This crazy man
Is f...king high!
My words they flow
From a worn out soul
Yet it's my goal
To love you
Even tho
You may never
Love me!
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