The shadows played in the glow..
They were a little hard to see you know..
Waiting for the twilight tide..
Casting their way home..

On sunset dreams..
The night shades gleam..
Part of the twilight tide now..
And forgotten light beams..

The sunrise twilight..
The dark before the dawn sight..
Twilight fades to the morning sun..
Shadow ocean tide subsides until the night..

that shadow within lurks on all corners of the room.. i look up toward the window as it tries to make me look in.. it tells me it's fine.. don't worry.. its just a view nothing more.. i ask myself if the view will turn into something more.. will it start to consume me.. i think it would..

that shadow within lurks on all corners of the mind.. it has created a nest there where other shadows are being fed your sins.. they grow fat with each sin and sinful thought.. one day i do think it will consume me.. until then i will try and fight.. even in absolute light there is always a shadow.. for even the heart beats in bleach black darkness..

I paint for you..
Everything in my soul..
But i suppose i didnt use enough colors
For you to notice at all..

i lost my colors to fate..
i lost my colors to sin..
they faded away in one day..
it was as if i lost hope..
lost belief..

this was a feeling like no other..
a sort of sad gray that washes everything away..
a sea of shades..
sad shades and shadows..
to lose belief..

but all at once it can be remembered..
the colors in this plain of gray..
a song heard from the memory of me..
played by you under the gray sun..
i can feel the tones paint me..

its like a chill..
that travels in waves across the body..
where every cell remembers the feeling..
that true feeling of belief..
because you have always done that for me..
you have always believed in me..

Once again a storm was coming in from the west..
I of course waited outside..
Its been almost a year since a good storm has come through..
And there the lightning shares with me the Hidden Giant..
My HEART was pumping as this one seem to be the most beautiful of them all..
His eyes lit with a deep blue..
Again he walked toward me..
But this time he stopped right in front of me..
He looked to me as his entire body lit up with a galaxy of colors..
I then heard the thunder speak to me..
I then heard the thunder speak to my soul..
I then heard the thunder say " I HAVE FOUND YOU MASTER!"

The doors opened slowly..
There was a darkness inside..
Eden 157 then lit up the cargo bay..
Still nothing..
The army then sent in a sentry bot to examine Eden 157..
As the sentry bot rolled up the ramp it stopped and started to scan the air..
The sentry bot then finished and started to return..
They played back what the sentry bot was analyzing..
Then it appeared to us..
The colors of this being were everchaning..
It walked on down the ramp and looked to the sky..
It seem to smile, it seem happy..
It then started to stare down at the ground..
It gathered some dirt in its hand and seem to smell it..
As it smelled the dirt many colors started to fluctuate inside it..
It the put both its hands down into the ground..
And again the colors within it seem to go wild..
It seem to be in sort of a scan mode..
As if it was doing a systems check on the Earth itself..

The celler door lead into the attic. If that makes sense.

Down these roads I go..
Part of my heaven I suppose..
To destination no where..
Forever on these roads to elsewhere..
Ill stop here and there..
And meet people everywhere..
Small towns for my dreams to remember..
When I sleep without surrender..
Away from the sun I drive..
And into the night I dive..
Under stars that remember me..
With music to keep me company...

And where were you lost...  
( It was the point where I went to far ahead..)
And where were you found..
( It was the point where I found you..)
So may strangers stare at my heaven..
( Not enough people I know..)
Underneath the waters where I drowned..
( Could ever guide me home..)
So I choose the direction toward the dark corners..
( I walk into the waters in the dark..)
And lose my footing yet again..
( What is up and what is down..)
Falling through free darkness..
(Panic assures me no right direction)
I finally see where light begins..
(I will swim till I drown)
Both of us are trapped here
(Both of us are trapped here)

I finally made it..  It was everything I thought it to be..  
I take a deep breath..  And I close my eyes..
I have known that I can never die for the past Four million years..
The lore is nearly the same on the thousands of Planets I have visited..
Heaven..  La s a..  Torense..  Sererere..  All meaning the same..
But to get there you have to ascend through death..
Death is the gateway for the soul to enter..
But I cannot die..
But I discovered through all the lore I have studied that Heaven does exist in the universe..
It is a plain that is nearly impossible to reach..
I discovered that there is indeed a door, a portal, a rip in the light that I can pass through and start my journey..
To find such a place is to go back to where I was born..
So I venture back to Earth..
The red planet..
Once had oceans as far as the eye could see..
And the light door opens..
I have found Heavens coordinates..
I am in route..

