I love you so
I miss you so
I need you so

loving you
is so moving
missing you
is so painful
needing you
is so hard

you are
my best dream
you are
my worst nightmare
you are
all my wishes and fears

I can bear it
I must  bear it
you are
the blood in my veins
you are
the oxygen in my lungs

everything
in me is you
every tear
every smile
every sigh
is for you

my broken heart
is waiting for you
my mind
remind me you’re gone
each part of me
is fighting to survive

so please
let me save
let me breathe
let me live
hold me in your arms
love me

a whitening smile
offers me
a mirage
dignity
pride
respect
love
but
all  I can buy
is
a  secondhand love

every morning
I wake up
and realise
you aren’t there
every evening
I fall asleep
proud of me
because I survived
another day
without you

a light

in the dark

my name
a whisper
sweet and warm
just to hear
its  melody
you told
and fill the air
of you

your name
a whisper
sad and painful
just to hear
its melody
a memory
to fill the void
you left

young  emotion
enclosed
in an inexperienced heart
enclosed
in a tired heart
with a  heartbeat
forever young
as a bud
forgot
hidden
in
a withered
fruit

too much selfish
too much altruism
too much hate
too much love
too much hope
too much disillusionment
too many expectations
too much erudition
too much ignorance
too little respect
too little condescension

too much  selfish
leads to indifference
too much altruism
leads to cancellation of himself
too much hate
leads to war
too much love
leads to obsession
too much hope
leads to utopia
too much disillusionment
leads to resignation
too many expectations
lead to frustration
too much erudition
leads to the illusion of omnipotence
too much ignorance
leads to  unconsciousness
too little respect
leads to arrogance
too little compliance
leads to loneliness

what is the right way?
an excessive too much?
an apathetic enough?

maybe
diversities
of our lives
of our lies
of our perceptions of truth
of our perceptions of justice
maybe
our too much
or too little
or enough
are the aequilibrium
of our world?

maybe
the anachronistic belief
of  the different awareness
perceived as a resource
not as the tendency
of standardize everything
in a fake flat same
would finally
lead
to peace

a clean sheet
for a longtime
immaculate
empty
like me
like my soul
like my mind
no thoughts
soft shadows
impalpable
slivers of me
invisible
matched  letters
in a forgotten language

as a generic medicine
exposed in a drugstore
no one knows your name
they take you
because you have a low cost

a blanket of clouds hides the sky
as a lowered curtain
heavy and impenetrable
is darkening  light fiction
is creating the expectation
of emotional fulfilment

the patter of  the rain on the windows
harmonious fusion
of subtle perceptions
a gentle heartbeat
shy and discreet
which  directs the rhythm of our breath

sober melody
no shock
no flash
no thunderclap
a rarefied atmosphere
that transports us to an unknown elsewhere

slowly  no hurry
it falls falls
its slow pace
persistent and fearless
reaches the beloved land
and gives life

everything is right ?
yes..sure!
but no! Not at all !
all is a mess .
I feel sick .
but no one notices it ....
or maybe it's easier pretending  not to see.
it’s easier fixing  
the sparkling smile ..  the white teeth ..   the shrill voice ...
it's easier not  staring  at my eyes ...
those eyes that doesn’t smile .. no longer.
it’s easier not to go beyond the appearance .
it’s easier to believe to a  ..”yes..sure”

i waited
i dreamed
i found you
the boy you were
the man you are
today and ever
i love you

and yet
I need you
a leaf a flower the wind
bring me back to you
you appear
you rise in my mind
suddenly
inevitably
unavoidably

and yet
the sun has risen and set
the flowers have faded and blossomed
without our voices
could recognize themselves
without our eyes
could fascinate themselves
symbiotically
united in another place

and yet
you were there
you are there
you'll be there
our lines confused and indivisible
oblivion
hopeless fight against myself
it is a perpetual magic
transposition of reality

and yet
I wait
I wait for you
in our secret garden
where only you can go in
just you have the key
where
silently
I love you

and
you’re waiting
for someone
who doesn’t arrive
and
you’re seeking
his smile
his eyes
in everyone  is coming  to you
and
minute by minute
your smile
passes away
and
at that very moment
you feel
deeply lonely
in a smiley crowd

sometimes
I accept
sometimes
I don’t mind
sometimes
I cry in silence
sometimes
I endure
sometimes
I pretend to be right
no longer
stop!
it’s the time
I want to be
I want  live my life
completely
I want to be happy
it’s the time
it’s my time

I’m water
I’m wind
I’m light
I’m color
I was imperceptible dust
I was static black in the black
I’m on top of the world
I smile

I feel you
I smell your scent
I feel your breath
I feel your whisper
I feel your absence
you're gone
but I feel you
forever and ever

I’m alone
in the dark
darkness envelops me
I’m screaming
no one answers
no voice calls me
no hand takes me
darkness
scares me
... I succumb

an oasis of peace
fresh water
the sun in the clear sky
my soul
drowns in this peace
storms and waterfalls
nothing can shake
my motionless eyes
long hair
that the wind can’t dent
my lying limbs
in a deadly calm
of frosty beats
here !
a thrill
a blink of an eye
the breeze shakes my hair
fresh water
the sun in the clear sky
heat intoxicates me
storms and waterfalls
everything vibrates
under my eyes
my soul...
at last, lives!

