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Aug 2022 · 200
One More Night
Amanda Kay Burke Aug 2022
I do not know why you had to leave
Heartbroken and hopeless inside
There is an empty abyss in the depths of my body
Where once was love you supplied
Like vacuum swallowing happiness
Snugly settled in my gut
Tried to sew the hole closed
It refuses to stay shut
Invisible swords cut stitches
Watch as they unravel
As if that isn't enough damage
Slices into my tissue as well
Knew day would eventully come
This the epitome of my fears
Unaware it would arrive so soon
Easy ignoring signs throughout years
I'm lost without your warm presence
Standing frozen stuck in place
In front of me are memories
Impossible to erase or replace
In a small enclosure pace
Caged behind eyes
Crying how very sorry I am
You cannot hear me apologize
And thinking about all the warnings spoken
You turned out being correct
Do regret how I treated you sometimes
Cannot take back doubt or disrespect
Don't have a clue why i was so cold to you
When you had done me no wrong
My imperfections seen so clearly now
You and I could never seem to get along
Every chance I got put the blame on you
Time has cleared up my sight
Too late now but I'd give anything
To have you back for just one more night
I'd sacrifice every tomorrow for one more yesterday
Aug 2022 · 1.9k
Hate The Sound
Amanda Kay Burke Aug 2022
My thoughts lately too loud
Staggering
Hate the sound
Cannot silence commotion inside
Why peace is difficult to find
My mind always takes me back to the darkest lowest depths of my thoughts
Aug 2022 · 1.9k
Space Between Dreams
Amanda Kay Burke Aug 2022
I stand and wobbily make way to the door

Night fallen so quickly again

Afraid of dark
Shut the door and turn around
Not before flipping the lock

Instead of going to move amongst glowing lights and the odor of *****
Slip into pajamas and slide under the covers of my dependable bed
If patient
Sleep will find my skull eventually

So once more I am left in the space between dreams and reality
To float amidst streams of wind inside my empty mind
Aug 2022 · 168
Not Mine To Keep
Amanda Kay Burke Aug 2022
I feel everybody's eyes trained on my back

Your hand clasping mine

Your lips on my cheek

But all is at stake

Like it is not mine to keep
Aug 2022 · 529
Fears Forcefully Faced
Amanda Kay Burke Aug 2022
I do not know where to go from here
Vision blurred by every heavy tear
Helplessly witnessing hope disappear
I am forced to face my greatest fear
Which is losing the people i love the most
Amanda Kay Burke Aug 2022
Take by surprise by letting me find
You hold me with a hand so kind
Lead to the answer with a song
Press against like a current strong

So I love you forever from now
Every place we go that is my vow
Your body is my only desire
Touches mine
Sets skin on fire

Fill with hope for better days
Overflow into me your words always
Call me home
Call me your wife
Welcome to the rest of our life
Jul 2022 · 1.2k
Gone
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
I cannot believe you're really gone
Disappeared in blink of an eye
Many things I would change
If I had another try
You meant the world and more to me
NoI'm stuck asking the universe why
You would take someone I love so much
Before even saying goodbye
My mom passed away and now i feel hopeless. I can barely muster the strength to go on.
Jul 2022 · 203
Make-Believe World
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
We live a world of make-believe
Everyone speaks in lies
Multiple faces worn
Conversations disguise

Snide statements made with polite words
Insinuated interactions
Everybody has an ulterior motive
Stances formulated for satisfaction

They shout and curse your name privately
Never face-to-face
Doesn't matter who is in the wrong
Dishonesty is a disgrace

I make thoughts known aloud
To whom they're relevant
If harboring feelings towards someone
Make those emotions evident