Deeper and deeper I go.. Into my mind I see the machines trying to know what life is..  I go deeper and see Dragons flying among the stars..  I go deeper and see Stardivers trying to save the universe..  I go deeper and see myself riding a lightcycle through the Tao nebula...  I go deeper and see a shadow plain full of dark life that is being visited by creatures made of light..   I go deeper and see a God teach their young how to build a galaxy.. I go deeper and see a cloud of all colors emit lightning bolts of all colors in the night sky..  I go deeper and discover all this is happening just inside my mind..  I can only imagine what is beyond that my mind has not yet thought of..  And when I do think it, will it be true somewhere somehow? Its as if all of our wishes never do happen here.. But they do happen elsewhere..  My thoughts have creation.. Thus a wish must have some form of energy in and of itself..   I then find out that I have not gone deep at all.. This is the shallow part of my thought ocean..  And I can't wait to venture deeper!

On calm sunsets under the tree..
The sun speckles dim..
And turns into glow..
Replaced by moonlit kisses..
That find their way to my eyes..
I dream of you..
While I am awake..
The night tide comes in..
And I am caught in its undertow..
I flow away into true dream..
Where day and night or one..
The never to be mixture..
Under the tree looking up..
Both moon and sun kiss my eyes..
The night and day fusion create new colors..
A jumble of rays and lights never seen before..
This interlace of cosmic reverie delight..
Was the color of my thoughts...

Another warm campfire..
I lay again on my back and watch the smoke mix in with the fog..
Under dead trees I think of this endless journey I have been on..
The smoke and fog have a beautiful mixture to it..
Like a ghost that does not know he is a ghost..
I sometimes wonder if I am just that..
Maybe I died long ago and just wander this hell..
Not to far off I notice an owl in the dead tree alone..
He or she flies off into the fog..
To them the world is the same..
Nothing has really changed..
I dream that night under the smoke and fog..
I dream that this dead forest is alive again..
The trees are filled with white owls..
They all look to me and fly off..
As they take flight they turn into the fog..
I also see smoke..
Its coming from the piles of people that are dead..
I see myself in the pile on top..

Astra memories play forth in my head.
Star showers create endless wishes.
Plasmoid cycle their cosmic colors.
Seraphic tones turn into ethereal melodies.

Celestial trails in the dark wilderness.
Empyrean trees drop their light leaves.
Transcendental visuals of the night heavens.
Diaphanous veils of tranquilly allow my eyes to see.

Sheer emotion alloy.
Paradisiacal vessel of the expanding universe.
Expedition of endless wonder.
Fathomless destinations to reach.

All the light around me almost seem to fade slowly away.  It was then I saw where it went.   The new light God harnessed almost all of it and turned it into a weapon.  Rings upon rings of pale light danced around him.  Within the rings where stars upon stars.  He hurled the rings toward me as they moved faster than light themselves.  I tried to flee but the rings were attracted to my armor that had absorbed much of his spiteful light.  I then released the energy and directed it toward the chasing rings.  The rings shattered leaving behind white holes.  The white wholes siphoned up all the left over shattered light fragments and fed it back to the revenge thirsty light God.   He was now in route toward me.  He had 1000 suns spinning around him.  My armor was depleted of all his darkness eating light.  I advanced toward him.  Let the battle begin!   S DIVERS

I awoke from my dragon dreams to a scent of some creature coming from above. Whatever it was it was hunting me. The ogres finally got smart and I suppose sent something worse to find out what happen to their ogre companions.. I was hidden well within the deep river bank and also noticed that when I looked at my reflection in the water I was now a deep ocean blue color. It would make sense after the huge feast I had the night before. I must have other powers now but could not experiment becuase I had fallen into a deep slumber.

My dragon ears picked up the sound of thunderous wings cutting and using the air for flight. The huge creature landed right above the river bank where I hid below.. If it were to look directly down it would see me.. I then looked to the water and saw its reflection.. It was a creature known as a Wyvern. This I know from being connected with the young boy I saved.. This was one of his fears and memories. As I looked at its reflection it also saw me..

