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I think the scent of bug spray on my palms will now forever remind me of you and the late night (early morning) we spent sitting in your car, drawing awfully unskillful portraits on the back of each other’s hands in 
dim light and 3 a.m. stillness. (I wonder if you could tell that doodling on your skin was just an excuse to touch you.) I wanted so badly to let my fingers find yours 
as we laid back in our seats 
and peeked out the rolled down 
windows at the infinite stars scattered above us in the 
early August night sky. I told you I wouldn’t kiss you, 
because I know my heart and 
how relentlessly it would 
replay how your lips felt on mine, and how it would ache knowing
 you couldn’t be mine,
 so I let you kiss my cheek instead,
 and the half a moment that I felt 
your unshaven face brush mine in the middle of the street at five in the morning feels like a fake memory. When you looked at me, I wanted to hide, because I was too afraid to read what words might’ve been written in your eyes, but I felt so content listening to the 
deep tone of your voice 
mix with the obnoxiously loud crickets singing in the trees 
surrounding us. I could’ve sat there with you till the stars disappeared and the sun took their place, but you walked me back home, and you left in the dark, and now I’m sitting in my bed thinking about how the hours between 2 and 5 a.m. have never felt so full.
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Aug 5, 2014
Aug 5, 2014 at 10:50 AM UTC
We're Looking at the Same Stars
One friend is deaf but manages to hear twice as much as I do, while simultaneously embedding himself in games and genius. One friend is kind and smart, always complimenting and supporting others before herself. One friend is quiet, and she is both easily embarrassed and easily embarrassing. One friend is the previous friend's brother, and crushes on me while never saying enough. One friend is very intelligent and geeky, and detests wearing skirts even more than I. One friend is really in your face and dramatic, pushing the boundaries on everything, but noone hates him. One friend is the unfortunate brother of a great annoyance, but is her polar opposite. One friend has hair of constantly changing color; blue, green, pink, black, yellow, brown, but always the same hoodie no matter her hair choice. One friend has a thousand faux laughs, but guards his true one from the light. One friend has a mocking joke for everything, and you can't help but laugh with her. One friend has a treasured hat and while sketching everyone, everything, and everywhere, lays my insecurities to rest as I do the same for him, both of us in need of some love and understanding from a kindred spirit. One friend has an obsession with a band and a book and a show, and an overbubbling enthusiasm for everything in her life. One friend has a meme for everything, and a perverse thought for every situation he encounters. One friend is half blind but she manages to see twice as much as me and explains everything beautifully. One friend is crazy and gets away with the exclamation of abraham lincoln in any awkward silence because its just his nature. One friend is as a mouse, but a genius in every aspect and hides behind her glasses. One friend is obnoxiously loud and more of a dork than the gangster his hoodie implies so everyone simply laughs. One friend smiles like a duck in the cutest way, and wears her square glasses in the best way. One friend longs for a love that is loyal and hide s behind his temperment
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Sep 22, 2012
Sep 22, 2012 at 5:58 PM UTC
a silly poem for my silly friends
One friend is deaf but manages to hear twice as much as I do, while simultaneously embedding himself in games and genius. One friend is kind and smart, always complimenting and supporting others before herself. One friend is quiet, and she is both easily embarrassed and easily embarrassing. One friend is the previous friend's brother, and crushes on me while never saying enough. One friend is very intelligent and geeky, and detests wearing skirts even more than I. One friend is really in your face and dramatic, pushing the boundaries on everything, but noone hates him. One friend is the unfortunate brother of a great annoyance, but is her polar opposite. One friend has hair of constantly changing color; blue, green, pink, black, yellow, brown, but always the same hoodie no matter her hair choice. One friend has a thousand faux laughs, but guards his true one from the light. One friend has a mocking joke for everything, and you can't help but laugh with her. One friend has a treasured hat and while sketching everyone, everything, and everywhere, lays my insecurities to rest as I do the same for him, both of us in need of some love and understanding from a kindred spirit. One friend has an obsession with a band and a book and a show, and an overbubbling enthusiasm for everything in her life. One friend has a meme for everything, and a perverse thought for every situation he encounters. One friend is half blind but she manages to see twice as much as me and explains everything beautifully. One friend is crazy and gets away with the exclamation of abraham lincoln in any awkward silence because its just his nature. One friend is as a mouse, but a genius in every aspect and hides behind her glasses. One friend is obnoxiously loud and more of a dork than the gangster his hoodie implies so everyone simply laughs. One friend smiles like a duck in the cutest way, and wears her square glasses in the best way. One friend longs for a love that is loyal and hide s behind his temperment
