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4d · 200
numb.
Millie 4d
the yearn to feel
to know the pain is real
is all i can do
while i sit here with you
awaiting the day
i can finally say
'I'm no longer numb'
Dec 18 · 95
let go.
Millie Dec 18
pulling me up just to push me back down, to this cycle i'm bound. pride is a sin whether from you or within. i climb to the top not planning to stop but if i go too far—
just let me fly, be free. let me truly be me. unlock the door, release the chains because no matter how much you think you love me, you only put me in pain.
how can i heal when i begin to it's my skin you peel. bring me back to "perfect," everything you dreamed for me, but that's not who i am, can't you see?!
just let me live my life, the way i intend too. you treat me like a trial run, how is that fun for you?
this is my life, not yours. leave me alone
Dec 7 · 46
switch
Millie Dec 7
on and off.
off and on.
the same stupid routine day after day
but i guess i was made that way
Dec 7 · 33
door knob
Millie Dec 7
overlooked but overused. i the key to new experiences—what lays beyond the wall. day after day, hour after hour people touch me but are unclean. the germs crawl around me, waiting for the next victim. flu, covid, a cough—doesn't matter which 'cause i experience them all...
Dec 7 · 261
bricks
Millie Dec 7
one by one we're put together. cemented firm as we watch the world.
i don't want to watch, i want to live but i can't with the cage i'm trapped in.
free me
Dec 6 · 244
Empath
Millie Dec 6
Do you know what it's like to be inside someone's head?
All of a sudden wanting to be dead.
Or maybe full of worry?
Rushing 'round in a hurry.
Maybe full of rage?
Being life's prisoner in its cage.

You can't hide from me.
That's just how it is unfortunately.
Standing in a room just me and you
I'll always know how you feel, it's true
cause being an empath is not a choice
but a chance to give all the hurting a voice.
Nov 27 · 416
Pick a Face
Millie Nov 27
Oh, spin the wheel
to see what to feel
you're not in control
this isn't your soul
the chemicals decide
whether depression or pride

you're only a shell
with no story to tell
but what the author has wrote
so leave your note
let your voice be heard
even if only a word

"Help"
Nov 24 · 686
Mask up
Millie Nov 24
Mask up or they'll see.
They'll see what you hide,
what you try not to be.
Don't let them in.
Don't let them win.
Do not show them the person within.
Nov 10 · 213
fly
Millie Nov 10
fly
do you ever feel like you're not enough? like what you do will never measure up. who to be and what to do have never come clearly to you.

i know you.

I know your pain, your sorrow, your lack of faith.

"how do i believe in myself when no one else does?"

you prove them wrong.

show them your strength, your courage, your confidence. prove to yourself that you deserve life, deserve to be on this planet we call earth.

we all have something to offer, you included.

show the world the best you can be and then they'll see that they were wrong about you and the things you can do.

spread your wings and jump, i know you'll fly.
Nov 8 · 237
jealousy
Millie Nov 8
why does my heart ache when i see you with her? i know you’re mine, and i'm yours but fear the lines blur.

i don't understand this pain, this want to be in her place. I cannot abstain from my envy, it's not a feeling i can erase.

the drama, the worry, all for naught. the issue only exists in thought.

it's all from love, the pull from my heart twists and turns when i'm not with my other part.

God, how i love you. Forever and always you are mine and i am yours, we're only missing the 'I do.'
Nov 6 · 230
Revolution
Millie Nov 6
Power surges, the energy in my veins. We have the right to change. Things don't stay the same, after all, life is only a game. Prepare your hearts for this is war, it's time to even the score. We will win, and that's a promise I'll give.
Nov 6 · 94
Hot Dog
Millie Nov 6
The prize, just keep your eye on the prize. The buzzer sounds as I stuff my face, not daring to lose this race. Hot dog after hot dog, I don't slow down. Victory is in my sight, there's no stopping me now. The buzzer dings, my hands held high in the air. I've won, completely fair and square.
(This is a funny one. I asked my boyfriend for a word and a feeling and he gave me 'Hot Dog' and 'Triumphant' birthing whatever this is lol)
Nov 6 · 180
Imagination
Millie Nov 6
My imagination runs rampant. Images I cannot control. I fear myself. I can't close my eyes or they'll creep inside. These far off lands own me, I'm only a vessel to tell their twisted stories.
Nov 6 · 136
Drink
Millie Nov 6
If you could have it all, everything your heart desires would you try? Just a sip, they said, your dreams will come to life. What happens when the drink runs dry? Your aspirations shrivel, you confidence wilts.

So, will you take a sip?
Nov 6 · 195
Sign
Millie Nov 6
This emptiness swallows me whole. Please hear my prayers! I yearn for peace, to feel something. Will you send me a sign to prove everything to be alright? I'll wait for it, like I do every night—for you to pass my window, to be my shooting star.

