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22.2k · Jul 2014
Makeup
Adriean New Jul 2014
She wakes up every morning & looks in the mirror.
Not happy by what she sees,
she covers her face with makeup.
She thinks it makes her look pretty,
but I know she's pretty without it
& I tell her everyday, hoping she believes me.
16.0k · Jul 2014
Mistakes.
Adriean New Jul 2014
You think your life is going well,
when before you know it,
everything flashes before your eyes.
We are humans. We make mistakes.
Being a teenager, I've realized I've made a lot.
Time to change my ways.
For myself.
I have learned from my mistake, & I feel like not everyone does.
No one sees I'm trying to be a better... me.
10.0k · Jul 2014
Music Speaks
Adriean New Jul 2014
Music speaks besides the obvious words.
Music tells us it's okay to be different.
Music tells us don't let that boy hurt you
anymore.
Music tells us things we don't want to hear,
but we need to.
It'll tell you what some people are too
afraid to tell you.
Music blocks out the noise & pain we feel.
That's why we connect to music so much.
9.4k · Jul 2014
My Birthday
Adriean New Jul 2014
My birthday is tomorrow,
but I don't care.
My birthday is tomorrow,
but it's just another day.
My birthday is tomorrow,
but it doesn't matter.
My birthday is tomorrow,
& I'm just one day closer to death.
It really is tomorrow though.
8.2k · Jul 2014
Runaway Darling
Adriean New Jul 2014
Come with me, lets runaway darling.
Let's get out of this old town,
& see what comes our way.

Grab nothing princess, let us just go.
Our whole world is a show.

We can fall in love in Paris,
or roam the streets in Venice.

We'll sleep in the hills of Tennessee,
& wake up & see the sun in your eyes.

Come & run away with me, darling.
The world is our destination.
7.1k · Jul 2014
Childhood
Adriean New Jul 2014
I miss being a child who
didn't give a care for the world
except playing outside.
I remember playing in the back yard
all day till it got dark & momma yelling for
me to come in for dinner & to shower
before bed.
I miss not worrying about anything
except what stick I wanted to play with.
Growing up is hard. Make the best of it now.
4.8k · Aug 2014
Dangerous Girl
Adriean New Aug 2014
She's dangerous.
The way her eyes pierce your soul.
The way her kisses are deadly to your body.
Her touch will melt your skin.
Her love is powerful enough
to sweep you off your feet.
That girl,
she's dangerous.
But you,
you like the danger.
You're addicted to hers.
You know what I mean.
4.5k · Jul 2014
Listen To Me
Adriean New Jul 2014
I want you to take a moment
& listen to me.

When you're laying next to the one you love,
do you ever put your head up against
their chest, & listen to them breath?
If you haven't, you should.
It's one of the most peaceful things
you could ever hear.

When you're laying next to the one you love,
do you ever just listen to them speak?
I mean really listen.
If you haven't, you should.
Listen to how the words just flow from their lips.
It's one of the sweetest things you could ever hear.

Try listening to the one you love.
Take a moment & listen.
You'll hear things different if you do.
Trust me, I know.
I learned this recently.
Adriean New Nov 2015
This girl is in love with a girl who wants to be a guy.
She said all his features look right.
She calls him her boyfriend & doesn't think twice.
She wears his t shirts like the other girls do their boyfriends.
She says the he carries himself is tall & strong.
But something must be wrong.
Because this girl is in love with a girl who wants to be a guy.
Personal
3.8k · Sep 2014
Brown Eyes
Adriean New Sep 2014
I remember
Those brown eyes
I had a dilemma for almost an entire day
Is this love?
I lay down on my bed
Just thinking of that girl
These thoughts were a wonderful escape from the present
She ran through my mind
Spun dreams of
Wanting her. & those brown eyes
I started to think..
Details upon details, playing with the fragments of my dreams.
3.4k · Aug 2014
Autumn
Adriean New Aug 2014
Autumn is around the corner, darling.
The air gets colder, & the trees start losing leaves.
Autumn is beautiful.
Orange, red, yellow colors everywhere.
Late nights, cool air.
Cups of tea.
The perfect cuddling weather.
My favorite time of year.
3.1k · Jan 2015
I Am Who I Am
Adriean New Jan 2015
For years of feeling trapped.
For years in hiding.
For years of making everyone else happy.
I quit.

I'm breaking open.
I'm busting my shell to pieces.
I'm tearing the walls down for good.
For me.

I cut my hair.
I dressed how I wanted.
I am who I am.
For me.

