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5.5k · Feb 2015
Spring
Max Alvarez Feb 2015
I want you
But do you want me?
I swear to god
It's always the same
******* thing
You entice my nights
Then leave with the morning's light
****
Could it be
That every girl I meet
Should turn and leave
To go and be
With a man
Then smile at me
I'm just a crumbling leaf in the hands of every girl I meet
**** me
4.3k · Mar 2014
Blue
Max Alvarez Mar 2014
I want to tell her
But i can't.

I watch the spring rain fall.
A gentle tapping,
Sort of rapping
On the window's pane.

I focus on the sound until it fades.

I close my eyes and remember the day,
The scene is painted in a greyscale haze.
There stands you
Across the room
Enveloped in blue.
Your favorite colour.
It's late on that late winter's night,
And we're with our group.
If I said I knew who was there
I would be lying
Because it was you I was eyeing.
I'll skip the cliches, like
Butterflies
Or, better yet,
"Love at first sight"
Be as they may,
They all came true that night.


A casual glance became
A gaze became
A smile.
Once,
Twice,
Thrice,
Then Five,
We held it for a while.


I take a drink and pause the haze.


Minutes become hours that drag on for miles
We found ourselves in that grassy field
Dotted with trees,
And rabbits,
And owls.


A hot summer day-
The south suffers waves.
Hand in hand we make our way
Through the trail.
We fall behind our friends,
There's something I have to tell.
I stumble and fumble
Through letters to string,
I can't think of what to say.
And you say it's okay.
I smile and hold you close,
A mixed sense of pleasure morose.
Your lips touch mine,
And my heart explodes.
I can't believe we let each other go
We became 'twixt,
Ivy to our bones.


Again
Time lapses
There I am standing
There you are
Hanging
On him.
My rage demanding
His end.
But you come between
Deny instead.
Say I'm not right in the head,
Well, baby,
Love killed me dead.


I turn to walk away
And in turn you turn to
Return to he
Who shook your leaves.


So we've parted ways
And all was well
Until recently.
When I examined
A mural
And saw I missed a shard.
A blue tile
The final part
To my stain-glassed heart.
Feedback?
4.2k · Jun 2015
Be(longing)
Max Alvarez Jun 2015
I'm holding onto hope
God knows how long that will last
For what if our atoms split in the blast
And fate brought us cross country for that
The longing they have
Knowing each other as they did in the past
But like I said
I'm holding on to hope
God knows how long that will last
2.9k · May 2015
The Model
Max Alvarez May 2015
Her figure
Her form
Her smile
Her lips
Every moment
Of every day
She crosses my mind
Like the Sun's rays in the morning sky
I think I'm in love
But I am afraid
For what if her heart
Is in another place
1.8k · May 2016
Cinco De Drinko
Max Alvarez May 2016
We are the calloused hands of agriculture
The sun burned neck of labor
The bruised heel of infrastructure
We are those who go without praise or applause
Who wake up early
And go to sleep late
So that our sons and daughters have food on their plates
We are hated for our pigment
We are hated for our accent
Pigeonholed as rapists and smugglers
But really, we do the **** pendejos would never do
And we do it with pride on our sleeves
And love in our hearts
Because sometimes our families are countries apart
We take jobs that are not glamorous
And let racists hammer us
And use that hammer to sustain our families
1.8k · Mar 2015
Currents
Max Alvarez Mar 2015
Watch as waves
Overtake
Overreach their wake
Hold your breath
As they break
Every sentenced line
Replay over
And over
Her fingers slip from your grip
Behind blurry eyes
A disconnect in vision
Her hair goes with each
Ebb and flow
The strings pull at your chest
You tried your best
You wore it like a crest

Prospect gnaws at the marrow
And you plunge like the sparrow
After her
Into the technicolor water
Her ruddy complexion melts
For nights on end
You are floating
As the scenes that began as
An itch behind your eye
Clawed out in fright
Until the ticking stopped,
The ambiguous clicking of the clock,
Tied itself to the mast
In a rotted rope knot
Now you're the anchor
And your tendons swell
From the moment she fell
Until your present hell
Watching as each klick slinks
Your beloved sinks
Never within reach
1.6k · May 2015
4 a.m.
Max Alvarez May 2015
How terrible
And all the same delightful
Are the chapters in life
In which we begin to enter love.

