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Jun 2022 · 944
Creative Silence
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
I cannot convey how I feel right now

Not computer
Ball-tip pen
No. 2 pencil
Felt-tip marker
Even mental imagery can depict

I hide in creative silence
Sometimes i lack the means to express myself adequately
Jun 2022 · 123
Disbelief (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
Head cannot believe
You would really leave me here
Broken heart on sleeve
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
You may be older
Therefore more experienced at handling problems and coping with stress
But our demons share similar surnames

It hurts heart to see your disappointed gaze because it means my shortcomings are far worse than yours
I want to find ways to show you we are not as different as you think

Because that is all irrelevant at the end of the day so **** logistics and to hell with genetics
We both are weak and we both need help sometimes

Loneliness and grief are emotions everyone must go through
What we are failing to realize is that WE don't have to go through it alone

Sometimes trouble we get into is hard to share because we don't want to be judged but I promise I won't judge you

And pain is nothing to hide because I feel it too
Everybody does

Every time we reunite I give you a hug because I missed you
But I never express how important you are to me

I love you
With capital L!

The comfort of knowing always having someone to talk to if I need is a gift you unknowingly bestow every day

You might not understand the reasons behind my actions
But I know you always want to help regardless

Fitting in this crazy world has not been the easiest for either of us
But now we are finally growing up and finding our places

I love you and promise to try harder to be a better person and more importantly
A better sister
Jun 2022 · 1.3k
I Can't Imagine...
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
I can't imagine what it's like
To wake up free of fear
And to be completely certain
I have a purpose here
Life would be so much easier
If the past would disappear
But I cant let go and the memories
Only seem to get more clear
Feel so stuck
Jun 2022 · 147
A Gentle Cage (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
Soft tender touching
Trapped by our sweet memories
Gentle cage locked tight
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
I hid behind rhymes
Poetry painting my masks
With a fake smile
Jun 2022 · 2.5k
Eccentric
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
I am a little bit different
Do things my own way
I would rather be weird than boring
Don't care what others may say
I will always stay true to myself
Jun 2022 · 259
Find Your Strength (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Jun 2022
The key is movement
When life knocks you to the ground
Find strength and go on
May 2022 · 1.2k
It Was Yesterday (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
It seemed yesterday
Heart was happy awhIle
Will it be again?
Yesterday love was such an easy game to play...
May 2022 · 430
Time Flies Fast
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
The older I grow the faster time flies
Wish my calender was telling me lies
I could try to stop earth from spinning around
But it is impossible to slow it down
May 2022 · 1.9k
Botched Suicide (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
My own cowardice
Botched last suicide attempt
Can I try again?
Although i am prone to suicidal tendencies i would never actually do it because of what it would do to my family
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
We may never be as foxy as we once were
Smiles falling out
Heads turning grey
I love you no matter how many wrinkles you have
How much or how little you weigh
Fight like foes but you're my best friend
Happy ******* valentine's day!
May 2022 · 146
Mostly Together
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
Over years we have grown
Together
Little apart
Though a lot has changed
Still hold the key to my heart
I hope to one day find a love that is everlasting <3
May 2022 · 387
I Still Love You
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
Roses red
Violets blue
You are as stubborn as a donkey
I still love you
A late valentine's poem
May 2022 · 361
Summer Near
Amanda Kay Burke May 2022
The snowflakes vanished
Spring now here
Warm weather means one thing:
Summer hangs near!
Apr 2022 · 2.3k
Symphonality (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
I heard your music
Off-key and beat behind tune
I still tapped my feet
If people were melodies
Apr 2022 · 2.4k
Firework Flash (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
Fireworks flash bright
Sky flowers blooming above
Dazzling night lights fade
High above is a world of color
Apr 2022 · 897
Pain Camouflaged
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
I know we will end up getting hurt
Every memory cuts right through
Passing time as we grow and change
The memories never do

To hold the fleeting happiness
Together once shared
Had to capture past with photographs
Smiles we no longer wear

Instead are small
Sorrowful
Strained
Matching the sadness in pained eyes
Say we can retreive love lost
Telling ourselves lies

Sometimes have this look about you
Current of convincing energy
Against all sense and reason struggle
Trick my heart back into loyalty

Head above devoted delusions
Waiting for the rest of myself
My body's still stuck at rock bottom
After years of your loosely veiled hell