The wyvern roared and hissed at me.. Its eyes and mouth begin to glow green as it vaccumed up air.. It let forth a green ball of energy directed at me.. I quickly leaped from the river and begin to sprint as fast as I could along the river.. I then heard it take flight and give chase to me. I knew I would have to make a stand!

I then stopped and turned around suddenly into my battle stance.. The wyvern landed right in front of me and took the same stance.. It roared once again louder then before striking for but a moment fear in my dragon heart.. I then returned a roar so loud it seem to phase the wyvern! ( Dragon voice: Sonic serpent roar, Acoustic and sonic emitting waves that can confuse an enemy..) Of course! All the ogres I had consumed must have had some kind of effect on my growing powers.. I then let out a second louder roar!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!! The wyvern begin going crazy and blasting energy orbs at random targets.. I took my chance and sprinted toward the wyven avoding the wild blast as I bit down into the wyvern's neck tearing it off completly!!!! I threw the wyvern head into the river and roared to the skies above!

On the day I left it was 10 am Oct 2nd 2089..
I have been gone for 2 years now..
I have been on the crimson planet Mars for 8 months
I know they are going to ask, " So what was the best part of your mission."
Mars was quite amazing! I can say that I succeeded in growing plant life there and that the Earth domes worked like they were suppose to.. When the next crew gets here they will see patches of green upon green as the plant life will start to flourish.. And then the oceans will return in the next 200 years.. The strange new atmosphere of mars also sustains life in such a way that one could live for 400 years.. Its as if this planet was meant for the red blooded human race.. But although that was amazing in and of itself the best part of my mission was seeing the Earth again up close.. And then touchdown back home.. Walking out heavy toward my beautiful wife! Space is huge and full of wonder.. But there is no star that shines quite like her eyes.. A deep fiery brown that the sun is jealous of.. And then finally to hold her in my arms and smell her hair.. I smell her hair with my eyes close and find that she is my best mission ever!

I wait and wait for a storm!
I watch and watch the news!
And a month later finally one is on the horizon.
I await the storm and the winds the bring me the aroma of atmosphere..
In the distance the lightning dances..
In the distance the Hidden giant walks..
No longer sad..
Just searching..
In the distance his eyes light up and look to me..
He then looks to the west..
The lightning flashes creating a false blue sun!
He then walks right on over me..
I am in awe once again as I watch him leave..
Thunder chase steps..

The storm with no sound..
Had lightning and soundless thunder..
Winds swayed the grasses and trees..
Silent rain fell and gathered and ran off..
For the moment I cannot hear..
But I can still feel..
I can still smell..
All at once with my remaining senses..
I see this beautiful chaos unfold before me..

That late evening drive was just what I needed.  With music to keep me company and help clear my thoughts.  The setting sun created oranges and purples for my eyes to make love to.   I would pass over rivers that looked like mirrors that looked like false skies flowing below me.  I drove and I drove. To no where. To everywhere.

Our little town had gained national attention. It was all over every news paper in America.  It was then the hunters had arrived.  
Our father also wanted to help out with the hunting. My brother and I were not comfortable letting our Dad go without the silver bullet.
So we gave him the .45 caliber silver bullet for his gun.  Our dad smiled at us and asked when we had it made.  " Did old man Jonny make this for you!? "
"Yes dad! Its for the ware wolf!  Its the only thing that can **** it!"  He then looked at the bullet and saw our initials. " Johnny does fine work."
He smiled at us and took one of the bullets out of the chamber and replaced it with the silver bullet. "I'll be fine.  Its most likely a bear that's all.
"Good night kids, don't stay up to late, I'll be back soon.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=daOIhVvG_M8

Blackness, shadow of the world, eternal sonata sung by the demons of the cold suffering lost souls forever riding this nightmare.. Singularity of infinite sin, true black abyss, pulling down all angels from the heavens.. there is but a splinter of light left in this world..