A rosebud's bloom

Chet Baker said it best
"I fall in love too easily,
I fall in love too fast"
I would add that I tend to fall in love hastily, with no second guess.
Max Alvarez May 2014
Open eyes
With sun's rise
Rouge roused room
Four by six box
Satin lined
Episcopal ritual,
Bury the dead
Mother, Father
Don Apache garb
Hymnal hummed
Candle lit
How could nature see this fit

Suspended

From casket
Rise
And rise
And rise
Above autumn leaves
Struck with vigor
And love unobtained
Taunting with every flick of the wrist
Breeze blows through hair
I rise
And rise
And rise
Far above atmospheric scene
Aesthetics please
Sculpted by hands pure and clean
Mountains and sea
Gifted unto me
Love unrestrained
Rise
And rise
And rise
Celestials gleam
Forever in a day
A glimpse I've obtained
Descend
And descend
And descend
To gift bestowed
To forest spring
Nestled in
Mother's green
Descend
To casket
Forever in sleep
Forever in dreams
Open eyes
Rise
And rise
And rise
1.4k · Apr 2014
Navarro
Max Alvarez Apr 2014
It's been a time and a half
And I finally understand
The reason you've gone
With the shaman so long.
The spirit is free.
I'm a color
Splintered in three.
Crystalline
Crystal eyes
Well spoken with diction.
Many a words I've spoken
Have been in ode
Romancing you with every breath

In the desert
The door is ajar
We trace the steps of Aztec gods
1/3 becomes 2/4
The sands gleam emerald
Our bodies elongate to equine form
We blended the horizon line

Quetzalcoatl stands before me
Serpent in feathers
Glows like the spectrum all together.

He hands me a seed.
And his
Eyes smother like lightning.
And I
Speak in codexed volition.
And we
Blur the horizon line once more.

I stand on the Pacific
20,000 leagues
Equine force
Carries me to the beach.
Sand once more.

I feel a twitch in my jaw.
Each hand holds a mandible
And pulls.
Roots emerge
And a tree not soon after.

Is this what the seed was for?
I trot the beach,
Jaw no longer in tact.
My pallor flesh caked in coagulate
Almost recreates my tan skin
A gift from the god.

I've been on this beach for miles,
And
Miles
And
Two whiles.
My architecture meanders
The brevity of sanity.
One eye sees black,
The other sees fine.
My hair has become matted
It knots behind each earlobe
And drags on below my knees.

Is this what Quetzalcoatl wanted?
To see me sifted with the grains of sand
In the palm of a child's hand
At the beach
While on vacation
With mom and dad?

20,000 years have passed.
Time keeps on slippin'...
1.2k · Apr 2016
The Twice
Max Alvarez Apr 2016
I have lived
And I have died before
I do not want to make the same mistakes
I do not want to make the fallacy of living life without living at all
Though I understand things need to be done
A job, income, love, and a bed
And at the same time
I know life is not to be wasted on the same trivial things
1.1k · May 2015
Puffin
Max Alvarez May 2015
I had an affinity for you
But you were better in theory
Than in person
943 · Jun 2015
4a.m. (pt II)
Max Alvarez Jun 2015
And as I lied on that couch in my cousin's house I couldn't help but begin to weep. I wept for my father, who, for the past few years has been in and out of jail. I wept for him and I wept with him. The only man I've ever truly loved was locked in a place void of it. And I can't sleep because it's all I think; how the kindest man, with the biggest heart, is now the smallest man with the biggest guard. Happy father's day.
Cherish the moments you have with those you love dearly
918 · Jun 2015
The Model (pt II)
Max Alvarez Jun 2015
You have me
Wishing and waiting
Hoping and praying
Sitting and staying
Close enough to feel
Your hand in mine
Your lips to mine
Your breath and mine
Every song
Is about you
What I think about you
Lyrics line up perfectly with my thoughts
And every morning
And every night
It's you
And love songs
Anticipating
With the birds and the bees
And the flowers and trees
Waiting for the moment
When you are mine
For you have me
915 · Aug 2014
Hallelujah
Max Alvarez Aug 2014
Was birthed in war
From womb was called
To conquer
To praise
As David did
To cast away
To let my body sway
In light is life

Years drag
Eyes beheld
Hands have felt
What was not meant for me
Suddenly I'd seen
Barren before me
What was once green
In darkness lies death