Love is the true Eldorado
Is a cruel mirage
Paradise we're not meant to find
Love is just pain camoflauged
Love is pain
Apr 2022 · 1.9k
Not Hard Enough
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
I try hard to love myself
The person that I am
Everyone tells me I am beautiful
Don't know why I never can
I want to love myself like i did when i was little
Apr 2022 · 4.7k
Skull Fuck Chuck
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
You live on "borrowed time"
At least that is the story you say
If that actually is true
Can you explain the delay?
Knowing how fake you are
Sure it's just a lie
Many of your words are *******
Surprised you are not covered in flies
Uncertain how you got to this point
Was a time where you once stood tall
What I mean;
You had a reason to
Still do with no reason at all
I guess along journey you changed
The person that I see
Became a perfect example
Example of who NOT to be
You tread upon backs of others
In order to get what you want
Even if that means inflicting pain
You do not mind being a ****
Not thinking about future
Solely focused on present thrill
Feeding on people's energy
Seem to never get your fill
I suspect you are miserable inside
That's why you tear others in two
Only way to ease your suffering  
Make everyone as unhappy as you
But never seem to shed a tear
Wear a permanent grin
I believe it's because you are striving so hard
Concealing the agony within
Broken so many ways
Have a house but it's not home
Without family to return to
Probably easier to roam
A steady rotation of bodies
Little boys avidly chasing your tail
Your company isn't free
Because *****'s for sale
Thrown like a football
Highest bidder gets the pass
You get bored-no problem
There is always greener grass
Your life rests in ruins
Lost so many parts
Kids
Friends
And reputation
Vanished like your heart
Falling apart a piece at a time
Pretending to keep together
We both know you can't maintain
Perfect charade forever
Your youthful beauty all but dead
Wear so much paint on your face
Entire cosmetics section of Walmart
Stuffed into your makeup case
I see beneath false advertisement
True colors bleed right through
Under skin is grey and black
Soul the ghastliest hue
Reflected in statements you make
Sound either insane or idiotic
Unsure if you are playing stupid
Or you are truly that psychotic
It appears you hurt those around you
Because you can
As if you don't have enough suitors
Steal another woman's man
Your cruelty clearly defined
At least it is from my point of view
Fool everyone else surrounding
A persona that isn't true
But karma will catch up in the end
Hope you're destined to be alone
I feel that is what you deserve
Frozen straight to bone
It's never too late to turn over a new leaf
Begin treating people right
You have to want improvement
Fear for you it's out of sight
Content with road you're walking
Not knowing where it leads
Flesh poked with needles
Uncaring it bleeds
Darkness swallowing you whole
Don't seem to be aware
It's strangling the last bit of goodness
Within remaining there
I do not understand how you can glance
In mirror and not feel disgust
All the disappointment you've caused
Lost a lot more than just trust
Next time you drag name through the mud
Make sure own hands are clean
You have more sins in your book
Than a ***** magazine
If expecting us to back down
In for quite a surprise
Soon as we go toe-to-toe
I will cut you down to size
So better watch your mouth
If the plan is to avoid confrontation
Free to do and say whatever you please
I warn you - there will be retaliation
This was written about this ***** who was talking **** about my family behind our backs. Sorry to anyone who is offended. The to title comes from a text she sent a friend of ours saying she wanted to beat her to a ****** pulp and then skull **** her, and her name is Charlie.
Apr 2022 · 161
Falling Farther (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
Fail to open eyes
Falling further from the truth
Frozen honesty
Apr 2022 · 769
What You're After
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
I do not know what you want from me
Don't know what I did wrong
Can't tell if your feelings are real
Or if you are stringing me along
All I get
Mixed signals
One day interaction is great
Next you show indifference
Uncertainty what I hate
Constantly attempting to figure you out
What is running through your mind
Comb through the words you offer
Answers I never find
I long for you to be forthcoming
With your intentions
What you're really after
Something you don't mention
I wish I could read your thoughts
Apr 2022 · 124
HAPPY B-DAY MOM!!!
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
Been here for at my lowest
When I get high
Don't know why you do it
After the tears I made you cry
Wanna make you proud
Be reason for your smile
Support sobriety with my own
More than just a little while
You've put up with too much *******
Definitely deserve a break
Apologize for increasing stress
Making your head involuntarily ache
I know I have not been the best daughter
In so many imperfect ways
Promise I'll change and try to help more
Hopefully I brighten the rest of your days!
Apr 2022 · 127
Not My Loss
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
If you do not like me I don't mind
Sometimes presence can be a lot to bear
You don't want me in your life?
Your loss so I don't care
Apr 2022 · 131
Part-Time Insomnia
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
Insomnia strikes some nights

