I am crying
But I need more than just a box of tissues
Because my heart is also weeping within
Help me!

Why does love always bring down a tear?

Sometimes happy
Sometimes sad
Sometimes... ?

I have been counting every firsts

Here is another first
This one is special
Your first. My first with you.

The last year was my best
I was blessed with you
I thank God
Here is another new one awaiting discovery
A memorable one it will be

My resolution...
To keep loving you
Forever...

Coloured pebbles underneath
Violet, indigo, blue, green, yellow, orange and red
Just like the rainbow rhyme
Four cute little lives swimming above them
One in orange, plump just like the fruit
Another in orange, lean as a carrot
One in black, just like the night
And one in orange and white, just like the morning light
New to us and we new to them
Lying at a corner, swimming around their small world wrapped in a glass bowl
Grandma's gift for your upcoming birthday
A fish bowl

Tomorrow is my birthday
I've had 29 so far
But this time the writing on the cake will be the best
It will read "Happy birthday mummy", instead of my name
The most prestigious title I hold
Baby, I love you
Thank you for being mine

100 likes
100 compliments
100 and still counting
100's of thanks

To see you for the first time again
To feel you for the first time again
To kiss you for the first time again
To fall in love with you all over again, I wish
I wish I could time-travel
To live those golden moments again
Moments that meant more than the world to me

Mr. Golden sun casting long shadows
Salty breeze hitting across
Acres of sand lying beneath our feet
Ups and downs like craters on the moon
Crows cawing, horses galloping and dogs basking in the sun
A straight line of ocean doodled below the empty sky
Gigantic ships appear like miniatures farther away
Hushing sound of waves
Four feet amidst frothy tides creating footprints
Carrying back some rustic soil on the toes
A little dirt never hurt
A bag of sea shells
Small, big, coloured and white, all with a coat of sand
A bag full of sea shells
The sun sets down
The radiant moon creates a guiding path in the dark shore
Following us back home
After a long evening at the beach
With my dear son

My heart is on fire
Someone set it ablaze
Now I will light up theirs
So they never ever throw their wicked gaze

I BARE my emotions
And WEAR a smile
When I am with you

My hands and your body meet
You ask for more
I massage every inch neat
You say there is more
I think what did I miss
You say 'Mama, my teeth'
Huh!?

A mute wave, an airy kiss, an empty hug
A silent vow made few inches apart
The beginning of yet another first day to school

To my rainbow born on the seventh
Happy birthday

Tears are pouring
My hands wipe them often but they come back again
Just like raindrops reappearing after every swish-swish of the wipers

No one to console me
No one thinks its worth my tears
But I can't withstand anything bad even if it were just words
If it is about you

What they sow so shall they reap
Every word that struck deep
Will only be theirs to keep

The almighty is with you and me
And will always be

Your chubby cheek rests on my arm
You constantly flicker your eyes
Your eyelashes tickle me gently
I can feel a butterfly flutter on me
A black and white butterfly

I am with you
But ALONE
Never felt so blank

I was blind in your love
I didn't realise you were never around

Your tiny fingers stretch out the corners of my lips
I shoot out a smile

I am getting inked
This is my first
It will be with me as I go through years

The needles punch into my skin, adding detail
Careful, for it mustn't smear
This is not just ink
It is my love for you
This is not just a word
A meaning for me

I go back to the moment we first met
The trance I was in, I am in it again
Your eyes
Your touch
Your everything
Let them tattoo into me forever

I will think about you until my heart beats
I will talk about you until my voice lasts
I will write about you until my bones crack

You are my everything

Bhakth (my son)

That is my tattoo

You are me.
Who else can you be...
Just me.

I weave a million thoughts in my mind
All of them are connected
Connected to you
Its true

A face so lit
A smile so bright
I wonder why!

Something caught my eye
Two doodled stars on your arms
A reward for performing great

Birds stop chirping
Neighbours stop fidgeting
Maids stop cleaning
Phones stop ringing
Cars stop vrooming
Bikes stop honking
Clocks stop ticking
My little angel is sleeping

Stethoscope around the neck
Little orange spectacles sans glasses
A plastic syringe with rubber within
Tiny touches on my chest
An injection on my arm
A gentle rub
On goes the fake band aid
"You are fine now", he says
All equipments go back into the tiny plastic briefcase
It's his first mini medical play set
And I am his first patient

You are my discovery
I am your Archimedes

I am ready to fall many a time
Only if it is falling in love
Only if it is falling in love with you...