But I'm still trapped.
But I'm still in hiding.
But I'm still not me.
I'm lost.

With these breast.
With this voice.
With this body.
I'm not me.

My *** won't define me.
My looks won't save me.
My voice will hurt me.
I need to change.

I'm forgetting society's idea of "normal."
I'm not a 'princess,' I'm a 'prince.'
I'm going to be happy.

Trans.

No more pain.
No more hiding.
No more being scared.
I'm human too. I belong too. I deserve to be happy,
just like everyone else
3.1k · Aug 2014
School
Adriean New Aug 2014
Teacher lectures.
Talking students.
Busy hallways.
Quiet librarys.
Running in gym.
Crying in chem.
Numbers & letters.
Words in a book.
Lockers slamming
& jamming.
Study.
Stress.
Test.
School.
I'm in school.
3.0k · Jul 2014
My Girlfriend
Adriean New Jul 2014
My girlfriend is the best.
My girlfriend has stolen something from me though.
I was scared at first but now it's okay.
She stole my heart
& she can keep it.
I know she'll take great care of it though.
She put her own lock on it, & she
swallowed the key.
My heart is heavy with love.
My girlfriend is mine.
Adriean New Jul 2014
There are some pros & cons
of spooning.

Pro #1:
Getting to hold her at night.
Con #1:
Her hair is all in your face.

Pro #2:
You're close to her all night.
Con #2:
You have no place but to lay on one arm.

There are some pros & cons of being the big spoon.
But it doesn't bother you
because you're holding the love of your life.
2.9k · Aug 2014
No Different Than The Rest
Adriean New Aug 2014
I'm not just lesbian,
I'm human.
They're not just gay,
they're human.
& you're not just straight,
you're human.
Gay marriage
is just marriage.
We don't have gay or lesbian
feelings.
We have feelings.
We hurt, cry, smile &
are happy, too.
We're no different
than the rest.
Strong subject I feel about.
2.2k · Aug 2014
Scars
Adriean New Aug 2014
The scars are a constant reminder
of what we've been through.
It takes almost everything
we have, not to add onto
the tally marks
lined across our skin
when everything we go through,
breaks us apart.
You're not the only one.
Adriean New Aug 2014
The problem with relationship
today is that people
don't respect other
people.
Like, hello?
They're in a relationship.
Back off.
Another problem,
the cheaters.
You're suppose to commit to
one person.
Give them your all.