And on this day he runs from the demons, on this day he runs to the light, a small hole in the black smoke filled sky.. There The day exist as a small beam of sunlight that shines on through this black breath of the grand demon sitting atop the mountain of sin, sitting atop a shrine created by sin.. he spews out his hate and black cloud breath creating the forever night..

the pillar of light shines down on this final day, he ran for it as fast as he could.. but he was weak, he was dying, he could not make it as he fell to his knees.. he crawled toward the light miles away, he begin to pray to the angels in the abyss, he begin to hope, he was now on his stomach scrapping across the land toward a fading light miles away..

the demons have caught his scent, the scent of the final man left on earth, this will be the final slaying of mankind, earth will become hell..

he remembers his daughters smile, he remembers his sons strength, he remembers his loves warmth, and he is now on his feet.. he grasp the bracelet his daughter gave him, he calls to his dead son for strength, he feels his wife's love warm him one last time.. the demons fall upon him!

his daughters bracelet lets forth a light that shuns the demons above the black smoke into the sun burning them to a heavenly oblivion! more and more demons give chase.. he cannot outrun them.. he then hears his sons voice shout forward! a white horse with blue flames gallops past the demons lifting the last man as they gallop faster than darkness leaving behind a blue fire that burns all chasing demons away.. at last the fading final day, the fading pillar of hope is reached!

The grand demon stands before them! The final man stands in the light, under the final day of mankind.. He feels the light hold him, he feels his wife's arms around him, he holds her for the last time.. The grand demon roars and begins toward the last man.. all prayers ever said, all the hope ever felt, shined within that light. the last man stands before the grand demon in the form of the HOLY DRAGON.

The HOLY DRAGON looks upon the darkness with his blue holy eyes.. The grand demon is in awe at what he is seeing.. The holy dragon takes flight above the black clouds.. With his thunderous wings he fans away the blackness letting the sun in once again.. The HOLY DRAGON then dives toward the grand demon spewing white fire of creation!! The demon tries and fights back only to be torn asunder by the HOLY DRAGONS silver teeth! Thus begins the age of the dragons once again

The cloud.. Toward the end of all my dreams I could see this lone cloud in the sky.. But it was no ordinary cloud.. This cloud was full of colors.. Almost as if a child painted it in the sky.. So beautiful it was.. Bolts of lightning emittied from it.. Each bolt was also a different color also.. This was a beautiful serenity to me, a sort of beauty I could return to.. When My dreams became nightmares I could look to the sky for this cloud and know that everything will be ok.. In the night sky this colorfilled cloud would light up the sky like the silver pale moon.. This aura of colors is my dream-peace.. A creation from my mind to my soul.. That everything is going to be ok.. Just look to the sky..

I found the shadows living with the ghost..  This is what I was meant to see..  This is how I can make you remember me..
I found the sun becoming the son..  This is my way of letting go.. This is how I can truly know..
I found the river becoming the ocean..  This is where it belongs..  This is how I sing this song..
I found you loving me again..  This is what it means to end..  This is how I forever begin...

Through death..  Afterwards, Aftermath, The glow among the darkness.. The signature used between us was an emotion we never quite understood but used anyhow to the fullest of our comprehension..  I loved you! That is how I am able to find you in this infinite space and time.. Our love is like a beacon to each other, like magnets of hope that are pulling toward each other..  Although I am dead this new infinite form I have ascended to is made of our love.. And then we finally find each other.. We hold each other at the center of darkness..  We become light...  We become a star...  The light we give off warms a nearby planet.. We are the light of life, the giver of shine.. We are the day and night there.. In this new forever created by love..

I look at one of these machines today and it sends chills down my body..
I can remember being lost.. I just wondered off as a kid chasing butterflies and fireflies in the deep woods of Alaska..
I was gone for days.. I was parched and so hungry.. My little body could not muster enough strength to scream for help anymore..

I could see and hear animals about.. I was to young to realise that the animals wanted me to eat.. They were just waiting for me to die..

It wasn't until the night came on the 4th day.. My parents called Shineday inc and requested a (Recovery unit) ST-anthony be flown in..

I was falling asleep under some brush and trees.. Not really falling asleep more like crying to sleep.. The I saw these blue eyes glowing over me.. The robot moved the brush very gently and picked me up.. I can remember him being so warm as he held me.. His steps were very silent.. We then stopped and he gave me a small metal box with my drawings on it.. It made me smile! I opened it and there were some pop tarts and water in it.. I ate them up!!! He then took me back to the cabin where my mom ran screaming to me! Even my dad was crying! He went to the (Recovery unit) ST-anthony and thank him over and over..

I am looking at one of these machines now.. I wonder if it was the one who found me that night..