I stare at the sea
calm quiet gray
warn its apparent calm
its whisper
invades my mind
I perceive its smell
intoxicant

I feel the sea
I know the black
of its abyss
the fury of its wrath
the cry of its anger
I see the myriad colors of its soul
it slips inside me

I listen to the sea
it confides its mute secrets
to those who can feel it
ubiquitously divided
between the shadow and the light
empathetically
connected with the depth
and the surface

I envy the sea
strong decided transparent
selfishly
stretched himself
to its pleasure
Pied Piper
tormentor and muse
greedy and shameless

I stare at the sea
personification of life
illusive chimera
of fullness
unattainable
..... unattainable!

motionless
cold
suspended
staying afloat in the fog
seeking drops of light

stop
close your eyes
breathe .
breathe .
the world is still spinning
the sky is still above you
breathe .
breathe .
your heart is still  beating
the blood is still flowing in your veins
stop
open your eyes
breathe .
breathe !
scent of violets
a ray of sunshine through the clouds
breathe .
breathe !
smile
run to meet life !

why is it so hard to love me ?
why am i never up to ?
why do i  feel so silly ?
boring
stupid
complicated
empty
sensible
weary
old woman
lonely
.... lonely

why is it so hard to love me ?
I have so much love to give
a hungry puppy looking for love
trivial
predictable
invisible
annoying
misunderstood
disillu­sioned
disappointed
lonely
.... lonely

I believed you
you told me
I love you
you told me
I'll always be by your side
you told me
you're the most important thing
you told me
I'llsupport you
you told me
I'll protect you'

I believed you
I found myself alone
I waited for you see me
I fell on the ground
I felt weak and defenseless
I thought ... he loves me

I learned to walk alone
I learned to get up by myself
I learned to defend me by myself
I learned to be strong

you realized
I was standing in front of you
without you
you told me
.... do you love me?

love to be loved
feel to be felt
see to be seen
live to be lived

I love you
I feel you
I see you
I live you

I’m falling
there is no horizon
there is no bottom
there is no light
my eyes shine
shrouded in darkness
I’m falling
my silent cry
faces
eyes
far
I’m falling
darkness surrounds me
my eyes are closing
silence
deafening noise
of my mute  scream

love is you on my soul
love is the pain I feel
seeing your back
moves away
knowing
I won’t stare at your eyes
no longer

a man
veiled on red
a red rose
hidden by brambles
fragments of color
lost

I have many things to say
words to the wind
that no one
can hear
they’re only
sounds syllables letters
connected
without an order
confusion
madness
solitude
I’m an island
without landing
a boat without oars
...
I stare the horizon
and I wait

vagabond
i'm looking for
the sense

into the murky water
I seek the color
the whole being

I thought
to be safe
I thougth
to be  safe
from the darkness
I thougth
to be safe
from you
but....
it was a lie
now ...
as before
as after
I know
I can't
it was only a dream
to be free ...
just a song
in the air
and I'm falling
again and again
a so good song
it was our song
I loved it
but you were mine
I hate it
because you aren' t mine
no longer
I hate you
because I love you

a buzz
the only sound in the dark
ah !
disappointment disappointed !
never butterfly
flew higher

I 'd like to be a  butterfly
fly
enjoy freedom
enjoy sun
enjoy warmth
following
faint
which closed in my cocoon
I dreamed
and imagined
I'd like to be a  butterfly
see colors
and live
intensely
carefree
I'd like to be a butterfly
just a moment
few hours of happiness
and life

how can I survive?
after that
after you
I'm so angry
you abandon me
you leave me alone
why?
I weren't ready
not yet
I feel guilty
I know it's not your fault
but
I'm so sad
I'm so lonely
I don't know how going on
and you aren't with me
to teach it
no longer
who 'll dry my tears?
who'll lull me?
who'll listen to my doubts?
who'll calm my fears?
I need you
I miss you
there's a dark hole in my heart
you told me
be strong
I'll try
you told me
be happy
I'll try
you told me
don't forget I love you
I don't
I love you
I'll always do
I hope
that one day
I'll be hold in your arms
again
mum...

live
dare
run
sing
smile
cry 
follow your dreams
neverd  give up
fight
because in a flash
everything can change
and all your world
will stop turning

I stare your eyes
and I see love
I touch your skin
and I feel your warmth
I smell you
and I imagine a forest after the rain
I listen to your voice calling  my name
and I hear a symphony
I watch you
and I see my destiny

sadness
is my life
every morning I open my eyes
and I know
sadness
is my reality
everything is grey
no colors
no music
no words
sadness
is my life