I ask you "Who's your favourite"?
You pause for a second
Then you start thinking and search for an answer
And you say "You"
But you already lost me there when you paused
I thought your love for me had no clause

A twirl of blue satin tugged between your fingers
Twining hard trying to keep it intact
Crossing over, squeezing under and pulling out
Learning to make your first knot
Finding bliss in a tangled ribbon

After a tiring trip to the zoo
Your eyes were tired too
Sleep grabbed you down soon
Followed by a missed meal in the noon

The water glows in the evening light
A pool of isolation and looks like you are the king
The wind is welcoming
The pigeons are fluttering
Don't let the fear eat you up, don't let it in

Be your best as you have always been
Take a step, take a step, I am with you
Don't hold back, don't turn away
Just let your body sway
It's time to take those first steps again

No right, no wrong, just get along
You and water will be one
Take a step, take a step, rest will begun
Water never bothered you anyway
Just let your little body sway

Strolling in the water tell me how you feel
I sure can see your eyes glow in happiness hard to seal
Let me never see you cry again
Remember I will never leave your side
Just like a fish in water, in you my love resides

Like a cloud in the blue sky
Like dew on the grass
Like light in the dark
Like a precious pearl
Like a crescent in the night sky

Your first tooth

A brand new smile
A brand new you

Tiny feet taking a walk
Small and steady steps
Careful not to trip down
Still not sure of which foot goes where
Sometimes right, sometimes wrong
Busy strolling around
Little baby in momma's big flip flops

Momma, it's following me
I move, it moves
I groove, it grooves
I smack it, but it stays right there
I walk in a circle, it is sometimes ahead and sometimes behind
Hey, go under the couch
Momma, it's after me again
I climb on you, it's gone
I am down and it goes on and on
More lights turned on, now I see two of them!
I put on my shoes, now it's ready to go too

Baby... that's your shadow, it stays with you forever
Now here's momma's just beside yours
Hug me.
Now you, momma and our shadows are together you see

My candle of anger melts away with your flame of love

My lips curl
My cheeks rise
My eyes blush
My teeth hide
Remembering a happy memory makes me happier
I am having a happiness hangover

When you smile
I smile too
Happiness is contagious

I have had disturbed nights
But happier days
Happiness wins!

Few thoughts make me cry
Few thoughts make me sigh
Few thoughts make me feel why
I wish I could stop thinking
The more I think, I keep sinking
Bad memories are making my brain itching

I wish I could tattoo my soul
So I can see you everyday even when I am gone

Strolling on unknown streets
Ignoring strange glances
Neglecting salty sweat stains
I pick up pace gasping for air
How about I surprise you with something!

Clickety click on my phone
Oh there's time, I can take a jigety jog
Scorching sun, racing vehicles, smoky air, dusty path
I walk and walk and walk
Up, down, across
My thirsty throat calls for a drink
But I have no time to think

Here is where I can get the play doh
Wow, moulds, roller, cutter and more
Some flourescent sheets for craft
And a new book hows that
Done so where's the next one
Ah, there I see, hunky dory
Two perfect caps and some body lotion will just do
All done now all I do is run
Back to school... back to school as fast as I can
Common legs! Ignore the pain just think you can

I enter the gate and you steal a quick glance of me
Oh man, but there is another minute or two to be
You tap on the glass and sob in tiny tears
I rush within to pick you up and help you let go off your fears
Some words, a hug and few kisses do the rest
You see the bags in my hand and smile your best
A teary thank you and a happy one
Now lets go home, school is done

When will you come
I hate to wait
Why is it taking you so long
I think its late
Mom says you are six months away
But...
I wish to celebrate
So, come soon
I am waiting...

Cut, squeeze, strain
Lick, slurp, gulp
Five in a row
Its a miracle
From yuck to yum
How did it become

You asked for many kisses
I gave them to you
When I was done giving
You walked slowly
I asked you what happened
You said the kisses made you heavy

You took me into a love maze and left me there
Now I don't know the way out
I will wait here until you are back
But will you ever come for me?

Love is a three-letter-word
It is spelled
M O M

I carried you in my womb with love
I carry you on my wrist with pride
I will carry you forever in my heart
I love you my son

You smile. I laugh.
You cry. I weep.
You jump. I leap.
You bleed. I am hurt.
You sleep. I snore.
You love. I love you more.
I am your puppet.
The string of love connects you and me.

One day I am happy, one day sad
One day good and one day bad
Whatever I am it is because of you
Though I complain, I am nothing without you

Love being loved by a mom
Love giving love as a mom
Love being a mom
Happy mothers day

Rain is crying on my window
Happy tears!