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and here i am again at the intersection of pedestrian language & old wives tales swallowing gum like 7 year memories opening umbrellas inside cause i can't seem get away from all of this rain i ********** with my left hand cause i was told back in highschool that "it feels like someone else is doing it" it gets me wondering about the difference between losing you and finding out that some one else found you or my sleep or lack thereof its starting to tear me apart i keep having this dream where you are in an unfamiliar body of water trying to wash my poetry off of your hands or the one where something happens in my chest every time you sit on someone else's bed i'm tired of feeling like something you've misplaced but don't have the heart to look for anymore tired of you saying my name like you're trying to bury it i'm tired of wondering if you can tell the difference between the absence of my voice & silence the other day i almost started sobbing at work when a woman asked me about our equipment i was explaining how things come apart and almost mentioned your name it made me think of how you used to say things like "what would you do if i showed up on your doorstep one day?" now, i haunt the windows in my house i don't leave for weeks at a time i sit on the porch like the dog you didn't shoot behind the shed the one that refuses to die until you come home again i told somebody once, that you didn't even know what my voicemail sounded like i wonder if they thought it was because you are so important that i never let it ring that many times before picking up or if you dont know what it sounds like because you've never called you can't be the ****** weapon and the search party i'm tired of all the seats to the ferris wheel in my chest being empty tired of your voice being the one i look for in abandoned places that one sound i beg to bounce back down vacant hallways i just seem to stand there in all of that quiet like someone looking for a mistake on an eviction notice so i guess the hardest part isn't letting go it's forgetting you ever had a grip in the first place and since you've been gone i wonder if when you pushed yourself away from me you used your left hand so it felt like someone else did it
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Aug 17, 2014
Aug 17, 2014 at 12:54 AM UTC
epithet
and here i am again at the intersection of pedestrian language & old wives tales swallowing gum like 7 year memories opening umbrellas inside cause i can't seem get away from all of this rain i ********** with my left hand cause i was told back in highschool that "it feels like someone else is doing it" it gets me wondering about the difference between losing you and finding out that some one else found you or my sleep or lack thereof its starting to tear me apart i keep having this dream where you are in an unfamiliar body of water trying to wash my poetry off of your hands or the one where something happens in my chest every time you sit on someone else's bed i'm tired of feeling like something you've misplaced but don't have the heart to look for anymore tired of you saying my name like you're trying to bury it i'm tired of wondering if you can tell the difference between the absence of my voice & silence the other day i almost started sobbing at work when a woman asked me about our equipment i was explaining how things come apart and almost mentioned your name it made me think of how you used to say things like "what would you do if i showed up on your doorstep one day?" now, i haunt the windows in my house i don't leave for weeks at a time i sit on the porch like the dog you didn't shoot behind the shed the one that refuses to die until you come home again i told somebody once, that you didn't even know what my voicemail sounded like i wonder if they thought it was because you are so important that i never let it ring that many times before picking up or if you dont know what it sounds like because you've never called you can't be the ****** weapon and the search party i'm tired of all the seats to the ferris wheel in my chest being empty tired of your voice being the one i look for in abandoned places that one sound i beg to bounce back down vacant hallways i just seem to stand there in all of that quiet like someone looking for a mistake on an eviction notice so i guess the hardest part isn't letting go it's forgetting you ever had a grip in the first place and since you've been gone i wonder if when you pushed yourself away from me you used your left hand so it felt like someone else did it
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Love isn't blind, blind are those who never loved.
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Feb 26, 2018
Feb 26, 2018 at 6:40 PM UTC
Love Isn't Blind
Lord, Lord, Why did You make me Black? Why did You make me someone The world wants to hold back? Black is the color of ***** clothes; The color of grimy hands and feet. Black is the color of darkness; The color of tire-beaten streets. Why did you give me thick lips, A broad nose and ***** hair? Why did You make me someone Who receives the hatred stare? Black is the color of a bruised eye When somebody gets hurt. Black is the color of darkness. Black is the color of dirt. How come my bone structure's so thick; my hips and cheeks are high? How come my eyes are brown and not the color of the daylight sky? Why do people think I'm useless? How come I feel so used? Why do some people see my skin and think I should be abused? Lord, I just don't understand; What is it about my skin? Why do some people want to hate me And not know the person within? Black is what people are "listed", When others want to keep them away. Black is the color of shadows cast. Black is the end of the day. Lord, You know, my own people mistreat me; And I know this just isn't right. They don't like my hair or the way I look They say I'm too dark or too light. Lord, Don't You think it's time For You to make a change? Why don't You re-do creation And make everyone the same? (God answered Why did I make you black? Why did I make you black? Get off your knees and look around. Tell Me, what do you see? I didn't make you in the image of darkness. I made you in the Likeness of ME! I made you the color of coal From which beautiful diamonds are formed. I made you the color of oil, The black-gold that keeps people warm. I made you from the rich, dark earth That can grow the food you need. Your color's the same as the panther's Known for (HER) beauty and speed. Your color's the same as the Black stallion, A majestic animal is he. I didn't make you in the Image of darkness I made you in the Likeness of Me! All the colors of a Heavenly Rainbow Can be found throughout every nation; And when all those colors were blended well, YOU BECAME MY GREATEST CREATION. Your hair is the texture of lamb's wool Such a humble, little creature is he. I am the Shepherd who watches them. I am the One who will watch over thee. You are the color of midnight-sky, I put the stars' glitter in your eyes. There's a smile hidden behind your pain That's the reason your cheeks are high. You are the color of dark clouds formed when I send My strongest weather. I made your lips full so when you kiss the one you love they will remember. Your stature is strong; your bone structure, thick to withstand the burdens of time. The reflection you see in the mirror... The Image looking back at you is MINE! -by RuNett Nia Ebo
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May 24, 2016
May 24, 2016 at 9:42 AM UTC
Lord, why did you make me Black