I'll wait for the sign that you are mine.
Nov 6 · 253
Sun
Millie Nov 6
Sun
Overlooked, overworked, underpaid, with no gratitude. You yearn her presence but gripe about mine. "It's too hot, too bright." I'm never 'just right.' Without me, you couldn't survive, couldn't thrive in this life you call yours.

See how well she treats you. Her glow dissipates with my darkness. Envy runs through me. You don't deserve to see.

Nothing runs without me.
Oct 29 · 336
I do
Millie Oct 29
when i look at you
my stomach flutters
your smile makes me gleam
i love you

your laugh is perfect
each chuckle makes me grin
basking in your joy
i love you

the lovingness is so pure
the cuddles so protecting
i feel safe with you
i love you

be mine forever
staying side by side
loving til the day we die
i love you

i'll say it
if you'll say it too
just two words
i love you

I do.
Oct 29 · 431
Perfect Love
Millie Oct 29
the bright light
what a sight
it's your soul
making me whole

the last part
to complete my heart
i was made for you
and you know it, too

promise me the vow
i’ll marry you now
we’re meant to be
just you and me

L & E
Oct 25 · 111
PleaseTakeSomeDread
Millie Oct 25
have you ever felt your memories crawl up your throat?
the pain of each nightmare coming afloat.
the flashbacks swallow you whole.
there's no hope for your soul.

do you live your terrors day after day?
the corrupted thoughts won't go away.
its blade slices your skin
allowing the bad thoughts in.

save me.
hear me.
pull me from this pit
please, before i quit.

give up on this.
it's them you'll miss.
release me
subdue me

please let me be free.
Oct 19 · 443
Open your Minds
Millie Oct 19
shut out the noise
push out the lies
see the truth
open up your eyes

minds are twisted
with false truth
invading our brains
poisoning our youth

wake up, please
push through the fog
rise up from the ashes
see through the smog

please open your eyes
not awake in disguise
Oct 6 · 51
love is truth
Millie Oct 6
i don't hate you
but i hate what you do
you're dripping with sin
as you're hurt within

follow me
and maybe you'll see
how the world has lied
false truth invading as you cried

your pride is too high
for you to see the lie
to admit you were wrong
so i'll sing this song

"i love you
as Jesus does too.
i pray for your heart
'cause it tears me apart
to see you this way
so i have something to say
i'll be here for you
no matter what you do
and i hope that you
will be there too."
Oct 6 · 62
Babylon
Millie Oct 6
as the world crumbles
around me
all i can do
is watch

the death
the famine
the pain
the suffering

i can't carry the weight
as the stones come crashing down
pummeling my pride
leaving me raw
Oct 6 · 46
bondage
Millie Oct 6
wrapped in chains
because i mock His name
listen to the other's music
the banished one

satanus
beelzebub
lucifer
...a fake.

a false god
powerless
is it to rebel?
break the *******.

let yourself free
the weight lifted
as the Heavens sing
when you finally see

who you were
truly
meant to
be
Oct 6 · 48
Awake
Millie Oct 6
How does it feel
to be blinded?
Ignoring the truth
and for what?

To rebel?
To fit in?
When will you learn
that this is just sin?

Wake up now, please!
Pull off
your rose colored glasses!
Open your eyes!

It pains me to see
your judgment clouded.
Please, just try to
even if it's only for me.
Oct 5 · 336
My life as Yours
Millie Oct 5
How would life be
if you saw what I see?
Would you finally understand?
Could I finally be me?

Nothing seems real,
theres no way to feel.
Everything is dull.
Until I heal.
Oct 5 · 60
twisted mirror
Millie Oct 5
peer into the glass
what do you see?
are you staring back
or is it a nobody?

the twisted lies
that are held behind
that shiny pane
inside your mind.

do we see the truth?
what it reflects to us?
do mirrors twist the facts
we won't discuss?

is this truly me?
is my soul flawed?
am i really just
a lying fraud?
Oct 5 · 41
hysteria
Millie Oct 5
the pounding in my chest
increases my unrest
as tears stream down my face
praying for a change of pace

worry bubbles inside me
snatching my glee
just let me be
and maybe i'll see
why you ignore my plea
to be set free

how can i feel so alone
when people have shown
how much they care
but are never there

panic is my foe
lying to me of what i know
dampening my glow
furthering my woe
of what it shows
whoa
Oct 5 · 50
truth
Millie Oct 5
Is everyone blind?
Can we not see the truth?
The world is dying
and so is our youth.

People are dying
for the pettiest reasons.
When we disagree
we'll commit treason.

Countries falling
as others rise.
Only succeeding
at others' demise.

When will we stand up
for what is right?
Will we sit by and watch
or actually get up and fight?

The world is crumbling
over greed and pride.
Ignoring the help
that everyone cried.

We must stand up
and fight for what's right.
If we standby to watch
nothing will be left in sight.
Oct 5 · 48
Divide
Millie Oct 5
United We Stand,
Divided We Fall.
The canyon between us
will slaughter us all.

Can't you see
the man up there?
A puppet on strings,
dancing unaware.

completely unaware
the depth of tragedies
that have occurred
before the formalities.

