His eyes truly were captivating
They somehow held every stare
His eyes held the world secrets
But how did they get there

I gazed into the great unknown
Within the depths of his eyes
Is it true that this is love
Or am i believing lies?

If he caught me starting
Would he simply look away
Or would he speak to me?
I wouldn't know what to say

I'd be at such a loss
If he approached me
I'd giggle and I'd blush
Hoping he wouldn't see

His eyes, Oh.. his eyes
They draw me near
They beckon and they call
They wash away all fear

How did it happen?
I usually seem to wonder
How did we forget the rain
Was it the lightening or the thunder

I tune the radio to a station I know won't come in.
Because it sounds just like the ocean to me.
And a fake ocean is far better than no ocean at all.
It sounds like a place so far away from here, so free.

I place blankets over my curtains, which are over my windows.
Because it makes me feel safe when I sleep.
And a bit of sleep is a lot better than none at all.
It seems this new habit I've formed, I'll keep.

I run outside every single time it rains.
Because the cold jars my lifeless body awake.
And some feeling is nicer than no feeling at all.
It hopefully cleanses me, for I know my soul's at stake.

Beebz the queen
That is my name
I cannot refuse
To play this game
I am awestruck
By all this noise
I cannot focus
On all these boys
I am the queen
And not the *****
I beg your pardon
Excuse the french

you are not in control anymore
i am taking hold of my life today
i am so tired of being used and hurt
so i am living my life my own way

its wrong to hope that you fail
i won't lie and say I hope you do well
you should have treated me far better
and never told me to go to hell

i lack the power to hurt you more
than how badly you wounded me
but saying this final *******
i think might just set me free

lay with me, oh lay me down
touch me softly, kiss me slow
stepping out into the great unknown
hold me baby, touch me now

hand on my leg and hand in my hair
taste your sweat, our chests bear
breathe you in like the summer air
the sweetest, deepest love affair

your hands wander and travel freely
my nails scrape your back tenderly
searching for love through lust is the key
you found what you were looking for; me

it's 2 am and the only thing on my mind
is how sweetly my name rolls off of your lips
it's 2 am and all I can think about is you
how you held me so carefully; stole me with one kiss

one kiss led to another and another and another
until I was completely and utterly lost in you
needing you, craving you, missing terribly
and if only you knew what your hands can really do

dreaming of you caressing my body; holding me tight
kissing away my worries, my fears, my sadness
pulling me closer till there's no space between us
whispering sweet nothings till the pain passes

you'd take my hand and kiss it gently
and promise to take care of me from now till the end
even if that meant leaving me all alone
cause you think it's better to just be my friend

but I know for a fact that we were meant to be
even if you don't see how perfect we could be together
I would love you unconditionally and irrevocably
baby please, our love would be forever

i was once guided by my heart
and i believed in where it lead
it seemed my life was a fairytale
like the ones, as a child, i read
there was no sorrow where my heart took me
no tears, no sadness, no pain
then one day it took me somewhere new
and that place will always leave a stain.

i was once guided by my heart
until my heart lead me astray
it took me to where you were
and my heart broke that day
there was so much sorrow where my heart took me
i was certain that i would die
you took me somewhere new with your promises
but now i know every one was a lie.

i was once guided by my heart
but now i follow my mind
because to follow your heart
is to follow the blind
i wont deny i loved loving
and i wont deny it hurt
but with those silly temptations
i simply refuse to flirt.

i was once guided by my heart
but it seems that it is missing
because loving you was costly
and i broke when i saw you kissing
it wasn't me your mouth was on
it wasn't me that you tenderly touched
it wasn't me you whispered sweet nothing's to
but it was my heart you violently clutched.

You can tell by my demeanor
My stiff body telling
It was only moments ago
That we were heatedly yelling
Maybe you see through me
You can tell how angry i feel
Somehow maybe you know
My facade isn't real
Maybe it's my movements
Or my icy stare
Or maybe it's on my sleeve
The emotions i tend to wear
I wonder if he realizes
He truly ****** up my life
He tells me to stay away from boys
But hes the one who cheated on his wife
But shes his ex now
His new wife a *****
It took him two months after divorce
It makes me wonder if shes rich.
As i continue to ramble
About how much i hate my dad
I'll take this time to mention
I really am just sad.
I need a counselor
So im told
Cause i might be insane
But late at night you wonder
Do i threaten their name?
I may be a hurting stranger
Im just another girl
But in my heated anger
I have lost my world.

I feel stranded on this island
And it feels so nice to be alone
I finally have no one to deal with
No one to please or love.
Because without him
I am stranded
But I'll send him a message
I'll put it in a bottle
I'll send it across the sea
It will read
"I hope you're thinking of me"
And when he opens it
He'll see my hand writing
And he will soon know
That if he wants me back
That island is where he should go.

And if he reads that message
And sighs in relief
Not missing me at all
I guess I'll be brief

My dear whom i love
Who doesn't need me
Can live life on his own
And i will be safe and sound
On that island
I will live a life full of adventure
And i may be alone
But i know I'm happy
Because he and i weren't meant to be
And i want no one else.

Taking time for granted
Each moment that we shared
What if I don't get the chance
To tell you how much i cared

Why does it take an illness
Why does it take pain
To make us all realize
What we'll lose and what we'll gain?

I have this moment of weakness
Because there's nothing i can do
Cannot comfort or cure or help
I can only pray you make it through

Loss is painful and heart breaking
So please don't make me say goodbye
I'm not ready to have you gone
So please stay by my side

I never want to see you go
And it pains me to see her cry
I love you all so very much
Like i said, don't make this goodbye

When i heard the news
All i did was weep
It seems the things i love
I never get to keep

I fear the hospital visits
The pain etched in your eyes
I cannot see you hurting
And watch your chest slowly fall and rise

This trial and this obstacle
Made me realize i can't always be strong
I must rely on others
To help me get along

Baby I don't know why I told you I was done
Why I said I didn't want to speak again
The truth is, I want you with me always
Because I trusted you enough to let you in
I let you in who I was and who I wished to be
I let you in my heart, in my head, in my pants
I thought the more I let you in there'd be hope
That maybe you'd finally give "us" a chance
You used to hold me so carefully like I'd break
Which made me certain I could never be strong
So I clung to you like I hoped you cling to me
But I never knew that I could be so wrong
My heart is literally aching, and throbbing
My mind is trying to erase you from me
Your hands, your lips, that smile, those eyes
It's soon to be gone, maybe then I'll be free
But I know freedom cannot be reached
Because still these chains hold me back
I'm bound to you because I loved you
This bond will make my heart crack.

For so long I had no words to write
And it made me mad, down to my core
I never thought I'd write of you and me
And practically admit to being a *****
But here I am always writing it out
And somewhere maybe you'll read this and cry
Because you'll know you've ruined me
With every promise, every kiss, every lie
I made you promises and I kept them all
And I would willingly run back into your arms
I'd hold you tight and cry all night
If you promised to sheild me from all harm
I know this poem is too ******* long
It's hurting me to write it all out honestly
I want him to see this though and feel bad
I want him to finally cry over how he hurt me.