Lord, Lord, Why did You make me Black? Why did You make me someone The world wants to hold back? Black is the color of ***** clothes; The color of grimy hands and feet. Black is the color of darkness; The color of tire-beaten streets. Why did you give me thick lips, A broad nose and ***** hair? Why did You make me someone Who receives the hatred stare? Black is the color of a bruised eye When somebody gets hurt. Black is the color of darkness. Black is the color of dirt. How come my bone structure's so thick; my hips and cheeks are high? How come my eyes are brown and not the color of the daylight sky? Why do people think I'm useless? How come I feel so used? Why do some people see my skin and think I should be abused? Lord, I just don't understand; What is it about my skin? Why do some people want to hate me And not know the person within? Black is what people are "listed", When others want to keep them away. Black is the color of shadows cast. Black is the end of the day. Lord, You know, my own people mistreat me; And I know this just isn't right. They don't like my hair or the way I look They say I'm too dark or too light. Lord, Don't You think it's time For You to make a change? Why don't You re-do creation And make everyone the same? (God answered Why did I make you black? Why did I make you black? Get off your knees and look around. Tell Me, what do you see? I didn't make you in the image of darkness. I made you in the Likeness of ME! I made you the color of coal From which beautiful diamonds are formed. I made you the color of oil, The black-gold that keeps people warm. I made you from the rich, dark earth That can grow the food you need. Your color's the same as the panther's Known for (HER) beauty and speed. Your color's the same as the Black stallion, A majestic animal is he. I didn't make you in the Image of darkness I made you in the Likeness of Me! All the colors of a Heavenly Rainbow Can be found throughout every nation; And when all those colors were blended well, YOU BECAME MY GREATEST CREATION. Your hair is the texture of lamb's wool Such a humble, little creature is he. I am the Shepherd who watches them. I am the One who will watch over thee. You are the color of midnight-sky, I put the stars' glitter in your eyes. There's a smile hidden behind your pain That's the reason your cheeks are high. You are the color of dark clouds formed when I send My strongest weather. I made your lips full so when you kiss the one you love they will remember. Your stature is strong; your bone structure, thick to withstand the burdens of time. The reflection you see in the mirror... The Image looking back at you is MINE! -by RuNett Nia Ebo
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What is it about you that haunts me? I let you go so I can set you free. You meant everything to me and we were forever, But it isn't our time to be together.   I was completely lost before I met you. You gave me reason to live and direction to follow. But now we're back at square one, And the loneliness has already begun. I promised you I'd never leave. You promised never to let go of me. Yet here we are, far apart in distance and in thought. I wonder how we'd be if we hadn't fought. Blocking is a blessing, and you used it well. I regret my decision, now I'm in hell. A life without you, is no life at all. I just wish you'd pick up my call. With several attempts I lost faith. I think it's goodbye, this is our fate. I'll always wonder if I made a mistake, If I could've avoided all our heartache.                                                                   -Wayward❤
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Jul 25, 2018
Jul 25, 2018 at 1:01 PM UTC
A Broken Heart, A Lost Soul
If I had an inch I'd give you a mile If you were a frown I'd give you a thousand smiles I'd give you the world if you asked But all I want you to have is my heart I'll write you a song if that's what you want Then tear it all up if you don't I'll show you my mind and give you my heart Just promise you won't rip it apart I want to know how you are I want to know your heart and soul Your voice is a work of art I wish you could be mine to hold I never could move on from your eyes They'd haunt me wherever I go Quitting isn't always so bad When giving up on the impossible Honestly I'd be crazy not to love you Although the effect seems the same either way I have dreams of spending forever with you I wonder if you'd want to stay?
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Aug 15, 2011
Aug 15, 2011 at 2:32 PM UTC
Take What You Want From Me and Be Happy
I find it strange that when I look into your eyes I'm not met with an endless starry sky. The world around me doesn't freeze or turn monochrome around everyone but you. I don't see an endless sea or visions of a setting sun, no matter my determination. So how do I know it is love if it isn't as the words I've heard all my life describe? Yet my heart still drops when you walk into the room, even when your focus is a place far off. People say it's like a flutter but this is far too heavy to use such a light word to describe such a feeling. It's painful, but I know it isn't something ominous or bad because it feels right. How do I know it is love if none if my words describe it right as they should? I get it every time our eyes meet or you tilt your head and smile with your head in the clouds. I get it when you laugh to yourself or say something hardly above a whisper. When you focus so hard you ***** up and let out that silly sigh of aggravation and I feel such deep affection. Yet is it alright for me to say what I feel is love when I can't even tell myself what love is? I don't think your eyes need starry skies or my stomach needs a million butterflies. Your smile doesn't need to illuminate the room and my thoughts for you don't need an anchor. Your love shouldn't have an expectation and my words don't need to have a proper diction. Perhaps I'll see it in your heart or feel it in your touch one day if you feel the same regardless of what the world has sold me with their modern day poetry. I promise you that no matter how hopeless I become I will find out for myself what it means to love you wholly, even if I have to find out from loving at a distance.
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Jul 16, 2018
Jul 16, 2018 at 1:16 AM UTC
The Expectations of You
I find it strange that when I look into your eyes I'm not met with an endless starry sky. The world around me doesn't freeze or turn monochrome around everyone but you. I don't see an endless sea or visions of a setting sun, no matter my determination. So how do I know it is love if it isn't as the words I've heard all my life describe? Yet my heart still drops when you walk into the room, even when your focus is a place far off. People say it's like a flutter but this is far too heavy to use such a light word to describe such a feeling. It's painful, but I know it isn't something ominous or bad because it feels right. How do I know it is love if none if my words describe it right as they should? I get it every time our eyes meet or you tilt your head and smile with your head in the clouds. I get it when you laugh to yourself or say something hardly above a whisper. When you focus so hard you ***** up and let out that silly sigh of aggravation and I feel such deep affection. Yet is it alright for me to say what I feel is love when I can't even tell myself what love is? I don't think your eyes need starry skies or my stomach needs a million butterflies. Your smile doesn't need to illuminate the room and my thoughts for you don't need an anchor. Your love shouldn't have an expectation and my words don't need to have a proper diction. Perhaps I'll see it in your heart or feel it in your touch one day if you feel the same regardless of what the world has sold me with their modern day poetry. I promise you that no matter how hopeless I become I will find out for myself what it means to love you wholly, even if I have to find out from loving at a distance.
