Need no *****, need no drug,
what I need is just a hug.

Boring routine, unexciting WFHs,
Sitting all day on computer,
just gaining weight and cursing China,
puzzled head coding and solving bug,
what l need is just a hug.

Missing the taste of Biryanis,
all those extra cheese pizzas,
above all that exotic street food and chai,
Even a simple bottle of beer.
**** this Virus is a real ****.
Need no fast food, need no *****,
Still, what I need is just a hug.

I need you close,
I need you here,
just beside me near,
spread your arms, cover me like a shrug,
I just need the warmth of your hug.

I asked her to stay away,
I wanted her to leave.
I needed more space,
This is what I used to believe.


Frustrated by her demands and expectations,
I felt little less of freedom.
Started hating to explain how I spent my hours,
what was I doing and what did I had for lunch.


Bored of relationship,
Thought I needed a break,
Just a bit more space,
to do the things I crave.
She misunderstood me terribly,
I adjusted but failed miserably,
Started losing myself trying to keep her closely.


Finally, the separation happened,
It got over I was delighted,
went out on a trip, partied, enjoyed.
She was the one who suffered the most
Things got better as the time passed by.

I pushed her away,
I made her weep,
Not thinking much asked her to leave.
Break up was tough on her,
But she got through,
I made her cry so the Karma has to come for you.

I Met her again at our favourite place,
in hope of getting her back ,
but I could see it in her eyes, that I have been replaced.
Now everything is finished,
everything is blown.
I paused but she moved on.
Now I am the one who's ******* left alone.

Can I call you ?
I miss your voice.
I miss our long calls.
I want to hear you say my name.

Can i text you ?,
unblock me!
I feel so alone.
I feel so foolish.

Can you come and see me ?
May be for the one last time,
Or Could you please hurt me some more,
And give me something to move On.
:(

I felt something,
Beating in my chest,
I thought I would never feel that again,
After that break up, but i did.

Her slim figure, that face,
It's her mistake,
Her smile , her hairstyle ,
That side profile,
It's again gonna put me on trial.

Don't wanna go down that lane again,
I am afraid to fall in love again.

My head aches ,
I can't sleep,
Her thoughts never stop,
Imagining things that I should have said,
Things that I can still do , to get her back.

She texted she wanted to come back,
She made me believe she is not happy in her new relationship,
She wanted old Me back she said,
But took a complete U-turn when we actually met.

I want these thoughts to fade away
I want to give up trying,
I want this ache to stop,
I want to sleep like a baby,
I just don't want to wake up ever again. :'(

Please come back again...
For my wounds have healed.

I wiped em' off,
still they keep flowin'.
My white pillow is almost soakin',
need a remedy to this pain.

Don't know why but crying feels good.
Letting your anger out.
Shedding off your ego,
Introspecting,
I guess these tears are the holly water,
Which is gonna purify my soul.

That pure innocent smile,
Your childish face and that side profile,
Your silky hair and that perfect hairstyle,
Would never forget you.
**** I miss you!

The touch of your smooth skin,
That beautiful little chin,
Your blushy cheeks and that grin,
Still I adore you.
**** I miss you!

Those big dope eyes,
That Stupid nose ,
Those size 7 feet and pinky toes.
Your medications and Ayurvedic dose.
Wish again to feel you.
**** I miss you!

Baby I still remember,
that freezy December,
The day we fell off the scooter,
Your stupid buggy computer.
Our first date and the perfect kiss,
That raining night we spent in balcony
When you burnt the toast and macrony,
That birthday card you made me,
Helping in projects and assignments,
You taking care when I got sick,
I recall all those perfect memories of you,
still there's a place for you,
**** I miss you!

I wish you would have waited,
I would have come back,
But I can't blame you,
It was me who needed the space,
The fault is my OWN!
So I am the one left ALONE! :'(

Dear heart!,
please calm down!
it's just a text from her,
doesn't mean anything.
Please take it easy,
steady and queasy.

Had this discussion before,
Last time drowning in sorrows,
broken apart in pieces,
trapped in Band-Aids and stitches.
that sharp pain, felt like a heart attack.
Can't see you in that shape again.
Don't act like a clown!
and please calm down!

Sure she's nothing to say,
same old crap and foul play,
just some what's ups and fake concerns display.
You are gullible and innocent,
her words are your stimulant.

You will cry again and crack,
so let me handle this attack.
just sit back uptown!
and please calm the **** down!

Don't cry, keep your eyes dry,
Don't curse yourself, for its not your fault,
Don't overthink, just halt !
let the time heal the pain,
Just sit tight, your hard work won't go in vein!
Trust me, God has better plans, keep your spirits high!
and just don't cry!