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On the land molded by footsteps and ruled by obnoxiously bleached clowns, Visited by swarms of neighborhood guttersnipes and the opulent from uptown. Allured by the traditional Irish circus music and the grinding of rusted gears, To arrive at dawn and to leave only when the night sky is tired of fireworks and flares. Skittish and gleaming eyes would roll on the floor, struck by daze and lost in wonderment, At the marvel of giant steel rides and god forsaken and socially foretoken genetic mutants. The word of a woman with two faces and the boy with a tail would make any catholic priest run. Amusing the rational ones, alongside the man with elastic skin and the girl with the forked tongue. The opera lady with outlandish proportions and tumorous lips sings to break a piece of cheap glassware. Little do people know,that the magician’s red gloves are actually stained with blood of rabbit that disappeared. Their noses get caught in the medley of fragrances from the exotic perfumes shop, Blended with the saccharine tang from the stall that sells candy floss and soda pops. Indulging over the overly priced confectioneries at the stall of the baker with the forbidding grin. Try it a hundred times,try it a thousand,you’ll never get the fifth one right in the game of rings. People will come out screaming from the haunted house,only to laugh about it later, Little do they know,that skeletons that drove them pale and white couldn't get any realer. They’ll jostle and struggle to make their way through the crowd to various rides and attractions. Hustling to navigate through the maze the carnival is, encountered by countless illusions. And once your body wears out and senses give in,that’s when you've truly entered the carnival state of mind. Your ears stinging ,nose stifled,tongue baffled, eyes exhausted,and your sense of judgment blinded. That’s when my masked act begins,the most profitable act at the carnival, Diving into the heart of the crowd,to draw an act of brilliance lasting an ephemeral. Slithering across the crowd in a different disguise every hour,concealed by stealth. Sneaking into every nook and corner and slipping my furtive hands into your pockets for a little bit of wealth. Only to dine with the clowns and the carnival family at the haunted house at the end of the day. And of course, rabbits for dinner,if the baker may
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May 7, 2015
May 7, 2015 at 3:13 AM UTC
Carnival
On the land molded by footsteps and ruled by obnoxiously bleached clowns, Visited by swarms of neighborhood guttersnipes and the opulent from uptown. Allured by the traditional Irish circus music and the grinding of rusted gears, To arrive at dawn and to leave only when the night sky is tired of fireworks and flares. Skittish and gleaming eyes would roll on the floor, struck by daze and lost in wonderment, At the marvel of giant steel rides and god forsaken and socially foretoken genetic mutants. The word of a woman with two faces and the boy with a tail would make any catholic priest run. Amusing the rational ones, alongside the man with elastic skin and the girl with the forked tongue. The opera lady with outlandish proportions and tumorous lips sings to break a piece of cheap glassware. Little do people know,that the magician’s red gloves are actually stained with blood of rabbit that disappeared. Their noses get caught in the medley of fragrances from the exotic perfumes shop, Blended with the saccharine tang from the stall that sells candy floss and soda pops. Indulging over the overly priced confectioneries at the stall of the baker with the forbidding grin. Try it a hundred times,try it a thousand,you’ll never get the fifth one right in the game of rings. People will come out screaming from the haunted house,only to laugh about it later, Little do they know,that skeletons that drove them pale and white couldn't get any realer. They’ll jostle and struggle to make their way through the crowd to various rides and attractions. Hustling to navigate through the maze the carnival is, encountered by countless illusions. And once your body wears out and senses give in,that’s when you've truly entered the carnival state of mind. Your ears stinging ,nose stifled,tongue baffled, eyes exhausted,and your sense of judgment blinded. That’s when my masked act begins,the most profitable act at the carnival, Diving into the heart of the crowd,to draw an act of brilliance lasting an ephemeral. Slithering across the crowd in a different disguise every hour,concealed by stealth. Sneaking into every nook and corner and slipping my furtive hands into your pockets for a little bit of wealth. Only to dine with the clowns and the carnival family at the haunted house at the end of the day. And of course, rabbits for dinner,if the baker may
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You’re wishing plus wanting to win the other side remove your pride, you untied tidal pool, the wide subdivide of these paper pages. Unrelenting numbers remind you of the next stages, taking you wildly to Namibia, surrendering you to Zimbabwe, the terminal station. The narration vocalizes the translation of quotations, your obligation to the violation of the rules, the regulations, vulgarization of spoken word. Pretty paintings plaster typecasts, the pitter-patter of pity’s pretty ****** quickly shifting refurbished velvet sofas. Overcast symphonies outlast witty recast stanzas, scores with notes naturally quote verses romancing seltzer spines noticing the negotiation of sore throats. Oblivion’s oblivious to the people, obnoxiously obscene with syncopated saturation of public vital signs. You’re the vain strain of virus photocopying yourself within skin, waste your sin on tattoos trapped on shins safety pins selecting prints pinning sets of twins to tanned wrappers protecting official reports. The ossuary welcomes records printed on thick paper suspiciously missing skeleton swords. Writing stories reversed while tipsy, quickly preforming risky poetry smog, sweetly omitting secret words, trying to spell simply without the proper prologue.