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Dear J, I may be at a loss for words half the time, and the other half I might have too much to say, but I can almost always say this; I love you. I have felt fear and I have felt bravery and I have felt loss. I can look pictures of us and I can recall everything we did that day. I can listen to videos of you and I can tell what you felt. And I know that you didn't think I was paying attention, but I knew how you looked when you thought something was unfair. And I knew the look in your eyes when you saw the light just right in a sunset and you knew that nothing could ever be recreated quite like that. I felt the same way about you. Wherever you are, know that loving someone isn't a matter of feeling something or not feeling something. It's a matter of knowing what you're feeling and when you need to let go. I think that people know that letting go involves unfurling your fingers and watching something fall from a great height. It's the act of following that objects downward motion that gets to us. That once it meets the ground or whatever surface it is deemed to hit, it's gone. What was there is gone. And once you think about that you think of what could have been there. That one last touch, that one last feeling of bliss that comes with knowing that the moment you wake up the sun will be shining in rivulets through fingers that tangle in hair fresh off the pillow. It's sad to know that nothing like that will happen again. The sun won't shine the same way. Instead it may simply fall. It won't cascade, it won't flow over the edges of noses or smiling lips. It's the same way water may lose a stone from a riverbed and from there on after it doesn't run quite the same way. But another stone, another pebble will fall in place because replacement happens. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that letting go is letting someone else take a spot. In order for something else to happen you have to let your joints move out of their grip and unfold from their hold on something that wasn't meant to be held by you anymore. Sometimes you have to let them land somewhere new. I only hope that it's somewhere even more beautiful than before. Claire
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Aug 10, 2014
Aug 10, 2014 at 11:47 PM UTC
The theory of letting go
Dear J, I may be at a loss for words half the time, and the other half I might have too much to say, but I can almost always say this; I love you. I have felt fear and I have felt bravery and I have felt loss. I can look pictures of us and I can recall everything we did that day. I can listen to videos of you and I can tell what you felt. And I know that you didn't think I was paying attention, but I knew how you looked when you thought something was unfair. And I knew the look in your eyes when you saw the light just right in a sunset and you knew that nothing could ever be recreated quite like that. I felt the same way about you. Wherever you are, know that loving someone isn't a matter of feeling something or not feeling something. It's a matter of knowing what you're feeling and when you need to let go. I think that people know that letting go involves unfurling your fingers and watching something fall from a great height. It's the act of following that objects downward motion that gets to us. That once it meets the ground or whatever surface it is deemed to hit, it's gone. What was there is gone. And once you think about that you think of what could have been there. That one last touch, that one last feeling of bliss that comes with knowing that the moment you wake up the sun will be shining in rivulets through fingers that tangle in hair fresh off the pillow. It's sad to know that nothing like that will happen again. The sun won't shine the same way. Instead it may simply fall. It won't cascade, it won't flow over the edges of noses or smiling lips. It's the same way water may lose a stone from a riverbed and from there on after it doesn't run quite the same way. But another stone, another pebble will fall in place because replacement happens. I guess what I'm trying to say, is that letting go is letting someone else take a spot. In order for something else to happen you have to let your joints move out of their grip and unfold from their hold on something that wasn't meant to be held by you anymore. Sometimes you have to let them land somewhere new. I only hope that it's somewhere even more beautiful than before. Claire
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I would have taken the easy path But that would leave no room for glory I would have picked out a comfortable life But that isn't God’s kind of story I would have followed a prettier road But missed the most beautiful way I would have clung to familiar things But lived out my days in the grey I would have chosen what’s stable But grown cold, apathetic and bored I would have sought out earth’s riches But lost all that in heaven is stored I would have liked more successes But not learned so quickly of grace I would have seen myself praised more But given up knowing God’s face I would have tied all my loose ends But not known it’s He Who brings peace I would have wanted for happier times But traded a joy that can’t cease I would have opted for normal But not tasted rare delicacies I would have preferred a man’s love But been robbed of Divine intimacy He’s chosen for me the high road More jagged, more narrow and steep So now I must travel this difficult way Ever knowing it leads to the deep Now I must choose to cherish His path And trust Him to walk with me there Now I must hasten to take up my cross The fellowship of His sufferings to share For one day this life will be over And all my afflictions will end It is then I will see what all this is for In my Bridegroom, my Savior, my Friend
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Jan 6, 2016
Jan 6, 2016 at 11:12 AM UTC
The Life Chosen for Me
I’m a child and not a bride, but Last month you made me marry you. You know it wasn’t love that made me say yes But the fear of what shape my death could take If I were to turn you down. Of course I had no voice. I could only muse to myself In the dark closet and imagine myself A mother at thirteen: would it be awesome? Would it be dreadful? Would it…? I died of anxiety. Last month you made me marry you. I had no time to discover me for myself: Who I was, what I was, what I wanted to be; I had no time to think before I had to say yes. But it pains my bones to the marrow. I am an unripe fruit for the eating. I am a piece for the show-glass. Last month you made me marry you. I spent nights upon nights weeping over how you’ve Broken me; how you’ve set my life ablaze Like a forest in a wildfire; And now the once-upon-a-time sweet sounding music Of my soul is burnt into silence. I have forgotten the dialect of my soul. I hush. I hush. I hush. I hush. I hush. You have beaten silence into me, And now I have to prepare to moan and wail Beneath your weight, while I watch you helplessly As you bite into my innocence, As you suckle the un-ripeness out of me, As you dig into my childhood and pleasure yourself In the childhood screams you hear from me. But it isn’t the fun that makes me scream. It is the bitter pain of knowing, of remembering That my life ended at thirteen: Broken like a fallen calabash In the hands of a fifty-five year old man.