How dare you speak ill my character
An object made of my name
My story used for your entertainment
But my life is not your game
Jul 2022 · 1.4k
Perpetual Sadness
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
Happiness so hard to reach
Now more than ever
Question that haunts my heavy heart
"Will I stay sad forever?"
I'm desperate for an answer
Jul 2022 · 433
False Pretenses
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
Disarmed defenses
Under false pretenses
Deceiving all five senses
And I fell for it like a fool
Jul 2022 · 182
Hamster Wheel
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
I try hard to move forward
Leave behind sadness I feel
Run and run yet go nowhere
A hamster trapped on a wheel
Jul 2022 · 1.7k
The Golden Rule
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
The golden rule
"Do unto others as you wish others to do unto you "
It's easier instead to do exactly what others to you do
Treat people as good as you are not as bad as they are
Jul 2022 · 637
Of Course
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
Of course it is you stuck in my brain
Of course you linger like a stain
Only topic my mind thinks about
Cause you crossed it once
Now won't get out
If you can't get someone out of your head maybe they are supposed to be there
Jul 2022 · 185
Bulls-not
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
The words spilled out my mouth like water
I sit here ashamed
My best shot at communication failed
Tells how badly I aimed
Jul 2022 · 2.0k
How Can I Be Angry With You?
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
I do not blame you for your silence
Words you'll never say
Wish I could make you mine
I guess there's too much pushing you away
Can't help but feel a tiny bit sad
I'm not mad at the end of the day
After all how could I be angry?
I knew things would end up this way..
I knew from the start there was no chance but i dared to hope anyways because i really really genuinely liked you a lot </3
Jul 2022 · 149
Do What You Feel First
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
The world morphing you into who it wants to see
Do not let it tear you apart
Only listen to those you aspire to be
First do what you feel in your heart
Jul 2022 · 186
Too Many Thoughts
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
My head's full
Too much stuff
Wandering
Wondering
I've had enough
Inflating my skull till I have a migraine
One thousand thoughts crowding my brain
Jul 2022 · 1.2k
Renovation Project
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
I wonder how you are feeling exactly
If you miss taste of my lips
Say you care but I can't help but worry
To you I am just something broken to fix
Before it seemed like you were so into me but now it just seems like you want me to change before we even give it a try
Jul 2022 · 971
Cheyenne And Michael
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
I hope you live life to fullest
The image you've always dreamed
Want your plans to work out for the best
If they differ from how you schemed
I pray you realize power you hold
Could fell mountains with one hand
When it counts the most
Do not hesitate to take a stand
I hope you find tranquility
Joy that you deserve
Sure your resilience will get you by
Each time world throws you a curve
If finding yourself in a state of frustration
Take moment to breathe and clear your head
Patience an essential component
Navigating the road ahead
You have integrity and a heart of gold
Two things will take you far
Don't ever doubt that you have the strength
To bounce back from even the deepest scar
If trying your hardest I know you'll triumph
Achieving the peace you desire
Remember when you're feeling your lowest
Forever you'll be someone I admire
Like how you surely speak your mind
If it's not what I want to hear
The way you never fail to strive for excellence
At home as well as in your career
It's time I tell you I am grateful
For constantly being there
From the bottom of my heart
Thanks for showing you care
I am happy for you and Cheyenne
Should be proud as hell
Having a woman who is not only beautiful
Intelligent as well
You both are lucky to have each other
Lean on through thick and thin
To each have an equal partner
Sees beneath surface of skin
I am certain you treat her right
Never let her go
It's rare to find your soul mate
If and when you do you know
So congratulations you lovebirds
Finally tying the knot
In the future if nothing else
At least you cherish each other a lot
So raise our glasses together
I declare another toast
Honor and celebrate Cheyenne and Michael
Couple we all love the most!
A toast I did for my brother at his wedding
Jul 2022 · 1.6k
You Fly Away
Amanda Kay Burke Jul 2022
You fly off
Head held high

Soaring through disarray
Cutting a clear path straight down the middle of the chaos

Reaching unbelievable
Untouchable
Destinations

Past cloud 8
All the way to 9 and 10
Because cloud 9 wasn't good enough for you
Jun 2022 · 1.5k
Practically Strangers
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
Afraid to get hopes up too high
In case you are not feeling the same
Know we are practically strangers
I can't help but smile when I think of your name
And that name is Seth :)
Jun 2022 · 992
Creative Silence
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
I cannot convey how I feel right now

Not computer
Ball-tip pen
No. 2 pencil
Felt-tip marker
Even mental imagery can depict

I hide in creative silence
Sometimes i lack the means to express myself adequately
Jun 2022 · 131
Disbelief (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
Head cannot believe
You would really leave me here
Broken heart on sleeve
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
You may be older
Therefore more experienced at handling problems and coping with stress
But our demons share similar surnames

It hurts heart to see your disappointed gaze because it means my shortcomings are far worse than yours
I want to find ways to show you we are not as different as you think

Because that is all irrelevant at the end of the day so **** logistics and to hell with genetics
We both are weak and we both need help sometimes

Loneliness and grief are emotions everyone must go through
What we are failing to realize is that WE don't have to go through it alone

Sometimes trouble we get into is hard to share because we don't want to be judged but I promise I won't judge you

And pain is nothing to hide because I feel it too
Everybody does

Every time we reunite I give you a hug because I missed you
But I never express how important you are to me

I love you
With capital L!