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Feb 17, 2013
Feb 17, 2013 at 1:52 PM UTC
Tuesday
loud so genuine it seems fake temper cries easily animal lover talkative passionate overly sweet accidentally inconsiderate cant whisper to save my life non confrontational until angered giving creative hard working obnoxiously loud and annoying liberal avoids messy situations until i HAVE to face them flamboyantish scared loves being feared / having power hates directly hurting people anxious too freaked to apologize very touchy hyper
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Jan 24, 2017
Jan 24, 2017 at 2:39 AM UTC
myself
the jingle jangle of those things you dangle from neck stretched thin with shiny things call me a magpie call me a baller a shot caller a hip hop drama starter kicks so fresh they came from the produce section this flash of blood diamond on my wrist costs more than the home I don’t have if I hit the switch I could make that *** drop… got my obnoxiously huge candy painted cans on my head so I can only hear the ads I want and these threads reek with so much swag the sweat, blood, and tears of little brown and yellow people I couldn’t give a **** about dropping three hundred on my mall haul and they have the nerve to ask me for the rent sounds system off the hook plasma on the wall more **** than an abandoned lot more thoughts forgot than cops in krispy kreme with a water gun and ski mask for when times get hard me and my friends are going to blow two months salary on lap dances and blow job fantasies “Aint that new track dope?” “Yeah” “You heard it?” “Naw, but they were talking about it on world star” this floatation device is going to be too heavy and I am going to drown in all of this fly fresh to death
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Mar 27, 2014
Mar 27, 2014 at 12:28 PM UTC
Bawlers
You'd be pretty lucky, if you caught my eyes staring back into yours. I'd like to tell you a good reason, weave a tale of heartwarming lies, Alas, there's no story behind my evasive eyes. I nod when I mean to scream 'yes' To every whim you have. I smile when I mean to laugh. I compliment you with the most beautiful of words, In my silence, I hope you hear me say. I was born a misdirecting sign-post, hoping to lead you the right way. If you'd know me, I'd like to believe, You'd fall in love with me. Indefinitely. Instantly. But in this infinitesimally small moment that we share, In an obnoxiously loud world that we stay, That little space between us is all it takes For all that is unsaid to lose its way. If you'd know me, I'd like to believe, You'd fall in love with me. Instantly. Indefinitely. If you'd give me a while, You could hear, you could see. You'd know how hopelessly in love I am, as inarticulate as my thoughts may be. But with the years it has learned, This stupid, hopeless heart of mine. That it simply does not have the luxury of time.
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Feb 24, 2015
Feb 24, 2015 at 2:11 PM UTC
The Luxury Of Time
Idle moments, sweet talks Having the best times of my life Across the far numerous possibilities Velvety colors Everything was a beauty Morning smiles Egos whispering Telling what the most important Thing they could Have Ever imagined Marble-like eyes Onward towards you Sighs between regrets Tales won’t seem to work like they used to be I’ve always been wondering about Mystical creatures Pondering inside my chest Orbiting like constellations Running like a pack of wolves Touching this beating heart And making my head spin round and round Notions go shuffle like cards These were all because of a Person who happened to have passed by Earning almost everything kept Roaring out the most silent of thoughts Scorching the once chilled soul Over and over but I promise Nothing will ever change I’ve always been Never would be Minds on parallel paths Yours truly Living like it was the last I just wanted to say that it was Fun, fun to have these unruly Emotions constantly splashing different colors right before my eyes Brushing like it was part of a bigger canvass Under this small fancy reality To you, for you, by you Never, ever Once We would Have Expected these to happen World was my biggest stage Intrigued, excited Loving but never was once Loved back Shortly after breaks Often we imagine Often we wish but None of mine came true Lavishly fooling around Everything was gradually taken for granted Amidst those smiles was a Voice yelling Earning Mourning, trying to Ease the pain I’ve always Tried to be a puzzle Wishing for A Solver Focusing on me, and me alone Until I might as well return the favor Needless to say These petty wishes Have Always been the reasons why Nearly the whole scope of my imagination runs by circles and by Knots Yelling like mad Obnoxiously trying to be Untamed And Natural, always in Denial Good times never last Of all things Of all moments Dying to say Billions of sweet memories Yet the other side was not willing to listen. The End
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Aug 12, 2016
Aug 12, 2016 at 8:26 AM UTC
The Secret Message