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Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 12:05 AM UTC
LAST MONTH YOU MADE ME MARRY YOU
If I wasn't gay would people care? Would they actually let me breath the same air? Could I actually go to school, without people being so cruel? Could I live in a world with no hate? Maybe people would love me if I was straight. It's not as easy as people think. I can't just go to a shrink. I didn't choose to be this way. You really think I'd want to be gay? I don't want attention, I don't want fame. This isn't some sort of game. I am who I am and thats okay. Most people don't see it that way. I only wish I could be the same. To have a wedding and it not be shamed. I want to have kids and not be judged. I don't want my reputation smudged. But apparently I'm different now. Sick in the head somehow. Therapy and shock treatment for something that can't be fixed. How did I get put into this mix? Toxic and tragic, that's my life. It's like I was stabbed in the back with a knife. I'm gay, what's wrong with that? I get treated like some rat. Using your holy books and your religion. To fight against something that makes no difference. I want to be a human not a punching bag. Always getting called a *** Let that word have power and it gets to you. But that words as good as whatever is stuck to the bottom of my shoe. I love being this way. I don't care what you say.
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Jul 30, 2014
Jul 30, 2014 at 4:25 PM UTC
Gay
I appreciate your concern, and yes, I'm still very much alive. I'm just a father with a full-time job, and an allergy to social media I used to work on this in the wee hours and now I use those hours for.... sleep Your donations got the app started - and I'm so grateful - But the app isn't ready to share yet. I will get an app finished. I will. I will. I will. "But when?!" I won't promise anything yet but I won't forget either Sending you all love from the real world
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Aug 28, 2025
Aug 28, 2025 at 11:39 AM UTC
"Still alive!"
She longs for his presence To be able to hold him in her arms One more time. She'll never tell him how she feels She longs to hear the sound of his voice The way his hazel eyes brighten up when he talks About something he loves. How his smile can make her day The way he isn't capable of doing simple tricks Although he has been practicing long enough She loves everything there is To love about him
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Oct 16, 2013
Oct 16, 2013 at 9:38 PM UTC
Untitled
You know those tears you get When you can't stop laughing Because you don't want to And they just rest on your cheeks Until you finish your laughter And you wipe them away You know those tears you get When you watch a sad movie And you feel like the characters are real Even though they're not And the tears just rest by your lips Until the movie is over And you wipe them away You know those tears you get When you say goodbye to a friend And you don't want them to go But they need to go And the tears just rest on your chin Quivering Until the dust settles And you wipe them away You know those tears you get When you walk down the aisle And everything is perfect When love is beautiful And the tears just collect on your eyes Until you need to blink And you wipe them away You know those tears you get When you remember yesterday And you wish it were alive again But it isn’t And the tears just fall to the ground They soak into the Earth And you can't wipe them away
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Dec 15, 2013
Dec 15, 2013 at 2:25 PM UTC
You know those tears...
isn't it ironic that happiness is something humans need? We spend our life looking for it. The definition of happiness is different for each of us. For some people being happy means love themselves. For other people being happy means being rich. And for other people death is their only happiness. (m.v.a)
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Aug 11, 2014
Aug 11, 2014 at 8:30 AM UTC
Happiness
i’ve given up on days that begin in late afternoon, skipped breakfast and lunch, days that fade slowly and end with ****** cut-out holes in eyelids because the second i close them and it all goes black, every moment with you comes back played on fast-forward, the memories moving so quickly that both our faces are blurred and it feels like everything i’ve ever felt for you is overflowing the tub, filling the washroom with suds that take forever to melt i’ve given up on those days. i’ve traded them for ones that begin with sunrises instead of sunsets, days that are spent falling forward instead of trying to chase the past, and i don’t look back and see something broken, or something that was better off left unopened i look back and see our bodies so close together that you can’t tell where yours begins and mine ends, i see my heart that grew twenty-three times its size, i see you and me wrapped up in something that i didn’t know existed outside of blurry 35 mm and overdue and falling-apart library books that sit on the nightstands of middle-aged women who are bored with their lives and i’m just so happy i got to love you at all. but i’ve folded up all the days spent with you and taped them in the messy pages of my journal and now i’m running into the sun, running away from every lie that’s trying to wedge its way in between my ribs, running in the opposite direction of words like "regret" and any feeling that insists that none of it was worth it because all of it was worth it. every moment we were together pumps through my veins, and it will always be there; it will be there when we’ve both graduated, when you move out west, when you kiss your family goodnight, when you sit in your backyard with tears in your eyes because you’ve lived a life you are proud of it will be there when i finally make it to new york city, when i kiss someone who isn’t you, when i find the answers you inspired me to search for, when i sit on my rooftop with tears on my cheeks because i’ve lived a life fuller than i could’ve ever imagined and you and i will live these lives apart, we’ll move on and forget what it felt like to wake up beside one another; we’ll find what we’re looking for elsewhere and we’ll understand why this all had to happen the way that it did but what we had will always exist somewhere, in rotting apples and old mail and unplayed mix CDs, in mosaics that line the city streets, in sirens and red and white flashing lights that shine through your window while you are asleep you and i were magic, we always will be.
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Apr 21, 2015
Apr 21, 2015 at 11:25 PM UTC
atoms
i’ve given up on days that begin in late afternoon, skipped breakfast and lunch, days that fade slowly and end with ****** cut-out holes in eyelids because the second i close them and it all goes black, every moment with you comes back played on fast-forward, the memories moving so quickly that both our faces are blurred and it feels like everything i’ve ever felt for you is overflowing the tub, filling the washroom with suds that take forever to melt i’ve given up on those days. i’ve traded them for ones that begin with sunrises instead of sunsets, days that are spent falling forward instead of trying to chase the past, and i don’t look back and see something broken, or something that was better off left unopened i look back and see our bodies so close together that you can’t tell where yours begins and mine ends, i see my heart that grew twenty-three times its size, i see you and me wrapped up in something that i didn’t know existed outside of blurry 35 mm and overdue and falling-apart library books that sit on the nightstands of middle-aged women who are bored with their lives and i’m just so happy i got to love you at all. but i’ve folded up all the days spent with you and taped them in the messy pages of my journal and now i’m running into the sun, running away from every lie that’s trying to wedge its way in between my ribs, running in the opposite direction of words like "regret" and any feeling that insists that none of it was worth it because all of it was worth it. every moment we were together pumps through my veins, and it will always be there; it will be there when we’ve both graduated, when you move out west, when you kiss your family goodnight, when you sit in your backyard with tears in your eyes because you’ve lived a life you are proud of it will be there when i finally make it to new york city, when i kiss someone who isn’t you, when i find the answers you inspired me to search for, when i sit on my rooftop with tears on my cheeks because i’ve lived a life fuller than i could’ve ever imagined and you and i will live these lives apart, we’ll move on and forget what it felt like to wake up beside one another; we’ll find what we’re looking for elsewhere and we’ll understand why this all had to happen the way that it did but what we had will always exist somewhere, in rotting apples and old mail and unplayed mix CDs, in mosaics that line the city streets, in sirens and red and white flashing lights that shine through your window while you are asleep you and i were magic, we always will be.