The comfort of knowing always having someone to talk to if I need is a gift you unknowingly bestow every day

You might not understand the reasons behind my actions
But I know you always want to help regardless

Fitting in this crazy world has not been the easiest for either of us
But now we are finally growing up and finding our places

I love you and promise to try harder to be a better person and more importantly
A better sister
Jun 2022 · 1.4k
I Can't Imagine...
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
I can't imagine what it's like
To wake up free of fear
And to be completely certain
I have a purpose here
Life would be so much easier
If the past would disappear
But I cant let go and the memories
Only seem to get more clear
Feel so stuck
Jun 2022 · 191
A Gentle Cage (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
Soft tender touching
Trapped by our sweet memories
Gentle cage locked tight
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
I hid behind rhymes
Poetry painting my masks
With a fake smile
Jun 2022 · 2.6k
Eccentric
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
I am a little bit different
Do things my own way
I would rather be weird than boring
Don't care what others may say
I will always stay true to myself
Jun 2022 · 276
Find Your Strength (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
The key is movement
When life knocks you to the ground
Find strength and go on
May 2022 · 1.2k
It Was Yesterday (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
It seemed yesterday
Heart was happy awhIle
Will it be again?
Yesterday love was such an easy game to play...
May 2022 · 473
Time Flies Fast
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
The older I grow the faster time flies
Wish my calender was telling me lies
I could try to stop earth from spinning around
But it is impossible to slow it down
May 2022 · 1.9k
Botched Suicide (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
My own cowardice
Botched last suicide attempt
Can I try again?
Although i am prone to suicidal tendencies i would never actually do it because of what it would do to my family
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
We may never be as foxy as we once were
Smiles falling out
Heads turning grey
I love you no matter how many wrinkles you have
How much or how little you weigh
Fight like foes but you're my best friend
Happy ******* valentine's day!
May 2022 · 167
Mostly Together
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
Over years we have grown
Together
Little apart
Though a lot has changed
Still hold the key to my heart
I hope to one day find a love that is everlasting <3
May 2022 · 434
I Still Love You
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
Roses red
Violets blue
You are as stubborn as a donkey
I still love you
A late valentine's poem
May 2022 · 391
Summer Near
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
The snowflakes vanished
Spring now here
Warm weather means one thing:
Summer hangs near!
Apr 2022 · 2.4k
Symphonality (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
I heard your music
Off-key and beat behind tune
I still tapped my feet
If people were melodies
Apr 2022 · 2.6k
Firework Flash (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
Fireworks flash bright
Sky flowers blooming above
Dazzling night lights fade
High above is a world of color
Apr 2022 · 952
Pain Camouflaged
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
I know we will end up getting hurt
Every memory cuts right through
Passing time as we grow and change
The memories never do

To hold the fleeting happiness
Together once shared
Had to capture past with photographs
Smiles we no longer wear

Instead are small
Sorrowful
Strained
Matching the sadness in pained eyes
Say we can retreive love lost
Telling ourselves lies

Sometimes have this look about you
Current of convincing energy
Against all sense and reason struggle
Trick my heart back into loyalty

Head above devoted delusions
Waiting for the rest of myself
My body's still stuck at rock bottom
After years of your loosely veiled hell