Idle moments, sweet talks Having the best times of my life Across the far numerous possibilities Velvety colors Everything was a beauty Morning smiles Egos whispering Telling what the most important Thing they could Have Ever imagined Marble-like eyes Onward towards you Sighs between regrets Tales won’t seem to work like they used to be I’ve always been wondering about Mystical creatures Pondering inside my chest Orbiting like constellations Running like a pack of wolves Touching this beating heart And making my head spin round and round Notions go shuffle like cards These were all because of a Person who happened to have passed by Earning almost everything kept Roaring out the most silent of thoughts Scorching the once chilled soul Over and over but I promise Nothing will ever change I’ve always been Never would be Minds on parallel paths Yours truly Living like it was the last I just wanted to say that it was Fun, fun to have these unruly Emotions constantly splashing different colors right before my eyes Brushing like it was part of a bigger canvass Under this small fancy reality To you, for you, by you Never, ever Once We would Have Expected these to happen World was my biggest stage Intrigued, excited Loving but never was once Loved back Shortly after breaks Often we imagine Often we wish but None of mine came true Lavishly fooling around Everything was gradually taken for granted Amidst those smiles was a Voice yelling Earning Mourning, trying to Ease the pain I’ve always Tried to be a puzzle Wishing for A Solver Focusing on me, and me alone Until I might as well return the favor Needless to say These petty wishes Have Always been the reasons why Nearly the whole scope of my imagination runs by circles and by Knots Yelling like mad Obnoxiously trying to be Untamed And Natural, always in Denial Good times never last Of all things Of all moments Dying to say Billions of sweet memories Yet the other side was not willing to listen. The End
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The music of life, at times, is a raucously *** concert of ominously monotonous melodies sung sirenically by voluptuously ugly monsters. Curvaceous enough to flaunt the fact they’re actually **** Which makes you feel like an *** but that’s just the way it was meant to be. Then the chorus bombs in, and the song starts to get sweeter since the tune becomes a lot like Bob’s album: Street-Legal. But as quick as you can nictitate, the ****** you anticipate flicks away like a spark that was never gonna be lit-to-flame. And so revert the monsters, their obnoxiously off-key verse, somehow being, paradoxically, still acceptably heard. And I almost forgot to mention how horrifyingly awkward the gawking audience dances! Watching it is honestly the most awful part of this non-senseness.
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Mar 30, 2012
Mar 30, 2012 at 3:24 AM UTC
Inevitably, Voluptuous Monsters
You're pathetic A cry baby Never amounting to much Worthless and useless A waste of space Obnoxiously selfish Self-centered attention ***** You crave pity And all eyes on you Just stop whining Long enough to **** yourself You don't deserve life Since you waste it You're nothing special Just an accident Never meant to happen Sincerely, yourself
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Aug 3, 2013
Aug 3, 2013 at 10:27 PM UTC
Sincerely, Yourself
Her demise shook the world And left an uprising in its wake. She was human but the world Obnoxiously called her a Dalit. Her Skin was marred with scars of The most gruesome kind but Little do you know, they were Her battle scars that she took To the grave. Her body, a Holy shrine was entered without An invitation but you are not Aware that her soul is purer Than yours will ever be. Her cache of memories will Be drenched with flashes of Hungry stares and lustful eyes But also warm hugs and gentle Smiles from her parents. Something that the Scrupulous media does not want To reflect upon. She can’t be A secret anymore; her caste Cannot be a hindrance anymore. She needs a powerful voice And we must give her one. As i recount this tale, I am suddenly this girl. I Consume her desires. I Am her soul and spirit. And, My fingers close in on against Each other and I take labouring Breaths. My throat feels like Huge amounts of sandpaper were Shoved into it. My eyes are watery And blood shot and all you do is Stare. My clothes are shredded And little rags are my only trustful Companions on my otherwise Naked body. A string of wounds Cover my arms and legs and you Whisper about how sordid a Scene this is. You mutter about Me being a victim but the truth is I am a warrior who survived an Intrusion that was not supposed To happen and yet, you back off From a growing crowd and wonder What you’ll have for dinner tonight, Leaving me there on the ground, Writhing in more than pain and suffering.
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Sep 18, 2016
Sep 18, 2016 at 9:36 AM UTC
Indelible.
Her demise shook the world And left an uprising in its wake. She was human but the world Obnoxiously called her a Dalit. Her Skin was marred with scars of The most gruesome kind but Little do you know, they were Her battle scars that she took To the grave. Her body, a Holy shrine was entered without An invitation but you are not Aware that her soul is purer Than yours will ever be. Her cache of memories will Be drenched with flashes of Hungry stares and lustful eyes But also warm hugs and gentle Smiles from her parents. Something that the Scrupulous media does not want To reflect upon. She can’t be A secret anymore; her caste Cannot be a hindrance anymore. She needs a powerful voice And we must give her one. As i recount this tale, I am suddenly this girl. I Consume her desires. I Am her soul and spirit. And, My fingers close in on against Each other and I take labouring Breaths. My throat feels like Huge amounts of sandpaper were Shoved into it. My eyes are watery And blood shot and all you do is Stare. My clothes are shredded And little rags are my only trustful Companions on my otherwise Naked body. A string of wounds Cover my arms and legs and you Whisper about how sordid a Scene this is. You mutter about Me being a victim but the truth is I am a warrior who survived an Intrusion that was not supposed To happen and yet, you back off From a growing crowd and wonder What you’ll have for dinner tonight, Leaving me there on the ground, Writhing in more than pain and suffering.
