I hate the need to always make myself look interesting
The feeling of needing to make myself look cool or fun washes over often
“If I can just do X, Y, or Z than they’ll wanna see me”
When’s it gonna feel okay to be boring?
I know I am not infinitely interesting but I constantly feel like I need to be
If someone’s gonna love me they’re gonna love me in my silence
They’ll love me when I’m quiet and we can just enjoy each other’s company
I won’t always have something say and hopefully one day someone will understand him

Pen to paper.
This pen keeps writing the image of you.
Metaphors bleed into the shape of you.
These similes framing your likeness like a photographer his finest pictures.
You are personified as nature but it is nature that draws inspiration from you.
For whatever reason, this pen always wants to write about you.

What I would give to simply not give

I’ve noticed that my writing is one sided
I write about the love I have and never have I written if there is any love for me
Why do I always feel so strongly for people
This realization has broken me in more ways than I could have ever thought
When was the last time I woke to someone professing something sweet to me
Why was I cursed with this heart and mind
Why don’t I fear love but am terrified of it at the same time
Who made me think in the ways that I do

I used to see everything in black and white
You introduced me to brown the moment I met your eyes
After that, the colors just flooded
I found pink in the lines of your lips
They were sweet and intoxicating
I met red underneath your touch against my skin
It was warm and loving
Blue was in your voice
It was calming and bubbly
With you every color seems to shine
The sky’s never gray  
I only see see sunsets and sunrises now
Thank you for showing me color again

They say eyes are the windows to the soul
Brown eyes are like shimmering pools of honey and syrup filling waffles
Blue eyes are like frozen raindrops packed together in a crystal
Green eyes are like untouched forest floors covered in moss
Eyes can tell the best stories
They capture daydreams and play back memories like film
Eyes are the worst liars but also the best tricksters
The eyes are the window to the soul
If you wanna learn someone, look into their eyes

Situated between the stars
A room filled with stardust  
Fingertips caressing stars
Hands gripping constellations
You’re a galaxy inside a vessel
Im still wishing I could learn everything about your universe

You’re a force of nature. The wind had to stop and catch its breath after seeing you.

The sun has to squint in your presence.

Your voice stops the waves and sings the moon to sleep.

You tell thunder to be quiet and the skies turn blue.

Dancing with lightning and the lightning is you.

The idea of being with you is like dancing with lightning
Your voice sending shocks along my spine, making the hairs on my neck stand up
Every touch from your fingers a zap and a sizzle against my skin
With every meeting the dial turns up and the shock grows greater
You’re a graceful flow of electrify in a room
A river of overwhelming cosmic power
How will I weather her storm

I hate “you’re really sad over 1 person when there’s billions??”
Yes. Yes I am.
I hate that I gave them so much of myself and that I would do it again in a heartbeat.
We wish things were so simple.

When I first met you, your voice tattooed a chain around my heart.
The more I saw you the tighter it got.
The ink slowly got darker and your vice around me only grew stronger.

The sun kissed her and she kissed it back
And I was left blinded by the sunset

She was gold
I was copper
She was rare
I was common

My heart sits like a hummingbird in my chest when I see you
Fluttering and beating in nervousness
My mind a two ton weight
Heavy and frozen by your voice

I put my heart on ice for you
I told you I’d save it for you
As my body went numb
You told me I was crazy
I only said that I’d wait for your love

I took a walk tonight
It’s 31 degrees outside
I just needed to clear my head
To hit a reset
Now I’m just awake in bed
And my nose is cold
But at least my tears have dried up

A warm August Night
A 2011 Chevy Cruze
A car radio playing Get You by Daniel Caesar
A faint green light
The only thing lighting up her face
Long blonde hair just above her waist
A beautiful girl with a clear and solid voice
A nervous boy with shaky hands and the voice to match
One last hug before they part ways
One last exchange
A last desperate kiss with him wishing he could make it last forever
Clinging to her hands until they finally release
Longing is the last taste in his mouth
The words please don't leave me getting stuck in his throat
Left to watch the sun walk away, a final glance before a silent goodbye
A girl gone before he could even understand her
A boy left with a long drive home
to wonder if she was ever even real or she just existed in his mind

Meet me in Miami
For some sun and some candy
Where I was before there was no sunshine
I found the light in your smile

Dear Mama,
I'm sorry to let you down
I'm sorry I don't talk much at home
It's hard for me to find the words sometimes
I miss you everyday being so far away from you
I miss the weight of your voice covering me like a warm blanket
Or the comfort of your cold hands against my face
I know I don't say it often but I love you
To the moon and back
Later Mama

It feels like I’m in an ocean
And I’ve forgotten how to swim
And all my fears are tied to my ankles
And I’m sinking, no drowning
Reaching towards the surface
But grabbing nothing but the air escaping from my lungs

She had the moon in her eyes
The ocean swaying to her will
A tidal wave of a presence in the room

Another world where the sky is always purple and red and filled with cotton candy clouds
Where the air smells like vanilla
Where oceans are that perfect blue and beaches only have white sand
Where everybody wears their heart on their sleeve and feelings are always put into the open
Love is love for what we see it in movies
Imperfect but awesome just the way god intended
And as you travel this new world, rose petals bloom at your feet and seas part around you
The ocean stops crashing for a second just so it can remember this moment

God bless Her
God bless her voice
God bless the way she walks
And the way she talks
God bless her smile
God bless the way her hair falls
God bless cameras for trying to capture her beauty
God bless her for the light she brings in my life
God bless her even when she takes that away
God bless her
But she doesn’t care for me anymore

I’d fight a thousand wars just to be yours

When your fragile world comes crashing down around you, you realize your place.
For now, we're stuck in our endless loop, this endless race we face.

The shatter of your heart replays in your mind, leaving nothing but broken behind.

Shackled and chained to this same place
My mind is stuck in a losing race
Wishing for adventure and love to be found
I'm shackled to this same town
Knowing I will never go far
Longing for the freedom of the stars

There's not enough Ink in my pen to write love poems to you
Not enough love I can pour into each note
I'm sorry I'm not enough for you
I wish I was enough for you
Not enough ink for me to keep writing these pretty words for you

I whispered you shooting stars
I spoke to you in the language of roses
and laid rose petals at your feet with every step
I treated you as if you were the queen of the universe
and I would do it all over again if you asked