i sympathize

i empathize

i want to be euthanized


l.r.

head aches
heart breaks
pain gives
but love takes

l.r.

gentle smiles and friendly eyes
soft touches and deep laughs
hot kisses and long hugs
i'd almost forgotten what it felt like to
be this close with someone

l.r.

it's kinda sad to
look back at the people
i once knew and
remember how full my heart was for them.

l.r.

you taught me
how to love
myself
in a world
that told me not to


l.r.

it's impossible to tell how long i've been here
when i don't even know where i'm at


l.r.

i'm doing my best but my best isn't good enough
i guess i just never thought that life could be so rough
i think i might be on the brink of relapse
but i don't want to be; i left that life in my past
so what am i going to do if i don't get better?
the sad girl is trying to get out but i'm trying not to let her


l.r.

the trees glisten with the heaven's tears of joy as the sun peeks shyly over the hills. a new day has dawned in the valley of the fleur as they stretch their water-heavy petals towards warmth

l.r.

i've had a few too many and
i miss you all too much

l.r.

if i had a second heart i'd fall for you twice
because having just one broken heart
doesn't feel quite as nice


l.r.

and every year it seems that i lose my heart to different people with the same intentions


l.r.

kiss me*
i wish to feel your breath upon every inch of my skin; my cheek, my neck, the lobe of my ear.
whisper things to me which you have told no other soul.
caress the skin of my naked back and hold me close to your heart.
love me like no one else ever could ; cherish me for the treasure i am


l.r.

my love for you is like the heavy beating of a falcon's wings
it is the sun that shines over the white-capped mountains
it's rays peeking through the valley just to lay upon your face
the rushing waters of even the greatest rivers call out your name as if it were a prayer upon their fluid lips

l.r.

stranger's bedroom
stranger's house
familiar kisses
from a stranger's mouth


l.r.

don't take me somewhere i've never been
take me somewhere i've been before
so i can see how different the world is
when i'm with you

l.r.

life is a matter of finding direction; only you can be your guide


l.r.

i was just your conditional lover;
you only adored me when i was under your covers.

l.r.

i'm sick of feeling like i'm never enough for people who wouldn't know my worth otherwise

l.r.

so
So
SO

tired of crying over people who don't deserve my tears

i try to tell myself that i'll be okay
but i know that i'll never be okay
if i never get to be with you

l.r.

the sounds of waves echo off of
bleached beaches
the iridescent moon is my only guide
as i try to
blink the fog away

" i have never felt like this "

maybe if i close my eyes it
will all go away
maybe if i fall asleep
everything will be okay

l.r.

hot throat
thick breaths
words choked on and lost to coughs

eyes watery
runny nose
nowhere is safe, not even at home

l.r.

i hadn't known that my heart was made of ice
until you had touched it ever so gently
with your long and calloused fingertips

then slowly--
as if the fires of passion burned within--
it began to melt
molding into the shape of your hand

l.r.

unless

what a funny word... unless

it has the power to transform and defy

to entrance the world and mystify

yes, what a funny word

unless

you didn't just love my body
you fell in love with my mind
it's amazing how you saw my soul
and touched my body without your hands

l.r.

she is a universe
undiscovered and pure
with lips the colour of a champagne supernova
and eyes like shooting stars

l.r.

after all this time
i put myself to the test
and i realized i deserve
nothing less than the best

l.r.

i'm sorry if i've ever made you feel like ****; made you feel like i didn't like you. it's exactly the opposite, i'd say, but i've never really been good at taking care of the things i love

l.r.

his eyes sparkled with a love that wasn't meant for me

l.r.

he would always say that he felt as if he was walking on a cloud whenever we were together. he said that i possessed an ethereal beauty. he said that every sunday morning he could see me stretch my wings. he always called me "angel" but he didn't mean a thing.

l.r.

there's something so metaphysical about the way you look tonight; something so transcendent that to put it into words could never do you justice.

l.r.

you taught me that i meant something. you gave me someone i could rely on, and then you left. you've let me down more than anyone i have ever known.
even myself.

your love is so artificial
i feel as if i'm choking on plastic
there is such a wall between us
you never could get past it

l.r.

it was all because of you ; the reason that i do the things that i do

l.r.

the stakes are high and time is short
i guess our love is a danger of sorts

l.r.

i wanna be your everyday, i don't wanna be your "sometimes"

l.r.

i just wanna kiss you and get it over with; to finally understand if pining after you is worth the trouble

l.r.

she fell in love over gold sheets and white wine

l.r.

what once was a kaleidoscope of colour
is now dimmer than any other
all this monochrome, it smothers
but then again it might just be my covers

l.r.

don't be afraid of what the world has to offer
because even back in olden days
Jesus saved the scoffer

i've seen who you are
you don't have to pretend
i'm sorry that you're trapped
into being my friend

l.r.

she is afraid of no man and she fears no monsters

fingernails bite
leaving red streaks to stain pale skin
is this heaven or hell?
soft lips
plump they may be
blindfolded
i can't really tell

i'm no good at being myself but i'm even worse at being without you

l.r.

she's one of those girls with a dynamite dream that believes in true love

l.r.

your eyes make you seem immortal; as if you have lived thousands of years and seen so many things

but your mouth says too many young and beautiful things.

l.r.

a sparkle of light
i wish that you cared
about one savoured night
and a kiss that is shared

l.r.