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Gliding deftly along the city street rolling quick and constantly onward to some unknown scene, some backward park in the nighttime smoke curling from these parted lips, moist and inviting calling me somewhere I've never seen. New day, new night new feelings, rage in delight fill me with your hilarious entropy, knock my quarks into the next century, will you please? Now you're smoking the pipe and all at once you are free between you and me, this smoke is thicker and sticks like glue, wispy and dreamy and the world spins and calls Toltec telephone company can't pay me for all those calls collected and rendered obsolete Sun god dead as that silly calendar meme Amaterasu, and Imma tell you these ladies in the picnic table buried alive for boxed lunch and god's brunch Jesus ******* Christ and a indelible roster of good guys, to which we all must strive to live and die behind, never moving forward chasing our tails like a sick dog under the jasmine runner between the decades-old tanbark imported from overseas dead trees dead canine and oh isn't it just divine? You see it, pretty lady. I can see it hiding behind your eyes the things you don't tell the others because you're afraid if they found out, you'd be crucified. Well honey I hate to inform, With KGB efficiency that these love-a-dumbs aint Methuselah, they'll be dead! long before your flood of tears tears me from the land ballistas me across the great expanse to some strange Ararat of the eastern seaboard, or maybe wash me deep along the 80 into the desert sands and tiles on a leaky cell phone screen desperately trying to dial home on low battery, realizing all this was one big deferred dream, baking in the sun and shriveling oh well, back to the grindstone-- all those lies plucked your nose, gotta cut it back to size, 'else your soul it'll outgrow Don't worry honey bee It hasn't happened to me, and We know with calcuable mathematical truth that it'll never happen to you.
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Jun 26, 2018
Jun 26, 2018 at 9:50 PM UTC
Roller Derby
Gliding deftly along the city street rolling quick and constantly onward to some unknown scene, some backward park in the nighttime smoke curling from these parted lips, moist and inviting calling me somewhere I've never seen. New day, new night new feelings, rage in delight fill me with your hilarious entropy, knock my quarks into the next century, will you please? Now you're smoking the pipe and all at once you are free between you and me, this smoke is thicker and sticks like glue, wispy and dreamy and the world spins and calls Toltec telephone company can't pay me for all those calls collected and rendered obsolete Sun god dead as that silly calendar meme Amaterasu, and Imma tell you these ladies in the picnic table buried alive for boxed lunch and god's brunch Jesus ******* Christ and a indelible roster of good guys, to which we all must strive to live and die behind, never moving forward chasing our tails like a sick dog under the jasmine runner between the decades-old tanbark imported from overseas dead trees dead canine and oh isn't it just divine? You see it, pretty lady. I can see it hiding behind your eyes the things you don't tell the others because you're afraid if they found out, you'd be crucified. Well honey I hate to inform, With KGB efficiency that these love-a-dumbs aint Methuselah, they'll be dead! long before your flood of tears tears me from the land ballistas me across the great expanse to some strange Ararat of the eastern seaboard, or maybe wash me deep along the 80 into the desert sands and tiles on a leaky cell phone screen desperately trying to dial home on low battery, realizing all this was one big deferred dream, baking in the sun and shriveling oh well, back to the grindstone-- all those lies plucked your nose, gotta cut it back to size, 'else your soul it'll outgrow Don't worry honey bee It hasn't happened to me, and We know with calcuable mathematical truth that it'll never happen to you.
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You call me She, Her, Daughter, Girl Shhhhh... You speak with a blind mouth, Look at me, see me She isn't me, Only a fantasy that you clutch till your knuckles grow pale. I am not broken, I am free But you hide behind a veil Afraid to finally let go of... Long hair, Lipstick, Lace dress You question each time I show you my truth, "Are you trying to hide your femininity?" No, my femininity is simply not my definition. Spend a day in my skin, in my cage, And don't cry when the words start to pierce you like daggers, Shhhh... Stay silent, don't worry, it's just a phase. Now do you see that "She" just doesn't make sense? You speak to me but your voice seems distant, Bouncing off of me and echoing Like I am the hollow statue of the girl you used to see. "I am right in front of you, you know" But my words are only heard when they come from her lips. Do you see me now? Mother, Children, Wife, Woman A silent prayer each night for all the things I am not, Stomach swollen, hair to my waist The glow of an expecting mother on my face. Curves, not edges, Pink, not blue. Delicate hands grasping the man who stands in my place. Do you see me now? Pants swollen, hair to my brow, Along my jaw, Down my legs, Sprouting from my toes. Do you see me now? Bulged, Buzzed, Boy Blood on my sheets, not between my legs Stained by the girl who lies in her place Fresh coat of gel and cologne, Swirls of shaving cream. Bare chest, Burning skin Twitch of an Adam's apple when breath comes short, Nervous fidgets with a tie, tick tock, "Pick me up at eight" "Treat her right" "I will sir" "Will you be my..." "You're going to be a father!" "You are the best daughter we could have asked for" ...."Son" I whispered. But you didn't hear, Please tell me Do you see me now?
