dear loved one,
Its been a while since we've talked and yet my feeling haven't changed for you. I understand it must be odd for you to hear that I, in fact am still in love with you especially since I was the one that left. But you see, we where best friends and I couldn't help but feel these feelings in which I've never felt before. And seeing you with your significant other emotionally and physically hurt. my emotions would drown me and my heart would throb, I would cry nights away and sleep the pain off because you where the one I wanted, you where there threw it all and it hurt. I learned that love is a great emotion filling one with all sorts of amazing new emotions and experiences but also dangerous. And I was weak, I couldn't handle the emotions of falling in love with someone and watching them fall in love with another. God!! I even tried to fall for someone else, I dated and kissed another guy but it didn't work. I couldn't forget about you, and the feelings wouldn't go. it was painful. And so I left, not knowing you needed me most, not knowing life would crash and you needed me to be your support. I was dumb and foolish and oh so in love with you but this time I wont let my feelings get in the way of being the friend you need. This is my sorry letter for you, my best friend.
Sincerely yours truly,
butterflies storm around me as i try to shoo them away
embarrassed and hoped you didn't see them trying to go your way
its been a while since we've talked.
but these feelings haven't left
they all came back, these unchanged feeling. all when i seen-
she's as beautiful as day and as mysterious as night
her feelings change as does her leaves during fall
the changing colors and emotions
a great oak tree now feeling cold by winters embrace with no colorful leaves but instead branches that show her majestic story of pain, sorrow, and love
she's a worrier, a soldier in this battle of life
and then when the war of society and sin is over in spring she dances and rejoices with the winds and rain and sings the song of new begging that yet to come
then finally she joins the sun and the clouds
sharing her life with others during the days of summer
she's a home for creatures big and small
shes a shield of protection
a mother caring for her child
a bride preparing for her wedding day
a slave enjoying freedom at last.
me to the happiest of places and steals my smile
she comes on birthdays and holidays
she comes on regular days
I say i'm alone but sadness is there
she's the only thing that hasn't left
loneliness is sadness brother and stays the nights and days
he's there when i'm in a crowd full of others
he's there at parties
and at family gatherings
he's there even during the happiest of times
depression is their mother and leads her ducklings to my heart
where they rest and live there days and nights
sadness fallows, and her family joins.
inner thoughts and emotions
hi hi its my birthdayyyyyy
until your stuck in the thoughts that couldn't be
why leave me?
I though I was your doll.
I though I was your happiness.
instead i'm trapped.
no where left to go.
what do I do with life now.
what do I do with no love,
but no one loves me like you do.
everyone lies to me but you speak the truth.
everyone hurts but you heal the deepest bruise.
everyone dislikes me, everyone but you.
everyone leaves, everyone but you.
so I'll hate, hurt, dislike, leave, and lie to anyone else.
anyone else but you.
and I'll love nobody else but you.
ment for a special someone
I already know you will.
I never wanted you to stay anyway.
I enjoy the sleepless nights and breathless days.
so just leave already.
before you stay and hurt me more making me care for you.
I'll just say to myself that I don't need you.
now I lay my head to sleep
and try to count the sheep
but in my mind I scream and fight
battles and wars keep me occupied
the truth hurts but at least its not a lie
you keep me from being free when you lie to me
you add another chain to the ground and keep me from spreading my wings
you cut my hope into pieces and let it die
you bruise my body and watch me cry
you leave me to die with every lie
why not free me from this world of lies with the truth
why chain me to this prison of dying hope and dying dreams
preventing me from souring free.
in a corner
under the bed
asking questions about the dead
how to brake something fix
and how to fix something broke.
in a corner
in a room
with nothing else left to do
wondering thought wounder away
when will the day be that you'll go away
when will that corner expand
to a new land far away
brake whats fixed
and fix whats broke
until that corner turns to another ghost
or what use to be.
He doesn't want you, he's got someone new
He doesn't love you, he loves someone new
He doesn't need you, he's has someone new
He doesn't want you.
But that doesn't mean no one else does
He doesn't want you but another will
He doesn't love you but another will
He doesn't need you but another will
He'll go away but another will stay
he doesn't deserve you anyway
for a person
who just wanted
I don't want to be trapped any longer
will I ever be freed from this cage?
will I fly with the heavenly skies?
or will I fall into the dark abyss that waits for me below?
emotions as still as cloud now turn into blades
cutting my wings making me plummet down
to the unwanted list of abandoned children
unable to be better
unable to breath
unable to see or hear
unable to fly once more
will another come to save us or will the blades cut their wings
the angeles are afraid to fall
and so they leave us, the children of abandonment to be stuck
on the unwanted list.
Unable to breath.
Drowning in thoughts, lies, and life itself.
Unable to escape.