Do you care for us?
Or is it all for you?
Our country shattering in pieces.
What will you do?

Another speech,
To check a box?
Inconveniences to form
your scripted talks.

We need a leader,
one far more adept.
One for the people,
one who can go up steps.

This ain't an attack
but things need to change
my home is dying
as things become strange.

Home of the Brave
is what they all say
but all I see are cowards
waiting to run away.

Stand up for your land
or we'll crumble before
each angry group
begging to start a war...
Oct 5 · 33
heart vs head
Millie Oct 5
You don't understand

he means everything to me

just give him a chance

and maybe you'll agree.




His smile, his laugh

make me feel alive,

without him

I'll never thrive.




I know you won't agree

you're the head, and I the heart

you can try

but you'll never break us apart.


~


I won't agree because I see things

you'll never know.

This guy doesn't want you

he only sees a ***.




You deserve more

that's why logic wins,

saving you from

his unwanted sins.




I know you won't

agree with me

but there's just somethings

the heart cannot see.




Blinded by love,

you'll be the fool.

~

With your logic,

life becomes cruel.




Which do I believe?

The one that sees

or the one

that bleeds?
Oct 5 · 44
strangled
Millie Oct 5
the lies You whispered in my ears,

blinded me from my fears.

You promised perfection,

but didn't tell me it'd lead my heart in the other direction.




the unrest in my soul grew

as You wound me up like a corkscrew.

Your grin darkened

as Your blade sharpened.




You stripped me of myself

so You could control my body Yourself.

You killed me from the inside out,

suffocating my flower before it could even sprout.




i can't understand how such a tiny ****,

could strangle me no matter how hard i plead.

this wasn't part of the deal,

my soul wasn't Yours to steal.




You clouded my thoughts

so i couldn't connect the dots.

trial after trial You wouldn't leave me alone

Your lies continued until i was overthrown.




there i sat, hollow

ready to trust You, ready to follow.

we walked the path of no return,

ready to die, ready to burn.




that's when I began to pray

for someone to come to My aid.

pull Me from the dirt,

help Me never hurt.




replant Me somewhere new,

maybe somewhere with a good view.

somewhere I won't be numb,

somewhere far away from that ****.




the sun seems clearer,

maybe because I'm nearer.

maybe because I'm no longer tangled in a vine.

maybe because I can finally be happy with My life as Mine.
Oct 5 · 33
Longing
Millie Oct 5
Hope for a new world

shatters.

Fates laugh as

poison fills the veins of society.




Should we call to the moon?

Surely, she knows how to survive the dark.

What about the stars?

Do we pray for them to fall?

So our pitiful cries may be heard

by some other know-all?




Fates pleased as we long

for happy endings,

ones that we will never reach

no matter how hard we try.




Will we ever be free

of your dangerous games?

Or will your hands stay latched

on those wretched reins?
Oct 5 · 32
lifeless
Millie Oct 5
how can I be alive,

when I feel nothing inside?

the nothingness inside myself

makes me deaf.




deaf to the highs,

deaf to the lows,

that's why i stay here,

i have nowhere to go.




a shell of who i was,

and what i could be

shattered to pieces

that floated out to sea.




put them together

and what do you see?




another lost soul

inside an empty body.
Oct 5 · 39
guilt
Millie Oct 5
a pit in your stomach

the bile inside

as your teeth begin to tingle

over what you just cried


the worry drowns you

as your heart pleads

begging for them to see

how it's made you bleed


the sorrow

the shame

the hurt

the blame


it feels like death

is sitting on you

suffocating your life

in everything you do


i'm sorry for what i've done

for the words i've said

and the actions that occurred

please forgive me, or I'll end up dead
Millie Oct 5
Searching for air

under the dark blue sea

as my lungs fill with

waves of pain and misery.



Tears mix with the ocean's salt

as my heart breaks in two.

One as me,

the other as you.



Oh, how I miss the carefree days,

the ones running with the sun,

though our adventures at night

were always the most fun.



I miss your laugh,

as the waves standstill in your absence.

The clouds cry out for you,

shouting and pouring their tears into the blue.



Oh, how I miss you.

The world's no longer vivid,

the sun dimmed, and the grass dead.

Without you here,

I'd rather stay in bed.

Away from the memories

that haunt my head.



I miss your smile,

the only sunshine

that could shine through my fog.

You promised you wouldn't be gone long.



So, why did you leave?

Now I lay, all alone,

only covered by

my cloud of sorrow.



You said it was forever,

so why am I here,

and you are lost

in the sand of drear?



How could you leave me here,

all alone?

Nowhere to run to,

nowhere to go.



You were my home,

and my compass.

Where do I go,

if your arrow cannot show?



You were my light.

That's why the sun hangs low.

She misses your smile, too,

so why would her rays' glow?



How can I go on

without you by my side?

You were my forever,

my ride or die.



I long for you

as my heart breaks in two.

Will you come back to me?

Or must I go to you?

— The End —