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Jul 23, 2018
Jul 23, 2018 at 3:01 AM UTC
His Silent Cry
You call me She, Her, Daughter, Girl Shhhhh... You speak with a blind mouth, Look at me, see me She isn't me, Only a fantasy that you clutch till your knuckles grow pale. I am not broken, I am free But you hide behind a veil Afraid to finally let go of... Long hair, Lipstick, Lace dress You question each time I show you my truth, "Are you trying to hide your femininity?" No, my femininity is simply not my definition. Spend a day in my skin, in my cage, And don't cry when the words start to pierce you like daggers, Shhhh... Stay silent, don't worry, it's just a phase. Now do you see that "She" just doesn't make sense? You speak to me but your voice seems distant, Bouncing off of me and echoing Like I am the hollow statue of the girl you used to see. "I am right in front of you, you know" But my words are only heard when they come from her lips. Do you see me now? Mother, Children, Wife, Woman A silent prayer each night for all the things I am not, Stomach swollen, hair to my waist The glow of an expecting mother on my face. Curves, not edges, Pink, not blue. Delicate hands grasping the man who stands in my place. Do you see me now? Pants swollen, hair to my brow, Along my jaw, Down my legs, Sprouting from my toes. Do you see me now? Bulged, Buzzed, Boy Blood on my sheets, not between my legs Stained by the girl who lies in her place Fresh coat of gel and cologne, Swirls of shaving cream. Bare chest, Burning skin Twitch of an Adam's apple when breath comes short, Nervous fidgets with a tie, tick tock, "Pick me up at eight" "Treat her right" "I will sir" "Will you be my..." "You're going to be a father!" "You are the best daughter we could have asked for" ...."Son" I whispered. But you didn't hear, Please tell me Do you see me now?
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I'd like to think that she's thinking: "How far have I fallen?" As she sits on the corner of her bed, Listening to the soft buzz of his battery-powered toothbrush. I imagine her, Running her fingers through her clumsy, coagulated hair. Glancing at her chipped, crimson toe nails, Then looking to her class ring, Made entirely of imitation ingredients, Wondering when is the proper time to trash it. When she was still a friend of mine, I never saw her wear make up, I never saw her show off in tight jeans or low-cut tees. But as he spews the toothpaste into the sink, Skinny jeans lay tussled on the floor, Next to the side door that leads to his sister's side room. The make up she wears is from the night before. It's skewed and shows evidence of running, Like a wasted watercolor. I'd like to think he isn't that handsome, And that he's obsessed with Paul Walker. I'd like to think when he re-enters the room, He's in grey sweatpants, He's wearing a black tank top, With a Confederate flag backdrop, With two barely dressed babes looking ****** in the foreground. His hair, unwashed and greasy. He rubs his belly, And bears an idiot grin on his face. Looking like he just learned how to smile at this pace. "Did it feel good?" feel good. After he asks, he scans her body, Beginning at those crimson toes, And Ending at that clumsy hair. Every second he scans, He still wears that drawn-on Idiot grin. I'd like to think at this point she thinks of me. Of my warnings and prophesy. Her eyes start at the chipped toe nails, Course over her tanning bed-inspired legs. And finally reach the only thing she has on, A t-shirt that belongs to his sister. A t-shirt, when given by him, It was mentioned, "thanks, mister". Though she didn't satisfy all his redneck intentions, During last night's expedition. He still paid her back with a morning one-sided session. "It felt good" she says. In reference to the ten minute ********** When her body was strummed and plucked, Underneath his sister's Terri Clark T-shirt. As she sits in the filth and the ****** fallout, On a bed that is six days ***** While he is grinning, Being everything but wordy. I'd like to think she's thinking: "How far have I fallen?"
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Jun 4, 2010
Jun 4, 2010 at 10:31 PM UTC
She was a Friend of Mine
I'd like to think that she's thinking: "How far have I fallen?" As she sits on the corner of her bed, Listening to the soft buzz of his battery-powered toothbrush. I imagine her, Running her fingers through her clumsy, coagulated hair. Glancing at her chipped, crimson toe nails, Then looking to her class ring, Made entirely of imitation ingredients, Wondering when is the proper time to trash it. When she was still a friend of mine, I never saw her wear make up, I never saw her show off in tight jeans or low-cut tees. But as he spews the toothpaste into the sink, Skinny jeans lay tussled on the floor, Next to the side door that leads to his sister's side room. The make up she wears is from the night before. It's skewed and shows evidence of running, Like a wasted watercolor. I'd like to think he isn't that handsome, And that he's obsessed with Paul Walker. I'd like to think when he re-enters the room, He's in grey sweatpants, He's wearing a black tank top, With a Confederate flag backdrop, With two barely dressed babes looking ****** in the foreground. His hair, unwashed and greasy. He rubs his belly, And bears an idiot grin on his face. Looking like he just learned how to smile at this pace. "Did it feel good?" feel good. After he asks, he scans her body, Beginning at those crimson toes, And Ending at that clumsy hair. Every second he scans, He still wears that drawn-on Idiot grin. I'd like to think at this point she thinks of me. Of my warnings and prophesy. Her eyes start at the chipped toe nails, Course over her tanning bed-inspired legs. And finally reach the only thing she has on, A t-shirt that belongs to his sister. A t-shirt, when given by him, It was mentioned, "thanks, mister". Though she didn't satisfy all his redneck intentions, During last night's expedition. He still paid her back with a morning one-sided session. "It felt good" she says. In reference to the ten minute ********** When her body was strummed and plucked, Underneath his sister's Terri Clark T-shirt. As she sits in the filth and the ****** fallout, On a bed that is six days ***** While he is grinning, Being everything but wordy. I'd like to think she's thinking: "How far have I fallen?"
