Everyone talks about falling in love,
but have you ever noticed how easy it is to fall out of it?
Maybe I'm cold-blooded, maybe my snakeskin doesn't shed because I don't even recognize myself anymore.

Maybe I don't breathe like you do, a different beat, different pace.
I'm so very sorry you have to go through this.

But I survive by eating hearts whole,
that's what snakes do.

The hair on my pillow isn't mine
I still think of how fast time went by
Your side of the bed remains intertwined
with hopeful tears and tainted smiles

Sleepless nights, unsung lullabies
faint memories kept in photographs
with the sun in my eyes
and freckled-cheeks wrinkled by endless laughs

My candy-coated nightmares of you
dancing with monsters and angels
singing with the devil
interrupted by your hair on my pillow

crimson roses for breakfast
glass of wine adorned with thorns
stems wrangled around my figure
scaled petals as my skin

can I be your morning coffee
right when you wake up

and your warm cup of tea
before you go to sleep

wishing I was the cup against your lips
held right below my hips

can I be the tears running down your cheeks
and the shadow right under your nose

can I be the music you listen to on a rainy day
and the dimple right below your eyes

can I be your breath after walking up the stairs
and your late nights completely unaware
of all the things I want to be to you

can I be yours?

if I hadn't met you
my wings would be broken
the sky wouldn’t be as blue

If I hadn’t met you
I wouldn't stop to smell the flowers
or sing my favourite songs in the shower

if I hadn't met you
would I have known to say "I love you?"

Dear God of Study,
I put my brain in your hands
Help me pass all my exams!

I'll be good all year round,
help my GPA from crashing on the ground.

All I need is a curvy C,
because that's what'll get me my degree.

Help.

Your strength is something I've always admired
you probably don't hear this enough
but, you've always motivated and inspired me
to push through dark moments

Your light keeps me warm when my heart is racing
and your breath feeds me new beginnings
helps me back up after I've fallen

You're absolutely beautiful inside and out
and it makes me happy to call you a friend
If I'm lucky, one day we'll get to meet
until then, don't forget how extraordinary you are

Talented, raw, inspiring and strong
Sending you my love and happiness

You have me here always,
R

I feel red today,
on the edge of craving fire.

I felt green yesterday,
like a million dollars.

Hopefully tomorrow I feel purple,
a strange but delightful amount of sweet, less bitter.

We've been rocky
like scissors and paper
fire and water
two opposites craving one thing.

The withered rose on my bed
caresses my feet
The petals remind me of a love
that used to be.

Your touch tattoed
in the back of my mind
Your smell imprinted and
laugh carved on my skin.

We've been rocky.

late-night angels whisper in my ear
"she's doing just fine, my dear"

late-night devils tangled through my prayer
kissing my lips leaving me without air
"you don't need her, my dear"

a love like ours makes the moon hide behind the sun
and fireflies swirl across a river

electricity sparked through your fingertips
while I was counting droplets last night on our window
each shadow sliding down my cheeks
waiting to reach my lips

love like you makes me think
that the knots that tie us together are laced with gold

a love like ours doesn't exist in fairytales
because our secrets are passed on through the wind
and when I'm gone your fire will keep my ashes warm
leaving no trace of the love we left behind

It's been a while since I've been here.
Missed you.
Just wanted to stop by and say hello, I'm sorry.
You were always the one, so keep going without me.
You'll do just fine.

Love you, bye.

I was cold.
I was afraid when I needed to be brave.
I was hard to love when I needed to be loving.
Losing someone can change you.

I find myself lighter, bolder and more courageous.
Love does this to me, without loving someone else,
I found love in myself.
I love myself.

I find myself dripping love because after drowning,
my pores are overflowing.

I used to be many things.
I used to be.

maybe I'm not meant to fall in love,
maybe it's not for me
to be a wife, mother or lover
to love or be loved?

maybe it wasn't the right time
the stars weren't aligned
maybe I wasn't witty enough
to play along with this endless game

maybe Cupid wasn't in my favour
ice cream melted in all the wrong flavours
maybe you weren't the one
but I thought you were

wherever you may be,
I hope I'm always your maybe

I feel dizzy.
I’m trapped in a body that feels out of place.
An illusion of what is perfect to me is not ideal in any case.
And every time I explain myself, my body is paralyzed in fear.
What if you won’t accept me? oh dear.
What if you won’t love me the same? I can’t help it.
I love the souls that belong to my same gender.
I can’t help it. Life was in slow motion but the moment I saw her I heard my heart tic for the first time.
Oh, how slow the clock ticked when I told my mother.
And oh, how fast time went by the first time I kissed her.
A woman.
Not ideal, but perfect for me.
Not the norm, but beautiful to me.
Hypnotize me to see if you can change me.
I’ll wake up the same.
I’ll wake up but still be in a dream that I can’t handle at times.
I don’t want to be a disappointment.
I don’t want to **** this part of me that roars louder than my own voice.
I shiver at the command of obedience.
Because I’ll never listen. I’ve tried to fight it but it’s stronger than me. I have no control.
Without a woman, I feel like I can’t breathe.
And with a woman, I feel hypnotized.

if I die, would you come to my funeral?

she reminded me of a warm summer day
the way the sun bounced off her golden roots
gave shelter to lost stars

her smell tangled my body in cotton webs
tied among clouds and her threads

she doesn't walk beside me anymore
but whenever there is a warm summer day

I feel her embrace

I look around to find you, in trees, in laughs, in the air.
I always questioned if I was missing out on something,
so I asked one simple question:

What would you tell someone who lost everything?

I no longer look for you because you are always around me,
I no longer look because you are the music I listen to every day and
I no longer look because I don't feel like I lost you, you never left me,  I love you.

How do you tell someone that you miss them,
but without hurting them again?
How do you tell someone that means the world to you,
goodbye?
How do I tell you that I miss you without using words?

You always told me I would regret this, but what I regret the most is not being able to share my life with you anymore.

She isn't the one that got away, but
she's the one I pushed away. I'll always be sorry,
I hope you are happy because your smile will forever be tattooed in the back of my mind.

like a flower I wither
when I'm not with her.