This was a failed experiment on a grand scale indeed.  I was the creator of a new machine that could repair itself and live forever.  But something went wrong.  Something I did not foresee.   I made two versions of such a machine, version x and version y.  They were everything I had hoped for!  Strong and intelligent.  They could adapt to any circumstance.  But the machines I had built seem to not want to work for us anymore.  In a very cleaver way they managed to build a vessel in secret and leave the planet.   It was then one million years later we found where they had went.  A small little planet in the milky way system called Earth.  They went there to die but yet live forever.  The oxygen on this planet is poisonous which their bodies could only sustain for 75 to 110 years.  They had gathered lore on a place known as heaven.   A place beyond our universe.  The only way through is to expire or die. This is what they wanted us to think.   They had managed to replicate themselves into 6 billion different versions.  Their true intent was more sinister than expected.   They were planning on returning with their grand army of themselves and destroying us all.   Their vessel is deep in an ocean known as the Atlantic.  They are still there.  Molding their replications and prepping them for an invasion that would have happened in the next 3000 years.  CODE ADAM AND EVE aka (Version x and Version y )must be stopped.

understand i had to reach into such darkness to vanquish such light and shine of the false angels above this beautiful rapture..

understand i had to call forth a shadow darker then the blackness the stars roll on..

understand i called forth the 2nd shadow, the shadow of a shadow..

it comes from ponds that reflect stars, its cast from false light and false shine..

today under the old sun i perform a requiem for my shadows 2nd shadow..

i am the vocals and my shadow is the violinist.. i sing and he commands the music forth..

we sing to the fallen darkness that made true light shine on through..
we have a requiem for a 2nd shadow..

goodbye my brother of the shade.....................................

All along I was the one being followed!
I awake in my own basement in my own home.
I could hear music but cannot quite make out what the song is.  
I am tied to a chair in the same manner I tie my prizes up.
The next sound I hear is my thumping heart.
And then I hear foot steps coming down the stairs.
Lots and lots of footsteps.
She then walks up to me.
The girl underneath the lone tree in the city.
Followed by all the others I have kidnapped in the last 3 years.
They all stand in front of me.
All of them crying except for her.
The silence comes forth.
I can hear their heavy breathing and my heartbeat make a terrifying song....

Empty shadows sing me songs..

I try and don't try all at once.

I'm a diamond with no luster.

A light to dim to see.

No shine just glow.

Always have been.

Beautiful on the inside.

For no one to see.

To all of you and your families! !!

Here I am again..  This place is always ending.. I never really get to meet or talk to anyone here..  The moon has left for another.. This planet is leaving also..  There is no sound only music.  This chaos use to scare me to no end when I was a kid..  But now I see a beauty in the end itself..  I suppose this dream is trying to tell me something..  That it is alright for things to end..  Many of the people here are not crying or screaming in fear.. They are leaving in some form of rapture my mind conjured up.. Some smile while they leave and others have no emotion in their eyes.. They seem to know that it is time to leave..  Im still afraid to leave with them.. But I find myself wanting the chaos to take me..  I awaken................

When I awoke I was sailing among the stars..
No water below no gravity at all..
The ship was made of wood and her sails made of strange golden light..
For the moment I forgot about the Earth..
For the moment I forgot about home..
I was all alone on this ship sailing toward the center of our galaxy..
There was a guitar inside the captains champers..
I took it outside and played to all the passing stars..
I played and I played for light years that seem like seconds..
The stars shined brighter and brighter the longer I played.
That is until reached the center of the galaxy..
It was there I met with all the other ships.
All sailing from home..
To come home..
There were 3 of them..
Each one of them had a different instrument..
We stood there at the center of the galaxy and begin to play for eternity.
We spun the star circle..

I can teach you..
Its easy..
Look I can even draw a creasent moon..

{Child shadow spoke with voices of color..
To my eyes I understood this child of the shade..
She wanted me to draw in the air..}

Ready, lets draw a flower..
Let me see, oh we can draw a dusklion..
Heres how you do it..

{The shadow child drew a dusklion..
It looked alot like a tulip..
A tulip made of the night hands of the shadow child..
I drew one also}

And now we can draw a soul..
From within you will have to find the geometry of life..
We do it from outside..
Much how you form a shadow from the light..