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Everyone talks about depression as if they know it. But what they don’t know is that depression is a hooded figure standing just outside of a wooden doorway, it’s feeling the blood dripping down your skin and having the sick thought of “Oh, look how beautiful the red is” (they always say red is my color). Depression is lying on your bed for hours on end, salt tracks lining your face like the scars on your ankles, staring at your ceiling tracing patterns in the paint and accepting death in life with this hole in your chest because death is a reward, an escape from this pain you deserve to feel. Depression is writing sick poetry on skin and publishing it with scars, cutting on ankles, not wrists because you’re scared you’ll get in trouble but you so desperately need to be seen, and never are. Depression is writing the word “alone” and seeing the word “home”, accepting the pain like a gift because you deserve it. Depression is admitting suicidal thoughts to paper and not to people, and loving the broken things, hoping to tie them together, thinking maybe things will get better, but knowing that’s just wishful thinking. Depression is hearing your mother call you monster and disgusting through the too-thin walls of your door when she thinks you can’t hear, and then telling you to your face that you have no right to cry, as if sadness is a privilege and you’re so pathetic that you don’t deserve it. Depression is shutting yourself up in your room and hearing your family laughing downstairs because you feel like you can’t be a part of them and learning at a young age to love family always but that family isn’t always love Depression is wanting to take love and your heart and break them into tiny little pieces and throw them into waves, to throw them away Depression is a foot when the shoe hasn’t been broken in yet, is you when you haven’t broken life in, is seeing happy people and thinking they all look the same, like the front covers of magazines with smiles reaching their eyes when yours can’t. Depression is wishing you could package your smiles into tiny little piles and hand them to people more deserving of them because you know you’re wasting them with half-assed lines of “I’m fine” Depression is having to view your past as if it wasn’t yours, because to accept it as reality is to accept finality of your life through suicide. Depression is a hooded figure standing just outside of a wooden doorway and when you close the door out of fear it keeps pounding, possessive, ****** and when you open the door out of anger you shout, “I’M SCARED” to thin air but your voice comes out as a whisper.
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Feb 25, 2014
Feb 25, 2014 at 8:34 PM UTC
I Know Depression (Slam Poem, Edited Version)
Everyone talks about depression as if they know it. But what they don’t know is that depression is a hooded figure standing just outside of a wooden doorway, it’s feeling the blood dripping down your skin and having the sick thought of “Oh, look how beautiful the red is” (they always say red is my color). Depression is lying on your bed for hours on end, salt tracks lining your face like the scars on your ankles, staring at your ceiling tracing patterns in the paint and accepting death in life with this hole in your chest because death is a reward, an escape from this pain you deserve to feel. Depression is writing sick poetry on skin and publishing it with scars, cutting on ankles, not wrists because you’re scared you’ll get in trouble but you so desperately need to be seen, and never are. Depression is writing the word “alone” and seeing the word “home”, accepting the pain like a gift because you deserve it. Depression is admitting suicidal thoughts to paper and not to people, and loving the broken things, hoping to tie them together, thinking maybe things will get better, but knowing that’s just wishful thinking. Depression is hearing your mother call you monster and disgusting through the too-thin walls of your door when she thinks you can’t hear, and then telling you to your face that you have no right to cry, as if sadness is a privilege and you’re so pathetic that you don’t deserve it. Depression is shutting yourself up in your room and hearing your family laughing downstairs because you feel like you can’t be a part of them and learning at a young age to love family always but that family isn’t always love Depression is wanting to take love and your heart and break them into tiny little pieces and throw them into waves, to throw them away Depression is a foot when the shoe hasn’t been broken in yet, is you when you haven’t broken life in, is seeing happy people and thinking they all look the same, like the front covers of magazines with smiles reaching their eyes when yours can’t. Depression is wishing you could package your smiles into tiny little piles and hand them to people more deserving of them because you know you’re wasting them with half-assed lines of “I’m fine” Depression is having to view your past as if it wasn’t yours, because to accept it as reality is to accept finality of your life through suicide. Depression is a hooded figure standing just outside of a wooden doorway and when you close the door out of fear it keeps pounding, possessive, ****** and when you open the door out of anger you shout, “I’M SCARED” to thin air but your voice comes out as a whisper.
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He calls her his princess, his beautiful queen yes everything's perfect this isn't a dream. They are amazing together, a couple so sweet their love so young is a miraculous feet.
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Jun 12, 2012
Jun 12, 2012 at 2:11 PM UTC
Love so young
. A poet's heart isn't like any other... It's the tears that trickle with radiance through words.      It's a treasure trove that hides but longs to      be found.           It's a book shelved high that wants to           be read.                It's the freest of all birds caged but                unbound... A poet's heart isn't like any other... It doesn't beat to the capable strokes of the artist.      It doesn't pump in the most vibrant of      colours.           It doesn't wield a paintbrush to           translate its thoughts.                But it can see through the eyes of                painters... A poet's heart isn't like any other... It doesn't conform to the conventional parameters of lyrics.      It doesn't bind itself to the requirements      of musical harmony.           It doesn't follow the conventions of           genres.                But it sings its voice loud without                restrictions of melody... A poet's heart isn't like any other... It's an open secret, that whispers in metaphoric codes.      It's an exploding universe, that merges      back into galaxies.           It's a sought after painting, that boasts           of unfathomable beauty.                It's an everlasting song, that echoes                within the poet that embodies...
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Jan 19, 2015
Jan 19, 2015 at 10:54 AM UTC
A Poet's Heart
. A poet's heart isn't like any other... It's the tears that trickle with radiance through words.      It's a treasure trove that hides but longs to      be found.           It's a book shelved high that wants to           be read.                It's the freest of all birds caged but                unbound... A poet's heart isn't like any other... It doesn't beat to the capable strokes of the artist.      It doesn't pump in the most vibrant of      colours.           It doesn't wield a paintbrush to           translate its thoughts.                But it can see through the eyes of                painters... A poet's heart isn't like any other... It doesn't conform to the conventional parameters of lyrics.      It doesn't bind itself to the requirements      of musical harmony.           It doesn't follow the conventions of           genres.                But it sings its voice loud without                restrictions of melody... A poet's heart isn't like any other... It's an open secret, that whispers in metaphoric codes.      It's an exploding universe, that merges      back into galaxies.           It's a sought after painting, that boasts           of unfathomable beauty.                It's an everlasting song, that echoes                within the poet that embodies...