I am done,
I think I have had enough,
Enough of the fake feelings,
And false relationships.
Enough of hurting someone innocent,
Enough of getting hurt by someone unworthy.
Need no favour from anyone,
No love, enough of the lust,
Just someone whom I can blindly trust!!

Today is not my day , I feel low,
Just not in mood, doing everything slow ,
Too tired to work in office, let me go,
Got a client call to attend though.

Its just one of those day,
when nothing goes your way,
people make fun of you and crap they say,
I feel lonely ,I feel stray.

Don't know the reason ,
May be it's her memories' prison,
May be it's that girl's AWKWARD situation,
Or may be it's just this chilly dry season.

Got some cold and some cough,
May be it's just in my mind stuff,
But yeah today life feels tough,
Whatever but yeah I feel low , I feel rough.

Can't beer that stingy anguish again,
No more sleepless nights,
No more fear of losing someone,
Can't be hurting no more.
Don't wanna go that path again
I am afraid to fall in love again.
More than that I ******* can't hurt anyone else ever again.

I don't hate you for
Not loving me anymore,
I hate myself now ,
For still loving you...

I feel alone,
But,
I don't wanna be.
I pushed away people,
Who loved me.
It's in my nature,
That I can't see.
Then I get alone!
BUT
I don't wanna be! :(

I don't know why,
My feelings have died,
I am a ******' rock,
May be I have felt too much,
That I started to feel nothing.

Nothing seems new,
Nothing appears exciting.
May be this just happens with age,
Or may be I am just too bored of everything.
Everything feels less, everything feels void.

Morning breeze is chilling no more,
Rain doesn't wet me anymore,
Holi appears colourless,
Diwali not so illuminating any more.
Festivals now only means a holiday.
Outings are not so exciting.
***** doesn't effect me much.

What is it , does that happens with everyone or is it just me.!?
Where's all that excitement gone,?
Life has become monotonous and everything is blown!

What I need is a CHANGE.!

I Miss .....
Every strand of your perfect hair,
Every little grin on your cheeks,
Every bite I had with you,
Every scooter ride with you,
Every movie we watched together,
Every beautiful night we spent together,
Every dish you made me,
Every useless fight we had,
Every moment of laughter , sadness,
Success, failure, Pain, joy we shared.

I ******* miss every cell of your body,

Baby ,I do miss the WHOLE of YOU.

I stand in the middle of the road,
Gazing past the path I have traveled,
The path that's yet to be measured.
Wondering how I have changed from a kid to a teenager and then to an adult.
Introspecting my progress,
thrilled for new ways to discover.

I stand in the middle somewhere.
Afraid, excited and hopeful.

In the sun,
We will find our passion.
In the sun,
We will find our purpose.
In the sun,
We will know what truly matters.

In the moon ,
We will get comfort,
In the moon,
We could get wasted.
In the moon ,
Our senses get shady.

We have come too far she said,
too late to get back together,
But is it?

Been 9 months 9 days since we broke-up,
Stupid of me to let you go,
But my love for you has never been low,
Same feelings ,same me
but it's not the same you,
We have come too far she said.
Have we really?

You got a new bf ,
I am still alone ,
Not because I have no options,
But they don't make me feel the way that you do.

I accept my mistake yes i do .
Deep inside I am still waiting for you,
We have divine connection yes it's true,
My heart still groan ,
When I miss your skin and bone.
It's too late she said .
But is it?

YES it is,
I have tried enough,
I have cried enough,
It's time to let you go.
accepting you ain't coming back.

She was my morning sunshine and night's moon,
She was the one who made my life bloom ,
took care of me , sacrificed a lot
what gem I have, I totally forgot.

I did alot when the relationship started,
Cared , motivated her, and fully supported,
always wanted to be by her side,
She was my motivation and my pride,
But with time it all subsided.

Her simple expectations started appearing to be heavy burden,
I got scared when she wanted to move in,
I used to get sweaty whenever she discussed our wedding.
It didn't mean I love her any less.

I needed more time , I needed some space,
Wanted to run away from her every trace,
I pushed her away,
I made her weep,
Not thinking much asked her to leave.

She read my poems and cried all night,
She shared same feelings and texted me in the first light,
The feelings that died got revived again,
I felt alive again,
Now I know what went missing,
My heart was joyous I wanted her back again.

I felt she also want to come back,
But trusting someone again who betrayed you is not easy,
She is in a relationship, leaving him is not easy.

I have realized her importance,
I know what blunder I made,
I want to try one more time,
Baby without you everything is black,
I ******* WANT YOU BACK!

(Dill hote Jo,
Mere seene mei do,
Dusra dill bhi main ,
Tumhe Deta todne ko)

"IF I HAD TWO HEARTS INSIDE ME, THEN I WOULD GIVE THE ANOTHER ONE TOO, FOR YOU TO BREAK."