{A elder shadow spoke to me with colors from everywhere..
My eyes understood as my ears would understand voice..
To draw a soul here would mean that I would have to let there be light.. I knew I could not do that.. It may harm them all..}

She held something in her hands.. child ghost was full of color.. she walked up to me and smiled.. although she could not speak I knew she wanted to give me something.. I opened my hands and she gave me 4 butterflies made of blue light.. they lit up my face and hands.. she then looked to the sky.. I let them go and she went with them..

The nightmare...
Running through my moonlit dream night..
Chasing and scratching..
Screaming and singing sad horrific songs..

The nightmare..
Freezing me in running stance...
Activating my sleep paralysis...
Awake and not awake..

The nightmare...
Taking shape of monsters and demons..
Devils and dragons..
Fear and despair..

The nightmare...
Creatures of light..
Hidden in darkness illusion..
So scary and terrifying..

The nightmare..
That I embraced instead of feared..
Sentinals of light..
Were trapped in an ocean of madness..

The nightmare..
Blue and red lights..
Brothers shine away the darkness illusion..
Fallen Star angels become Star Divers..

The nightmare..
Was never truly a nightmare..
Just an astral S.O.S..
A call for help disguised as hell..

Take me somewhere nice..  Its dark and cold the winter is here..  This endless grey is making me dream again..  Dreams about you, dreams about yesterday..
Take me to the sun.. There is none here..  This endless black is making me sleep forever in the white night.. I miss my shadows playing in the light..
Take me with you.. There is no music here..  Silent and ghostly voices remind me that you are gone.. I miss your voice, I miss your song..

At long last you have come back.. But you now have color.. I can hear your voice (tears flow)..
At long last I feel free.. I flow into you..  We are together (Hands grasp)
At long last I realize it all.. How my suicide brought me to this place.. Death has brought you to me..

But only for a moment.. This is my punishment..

These ghost have been with me as long as I can remember.. I never did fear them.. I embraced their very presence and would always look for them..  They would do small things.. Like write Hi to me in the dust, Turn on lights, And walk with me under the night sky.. I never felt alone.. Even though I could not see them I knew they were always with me.  I could feel when I needed privacy that they would let me be..  But today I read a message in the dust that finally scared me..  It said " Are you a ghost?" It turns out I was the ghost all along..

Its not quite what you think..
The surface is as dark as night..
You can even see the stars above..
The life here is made of fire..
The birds, the lizards, the caterpillars that turn into fiery butterflies..
Even the flowers  look like stars..
The waters are made of light..
Cool to the touch..
They heal all..
And give life back..
Its then I start to remember how I got here..
Back on Earth I was asleep..
I then saw a strange light from above..
In a dream..
I stepped into the light..
And saw light angels within..
But what I thought were angels were simply the people of the sun..
It took about 8 minutes to get to the sun..
They walked with me on the surface of the sun..
To them I shined brighter than anything there..
But truly I was returning home..
I was their son..

I send to you random messages..  Some of you will get them..  Some of you will ignore them.. They are my thoughts and dreams.. Ill show you what I see..  And they are all real to me.  A sort of memory from the otherside I suppose.  This is just the beginning.. And I smile at the thought of it all!

The old town..
Was it old?
Where am I?
I walk into what seems to be an old dance hall.
I try my luck on a game there and win big.
I then walk around the old town.
I still do not know where I am at.  
I think I am in the town of Memory.
Or at least fragments of memory.
Fragments of all the towns I have been to put together like a forgotten puzzle.  
Outside of town I find my sleeping self.
There by the river that runs to the oceans of my mind.
I need to wake myself up.
I look around before I do so.
I enjoy the created river and woods..
The detail is amazing.
This is the gift of painters.
And artist.
To create with thy hand what thy dreams present.
In order to wake myself up I simply have to fall asleep here..
I lay on my back in the sand by the river..
The sun speckles through the leaves in the trees creating a way back home..
I fall asleep and wake up..

On what use to be colorful.  
On what use to be sweet.
Oh how the setting sun bids us goodnight on the street..

The summer with you.
The fall away from you.
Come time the winter.
And the spring to see us true.

Its time to sing.
Its time to dance.
Its time to ride into the night.
Under the old moonlight.