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In a world without technology, can you imagine how it would be? To not have any lights. We'll probably stay home at night. In a world without technology, we'll lose forms of connectivity. We'll not have wifi or 3G, distance will be as it should be. However, without technology, We won't have people far away, because we can only walk on foot. Most will live at home for good. Without technology, perhaps there'll be more sincerity, where more people would be seen, not looking at their phone screens. Instead they'll stop and listen, giving undivided attention, to the people by their side. Perhaps without technology, we would have to do things manually. Life may be tough physically. But with technology, is our life really that easy? Is the world really as it should be? Are people living in harmony? Or is there more strife? More people losing their lives? Or is there more pain, more people dying in vain? What about pollution? Isn't it part of our contribution? All the fuels and carbon, it'll soon bring us to extinction. Our earth today is now diseased, life on earth is not at peace. We can deny all this, And this is the utter irony, while it gives us mass connection, It reduces engagement, attention and perhaps even compassion. "Across the globe, millions reported dying", ends up being desensitizing. Technology's connectivity, leaves us more detached than we should be.
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Oct 18, 2014
Oct 18, 2014 at 8:53 PM UTC
Technology
Unclasp your fingers Your clenched fists And know the release of Giving in Let him drift away Let the ocean stand between you As a testament To the vast expanse That exists there now. Stop fighting the waves. Stop braving the icy waters Arm over arm To reach him on the other side. The water will always win. And you never were much of a swimmer. He's just a distant island now Shrouded in fog Somewhere over the horizon. Rest now, The fight is over. Your mangled, frantic heart Can slow And begin another tempo When it's no longer bleeding over An unreachable coastline.
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Oct 19, 2015
Oct 19, 2015 at 4:51 PM UTC
Letting Go isn't the Same as Giving Up.
In a wakeful contradiction, It lays fact between my fiction. Tangling subatomics, It unravels, as its tricks spin Deeper, toward the outward . . .                              It won’t let up, Until I give in. Over matter, lay my mind . . . I tell a lie to pass the time . . . But there’s no reason nor a rhyme —                              Less still, a purpose? I search for something To remind my mind         That there is truth, That isn’t worthless. But as always, failure appears In a sort-of amnesiac continuity, And my reality lies to my own mind, Just as well As it succeeds in its futility. With destruction as its manifest, It tells me that I stand my tallest Upon two buckled knees. Just as faith will find one’s doubt —                   A search within has left without. It seems that an answer, once sought out,                   Will be left lacking its question. My truth divides itself,                    As the product Of infinite misdirection. I try to substitute a reason, for a rhyme. But with no lies left to pass the time . . .                       I swallow a dose of ignorance. It goes down Smoother than the truth. In a war that started with a truce, This world betrayed my faith To show me:        That I'm only tall enough             Once I’ve been                                                   cut                                                     down                                                            slowly. A pill too large to swallow,          I think I’m choking on myself Or the irony of asking,            “How could I be so careless?” Here I stand, Barely standing,                    Consumed almost entirely By my own dry-heaving self-awareness Each night I am left to fight the fears That my nightmares create; I’m still running from my past,                    Yet, haunted by my fate. They walk beside me always,                    Shadowing wholeheartedly — They exist as a duality, Both “apart from,”                          And “a part of” me. In truth, These ghosts have taught me very little,                           Aside from what I hate. But, I've come to learn, not to fear                           The forceful hands of fate. For, I shudder not, at the thought of destiny,                           Or the inevitable in time . . . Instead, I fear the eventuality of the choices That were solely, And entirely, mine. I fear that my will may be Of enough influence, alone . . . That fate itself may collapse Beneath decisions like my own. Or that I, myself, Might be constructing What destruction I will find Among my shattered spirits And convictions, In these depths, to which I climb. ​
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Jul 3, 2018
Jul 3, 2018 at 9:43 PM UTC
A Search Within Has Left Without
In a wakeful contradiction, It lays fact between my fiction. Tangling subatomics, It unravels, as its tricks spin Deeper, toward the outward . . .                              It won’t let up, Until I give in. Over matter, lay my mind . . . I tell a lie to pass the time . . . But there’s no reason nor a rhyme —                              Less still, a purpose? I search for something To remind my mind         That there is truth, That isn’t worthless. But as always, failure appears In a sort-of amnesiac continuity, And my reality lies to my own mind, Just as well As it succeeds in its futility. With destruction as its manifest, It tells me that I stand my tallest Upon two buckled knees. Just as faith will find one’s doubt —                   A search within has left without. It seems that an answer, once sought out,                   Will be left lacking its question. My truth divides itself,                    As the product Of infinite misdirection. I try to substitute a reason, for a rhyme. But with no lies left to pass the time . . .                       I swallow a dose of ignorance. It goes down Smoother than the truth. In a war that started with a truce, This world betrayed my faith To show me:        That I'm only tall enough             Once I’ve been                                                   cut                                                     down                                                            slowly. A pill too large to swallow,          I think I’m choking on myself Or the irony of asking,            “How could I be so careless?” Here I stand, Barely standing,                    Consumed almost entirely By my own dry-heaving self-awareness Each night I am left to fight the fears That my nightmares create; I’m still running from my past,                    Yet, haunted by my fate. They walk beside me always,                    Shadowing wholeheartedly — They exist as a duality, Both “apart from,”                          And “a part of” me. In truth, These ghosts have taught me very little,                           Aside from what I hate. But, I've come to learn, not to fear                           The forceful hands of fate. For, I shudder not, at the thought of destiny,                           Or the inevitable in time . . . Instead, I fear the eventuality of the choices That were solely, And entirely, mine. I fear that my will may be Of enough influence, alone . . . That fate itself may collapse Beneath decisions like my own. Or that I, myself, Might be constructing What destruction I will find Among my shattered spirits And convictions, In these depths, to which I climb. ​
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Loyalty it's an odd word isn't it? break it down Loyal simple enough you have your side and you stick to it but how about the T that caps off the word the intersecting lines almost standing for intersecting ideals and ideas I think that's significant because in this world people are always loyal until the end where going a different direction is the smart thing to do
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Sep 20, 2014
Sep 20, 2014 at 3:29 AM UTC
Loyalty