Tangible darkness standing tall
Proud like a protective friend watching over me as I lie in bed awake

Let me take trip to someplace sunny or warm
Any adjective that doesn't describe my room

Paint you on ceiling in vivid colors

Scribble your name over the walls in blood

In naked essence you are this-pervasive

Bend so you resemble something easier on my battered heart to feel

Knows you
Doesn't know who you are

Other nights I am not an insomniac
The darkness tucks in my sleeping form like a parent lovingly telling their child a bedtime story

My muse visits dreams and won't let me forget for even one second

Bewildered like arrows flying backwards from the target

And white birds sing melody similar to ours and it intensifies my agony

Surreal as falling snow in sizzling July

Tongues no longer twisted like tree roots

Moist darkness kisses goodnight like you once did
Not nearly as sweet

I yearn for it to be you instead
Apr 2022 · 153
Nothing Like Loneliness
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
There is nothing quite like loneliness
To make you empty and cold
No greater pain than when your heart is ripped apart
By same hand you used to hold
The people who hurt you the most are the ones who caress you the most tenderly because they know your weakest spots
Apr 2022 · 439
Pain Will Set Me Free
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
A few weeks ago retained the delusion
You may return to me
Now that I've witnessed your calloused behavior
Allowed pain to set my broken heart free
Apr 2022 · 264
Upcoming Sadness (Haiku)
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
Every night in bed
Worry about future pain
Anger and sorrow
Apr 2022 · 164
I Yearn To Be Happy Again
Amanda Kay Burke Apr 2022
I long to be happy again
About time mouth found a smile
Used to have joy
Where did it go?
Have not seen it around for awhile
I write my problems
Have faded to grey
Everything surrounding darker now
Universe in disarray
True creation from sadness
See beauty all around
Dive forward
Can't touch it
Faceplant into the ground
I cry
Love slips out of reach
Won't you come back home?
Happy ending crumbles to dust
Where I aimlessly roam
I want to travel someplace unscathed
The past behind my thoughts
Bottle up
Throw out to sea
All the 'could-haves' and 'did-nots'
Maybe the world would look vibrant once more
These holes in my heart would be filled
Sparkles might return to my eyes
Sorrows would fall off a cliff and be killed
I'm certain that will never happen
Wounds only get deeper
Weight I carry is too heavy
The hill I'm climbing grows steeper
I fear death will be only chance
To discover peace desperately craved
And pure tranquility
Wonder what else waits beyond the grave
I do not pray for divine intervention
There is nobody in control up above
Each are our own higher power
Feel our faith bound to love
So sigh and try to be patient
I am pretending to do well
A state of permanent limbo
Nobody can tell
Can keep up this act forever
Takes great effort to maintain
Composing careful facade
Slowly driving me insane
I know contentment possible to get
Need to figure out how
Came so easily before
Why can't I achieve bliss now?
Mar 2022 · 1.1k
Rather Be Lonely
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2022
I saw truth plain as day
Knew I did not mean much
Didn't possess the sense to leave
Desperate to experience your touch
Now you are running away from me
Too cowardly to say goodbye
I am left looking like a **** fool
Just another passerby
Your silence says it all
Want nothing more to do with me
After effort I put forth
Cast me aside like worthless debris
Now true colors are revealed
I caught a glimpse of them before
Gave another chance because
Believed you were capable of more
I worked hard to be somebody you wanted
To improve my imperfections
Did little things to make you smile
Hoping to avoid rejection
Only for actions to be in vain
I am still all alone
Changes made were a stupid waste
If only I would have known
You were just biding time
Til better opportunity came along
May not have been Mr. Right
The way you treated me wrong
I was fine keeping us the way we were