Thought I was over you but,
little things keeps reminding me of you.

The way used to take that bite off my sandwich, pretend it wasn't you.
When you used to divide our favorite biryani, keeping more for me.
That wrist watch of yours with no second hand.

When you used to try on my new jackets,
Then refusing to take it off anytime soon.
Loving everything that I gave you,
Collecting gifts, roses, even the wrapper of the first bournville  that we had together.

You ain't here to try on my jackets no more,
To sneak a bite off my sandwich,
To practice that couple salsa dance with me.
To ride with me in perfect weather.

I see you in every girl I know,
Everything around reminds me of you.
Never thought I would miss you this much,
But I ******' do.
Wonder IF YOU STILL MISS ME TOO!!

I am an introvert,
Please leave me be.

I don't speak non-sense,
I am shy,
Chill my own way,
Like my own company,
Than rather be in yours.
So please leave me be.

Please manage to understand me,
I am a few words man.
Won't give a **** to explain myself either,
Nevermind what the people think,
just leave me be!

Who said what!?
When the team party is!?
Who's that new girl in the office!?
Who's ******' whom?!
Don't care!

Need no body,
Gonna be kickin' alone,
Better be lonely than hurt,
So leave me be!

Stressed ?, Tensed ?, Frustrated in a blow ?,
Go to desert, beach, hill or a mountain of snow,
Sure, plan a trip, better make it solo.
Be free, feel the thrill, fear, love as you go.
Travel to unknowns, meet strangers say hello.

Feeling hurt?,
Stretch a desert,
Feel the sand,
Slipping through your hand,
Realise everything isn't in your control
A camel safari make it a goal.
Experience the culture, mix with locals
to rediscover yourself.

Are you in pain?
Head to mountains,
Altitude will test you in every way,
Your petty issues will go stray,
Try trekking, feel the snow,
Chilly breeze upland it blow,
Challenge your limits.
Trivial issues but mighty mountains digits.

When in doubt,
A beach you scout,
Feel the tropical sun,
Respect the relentless sea overrun,
You surf, sail and try the ****** fun.

Go beyond, challenge your limits,
Experience the miracles of nature,
Subside your pain, let stress be a bygone,
Rediscover yourself in the far unknown.

We tend to push people away to get our own personal space,
And then
we cry of loneliness.

Love the most amazing feeling in the world,
Makes you feel satisfied emotionally,
Gives you some of the best memories,
But trusting someone to that extent,
Giving them the power to hurt you to the deepest,
Is It worth It?

Everyone has felt it,
Every has been there done that,
Heartbreak , separation, breakup
People have felt it all.
have they become smart or dumb?
They don't fall in love no more.

Hi hello , club ,fun ,thrill
Movie fun, Netflix and chill,
the culture of ***** and pill.
Few weeks thing then new person and skills.

Same is what I have been doing,
Don't wanna continue like this,
I wanna feel the new bliss,
Wanna feel alive again,
I want to fall in love for the first time again.

It's Not love yet, but I wanna make love to you ,
too early to decide,
What this connection implies.

Wanna just feel your body,
That mischievous smile makes my senses shoddy
Wanna just touch your smooth skin,
Your silky hair and that grin,
The kiss of your lips,
a beat my heart skips.

About last night,
Guess, I wasn't thinking right,
Even i don't wanna stress out
Let the time pass and see how it turns out.

We cling to memories,
As if they define us,
But they don't.
What we do actually defines us!

It's crazy how we yearn for people
who don't appreciate the efforts we put in for being with them, doing everything in our hand to make them happy.
And
At the same time,
ignoring the ones who are with us already,
doing their very best to make us happy.

Just enough moments for myself.
Not too much that I feel lonely,
Not too less that I couldn't
Introspect,
couldn't do the things I crave,
Couldn't play that guitar,
Or couldn't watch that series I love,
That I start losing myself.

not too much that I tend to be lonely,
Tend to overthink things that ain't
in control,
Tend to miss that ex that cheated on me,
That I have no one to share my feelings.
That I couldn't sleep .

Yeah I need it ,
Not too less,
Not too much,
Just enough to satisfy my lust.

When it hurts to move on
Just remember the pain
You felt hanging on.

Finally someone different,
someone beautiful focused and confident,
Has an elegance and a magical aura,
Saw her first passing by when I was reading quora.

Her face is a delicious treat,
Whenever I see her my heart skips a beat,
She looks pure, she looks innocent
kinda shy, her smile is my stimulant.
she loves writing, what a coincident,
Has a decent sense of fashion,
discovered writing blogs is her passion.

She smiles less often,
Looks pretty worried most of the time,
Maybe because it's a new place for her,
or maybe something else,
Yeah, She does speak less,
She seems like a mystery,
Wish we match a great chemistry.

