Perhaps I really know myself too well
When the pain kicks in each night
And it's too much to bear
I run back to spill my messy thoughts

In words
In deep sighs
In prayers

Hoping I'll wake up one day
Not feeling the ache of yesterday


Tonight I shall tell a tale
Of a young lady who was loved
And who fell in love
But decided to end it all


She was once bewildered of tomorrow
Scared of what the future may have to offer
Until one day
Her barricaded heart was slightly opened
By a man whom she considered as her "present"


He was madly in love with her
And she couldn't be bothered by the evening breeze
For his words kept her warm

She loved him dearly as well

But the string that binds them turned into a rope
A rope made of complicated knots
That each misunderstanding caused pain to the other


Now these ropes turned into cold chains
She can no longer see what he wanted her to see
And he could no longer hear what she wanted him to hear


For this very purpose
Everything fell apart
He said to her to leave him alone
And she finally left


When you're madly in love you see,
You lose sense of everything around you
The moment he begged her to come back
Tears fell like the rain in June
She knew she still loves him
Up to this day
But things weren't right anymore
The shackles were too much for her to handle

Moments that were taken for granted
She missed those times
When she was devoted to him

But for now,
She decided to love herself

Studying
Cramming
Amidst the scattered papers,
     Softly crying

Mood suddenly changing
Remembering
Pausing for a moment

Pencils  dropping
Slowly
   B r e a t h i n g

Sentiments immediately hitting
Of the days where life used to be simple
Gentle
On how you danced the earth upon your young feet
Not giving a care about tomorrow

The rain falling
Cicadas singing
Oh how you've long for that feeling
Of that fuzzy sensation
Gust of wind, hugging
Yet inside is a tiny heart, bravely beating
It was heartwarming

Hopes and dreams suddenly rushing
Of how you've always wanted to walk along the stars
And conquer the roaring seas


On how you've always wondered
What will you be
Years from now

You stood up, quietly gazing
On a sight which seemed to be out of reach
The mirror was calling
The reflection was changing

A youthful being stared back at you
Grinning
Smiling
Eyes sparkling
Undoubtedly admiring
Yet worrying
Of what you've become


As you close your eyes, realizing
    Looking for the fire left inside you
     Still scorching

Reassuring
   Of that person you've been years ago
  That you will continue to fight
And be proud of what you'll ever be

It was past 11
The clock ticks in the night
A rather sad movie plays on the background

Yet for some reason
My eyes were on something else

I had the chance to hear your voice
"I'm too lazy to type. Call me."
You were hesitant
I was anxious

For a moment the distance didn't matter
Our voices softly echoing in our ears
Even just for a second
We let our worlds play by our own little rules

Quivering
The mood was still unsettling
Yet I gave you the assurance
The assurance which I wasn't sure of as well

Things took a turn
Uncertainty turned into bravery
As you've learned that I was in for the same

Same feeling you've wanted
Short-lived
Ephemeral as it may seemed

We were two sides of a coin, you see
My views were far-fetched
Yours stopped halfway

Of what you've yearned which was deemed temporary
Temporary company
Temporary feelings
Temporary memories

I replied
"Why not give it a go?"

"Really? Are you sure?"

"Yes. That sounds like fun"
Fun
Joy
A moment of spark
Which was bound to die sooner or later

I've always been into commitments
There's always something
About the fidelity
The blinding devotion
Of the faith and trust
That'll mark my ashes forever

Yet here you are
A guarantee in your chuckle
That you'll end up living all alone
One day
Some day
So you just wanted to have a good time
Enjoy while it lasts

We were two sides of a coin, right?
But I saw a path halfway
A path leading to you
It was a garden
Full of roses trying to hide their thorns
This is perhaps
Where we shall meet
As we're about to leave each other's arms before we knew it

You've always yearned of what's deemed temporary, you see

So even just for a moment
a second if you may allow


Even if those feelings weren't genuine enough


Let us fill the air with the scent of love
that would probably stay on your shirt
And will make you smile as you try to look back one day

This was a foolish idea
We both know
As we nervously laugh at how we agreed upon this game
Silently looking for an excuse to run away as the night deeply sighs

I was unsure about everything else
But darling


I wouldn't agree if my feelings weren't true
For I've loved you
Good night

"i love you"
"i miss you"
"you're mine"
"I'll never leave you"
"We'll stay strong"
"How are you? "
"I miss you so bad"
"A future with you is my ideal future"
"Anything wrong? "
"I'm always here"
"I'll be by your side"
"You're my most favorite person"
"Having you for more years to come"
"I love you so much"
"I miss you so much"
"Please take care"
"I'll wait for you"
"I love you"

"I'm sorry"
"I don't know what to say"
"I'm not in the mood"
"Talk to you later"
"Wait"
"I'll be honest"
"We'll never work out"
"I want to go back"
"I can't have you"
"Leave me alone"
"Let's break up"

Down
  down


     off
we
go


we're about to
                 miss

the
great
BIG
      S H O W

But
oh

    let not
  a single
W O R D

spill
o   u    t

     for against
ignorance in numbers

is what this show's
all
    about


   listen
closely
  
   lend them your ear

feed them
with
          attention

but don't keep them
n e a r


just smile

let's enjoy this
S H O W


and down to the next
  generation

off
    we

               go

This is a prayer
for the Children of Aleppo
Whose tragedy was concealed before the eyes of the giants
Whose tears never had a chance to fall down to the ground
My Lord, my Almighty One
Keep these children
Welcome them back to Your arms
Let them feel loved again
Help them subside the pain they felt
Fill their newly-furnished rooms
With songs and laughter
Let them forget the scent of gunpowder and bombs
Teach them how to smile once more
Bring back the glimmer in their eyes
And as for those who still breathe to survive
Conceal them with Your love and immense protection
Let them know that beneath the ends of the earth
There would always be a sunrise
A new day
Where they could draw their stories
And dance their dreams
With those eyes
staring into blank distance
Bewildered,
Unaware of what will happen next
Let them hear my voice
A small voice of cheering them up
For this is all I could do for now
How foolish am I
Lavishly sitting on a comfortable bed
Under a secured roof
Writing a poem for those who gained my sympathy
But You know
There's more to that
Let them reach this
I want to tell them
How much they could change this world
Hang on tight
Believe me

Each and everyone of you
are tougher than any fighter this history could ever tell.