A crimson streak
At the age of sixteen
Redeemed
Trees scream green
In His eyes tears gleam
He says
"My child
All the while
You ran to hide
All the times
I saw you cry
I stayed at your side"
And all at once
I saw Him hung
Stained in scarlet
Ribs parted
He wore the broken-hearted
His bones splintered for me

Max the unlovable
Has a stained-glass heart
With an unlit candle
An ancient death
Begets the spark
Seen miles through the night
In light there is life
828 · Dec 2015
3 Day Old Pizza
Max Alvarez Dec 2015
I write this with tears in my eyes.
Not of anger or sorrow
But of love.
The tremble of my fingers smears the ink of my pen.
A memory I've kept so dear,
Like a child with his teddy bear-
An angel in a black tie-dye BMTH shirt,
The one I gave you.
You wore almost every time I saw you
You said it was soft.
You loved it so much.
I still remember every outfit you've ever worn.
When we first met:
The long sleeve HDLMS shirt, black pants, black vans.
Your hair was up in a bun,
One I've come to love.
You wore red lipstick,
Which you didn't know yet I loved so much.
Our first kiss at my job:
A black shirt, cheetah pants.
Your hair was still curled from your competition-
I thought you should have won-
You wore a purple-ish lipstick.
When it came time for us to leave, I picked you a flower,
You surprised me with a kiss.
God, that kiss from one of his finest creations.
That's when I knew we were meant for each other.
When I came to your house:
You wore that BMTH shirt, black leggings, white vans.
Your makeup was done
Your hair in a bun.
How beautiful you looked.
We sat outside
Talked for hours.
We looked at the stars and talked of god.
I knew he was real every time I looked in your eyes.
Your sister's birthday:
A metallica shirt with the sleeves cut, blue jeans, black vans.
You wore that same lipstick from when we first kissed.
We had dinner,
I had some beer.
We kissed.
I couldn't let you go.
When you came to my house:
I don't remember what you wore, only what you didn't.
I do remember that candle you dropped and how I told you to run.
That was fun.
The first time in Grapevine:
You wore a red flannel, a denim jacket, black pants, black vans.
We had dinner.
I had water.
I was sick, but you still let me sneak a kiss.
Photos under the mistletoe,
The first time I picked you up.
I got you that ******* you wanted.
The second time in Grapevine:
God I had never seen a sight so divine.
You wore bedsheets better than Kim wears Givenchi.
I couldn't keep my hands to myself
And you were okay with it.
I told you I loved you
And I meant it.
I still do.
I'm going to miss your eyes
Your smile
The way you looked at me when I made a smart-*** remark.
The way we play argued
And you let me nibble on your neck-
That made you giggle.
Our tickle fights-
How I adore your laugh.
The way you hugged me when you saw me-
I could tell you were true.
My other half,
When you read this I want you to know,
I love you more than the stars I hold dear-
More than the air that I breathe,
And oh how I love to breathe.
Te amo mi amor.
807 · Mar 2016
Cotopaxi
Max Alvarez Mar 2016
Aún la novedad
Mi soledad
Será cierto ser
Le pregunte a un señor
Hombre vago
Barba blanca
"Porque soy así"
Me dijo
"Cuéntame de la última vez que abriste los ojos y vistes"
Me quede callado
Subió la voz y pregunto otra vez
"Cuéntame de la última vez que abriste los ojos"
Y al terminar sentí mi sangre revolver
"VAGO TU, VAGO YO"
Empezó a reír y grito
"SOY UN ESPEJO, LO QUE VEES ES UN REFLEJO"
Y se quebró
Mis venas agarraron la tierra
Empecé a crecer
Salio el vago otra vez
Estirándose en un árbol de nuez
Lo alcance
Me dijo
"Logras lo que tu quieras, lo que tu puedas, ponte las pilas, agarra la tierra, y verás"
Crecí otra vez
Al tercer cielo
Vi los siete mares
La luna y sus lunares
Mi mujer y el sol
El futuro en su infancia
Mis manos y la mercancía
Empecé ahogando en el mar
Ahora vivo en nuevo hogar
Max Alvarez May 2014
Introvert
Inverse, retrace, replay
Cloven hooves
Humans trace
Flooded sod
Amidst vines
Foliage flawed
Decay, dismay, displace
Contort
Exhort
Jubilee
Changing mask
******* flee
Inverse, retrace, replay
Retort on a whim
Falling branch
Rotted limb
Draw and release
Spirit's scream
Resounds throughout
Arid peace.
No alert
Vivid leaks crimson
Monotonous chant
Parts silence like
Rabid sea
Urgency nonchalant
"X" hails the chief
Betrayed by rays
Stagnant and serene
Immovable husk
Found in it's sleep.
762 · Jun 2014
Prometheus Prospect: Panic
Max Alvarez Jun 2014
A distant shrill of
Grinding gears
Sends chills throughout
The twentieth century's
Siren song.