Love is the true Eldorado
Is a cruel mirage
Paradise we're not meant to find
Love is just pain camoflauged
Love is pain
Apr 2022 · 1.9k
Not Hard Enough
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
I try hard to love myself
The person that I am
Everyone tells me I am beautiful
Don't know why I never can
I want to love myself like i did when i was little
Apr 2022 · 4.9k
Skull Fuck Chuck
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
You live on "borrowed time"
At least that is the story you say
If that actually is true
Can you explain the delay?
Knowing how fake you are
Sure it's just a lie
Many of your words are *******
Surprised you are not covered in flies
Uncertain how you got to this point
Was a time where you once stood tall
What I mean;
You had a reason to
Still do with no reason at all
I guess along journey you changed
The person that I see
Became a perfect example
Example of who NOT to be
You tread upon backs of others
In order to get what you want
Even if that means inflicting pain
You do not mind being a ****
Not thinking about future
Solely focused on present thrill
Feeding on people's energy
Seem to never get your fill
I suspect you are miserable inside
That's why you tear others in two
Only way to ease your suffering  
Make everyone as unhappy as you
But never seem to shed a tear
Wear a permanent grin
I believe it's because you are striving so hard
Concealing the agony within
Broken so many ways
Have a house but it's not home
Without family to return to
Probably easier to roam
A steady rotation of bodies
Little boys avidly chasing your tail
Your company isn't free
Because *****'s for sale
Thrown like a football
Highest bidder gets the pass
You get bored-no problem
There is always greener grass
Your life rests in ruins
Lost so many parts
Kids
Friends
And reputation
Vanished like your heart
Falling apart a piece at a time
Pretending to keep together
We both know you can't maintain
Perfect charade forever
Your youthful beauty all but dead
Wear so much paint on your face
Entire cosmetics section of Walmart
Stuffed into your makeup case
I see beneath false advertisement
True colors bleed right through
Under skin is grey and black
Soul the ghastliest hue
Reflected in statements you make
Sound either insane or idiotic
Unsure if you are playing stupid
Or you are truly that psychotic
It appears you hurt those around you
Because you can
As if you don't have enough suitors
Steal another woman's man
Your cruelty clearly defined
At least it is from my point of view
Fool everyone else surrounding
A persona that isn't true
But karma will catch up in the end
Hope you're destined to be alone
I feel that is what you deserve
Frozen straight to bone
It's never too late to turn over a new leaf
Begin treating people right
You have to want improvement
Fear for you it's out of sight
Content with road you're walking
Not knowing where it leads
Flesh poked with needles
Uncaring it bleeds
Darkness swallowing you whole
Don't seem to be aware
It's strangling the last bit of goodness
Within remaining there
I do not understand how you can glance
In mirror and not feel disgust
All the disappointment you've caused
Lost a lot more than just trust
Next time you drag name through the mud
Make sure own hands are clean
You have more sins in your book
Than a ***** magazine
If expecting us to back down
In for quite a surprise
Soon as we go toe-to-toe
I will cut you down to size
So better watch your mouth
If the plan is to avoid confrontation
Free to do and say whatever you please
I warn you - there will be retaliation
This was written about this ***** who was talking **** about my family behind our backs. Sorry to anyone who is offended. The to title comes from a text she sent a friend of ours saying she wanted to beat her to a ****** pulp and then skull **** her, and her name is Charlie.
Apr 2022 · 178
Falling Farther (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
Fail to open eyes
Falling further from the truth
Frozen honesty
Apr 2022 · 852
What You're After
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
I do not know what you want from me
Don't know what I did wrong
Can't tell if your feelings are real
Or if you are stringing me along
All I get
Mixed signals
One day interaction is great
Next you show indifference
Uncertainty what I hate
Constantly attempting to figure you out
What is running through your mind
Comb through the words you offer
Answers I never find
I long for you to be forthcoming
With your intentions
What you're really after
Something you don't mention
I wish I could read your thoughts
Apr 2022 · 134
HAPPY B-DAY MOM!!!
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
Been here for at my lowest
When I get high
Don't know why you do it
After the tears I made you cry
Wanna make you proud
Be reason for your smile
Support sobriety with my own
More than just a little while
You've put up with too much *******
Definitely deserve a break
Apologize for increasing stress
Making your head involuntarily ache
I know I have not been the best daughter
In so many imperfect ways
Promise I'll change and try to help more
Hopefully I brighten the rest of your days!
Apr 2022 · 144
Not My Loss
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
If you do not like me I don't mind
Sometimes presence can be a lot to bear
You don't want me in your life?
Your loss so I don't care
Apr 2022 · 139
Part-Time Insomnia
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
Insomnia strikes some nights

Tangible darkness standing tall
Proud like a protective friend watching over me as I lie in bed awake

Let me take trip to someplace sunny or warm
Any adjective that doesn't describe my room

Paint you on ceiling in vivid colors

Scribble your name over the walls in blood

In naked essence you are this-pervasive

Bend so you resemble something easier on my battered heart to feel

Knows you
Doesn't know who you are

Other nights I am not an insomniac
The darkness tucks in my sleeping form like a parent lovingly telling their child a bedtime story

My muse visits dreams and won't let me forget for even one second

Bewildered like arrows flying backwards from the target

And white birds sing melody similar to ours and it intensifies my agony

Surreal as falling snow in sizzling July

Tongues no longer twisted like tree roots

Moist darkness kisses goodnight like you once did
Not nearly as sweet

I yearn for it to be you instead
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