Simply wanted to clarify where we stood
I asked if this was a relationship
Maybe I misunderstood
And even when you lied to me
Disloyalty breaking trust
Still forgave all your mistakes
Until emotions were stomped into dust
I was ready to settle for bare minimum
As long as I could hold you close
Warm sensation was enough
Even if I wasn't what you desired the most
But despite being tolerant and understanding
Still decided to shut me out
After sharply slapped in the face
Finally realize I'm better without
Should never have waited around for you
Because I enjoyed your caress
Deserve so much better than that
I've learned I'd rather be lonely than settle for less
That was a hard lesson to learn
Mar 2022 · 2.1k
Wasting My Air
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2022
I'm angry with you
I am sure you don't care
If these words were spoken I'd be wasting my air
My feelings not even an afterthought in your brain
You are too selfish to consider my pain
:/
Mar 2022 · 146
Everyone's A Bad Guy
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2022
I suppose right and wrong are not black and white
Someone's dark is another's light
Villians inside each and every one of us
Across country and next to you on the bus
Cause spent so much time judging all imperfections
Fail to acknowledge our own flawed reflection
If re-evaluating our actions instead
Of criticizing peers and words that they said
Perhaps could improve our own state of mind
The emotional tendencies to which we are inclined
Escape box of expectations we foolishly inhabit
It's challenging because we are creatures of habit
Every person has been tainted by transgressions
So who are we to stigmatize surrounding indescretions?
Because all inflict suffering upon some heart
Nobody exempt from playing that part
We could not really abstain if we tried
No matter our decision
Leaves SOMEONE unsatisfied
The sooner we face truth and realize what we are
Sooner we can forgive who's responsible for our scar
It is impossible pleasing everybody all the time
We take turns being the victim then commiting crime
Besides
Good and evil defined differently among men
All behave like monsters now and then
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2022
Sunrise brings realization that you are really gone
Amidst the golden beams poured onto my lawn
Morning sky wide with opportunity blue
All I'm able to focus on is you
Taking time to change your mind
The veil of denial rendering me blind
You notice me when it's required
Games have made me so ******* tired
Rays of sunshine warmly fall onto my cheeks
Have not worn an authentic smile in over three weeks
The birds sing a cheerful serenade
Their musical voices to my ears all but fade
You block any memory remaining here
Would be happier if all trace of me disappeared
Will hear your compliments if there's something you need
Motives hidden between your lines aren't hard to read
Sunset floods fire
Room filled with a glow
Goodnight said to secrets you alone will only know
Footprints on my heart because you tread upon my chest
Stomping the vulnerable parts you once caressed
You do not observe scars you left on my skin
You're too selfish
Subconsciously rubbing it in
The space you once occupied is now vacant and cold
Chasm of darkness is all it seems to hold
Blackness comes creeping as the light goes down
Relieved night cloaks my visible frown
Swallowing earth but it sticks in my throat
When it does finally reach my stomach I bloat
Bites I choked down churn in my gut
Tempted to *****
I keep my mouth shut
And fill the gaps in your life with cheap connections
Lost
Fool yourself by picking random directions
I suspect eyes will not sparkle for long
You with someone else just has to be wrong
Reality is not black and white
In fact colors are brighter because I feel grey
Don't understand how you could lose my love and be okay
Now over a year has passed and I've had to finally come to grips with the fact that you're never coming back
Mar 2022 · 154
Mess Of Misery
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2022
I'm nothing
A waste of time
Don't bother getting near
You want to know the truth?
More ****** up than I appear