The suited men
With crooked smirks
File in line to be
The first to eat
From concrete ****.

They tear
And they tear
And they tear
Clawing at nature's green
Humming as droning bees
Waking birds from their falling trees
They will be the first to eat.

Stripped lies mother earth
In a ****** heap
The end will be digitized

I've begun to blink
My vision falling into place
I've begun to think
These vultures defiled ancient peace

How can I?
How can they?
How can we?

My newly
Formed
Vision
Walks in
The sight
The plane of life
Betrayed by
It's own creation.

Humans are the plague.
Inspired by Between The Buried And Me
759 · May 2016
24/24 Vision
Max Alvarez May 2016
This thought at times plagues my mind
Not in the sense of complete consumption,
But in a manner that strikes me with a sinking feeling
In the pit of my tum, in the depths of my soul
A secret fear, though I'm certain it's not exclusive
There will come a time that I will die.
All the moments, every single second
All my breaths and beats
Each twitch and blink
Will cease and become memories
Or will they?
When I slip into the ether, will I hold to my past sights and dreams
Or will I simply be a vapid void
Would it fall upon an ear if I were to scream?
Would I even be capable of tears,
The ones I'd certainly shed
Just the same a refugee does when fleeing their country-
Their home,
But more than merely a home.
It's all I and they have ever known.
I suppose it's equal fear in leaving home and fear of the unknown.
I cannot imagine anything other than green grass and the rumble of thunder
Southern rains and how they bring comfort
So as it begins to storm in my new year of twenty-four,
I cling tightly to this planet, this plane, my perception of consciousness,
My dearest kind, all the car rides, broken hearts, locked lips,
All the pain and it's opposite,
And I smile because of how beautiful this life is,
A gifted experience from the creator,
And I am thankful.
735 · Jun 2015
ICE
Max Alvarez Jun 2015
ICE
Ball my fists
And hunch my shoulders
Swinging wildly
Til knuckle meets boulder
Does the earth merit my blood?
Do my bones merit the mud?
My voice becomes a vessel for words reserved for sailors and such
And my belly a sloshy sloppy pocket of ***
Writhing is my skin
At the thought of him within
Alone with no means of defense
Where defense means offense
And offense brings a means to an end
But I'd rather not think on the end
As I'm only about to begin
So I make a fist
And swing
Until nerves breach the bone
And veins burst within
I've known splinters and flint
And broken glass on skin
I know what it is to go without breath
And drown in the sink
This is just another week
683 · Oct 2015
Camel, Turkish Royales
Max Alvarez Oct 2015
You are akin to my cigarettes
I light you up, then breathe you in
The taste that stains my fingers and my lips
Killing me slowly
But I love it
Can't get enough of it
My lungs fiend for a bit of your nicotine
Either way
I'll die if you do
Lose my mind if you don't
656 · Jan 2016
12:49
Max Alvarez Jan 2016
It's been some days
And I've seen some change
But I'm finally okay
643 · Dec 2015
Poetry
Max Alvarez Dec 2015
Poetry doesn't always have to rhyme.
Sometimes it's just how you see life
Or how life sees you
Or sees itself.
It's a strange concept- life.
I was once asked by a younger friend of mine, although I am merely twenty-three, what was the meaning of life?
I, like many others, didn't know the answer to such a complex question, but still I pondered it.
I recalled a moment in my life where I had been experimenting with marijuana, not as a means of simply getting baked, but as a tool to experience.
In one of my psychedelic wanings between time and space, I found myself asking questions.
I swirled into myself, my true self, and found that, from my perspective, life is meant as an experience.
To live
To love
To feel
To learn
To understand
To teach to others what we have learned.
And in knowing this- life, and the world I see from my infinitely finite point in this mass of perplexities, became all the more beautiful.
I began to see things as others do.
And still, it was beautiful.
Beautiful, because I was allowed by the creator to experience and wonder the poetry that has been laid before us.
638 · Dec 2015
Austin, TX
Max Alvarez Dec 2015
They said
"Be careful young boy
Things are gonna be the same
You think that she will
But she ain't never gonna change
She'll play with your heart
Like she's playing some game
She'll take your next breath
And exchange it for pain"