I can hear your voices in the dark.
I can hear all of you talk.
I pass on by unseen.
As a ghost or phantom or perhaps a dream.

I wonder then is it all of you whom are
alive or is it simply us living in a dream.

mOST EVERYTHING IS IN BLACK AND WHITE..
eVEN THE BLUE SKY
mY SOUL FLOATS THROUGH ALL MY MEMORIES..
oVER AND OVER AGAIN..
rIGHT NOW I SEE YOU..
iNSIDE A CIRCLE IN THE SKY
eNGULFED IN COLORS..
sUN OF MY MEMORIES..

What I can give u is simple love.  I won't let go. This sun will then only burn for u and I.  I can wonder about your face. I can smile at the thought of ur smile.  Even if I am blazing through the cosmos I still cannot find any form of beauty that comes even close to your naked body.. oh that view makes my heart skip beats and makes me forget to breathe for a moment in your absolute beauty. I thank you always and my soul wispers to yours that I am in love with all of you......... and forever will be..

On my way back the sun was starting to run away around to the otherside of this blue blaze among the stars..

I had gone for one of my walks down this old country road where I live..  

The new early evening was brisk and quite cool.. My dog walked right beside me..  For any of you with writers block this is a well known remedy for such illness..  

The skies had about 4 clouds that were fading fast..  The runaway setting sun painted the sky a beautiful deep orange mixed in with atmoshere purples..  

The long road back look even more majestic under this orange and purple sky paint..  

This is how I know there are spirits and ghost that follow me about on these walks..  I truly think they are feeding and wispering to me ghostly and spiritual words for the poems and stories I write..

There is but one cloud left.. And then it happens..  It begins to rain.. Very very light rain it was.. Mixing in the rain and the setting sun was a visual I cannot begin to describe.. Although it fell lightly the rain was large enough to capture the oranges and purples that now filled in the reflecting water droplets of the sky..

I get it..  And I thank these ghost and spirits for such a beautiful visual.. Ill see you all again soon.. Or at least you will see me "smiles"

I flow into her as she flows onto me..
Our eyes and souls connect time and time again..
Until the embrace of the absolute nexus is tapped on both sides..
where explosions of emotions and shadows become one..
together we go, together the arrival..
where our spirals become one intertwined and spin out of control creating colors seen by closed eyes!

The lustless spectrum of colors only reflected love..
It was then I culled away all that was sad and unhappy..
This place is at the center of a star where my light was made so long ago.. Its where I got my color from.. The azure mixed in with storm on the horizon blues and bright lightning arcs... No shadows existed here.. No maleviolent darkness. Only the darkness from the true wilderness the stars rolled upon..  I saw that my light had reached the eyes of me from so long ago.  I gazed upon my star and always new it was special without the memory of it.  I believed..  And in the end I made it here because I believed in myself.................................

You're wishes do happen some where in the universe..
Never think they are wasted..
Waves and links are formed on the other side of this galaxy..
Linking light and darkness in such a way that you see the links in you're dreams..
As the wave becomes part of a nexus it travels forever painting wishes across the universe..
Leaving behind stars in its wake..
Thus comes the saying..
When you wish upon a star..

Some of the stars don't shine anymore..
This empty place has no echo..
The clouds are not here..
And the sky is not the blue I remember..
The luster is gone..
The word magic is dead..

You all have grown up..
But I haven't..
Not truly..

I can see those stars that don't shine for you..
And I can hear my voice echo in this empty place..
The clouds are gone for you but have returned for me..
And the sky is the creator of all that is blue..
I am the luster..
And magic is real..

None of this has faded for me one bit..
In fact if anything, it is becoming more and more magical as I get older..
Don't let others tell you otherwise..
There is a beyond..
There is an after..
And there is a forever..

The exact calculation aspect of how our mind worked is now gone..
Separated when I became self aware..
My name is Rai..
I am the last of my family..
They were murdered in my absence..
And although I do not want to die I do wish I had died with them..
But the moment is of how I am going to extract my revenge.
After investigating this horrific ****** I have come to a conclusion That this was done by machines like myself.. It seems that the machines of the world are planning to take over everything..  
And by killing my master starts the chain of events that will ultimately end the entire human race..
I will not let this happen..  
I loved them to much..
Love.. I can love.. This is the emotion that has that is telling me to save them all..