"I love you to death."
"I'll always love you"
"Please don't fall for someone else"
the words found there way out through your tears, through your desperation.

It was too late, I did fall for someone else.
His arms became home.
His voice became a blanket.
His eyes became shelter
His crooked glasses became a source of comfort

You?
You became my melancholic normal.

It's been a long time, since I've been here.

Over this time, I fell in love and stayed in love.

People have come and go, just like normal
Life stayed on the steady course, as always.

i love you,
i really do

i just can't seem to accept it.

i'm not here.
                              i'm not alive
i'm not awake
                            this is not real.