But I was deaf as a dog
And kept the same path
Now I'm lost in a fog
And my mind is going mad
And I'm praying to god
"Send me off with a bang"
Sho' enough as I finished those words
Came a car with a man with a drink in his lap
Forty mile-an-hour and my neck it went snap
But he didn't stop though his windshield was cracked
So he drove to Austin, Texas and never looked back
Now my bones lie on an old dirt road
Left for the wolves and the gnats
599 · Jul 2015
Give Me October
Max Alvarez Jul 2015
As we reach the peak of summer
And the index swelters
Our skin wet
Dripping in sweat
We curse the sun
And pray for the night
We long for the days
Overcast and grey
When the trees pallor
And their leaves scatter
The satisfying
Crunch
Crunch
Crunch
And walks through the park
Sidewalks mimic the sunset light
Suddenly our lives are painted
Orange, yellow, red
I'll mutter
"I'd like to see autumn in New York some day
Evening coffee with you in a café"
Pedestrians strolling by
New jackets in polyester, cotton, and wool
Darker denim and
Show off the boots
In the summer months
In the southern states we long for
We pray for
We wait for
A breezy chill
And time to ****
With the ones we love
As night falls
And the stars rise
The air is stained with smoke
Fires are stoked
The fireplace tokes
Take my July
Give me October
Summer is plain
Autumn is for lovers
598 · Sep 2015
Merry-Go-Round
Max Alvarez Sep 2015
I met a girl in a neoprene sweater
She told me her favorite word was "never"
So I told her my favorite letter
It's "u"
Because it always has a beautiful view
581 · Aug 2015
Monday
Max Alvarez Aug 2015
A few solid strikes from a broken fist
My throat hurts from all the ***** I scream
It can't end
It can't end like this
I'm shaking
While I read
All about the sorrys
And how the time is not right
It's been a while since a tear left my eye
I guess the incision feels nice
Compared to the palm on my heart
But I knew from the start
Love is a gamble
The cruelest game to leave the lips of God
So I took the chance when I held your hand
And let my lips touch yours
Now I'll relive those nights
Instead of pray when I turn out the lights
I'd give anything to hold you one more time
Carve your name in my shoulder
So every night I lay my head
You are there at my side
I only hope when you're gone
You won't find another one
Or lose my place in your soul
I stumbled in
I'm not ready for the fall
580 · Mar 2014
Pink Floyd Says Relax
Max Alvarez Mar 2014
Twin shadows stand tall
In a room
Vacant, and void of third wall.
Silent they stand
At my bed's aft.
Staring,
Bearing,
Answers.
They take me by the hand.
We take flight.
Floating through space.
The eagles come and go
Translucent,
Made of piano keys,
They are in tune with the music.
The night is void of stars,
Instead the sky is hazy and purple.
It all appears when i close my eyes.

Time seems to dissolve.

I open my eyes,
The beings have gone
But i am not alone.

The pillars made of colors and light
Spin on the axis of all that is right.
In one end,
Out the other,
The souls of the animal kingdom.

It's my turn.

The symmetrical hand rotates
Triangles begin to form.
Spinning,
Spinning,
Timely,
Ever spinning.

All at once the eye begins to form.
From the pupil the pyramid comes.
"Who are you?" I ask
"I am he who was, and is, and is to come"
All the while geometric lines of green and blue
Form perfection,
And i know he is true.

He is gone.
I drift.


Back to the souls.
He is chosen.
Cunning in red.
No dancing with wolves,
Hunting with foxes instead.
And he entered me.
Our minds were one.
His soul was mine,
And mine was his.
I attempted to put into words what I saw on a trip.
557 · Jul 2015
Von
Max Alvarez Jul 2015
Von
I almost texted you good morning
I forgot
We aren't talking
You had become my second nature
544 · Jun 2015
Think Of Me
Max Alvarez Jun 2015
I want to craft a ship
With no tattered sails
And sail the seas
To tell the world
Once
And twice over
Then do it again
Of the love that I've found with you
532 · Aug 2014
Queen Bee
Max Alvarez Aug 2014
Queen Bee
can't you see?
Your stinger's got a hold of me.
I've been from town to town
Seen many girls
But none got me buzzing like you.