I'm a victim of words
I'm a victim of hate
all theses lairs speak the same
telling me they love me
saying they'll stay
saying they'll never go away
I'm a victim of words
I'm a victim of hate
all theses lairs speak the same
telling me their love is different
telling me their love ain't the same
then playing me like a game
their words be playing with my mind
telling me all the time
one minute you love me the next you change
telling me you hate me
saying you don't want me
why don't you still want me
by my side
let me hold on to you tight
let love take us away
to a far away land away from all the pain
let me squeeze you tight and remind you that you are loved
let our heart beat to the same rhythm and our minds sing the same song
stay with me for moments longer
and I shall stay with you
because this feeling of love is all so new
but the pain that stays when you go away is all to friendly
all to familiar in its own kind of way
so please just stay
and don't go away
for you are just another prey
lives are lost and found all day
for the animals come out to play
like the sun into the night you where gone
like a bird taking flight you where gone
like the moon in the light you where gone
only because I didn't open the doors for you
because I refused to give you the key
because I was scared
scared you'd do this to me.
love fills the inside
in the fields of darkness where nightmares play
flowers grow there everyday
from darkness grows a light
brightly shining in the night
as if a star was born on the grown
flowers grow in town to town
something so filled with love and light
terns into the night
dark and hallow
you just stare at the stars waiting for one to shoot you a wish
you stare blankly at me no emotion
emptiness covers your eyes and mouth keeping you
unable to breath, unable to see, unable to speak
the saddest truth is you let it take control
you lost the battle because to you, there never was one
there was never a fight because you gave up in the vary beginning
and now you stare blankly into the night hoping one day a star will shoot you a wish
no star will come, no day will shine, no moon will glow for someone who couldn't even fight for it and now you sit blankly and stare hoping they will fight for you....
He belongs to me as I belong to him.
But we're not property to be owned nor are we a thing.
We're just two ordinary human beings.
He's just for me.
With him I truly feel free.
No thoughts of darkness from the far depths of my mind,
No thoughts of wondering when I'll be found but leaving it up to time,
Not knowing when life will end but thinking of how its begun,
Not surviving but living
What it dose to the mind and soul.
Wings grow out of our heart as we soar threw the skies of tomorrow.
How strange this feeling is.
How strangely my mind acts.
Weird how I could finally be myself and not hate me for it.
Thinking of love and now that he's gone darkness comes to play...
I'm scared he'll go away...
I can only hope he stays..
for now i'll just enjoy the time
that he'll be mine.
His name is Lj and I cant wait to see where life takes us next
cover her body from left to right
from top to bottom
bruises that name her
memories that make her
past lovers that attempted to brake her
bruises of life and love
wounds that cover her soul
scars show shes a fighter
eyes that tell her story
hands that hold her
legs that keep her up
a soul that flies with the angles
bruises cover her
they tell her story
and hold her battles
they make her stronger
with every pain that goes her way
she stands straight and strong with her bruises
as her trophy showing her beauty.
A single rose in a forest of lilies and daffodils
a single beauty in a world of ugly
afraid to show the world its beauty
looking for love in a world full of hate
closing doors in the way of fate
running away from pain
wearing reveling clothing so others love her
a single rose growing with the lilies and daffodils
hidden from the truth
that she is beautiful
pale turning pink
sadness and anger mix
heart rate goes back to normal
calmness showers down
if only I could hold you close
If only you would stay
If only time would obey
we fell in love
we where one
time brought us together...
and tour us apart
I just wish I had more time with you...
screams go still.
with a monster
who ate me whole
devoured me faster then light
just by saying 3 meaningless words
words no one said to me before
I feel in love with a monster
who wore such a good mask
he had such a great costume
I thought he was the one
but now I see he is.... he's the one that broke me.
I feel in love with a monster
all because he knew I was unloved
and he gave me the thing I wanted
and now...he gives me the thing I fear most
made this up in my mind while listening to a sad song
its "funny" to you that i'm broken
its "funny" how I cant sleep at night
with horrid thoughts running through my mind
its "funny" to see me brake more and more
its "funny" to you, how i'm slowly dying inside
its "funny"how its all for you
its "funny" how I broke my pieces to fill yours
its "funny" how i'm so dumb to not realize sooner that i'm just a filling.
For you to freely use.
its "funny" how you lied everyday as we breathed and lived
its "funny" how I trusted you
its "funny" how I loved you, so blinded
and now i'm laughing to the sound of my minds, heart, and soul break into two for someone like you.
funny not funny
he walks, never alone
for the darkness fallows
he sighs, as heavy has winds
he glances, with eyes darker then the soul
he laughs, as darkness spills
he speaks, lies swim in the ears of his listeners
he lives., slowly dying inside
he runs, trying to escape the darkness he let in
hes dead, he was never alive to begin with.
The light dims
And the shadows lurk
The sound of a braking limb
Echoes in the distance, in the endless hole of emptiness
The owner of the heart cries
But no one is to hear his sorrows
He is lost
He is forgotten
Yet he has not put himself in this aching pain
But she did
She used him until he was nothing
She threw him in this hole
Into this state of heart and mind
Into this feeling lost inside
Left to think
Left in the thought of
What did I do wrong?
Left with no one but himself.
He got use to this way of living for a while
Until she stepped in
She tried to bring a light
Tried to fix the broken
Foolish girl, he took you down with him
And the light leaves
His hole is filled with a replacement of hers
And now she walks around broken
Echoes bouncing on the walls of this hole
And now she's crying as he did and screams to the world
And he leaves her as another did to him.