I'm scared
I lost you
It can't be real
I'm scared
you won't fight for me
I'm scared
I won't be live anymore
I'm scared
I won't be able to see your eyes anymore
I'm scared
I won't able to kiss your lips anymore
I'm scared
I won't be able to touch your skin
I'm scared
I'll never feel something like this
I'm scared
I 'll never feel your warmth
hold in your arms
I'm scared
I know
my life without you
will be an eternal fight
to breath

the same past
the same colors
the same principles
the same qualities ...
but this was true until yesterday
today two parallel roads
we quarreled .. do you remember?
always seeking  each other
consolation
of my overnight  anxieties
warm embrace of my tears ..
you
because of my tears !
puppies like cats and dogs ...
a real pain ..
but always present
the one for the other !
this is true even now ...
so close ...
but so far ..
I miss you ...
but life is this ...
changes and different  roads ...
but the heart doesn’t change ...
love doesn’t change ...
we are brothers ..
this doesn’t change !

they appear
and immediately
capture all the attention
lighting up the darkness
brighten up the night
move vivid ancient dances ...
unconsciously enchanting
small and majestic
naive  and strong
like fireflies
you’d put  them in a glass case
possession and protection
... but in a flash ...
they’d fall off
like fireflies
fullness and life ...
a flutter
a jolt that shakes the soul
like fireflies ….
appear and leave you speechless
intimate awareness of being alive ...
fullness and life ...
a flutter
a jolt that shakes the soul
sons …
passing…
consuming happiness…

two bodies
merged into one
two souls
intertwined
one drop
after the other
I drink
thirsty of your essence ..
the fire raging
the immortal flame ..
heated lava
burns our souls ..
we are aware thieves
of passing emotions
lost and found
.. the timeless hour
not the time
not the distance
not the wind
evanescent reality

there’s someone in the shadows
I don’t know his name
I don’t know his face
I know his strengths
I know his bravery
I know his unselfishness
he hides the horror
he calms my fears
I smile ... I sing … I game ..
while he fights for me
he takes care of me
he gives up everything for me
he doesn’t sleep
he crawls in darkness
he suffers
he dies !
he is alone ....
he can’t have a family
pain, fear, absence,
he can’t
he does it for me
je does it for love
to allow me to be happy
to make me feel safe
He doesn’t know my name
He doesn’t know my face
but he takes care of me
... I know you
I know who you are....
... just a hero
my hero

a woman smiles
while walking alone
dragging her suitcase
she's happy
soon she'll meet her daughter;
a little girl
a red flower
in her hands
a surprise for mom ;
a man is working
the back hurts
but he resists .... soon he'll return home
his wife is waiting for him for lunch ;
two children crying
dad scolded them ;
one man talking on the phone
he'll sign an important agreement;
people
thoughts
smiles
hopes
life
...
a roar
a glow
a bomb !
everything stops
tears
fear
smoke
the ceiling on the floor
a flower on the ground
red into gray
a little ******* the ground
her mom will not come;
a wife at home
her husband will not be back for lunch;
...
a bomb
a flash
and it's all over
hope dies
buried by hatred
...
a red petal
and everything can start again

on your shoulders
the experience
on your face
your story
in your eyes
your life
in your heart
the bitterness
on my shoulders
your tears
on my face
the comprehension
in my eyes
memories
in my heart
our friendship
you and I
friends forever
now and always
you and I
your strength
which I well know
it ‘s still here
it expect
it  never abandoned you
the life
a beautiful life
to live again
and I with you
close to you
my friend!

strawberry juice
vanilla and salt
fragrance of the must
smell of rain
a frozen lake
a shooting star
music and poetry
red and black
a patch of moonlit
the stormy sea
a hot bath
a fire on the beach
and more and more  ....
I feel
in your mouth
on your lips
when hold in your arms
you kiss me
and your eyes are still clinging to mine
your kisses...
my breath !

the moon in your eyes
the stars in your heart
your red lips open in a drunk smile 
in a trepidatious waiting
for a dawn that you still  didn’t see
for a sunset that you still didn’t  live
you're waiting
that the sun will warm you
that the sea will lull you    
you're waiting
crossed by a subtle pleasure ..
an excited fear .. 
that everything vanishes
as in a dream upon awakening
but the dawn
the sunset
the heat
the sea
so yearned for ..
worthless now !
finally
you feel
slipping on your rainbow
a kaleidoscopic emotion
while your eyes stars at his
both closed in a bubble

in dead silence
a blow
a breath
slow
a drop of blood...
red
wraps the darkness
cold heat...
it's lost
...all is lost !

born, grow , learn ...
fall ..
get up ...
don’t  understand ..
trust !!
you
water in my desert
light in my darkness ,
hope in may desperation ,
you
peace and serenity
you
my absolute certainty
you
love
you
always with me
you
my life

all your life
you expected something
you walked
you fell
you raised
your mind turned
on an invisible horizon
a worthless trepidatious
waiting
neglected
disappointed
aged
waiting
that silently moves away
a cold face
like the flickering flame
of a consumed candle
hot wax
that trickles
in cold tears
motionless

two souls
two worlds
two parallel lines
....
single thread