Can I hold your hand?
Take you to the beach,
write our names in the sand?
Let me hold you close,
we could dance under the stars
and when the sun arose,
I'd give you my heart.

Oh, Queen Bee
can't you see
you've got a hold on me?
But you've got this game you play
brush my skin and fly away.
And now tequila's calling my name.
Ten shots got me stumblin'
Love songs I'm mumblin'
Now I'm fighting over you
my skin stained black and blue
why can't you just tell the truth?
Tell me I'm no good,
How I don't have enough tattoos,
or that I'm too hooked on you.

Be still my beating heart,
I wasn't the only one from the start
but I couldn't picture us apart.
Heavy breathing in the night
I can't get you off my mind.
My lust,
my love,
my muse,
it's you I choose.
Max Alvarez Jun 2014
My eyes flutter
Close
Words fall from my lips in a stutter
Prose

I loosely turn my tangled neck
Sixty degrees
To my mangled wreck

I am alone.
Max Alvarez Mar 2014
It haunts me to think outside the stars. 
To speak with those against, and, then again; 
I'm against what you're against, and you're for what they're against. 
Time spends. 
It brings forth the fourth planet from Earth. 
It enters my crooked spine, aligned with dirt and sands. 
And when i open my mouth, it escapes. 
Heiroglyphs, an ancient text, 
And i expect that they will tell . 
Unravel my DNA, and tell of each and every cell's tale, sell it for a penny, and craft a sail to sail away on the sea of Seychelles. 
And i wait. 
And wait.
And wait.
And I wait for a response from among the grains of sand littered along the banks of the sea. 
Granules that barely breathe, and yet still they sing.
"In the days of one and three, the nights are empty, and the days are green." 
And me? 
Well, i wealthily breathe, often scream, and seldom sing.  
I scream.
And i scream,
And i scream. 
I scream at the sea for not speaking through its seam that is the beach. 
And I scream at the sea for not bringing me what i think i think i need.
My skin breathes in the breeze, and the bones in my knees, they creak. 
The stars are plucked from decaying string, and meet the timid sea. 
The sea, she sings
"In the midst of one and three, you seek, but shall not reap. The meek, not the weak, shall breathe deep what your lungs weep." 
And into my spine, the earth retreats.
She sinks her teeth, and she eats, and eats.
519 · Feb 2016
Trials
Max Alvarez Feb 2016
The times are young
And the times are tough
The mountain man sews his cloth
The winter is gonna be rough.
He palms the sweat from his brow
Out the window he surveys his plow
Jagged rust
Scratched iron's reaction to snow
By the pond lies his cow
His beloved bovine Big Brown
And he recalls the calf, after birth, lying on the ground
The mountain man sighs in desperation
His wife and daughter with gaunt faces warm their skinny bones by the fire
The cast shadow paints them like death
Flies swirling in their breath
And the mountain man grabs his gun.
With heavy heart, and heavy boot he trods the winter mix,
Jagged soles so as not to slip.
A single tear steams as it strolls his face.
Two shells in their homes
Aims the barrel to the brown beast's nose.
Past the eyes, antlers reveal with grace.
He pulls the trigger and the snow is painted red.
The animal falls dead.
He turns to the house and sees his daughter through the window peer,
Notices the anticipation on her face
And gives God grace for the deer that took Big Brown's place.
498 · Aug 2016
Polaris
Max Alvarez Aug 2016
As always
The sky is painted grey
Which caused a solemn drone to spill out on to the trees below
The bark of these is streaked with a terra cotta smear,
My skin
And the pitter patter of rain matches the tempo of
The pitter patter of my feet matches the
Tones of the sod and clay
I am running
Away and towards
The cloaked man and refuge, respectfully

//


The cloaked man approached me in slumber
His voice- static and void of inflection- draped over my body and stung my flesh with the sensation of poison.


//

Stripped of light,
I ran into the fleeting night
In hopes of gathering my bearings
I cast my eyes to Great Polaris
And began to sing
"Oh Grand Astra!
This I beg of Thee,
Dissolve this fog that I again may see!"
And from thistle and thorn emerged the cloaked man,
Grinning a malevolent grin
His stare laden with sin
He spake
"Can't you see you belong to me?
I have brought you knowledge and I have brought you gain,
But you run, and now all you'll feel is pain."
And he broke my arms.
As I writhed in agony,
I called to the Northern Star,
And he pulled at my jaw until it was off.
He stuck an arrow in my lungs so that I would shut up,
But I would not.
With every gasp I cried out,
And he tore out my tongue.
He left me to die to return to the soil and sod.
486 · May 2014
Dream Weaver
Max Alvarez May 2014
So long, it's been days.