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I think I’m going to Slow down for awhile I need to embrace that I may be mentally mature But I’m still just a kid A kid with an unbelievably and Obnoxiously mature mindset But a kid nonetheless So I think I’m going to Slow down for awhile God knows that I really Don’t need to be worrying About the dramatics Of the adult lifestyle And I need to enjoy that fact While it’s still true
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Jul 7, 2011
Jul 7, 2011 at 9:25 AM UTC
Slow Down
The dawn has rendered me dreamless yet again, Or at least of the only dream that mattered. Surrendering myself to my subconscious has never been easy for me, but dreams were the last place I knew you to exist, and I would gladly brave all the nightmares that came along with them, if it meant that I could just hold you again. Lost- Your name has become synonymous with "Lost." It breaks my heart every time I hear it, and yours was a very common name, but I'll say it all the same, because I still enjoy the sound. "Lost" is an unfortunate word, yes, but it implies that there is a possibility of being found. Alive- They say you are "Alive." I disagree. Your meaningless words and vacant stare scream to me that you are not in there. Your obnoxiously noisy heart beats blindly, it knows not of how it teases me and fills me with desire. Your soul was the sacrifice and your body was the pyre.
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Jan 27, 2013
Jan 27, 2013 at 4:24 AM UTC
I'll Meet You Halfway
The grey coated ashy sky screams that we should in fact be inside. 
But instead I’m rushing across a lawn in black, breaking flats. With my heart in my chest, and my hands shaking from the rest. I’m not prepared for what’s to come, for the repentance, That will be taken, as we lie here hidden away from the sun. The fluorescent lights are stinging away the outer layers of my eyes. I can feel my confidence drastically shrinking in size. All that are in favor stand up, a man in a blue button up calls out I don’t stand. I’m scared, I don’t want to be the first one to lose You’re unaware of the magnitude Of your actions, as you rise. Thereby sparing me and cursing those that I despise. I fell in love with your appearance almost instantly. With the softly curled hair that so gracefully Rested above your eyes. I had known you for a matter of minutes And there it was I was in love. It was a strange moment in time, Where your eyes turned around to look into mine. I felt a connection, immediately, without even a second thought. Who was this impulsive romantic? And what had she done with the particularly critical Normal version of myself? Where had she gone? My failures have never been so prominent as I’m sitting there Wasting away in that old uncomfortable creaky plastic chair I spent the time awaiting my fate, Dangerously lost in the loose linens of your being But I assume it’s now about eight I don’t know exactly what my heart is feeling I’m absentminded, free. Finally free from the Troubles and worries of my everyday life. As my overactive imagination overwhelms the logical side In a landslide majority vote, I’m lost without a sense of maturity. And so, I allow myself fall into your eyes, and slightly imperfect smile. You were almost obnoxiously beautiful, but With your snide offensive comments, and your homophobic sentiments, And worse of all your willingness to sacrifice The shortcomings of others to build yourself up Was more than a little off-putting, and your arrogance Was more than a little disgusting For the image in my mind of us, to ever exist. Darling, I wanted you to know That is a future, I will never miss And I truly hope to never have to see you again after this.
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May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 4:42 AM UTC
What a Deal-Breaker
The grey coated ashy sky screams that we should in fact be inside. 
But instead I’m rushing across a lawn in black, breaking flats. With my heart in my chest, and my hands shaking from the rest. I’m not prepared for what’s to come, for the repentance, That will be taken, as we lie here hidden away from the sun. The fluorescent lights are stinging away the outer layers of my eyes. I can feel my confidence drastically shrinking in size. All that are in favor stand up, a man in a blue button up calls out I don’t stand. I’m scared, I don’t want to be the first one to lose You’re unaware of the magnitude Of your actions, as you rise. Thereby sparing me and cursing those that I despise. I fell in love with your appearance almost instantly. With the softly curled hair that so gracefully Rested above your eyes. I had known you for a matter of minutes And there it was I was in love. It was a strange moment in time, Where your eyes turned around to look into mine. I felt a connection, immediately, without even a second thought. Who was this impulsive romantic? And what had she done with the particularly critical Normal version of myself? Where had she gone? My failures have never been so prominent as I’m sitting there Wasting away in that old uncomfortable creaky plastic chair I spent the time awaiting my fate, Dangerously lost in the loose linens of your being But I assume it’s now about eight I don’t know exactly what my heart is feeling I’m absentminded, free. Finally free from the Troubles and worries of my everyday life. As my overactive imagination overwhelms the logical side In a landslide majority vote, I’m lost without a sense of maturity. And so, I allow myself fall into your eyes, and slightly imperfect smile. You were almost obnoxiously beautiful, but With your snide offensive comments, and your homophobic sentiments, And worse of all your willingness to sacrifice The shortcomings of others to build yourself up Was more than a little off-putting, and your arrogance Was more than a little disgusting For the image in my mind of us, to ever exist. Darling, I wanted you to know That is a future, I will never miss And I truly hope to never have to see you again after this.