I want to know her more,
I want her to know me as well,
I am interested I wanna tell,
For now, I just wish she is single as well.

On her, my <3  got stuck,
gonna give it a try, Wish me luck! ;)

Love is complex than I thought,
She is in, but I am not.

Started as a casual one,
Like Netflix and fun.
No strings attached, no trust,
Just satisfying each other's lust.
Would go out chicken and *****
Gift tees , guitar and those Nike shoes.

Now things have gone a little too south,
She texts, she calls all the time,
She feels, she fights all the time.
She says this is love about.
But, I am in total doubt.

Never wanted it to turn out this way,
It started casually in the month of may.
We have come so far and now it's all gray.
Difficult to leave, difficult to stay.

I do feel for her,
I do adore her, but it's not love anyway.
Don't know what I feel,
But not ready for a relationship in any way!

People are disgusting,
They'll hurt you in
meanest possible ways.
They'll misunderstand you,
judge you!

People are disgusting,
Don't talk to them much,
Just keep it in optimum touch.
They'll treat you like a ****,
If they make a mistake it's no Biggie,
If you commit then it's a major felony.

I choose Netflix instead,
It does Judge my interest,
Shows me the best watchable result,
Better are the characters and stories
Than fake people and their hollow lies,

I choose Netflix
for my 'Me' time,
To avoid fake friends and their self centered
conversation,
Except these characters and stories ain't real like people,
To wipe my tears and hug me when em alone,
But
They ain't gonna hurt me either.

From your straight hair to
the outfits you wear,
that black leather shoe pair,
even the "no makeup" makeup flair.
Everything about you seems perfect, I swear!

Your sweet fine face and my feelings resurrect,
supercilious smile with power that anyone may deflect
even the cute pimple on your face that eject,
moreover the positive vibes you reflect.
****! everything about you seems perfect.

The way you smile,
eyes almost closed, hiding teeth quarter mile,
my heart skips beats for a while,
the way you tie up your hair in that quirky style,
your eccentric figure and that side profile,
orotund low voice gonna put me on trial.

Upbeat personality and attitude you project,
Girl everything about you seems just Perfect!

I am not ready,
not yet prepared,
I feel nothing,
Not yet over her,
Shez still inside me
You please don't love me.

I won't treat you well
Won't give you much importance,
That would hurt you ,I know,
Don't come closer you will grow,
I have her bits inside of me,
Please don't love me.

You call a lot,
You text me all day,
You do care a lot, I know,
I have disease of getting bored inside me,
Please don't love me.

I am too bad to deserve you,
My heart is too broken to put all pieces back together,
I have felt too much that I feel nothing for you,
There's a void inside me,
You please don't love me!

It pinches , stings,
It demotivates you ,
It makes you feel humiliated,
Rejection!

Spoils your mood,
Make you regret of your actions,
You wish you have never gone for it
in the first place,
Rejection!

It's okay to be rejected,
Be patient, stay calm,
Because God has planned someone/something better than you assumed.

Take me back,
To the time when I was just an innocent kid,
Life was simpler ,Dreams in eyes and pure by heart,
Careless , free spirited, and all I needed was to play and eat chocolates.

Take me back ,
To the time I saw her first at school.
Simple and sweet like an angel ,
fair like milk, love her short silky hairs,
Still remember her smiling in that red skirt.

Take me back ,
To the college farewell night ,
When I was drunk on top of the world,
When i proposed her and she became mine.

Take me back ,
To the time when we were together,
When you were mine,
I wasn't alone,
when I wasn't afraid to love.

When you don't have it,
You feel the urge,
It might be just an infatuation,
You want it at any cost,
You see nothing else greater,
Nothing else precious.

It could be a person ,
It could be a thing,
Or some place you wanna be,
Or some future event you want to get to.

Now when you have it,
You don't value it much,
Ignore it for your simpler lust,
Its there, for you it doesn't matter,
You feel you deserve Something/someone better.

Value whatever you already have
Love people in your life,
Cherish every moment,
Be thankful to whatever you got,
Live life to the fullest.
CHEERS !

You are the real saviour,
You guys keep me kickin',
Your unexpected texts bring smile,
Your weird memes, and boring morning messages annoys me,
But yeah it feels good to have those,
For at least there's someone who have not forgotten me.

Calling just to hear my voice,
Not just for your mean purposes,
To share your story,
You share your dark secrets,
Trusting me to keep em' safe.

I may be busy sometimes,
Not able to be in contact.
But I want to let you guys know
You all mean a lot.

Thanks for being there for me when my ex left,
Thanks for bringing me that cake, when I couldn't be home on my birthday.
Thanks for hanging out,
For dealing my tantrums and sticking around.


THANKS
For I would have been gravely alone without you!