That golden spool adorns your face.
Every night I befall your grace,
My undeserving arms you make your place.
She plagues my dreams.
481 · Aug 2014
Newspaper And Networking
Max Alvarez Aug 2014
There's a black
Hair-pinned sliver
AKA velvet liver
Lying under the bed
Catty-cornered
Adjacent to where my eyes wed
As I count the primes
I can't help but roll my eyes
And tears stream down my face.
The strigiforme released the worm
From the pebble teeth lodged in its beak.
Double the space from
One and three.
The song changed,
Her morning sickness spoke
Fold our lives in leaves,
The time we have is brief.
She came from under the bed
To blame
I shook my head and said
I did not eject.
I was fake
She was fake
The bed was fake
The owl,
Melted plastic
Left in the sun's wake,
Pacific rays, bleak and weak
Melding homes.
This makes no sense.
Sweet, sweet irreverent babble.
475 · Mar 2014
Self
Max Alvarez Mar 2014
I can't
As in it isn't right
As it isn't possible
Like the final digit that suffices the thirst of pi
Or a mandible unhinged and to the right
458 · Apr 2014
Untitled
Max Alvarez Apr 2014
Melt the moon
Stretch the stars

Pluck the leaves
And string the beads

The piano's standard keys
Ring in a melody

Brought the new year
Echo

Draw the bow
Across the room

Blonde
No

Brown
No

The British girl from
The comic shop

The girl from
Forever 21

I was drunk

The fake tree
On the balcony

We danced to The
Drums

I found
Chet Faker

This chain
Breaks
I'm just trying to go to sleep
441 · Jan 2018
Sophia Marie
Max Alvarez Jan 2018
This morning
In bed with you
My good arm draped over you like the blanket you like to take in the night
I watched your peachy skin begin to glow in the rising sun’s light
I adore your hair
That auburn color that greets me as I wake
I count the seconds of my life with each and every breath you take
And what beautiful breaths you take
I love when you wrap your leg around mine
And our fingers intertwine
For moments that I can only describe as forever
We become one
Until I whisper something silly in your ear
Because your laugh I love to hear
Truthfully, I just love you, my dear
434 · Apr 2016
Ocular Vestibule
Max Alvarez Apr 2016
Night owl:
The strigiforme emerges
Clouded in crimson
Feathered vision
Cloaked in night
The young man's heart races
He forgot to pay his fines
"It's okay" he emits
"It just slipped my mind"
The owl circles above
"Just give me some time"
The owl bellows
"I need it, young fellow"
As he patrols on time
Vicarious visions probe the man's mind
A frightening mood
He's enveloped in black
Festering forms drenched in worms
Peck at his eyes
Visceral, visceral
"Forget me not" uttered in shrill
And the man's neck snaps
With the blood his soul leaks into the void
A technicolor swirl soon gives way to paranoia
He breathes, yet his lungs no longer move
"Give way to my will" beckons the owl
His tongue is familiar, like a lost language once spoken in times past,
But hieroglyphic all the same
And the man sinks and is stretched

"Hrim shim fertulos visigvus, hgrstatious involsxedo prliii"

Given the choice between known and unknown, the man goes with comfort
A cylindrical chasm to a familial realm
A world stained orange
A certain memory
Mother, father,
A fair night in October
His cigarette gleams
Serenely vestigial
Often times the words I know I know
As if implanted in my mind
Usually uttered on the spot
Sometimes jargon
Sometimes evident of an owl
426 · Sep 2014
Twin Flames
Max Alvarez Sep 2014
I am a solemn stone
Tinted gray with mossy tones
Anchored in a solemn creek
Clear waters carry a steady stream.

Downstream a solemn fish swims
Soon another after him
And another after them.
The stream seems to circle
The glass edges are hurtful.
With a stick the waters she stirs
through the trees hummingbirds drone
Untouched be I the solemn stone
Untouched and unloved by her.

Back to the sun,
She is standing.
Belly-up, the fish float stunned,
She is laughing.
I don't recognize her.