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(for my daughter, Mary Ann, soon fourteen) I was eleven years old when I first had something taken from me. My parents were still married and my two younger brothers had not yet chosen to choose differently which one they’d live with. My dog had not yet been made lame by a falling fat man who’d taken the gift of my father’s strange rage square on the nose. And my older sister had yet to misjudge her jump from a moving train. No, none of these things, whether they happened or not how I’ve remembered, had happened. I was eleven years old and in love with an old red bike. It had a license plate that obnoxiously read Go Now Mega which I’d scratched at with a fork and so became Gnome. I would fail my whole life to accomplish a thing greater. Before school, I’d walk the bike carefully to the end of our short drive and then seat myself on it and be still. I would often be so perfect in my stillness that I’d forego riding it and just listen for the bus and at the last possible moment walk the bike, still carefully, back into the garage and cringe at the sound the kickstand made when lowered. If ever school didn’t go my way I’d think of the bike, alone, in the garage and be calmed. When I did ride the bike, I did so slowly and deliberately that I could feel my soul get a bit ahead of me. On the best mornings, I would have for company a bed sheet of fog which made me want to fake being asleep on the couch while my mother and father milled back and forth about who would carry me to bed. The bike had come with the rental house we moved into just shy of my tenth birthday. The house was a three bedroom one floor with one bathroom and what felt like two kitchens. I was too close to my hands and feet to now recall any vision that might tell me how these rooms were mapped though I’ve always held aloft the word blueprint. I should tell you that what I previously called a garage was actually our backyard and that our backyard was really the backyard of those living in the house behind ours. I didn’t want you to know right away who took the bike. Who’ve no imagination.
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Sep 21, 2012
Sep 21, 2012 at 1:25 AM UTC
Hold, melancholy
(for my daughter, Mary Ann, soon fourteen) I was eleven years old when I first had something taken from me. My parents were still married and my two younger brothers had not yet chosen to choose differently which one they’d live with. My dog had not yet been made lame by a falling fat man who’d taken the gift of my father’s strange rage square on the nose. And my older sister had yet to misjudge her jump from a moving train. No, none of these things, whether they happened or not how I’ve remembered, had happened. I was eleven years old and in love with an old red bike. It had a license plate that obnoxiously read Go Now Mega which I’d scratched at with a fork and so became Gnome. I would fail my whole life to accomplish a thing greater. Before school, I’d walk the bike carefully to the end of our short drive and then seat myself on it and be still. I would often be so perfect in my stillness that I’d forego riding it and just listen for the bus and at the last possible moment walk the bike, still carefully, back into the garage and cringe at the sound the kickstand made when lowered. If ever school didn’t go my way I’d think of the bike, alone, in the garage and be calmed. When I did ride the bike, I did so slowly and deliberately that I could feel my soul get a bit ahead of me. On the best mornings, I would have for company a bed sheet of fog which made me want to fake being asleep on the couch while my mother and father milled back and forth about who would carry me to bed. The bike had come with the rental house we moved into just shy of my tenth birthday. The house was a three bedroom one floor with one bathroom and what felt like two kitchens. I was too close to my hands and feet to now recall any vision that might tell me how these rooms were mapped though I’ve always held aloft the word blueprint. I should tell you that what I previously called a garage was actually our backyard and that our backyard was really the backyard of those living in the house behind ours. I didn’t want you to know right away who took the bike. Who’ve no imagination.
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I've grown blind to sensation and deaf to the hums of my walk its all the same yet again one great big pile of gray sloshy snow suspended under an equally flavorless sky whose clouds pour drips of cool touch onto me and as they land and stream along the contours and creases of my face they soak up with my hurt and that feeling is the only thing that keeps me thinking im still here, still alive so please sky, let it rain let it shower away all of my pain let it pump my blood to sizzle against the icicles that hang beneath the gutters of my veins to melt away the current solid stream of red so i can defrost back into my old self as steam rises from my now beating heart revealing gears that rotate freely again once their bolts are no longer consumed in deep frost the color rushes back into my skin and the flushed pale face suddenly evolves into crimson cheeks which hold an obnoxiously wide smile with a voice that speaks loud like a lion with purpose and sings harmonious with the songs of my youth ... the day i am resurrected is the day i will love you like i intend so tell me, please reveal your secret where can I melt?