Miserable brooder
Mistaking mess
Will simply bring you pain
Six letters provide new meaning
To expression "ball and chain"

Dwelling on you 24/7
I'm ultimately obsessed
My adoration becomes an anchor
Heavy on your chest

When having a good day
Can brighten up your sky
The majority are bad
I can't even tell you why

Never pleased with what I have
Consistently wishing for more
After I lose what's mine
I appreciate what I had before

So if feeling curious
Should look somewhere new
Walls are way too high to climb
Do not bother attempting to

You think you can change my mind
Sadly that is not so
Is safer to emotionally detach
Which is the reason I am cold as snow

My heart has broken too badly
To adequately repair
I've given so much love away
Haven't got any left to share

I hate sleeping alone every night
Long for someone to call
Can't love you the way you deserve
I can't be with you at all
Mar 2022 · 142
David (Acrostic)
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2022
Do you even realize the damage you do?
All you ever seem to think about is you
Vanishing act wrapped in a shiny bow
Incredibly sweet when you do finally show
Done with your ******* games because it's always deja vu
Mar 2022 · 354
Hailstorm
Amanda Kay Burke Mar 2022
A girl used to inhabit the sky
Cried every day without fail
Until teardrops froze her to ice
And her shattered pieces fell like hail
Feb 2022 · 151
Own No Rope
Amanda Kay Burke Feb 2022
It's the little stuff that gets to me
Each and every single bitter day
Problems act as anchors
On my heart they weigh
I'm too weak to hold my body up
Baggage makes me fall
When I'm forced down to the ground
Have no choice but to crawl
Sitting on pavement
Staring at sky
Stars appear clear a moment
Blur when I start to cry
Here I am
All my sorrows
No light giving me hope
I can't even tie a noose
Because it's too dark to find a rope
Feb 2022 · 977
Carnation
Amanda Kay Burke Feb 2022
Wilted carnation
Just a reminder
It could've been better
Could've been kinder
A poem I wrote many valentine's days ago
Feb 2022 · 634
Grey Linings
Amanda Kay Burke Feb 2022
I'm consistently looking for answers
Feel need to understand
This is not a life I've dreamt
Far from what I planned
In black and blue sight is drenched
Each sound is monotone
Surrounded by people or by myself
Feel just as alone
But there is no one besides me to blame
Responsible for my tears
Storms created by own hands
I can't make them disappear
Your voice calms rainfall
Only effective source of power
The once-torrential downpour
Nothing more than moderate shower
I miss planet bursting with color
Vibrant hues have went dim
No matter which direction looked towards the future
Every avenue is bleak and grim
I do not know how to fix everything
I'm unsure of where I went wrong
Weeks blur together
Spiral the drain
Days not lasting long
Your words give hope to hold onto
Clutch them during the coldest nights
I can't tell what is real or not
Making it hard to focus on the light
I heard best is yet to come
But finding it difficult to agree
Every cloud overhead is grey
Silver linings impossible to see
Feeling some type of way right now
Jan 2022 · 1.2k
The Common Denominator
Amanda Kay Burke Jan 2022
When will you start showing me respect?
Sick of being put down
How can I feel welcome in a place
Where it is clear I'm not wanted around?
A moment of peace all I want
Chaos surrounds every day
You are center of it all
The aggressive words you say
Families supposed to show love
You just show level of disgust
Unhappy with my behavior
Incapable of giving trust
What can I achieve to make you proud?
Each time I try I fail
Impossible getting back on track
In fact fear we will derail
You complain about the state of things
Nothing I do ever appears to be right
When I sit still and do nothing at all
That becomes one more reason to fight
Your insecurities projected on us
You are too stubborn to see
Picking apart my character
Convinced the problem is me
But if fault is really mine
Why am I not the only one?
Friction found in every conversation
Battles never done
I try making you understand
I'm not strong enough to break through
In these confrontations
Common denominator is you
But you are so quick to blame everyone else
Jan 2022 · 1.1k
My Shoes
Amanda Kay Burke Jan 2022
I know I make you suffer because you remind me all the time
As if yelling words helps me over this mountain that I climb
For a moment why don't you put yourself in my shoes?
Sure if roles were reversed it'd be a different life you'd choose
I want you to be satisfied with me the way I am
And wish you could see that I actually do give a ****
I care about opinion more than you realize
Not able to escape the crushing disappointment in your eyes
Well at least you have made your point crystal clear
Cut ego down daily then have the nerve to say I'm wanted here
I would walk out
Have nowhere else to go
I get high yet somehow still feel just as low
My pillow wet from tears almost every night
Zero point in arguing because you believe you are always right
I wake every morning hating myself more
Isn't your fault but you escalate the war
Internal conflict my ever present curse
Battling with you only makes everything worse
Chasing unrealistic dreams like dog after their tail
Subconsciously aware I am doomed to fail
I wish for once you could take a chance and put some faith in me
Allow room to make mistakes even if you disagree
I know how you feel so there's no need to rub it in
Deragatory remarks remain etched into my skin
I hope someday I will find the strength to rise above
Conquer demons
Discover the parts of me you unconditionally love
Trust when I say I wish I was different just as much as you
It's not that easy to change simply because you want me to
I love you when you make me feel so very bad
And apologize for the countless times I have caused you to be sad
No matter what we go through you will forever be my mom
In the future we can both work on staying calm
I'd corrall moon and stars for you if I thought it would make your smile last
You can't enjoy the present when you're caught up in the past
We wear the same size
Dec 2021 · 585
Heart Removal
Amanda Kay Burke Dec 2021
Loneliness steadily chisels away my soul
Colder each moonlit night
Where heart was located is now just a hole
Empty bed without love will never feel right
But where has it moved to?
Dec 2021 · 1.3k
Matter Over Mine
Amanda Kay Burke Dec 2021
They say it's mind over matter...

What do you do when you've already lost your mind?
I just thought this up and feel pretty genius right about now haha
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