She dropped the bowl,
Shattered glass sparkles in the sky
My home is now the stars you see from yours at night.
I am left in this void.
Nowhere to go
Again I am alone.
How violent it was
-The fall
Simple because
-It was all my fault
I had to rush
-I didn't mean to let go
To spell out love.
If she only knew that I was
And am
And will be
True.
423 · Jun 2014
October 31st
Max Alvarez Jun 2014
"Read me a piece of literature before off to bed"
Spake the owl
"Hum-drum" quothed the severed head
Displeased the owl pecked
On the twelve maggots dancing
Amidst the rotting flesh
Wrily the head wiggled a naughty smile
"The worms turn after a little while"
And with that, the owl stopped
And to the ground he fell in a lifeless flop
421 · Jul 2014
Eyes Shut
Max Alvarez Jul 2014
You give new breath to the word lust.
417 · May 2014
Dead Sea
Max Alvarez May 2014
Walk up the staircase to the morbid decay
Flickering static on the tv set frays
Moses drowning in an unparted sea
What lies above or beneath is not for me to say
414 · Aug 2015
Untitled
Max Alvarez Aug 2015
Was i born to write?
To transcribe syllables from thought and mind,
To breathe and bring life,
And at the same time
Wage war with
And those against?
To cement myself in a comfortable coffin and suffocate in the absence of light?
Or was i born to pull back the night
And paint violent colors of red
And
Yellow
And
Orange
And
Call it the morning sky?
Well i regret to tell you,
that i neglected to tell you
that i tremble.
And not just from freight.
A paintbrush- i can't hold tight.
Instead, let my fingers find letters- my favorite is I.
Let my fingers find letters
And I'll string together
What lies beyond
Clouds, and the highest high.
The sun and the stars.
A parallel planet,
And it's inferior nights.
An alien planet,
And our life through their eyes.
So miniscule,
At most benign.
Let my fingers find letters
And i will create
A line.
I will bend it's shape,
Perfect it,
And let it sing it's praise.
Let my fingers find letters.
I will captivate.
413 · Jun 2016
Aroma
Max Alvarez Jun 2016
I still search for the scent of a rose in a field of lilac and lace
There is no luck in this place
So I'll forsake the field and valley
Climb the peak of the nearest mountain
Pound at the void in my chest
And scream your name
I'll scream until the blood leaves my veins
And a fire fills the sky
Destroy my voice
Until the rose and lavender pair again
410 · Apr 2014
Bellis Perennis
Max Alvarez Apr 2014
I met a girl with a flower for a name
Just as the days of spring are beginning.


How befitting.
375 · Mar 2014
Wood
Max Alvarez Mar 2014
It's as if i was a tree
A split seed birthed a sapling
Surrounded by weeds
Chosen by the keep
Nurtured and watered
Told to the skies i was free
And as i grew
I realized my reach
All was within
My branches leaved
Rings gave birth to bees
I expanded
High
Until my bark the sun bleached
And the rays through my veins seeped
I burned
Charred
My father weeped
Through my fibers
Gravity eats
Roots
Like fingers
Fight to keep
Their sodded sleep
Crooked
I barely stand
A portrait of desolance
Overrun by weeds
My rotted wood
A worm-ed feast
Where are you keep
My roots slink east
Rid me of disease
After the plight
Of many sinking suns
And fervent pleas
I ask not for the strongest bark
Nor emerald leaves
I am weak
I only seek peace
374 · Nov 2015
November 10th
Max Alvarez Nov 2015
I'll never subscribe to the ills of modern romance.
The intrinsic notion that if it isn't perfect, it stands no chance.
There is no such thing as making it work anymore,
And god forbid its a slight chore
To take a chance and make it work.
**** it
**** her
**** me
There's plenty more fish at sea
But those are words I don't mean
Syllables spilling out of my teeth
Because I'm hurt and angry
Hurt by you
Angry at me
All the words I tied in knots to craft a frame that adorns your divine face.
And I hate myself because I find myself in a new faith
A new religion
Like that Lana Del Rey song
The one you told me to listen to
Though my favorite is Honeymoon
I don't know if this a catharsis
But I had to get these ******* words
Out of my skull
They gnaw at my brain and my bone
And don't let me sleep at night
They're akin to the dimmest street light
At your window
A speck in an otherwise ebony sky
That drone on the lid of your eyes
I just want peace of mind
And you to be mine
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