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Feb 8, 2015
Feb 8, 2015 at 1:02 AM UTC
Where Can I Melt?
White-bodied black bird raven like creatures that sit everywhere and obnoxiously yell to each other from the wilderness we live inside. Wet birds. Soaking in mod colors affixed to the numbers the looms set in the torn threads of an old tank top named with the characters of Dune. And in sweetly moving breaths of air the peaks pull through this range of mountains seen from our back deck.   Friends, join us as we balk putting away cardboard boxes as not to put a hinderence on the relationships with our neighbors and instead traverse the moose-trails the tourists stop and crop their lenses at- only to make to Brouhlim's.
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Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 10:33 PM UTC
Untitled 7:20:16
I hate nearly everything about you. That stupid dimple next to that stupidly gorgeous smile. Your repulsively silky jet black hair that feels so horribly wonderful between my fingers. From your obnoxiously beautiful deep complexion to your sickeningly dainty hands, I can't stand any of it. I hate the way our bodies fit so perfectly together. That feeling of eternal happiness and comfort when I see you is absolutely revolting. The way you smell so terribly excellent makes me cringe. Why do my hands always seem to search for yours, in some grotesque display of love? But, even though I hate all of these annoyingly beautiful things about you, The fact that I don't know what you think of me is what I hate the most.
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Oct 2, 2013
Oct 2, 2013 at 12:36 AM UTC
Go away, I'm writing angry love poems about you
years ago when I ****** my boyfriend I'd sometimes pretend to pay for him. how much? I'd say, so he'd make believe he was turning away, you can't afford me. he'd stand there obnoxiously and I'd fling wads of money. six hundred seven hundred eight hundred nine a grand, baby a grand and you're mine
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Aug 31, 2014
Aug 31, 2014 at 6:53 PM UTC
expensive
i lost control today a fool i am, for you flirt obnoxiously in front of my ******* face i know you do not love me but i still feel pain knowing i will be replaced and that all i am to you is waste of space sorry for the inconvenience - a.h.
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May 13, 2016
May 13, 2016 at 10:21 AM UTC
a fool i am
There's this light, really hollow expanse in my chest and it fills with electric stars, each blinking rapidly. I'll wear my jumper, loose bottoms and socks and I am engulfed by a sharp breeze, fleeing in through our open back door. I know that smell. It's cold and fluttering and full of purpose. And it pats my face as I breath it in. I think how easy it could be, and would have been, way in the past to believe in Gods and who prove their power by rylling up the weather. Blowing in a storm. All thunderstorms smell the same, wherever you are. And they each speak in heavy voices, rattling low. I suppose it's on you to look inside at your grievances unpaid to them. But I simply love the change. The power in the sky that strikes and rumbles, and the waiting, oh the waiting... As the clouds openly fuse and grind darker, the smell of the thunder growing thicker and bounding about. It's like a miracle how fast it happens, how much energy it feeds to everything. Time that was the insect looking at us, we are obnoxiously slow. Is now us looking at the insect, who is amazingly fast. Until... There's a moment when that energy reaches its capacity, the sky squeezing. And you wait Dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd The rain is unleashed. And sound everywhere explodes! Cause it's heavy and it's coming fast. Hopping back to the door, I sit just inside its frame my face stretching with glee, because everything around me and inside me feels unimportant, forgotten, under this display. Small, sitting in the door way, the wind flicking sprays of water your way. I count in between the lashes of lightening One Mississippi Two Mississippi Three Mississippi Four, imagining the maker of these grizzling static sparks. The ground, the sky, my heart, pulsing.
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Nov 21, 2018
Nov 21, 2018 at 6:32 PM UTC
Thunderstorm
There's this light, really hollow expanse in my chest and it fills with electric stars, each blinking rapidly. I'll wear my jumper, loose bottoms and socks and I am engulfed by a sharp breeze, fleeing in through our open back door. I know that smell. It's cold and fluttering and full of purpose. And it pats my face as I breath it in. I think how easy it could be, and would have been, way in the past to believe in Gods and who prove their power by rylling up the weather. Blowing in a storm. All thunderstorms smell the same, wherever you are. And they each speak in heavy voices, rattling low. I suppose it's on you to look inside at your grievances unpaid to them. But I simply love the change. The power in the sky that strikes and rumbles, and the waiting, oh the waiting... As the clouds openly fuse and grind darker, the smell of the thunder growing thicker and bounding about. It's like a miracle how fast it happens, how much energy it feeds to everything. Time that was the insect looking at us, we are obnoxiously slow. Is now us looking at the insect, who is amazingly fast. Until... There's a moment when that energy reaches its capacity, the sky squeezing. And you wait Dddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd The rain is unleashed. And sound everywhere explodes! Cause it's heavy and it's coming fast. Hopping back to the door, I sit just inside its frame my face stretching with glee, because everything around me and inside me feels unimportant, forgotten, under this display. Small, sitting in the door way, the wind flicking sprays of water your way. I count in between the lashes of lightening One Mississippi Two Mississippi Three Mississippi Four, imagining the maker of these grizzling static sparks. The ground, the sky, my heart, pulsing.