And the never ending cycle continues.
I write of life
I find the keys to unlock the chains
holding me back hidden in the pain.
I write of hope.
A light in the darkness,
love in a world of hate.
I am me,
no mask to hide my truest self.
of lighter days and starry nights
and endless skies.
When you look up to the sky
and the stars they don´t shine
the sky it cries
and the world it lies
the people they take
until theirs nothing left to give away
people tare their pieces down
while others just frown
until their soul cant take the pain
the broken have nothing left to gain
the world is tough
and the road is rough
can you hear the endless words?
can you hear the endless screams?
do I even mean a thing?
was I just another shame?
was I another piece in your game?
am I just a walking corpse hallow as can be?
or am I alive ?
although I feel dead inside
under my pride
under my joy
was I just another toy?
in this game for two
I´m broken over you
don´t know why but I wrote this with my little sister, we´ve been through hell and back as I try to teach her how to let go of the pain inside. I write and now she dose too.
Do you see the sadness behind my smile
the hurt behind my love
the pain behind my laugh
the tears behind my eyes
the broken behind the fixed
my heart behind the flesh
the screams under the tongue
the fear under the bravery
do you see me...the real me
his name makes my heart flutter
talking to him makes me stutter
his cologne scent drives me crazy
with him my thoughts get hazy
is this love?
do you see any doves?
then reality hits
and me and him do not fit
were to different
to worlds never to be touched
to souls never to love
but for now... reality is gone
and me thinking of you isn't so wrong
for now let me dream
and imagine us together, the perfect team
his name makes me smile uncontrollably
his name makes me laugh
his name makes me blush
but his name... is just another name...
to you I give a rose.
for a wish
that you will be mine
for it is you I pick.
A rose for a rose.
A love for
stabs deeper then knives
clear but solid
breakable like flesh
painful like life
blood stains like the sunset
ripped jeans like a clawed leg
rush of Adrenalin real like addictions
deep inside my right leg
glass left it behind
a hole like wound
smiles and laughter
(inside) (and out)
| O | | O |
(feeling) (as if the)
(world is mine )
\emptiness now gone/
\and a joy fills/
funny faces all day
making you want to fly away as joy hold you hands and sets you free growing wings of happiness soaring through the sky of life.
Honestly I was hanging out with some friends and family and we all made funny faces and this happened due to my boredom the next day :)
"I love you"
why'd you lie to me
I know a someone
who's special to me
I know a someone as happy as can be
I know a someone that's brighter then the sun
I know a someone who's in love with another
I know a someone who was played like a game
by the someone that he
I know a someone that owns a broken heart
Someone that deserves much better
Someone that deserves a queen
Someone that deserves happiness
I know a someone who's like a cloud full of rain
I know a someone who has a battle with their brain
I know a someone who's the owner
of a broken heart I know
my heart is filled with bliss
even though it was just a kiss
love found me in a dark place
took me out of the thought of life being a waist
and now I see you
and the dark place has yet returned
just filled with emptiness this feeling isn't stern
now love has left and bliss
and that kiss
I guess I walked in on the wrong time
to catch you with another, I feel like a ticking mine
waiting for another step to blow up
waiting for you to brake like a glass cup
I thought life was simple
I thought lots of things
and now I think not
but feel this empty shell rot
I am like a crab, a shell that holds nothing special
I am hallow but still
all filled with the no-pain pill
I am lost
a soul with no cost
and when this empty shell brakes
the sky will shake
it'll rain and my soul will be freed
from this world full of greed
your heart lets out a beat that no one can resist moving to
your smile, your laugh all part of this song
you are my song
sung just for me you say?
until what was thought to be my song went the other way
token away by another
you where my favorite song you said to me
but now i'm just another collected song in an empty album full of empty others
I was you song
you where my song
and now my song plays a different tune
plays a different beat
a song no longer mines but another
I thought I was your song
and now I know I was just for fun
I was never your favorite song
I was just one to keep you entertain like the others
and to think you where my song...
the lies you tell me hurt.
the lies in your eyes ace.
the lies in your heart burn.
if only you loved me enough to not lie.
if only you weren't the lair I never thought you'd be.
lies. lies. lies.
why all the lies.
they hurt and ace and burn.
I never knew words could **** until I died by the ones you told.
I hate lies.
if only you knew my love.
For as a shooting star shines
I pray one day you will be called mine.
Its as if you make the sun glisten in your name
yet you play me like a game.
I know you cannot see your world in my eyes
neither can you hear the sadness in my sighs.
If only I could understand and control my teenage heart
but you play such a good part
in this play called life
I know you lie when you say I will one day be your wife.
If only you knew all the things I never told you.
If only you knew.
sorry for not making a poem sooner but my time was occupied here's one from my world of thoughts. Thank you for reading.
If I could tell the whole world that it is beautiful then I would.
If I could tell every last person that they are beautiful then I would.
But unfortunately I can't....
But I can try...
I can start.
You are beautiful and I mean that
with every bone in my body,
with every ace in my soul,
with every fiber of my being
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL!!!
Hello, My name is Emily and today I would like to let everyone know:
You are beautiful!