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You’re not allowed to step into the house. You’re not allowed to open your mouth too widely, your ugly teeth bared and gnashing. You aren’t allowed to be that close, so close your mouth and sip your tea through the window, where expensive and matching dining chairs circle around a table set for nothing, for no one, because you can’t touch that silverware. You can’t wash those plates. You can’t fit, your neck so long that your head is in the clouds, your not-quite-bony legs serving as a reminder that your feet are still on the ground. Can you feel your heart in your throat? The way that it pulses every time you rest your chin on the roof or the way it pounds when you’re at the doorway, much too close to this house that you bought and built and you aren’t allowed inside. Why won’t they let you inside? Why won’t you let yourself inside? Invite yourself in; maybe your head will come down from the clouds and your heart won’t beat quite so obnoxiously loud and you can smile in a mirror while flashing all your ugly teeth. You can’t build a house without thinking about how you’ll fit into it: that’s basic architecture, basic design, basic everything that you never bothered to learn, bent on keeping your head so much higher than the ceiling. Asymmetric, sloping, like your shoulders and the alignment of your eyes and your crooked smiles and tied up tongue, like white lies and broken foundations and a doorknob that doesn’t work, doesn’t turn, won’t let me in despite the fact that I built this place with my bare hands. It doesn’t recognize me anymore, a fantasy so tangled up with reality that all the nightmares and anxiety ruin even my cloudiest positivity. I built myself a world and a future in which I myself am not allowed to enter. Maybe I should brush up on my knowledge of basic architecture, because God, I’m horrible at interior design and mapping things out ahead of time. I’ve tried just living without but the winter gets chilly and weakens my bones and it really sets in without the warmth of a home.
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Oct 16, 2015
Oct 16, 2015 at 10:00 AM UTC
building
You’re not allowed to step into the house. You’re not allowed to open your mouth too widely, your ugly teeth bared and gnashing. You aren’t allowed to be that close, so close your mouth and sip your tea through the window, where expensive and matching dining chairs circle around a table set for nothing, for no one, because you can’t touch that silverware. You can’t wash those plates. You can’t fit, your neck so long that your head is in the clouds, your not-quite-bony legs serving as a reminder that your feet are still on the ground. Can you feel your heart in your throat? The way that it pulses every time you rest your chin on the roof or the way it pounds when you’re at the doorway, much too close to this house that you bought and built and you aren’t allowed inside. Why won’t they let you inside? Why won’t you let yourself inside? Invite yourself in; maybe your head will come down from the clouds and your heart won’t beat quite so obnoxiously loud and you can smile in a mirror while flashing all your ugly teeth. You can’t build a house without thinking about how you’ll fit into it: that’s basic architecture, basic design, basic everything that you never bothered to learn, bent on keeping your head so much higher than the ceiling. Asymmetric, sloping, like your shoulders and the alignment of your eyes and your crooked smiles and tied up tongue, like white lies and broken foundations and a doorknob that doesn’t work, doesn’t turn, won’t let me in despite the fact that I built this place with my bare hands. It doesn’t recognize me anymore, a fantasy so tangled up with reality that all the nightmares and anxiety ruin even my cloudiest positivity. I built myself a world and a future in which I myself am not allowed to enter. Maybe I should brush up on my knowledge of basic architecture, because God, I’m horrible at interior design and mapping things out ahead of time. I’ve tried just living without but the winter gets chilly and weakens my bones and it really sets in without the warmth of a home.
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It's not illegal to sprinkle lemon juice in a healing wound, but it's not recommended. The clatter of silverware rattles the piercings of a tattooed barista battling a vexatious morning. Iced caramel lattes, incarcerated by serrated coffee beans, sleep alone at night. A half-empty cup of 2% screams at a of glass skim milk for acting obnoxiously drunk. One squirrel scorns another for stealing its spiked acorns last fall. A lonely poem twists and turns through disappointing images of life. At the end of the road there's a mirror reflecting an absent feeling of satisfaction.
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Dec 28, 2016
Dec 28, 2016 at 6:34 PM UTC
Anti Climatic