Its all messed up now a days.
Trust, commitment, respect & honesty.
Try it sometime.
Relationships used to be so much better.
1.9k · Aug 2014
Couldn't Sleep
Adriean New Aug 2014
I couldn't sleep last night
& that's because you weren't there.
I need you by my side at night
& here is why.
I need your warmth
when I get cold.
I need you fingers tracing my
arm to help me sleep.
I need your body
so I can feel safe.
After all, I need my
soul mate
so our hearts can sync.
Totally true
1.8k · Aug 2014
In Bed All Day
Adriean New Aug 2014
If I didn't have cores to do,
I'd stay in bed all day with you.
We'd cuddle, kiss & watch movies all day.
If I didn't have ten thousand things to do,
I'd stay in bed with you.
But,
I do, so I can't.
That's why I enjoy coming home to you at night,
8 to 10 hours of cuddling with you tonight, baby.
I Love Staying In Bed With You
1.7k · Jul 2014
If I Could Build A Soul Mate
Adriean New Jul 2014
If I could build my perfect soul mate,
I'd build it like you.
My soul mate will
have beautiful eyes so I can get lost in them at night.
& long arms so they can hug me tight.
My soul mate will have a sweet voice,
so I feel comfort.
But I don't need to build a soul mate,
because I already have you.
1.6k · Jul 2014
Food
Adriean New Jul 2014
Everybody likes to eat.
Some more than others.
Food is like happiness for our mouths
& our stomachs.
But nothing is bad with a little food.
It comforts us when nothing else done.
I was eating food & being upset
1.5k · Jul 2014
I Hate You
Adriean New Jul 2014
I hate you
&
it's all because of how you treated me.
No ones fault but your own.
Adriean New Jul 2014
Your heart & mind battle everyday.
They battle inside you
like
World War 3.
Just like other wars in history,
someone wanted one thing,
but
others wanted it different.
Your heart wants them.
Your brain says no.
Grab your helmet.
There is going to be war
& it has just began.
Maybe you need a better reason for a war.
1.3k · Aug 2014
If You Fall In Love With Me
Adriean New Aug 2014
If you fall in love with me,
you'll be falling in love with a big nerd.
I like to read & I'll love to read to you.
I like to write & I will even write little
love poems to you.
I think forehead kisses are cute, so you'll
get some of those too.
I like museums, & parks.
I even like playing video games,
& I'll ask you to play with me.
I get overly excited about the science
channel on tv.
That's how somethings would be,
if you fell in love with me.
It's who I am
1.3k · Aug 2014
Food Owns My Heart
Adriean New Aug 2014
Food owns my heart.
Like, pizza.
1.2k · Jun 2015
Not Worth It
Adriean New Jun 2015
Walk.
Don't run.
You might miss the morning sun
Or you might forget to breathe.
See, it's easy to get caught up in the world.
If you're always looking down at the technology no bigger than a basketball then you might miss out on your partner looking at your lips just waiting...
For a kiss.
Or
Maybe if you're stuck at work in a cubical typing with the sounds of a hundred clicks a minute then you might miss the chance to see the rainbow after it rains or
the little man with the *** of gold.
Just walk for a moment for the sake of our generation.
Let go of the idea that technology runs us & get outside & run with your dog or actually get down & play army men with your kids.
One day it'll be too late & the world we know will no longer be a world
We want to live out.
1.1k · Jul 2014
Falling
Adriean New Jul 2014
The scariest thing about falling in love is
that you're simply falling.
Just like if you're climbing rocks
& you slip & you feel your heart drop.
That's what it's like falling in love.
You slipped into their mind.
Falling for their beauty.
Falling for their smarts.
You're falling
&
it's scary.
But you can't help but to fall
for them.
Because they're perfect to you.
What it feels like to me.
1.1k · Jul 2014
You're My Drug
Adriean New Jul 2014
You're like a drug &
I'm addicted.
I can't get enough of you.
Your kisses are the most powerful.
I think I need them everyday to
survive
&
when I go a day without them,
I go a tad bit crazy.
Your touch could be a drug as well.
I yearn for it in the latest hours
of the night.
You're also my cure
from what you have me addicted to.
1.1k · Jul 2014
If You Could See
Adriean New Jul 2014
If you could see what I see through my eyes,
you'd see how I look at you.
You'd see that I look highly of you.
You'd see that I'm happy with you.
You'd even see that I fall harder
when I see you smile.

If you could see what I see through my eyes,
you'd see my eyes only see you.
987 · Jul 2014
Bullies
Adriean New Jul 2014
Bullies aren't cool. They're jerks. End of it.
840 · Jul 2015
It's a Game You Can't Win
Adriean New Jul 2015
Took me 18 years to realize I didn't want to really live because I wasn't living.
You're not living when you feel like you're dying everyday.
You're not living when you break down & cut lines across your skin like tally marks.
You're not living when you can barely breathe.
You're not living.
But you're alive & there's nothing you can do about it.
Pain & suffer.
It's a game.
You're facing your own monsters because you learned they weren't hiding in your closet but instead they're hiding inside you.
You're fighting against your soul.
Your body.
You don't know how to defeat them without defeating yourself.
So what do you do?
You give up.
You lost.
It's over.
Good night.
838 · Feb 2015
Our Difference
Adriean New Feb 2015
I told you I'd do anything for you.
I told you I'd give you my coat
when you're cold.
I told you I would love you
even on your worst days.
I told you I'd travel oceans
just to see you.
I told you I would kiss you
when you were hurt.
I told you all these things,
thinking you'd do the same
in return.
Turns out,
you kept your coat so
so you wouldn't freeze.
You took your love back,
when I was struggling.
You didn't even cross puddles
if it meant you had to get wet
just to see me.
You wouldn't kiss my scars,
which hurt me
second most to you.
Never do more for someone who wouldn't do if for you.
838 · Jul 2014
A Cigarette or Two
Adriean New Jul 2014
You had a bad morning,
so you pick up a cigarette & light it once.
You had a bad day at work,
so on your break,
you pick up two more.
You're stuck in traffic,
so you smoke three more on the way home
& don't think twice about it.
You walk in your house
& see the bills stacked up.
Stressed, you smoke a few more.
You think nothing of those things, until one day,
your child is born...
that was the last day you ever picked one up.
Stop smoking
790 · Feb 2015
To The One I Used To Be
Adriean New Feb 2015
I never hated you.
I never wanted you to go away.
I just needed you to change.
From ever since I was little
I wanted you to be what I like to call
Better.
Different.
I wanted you to be who you're suppose to be.
There's no where to go.
I wanted to wake up
& you just be a dream.
I don't want to hide behind this frame.
I don't want to run & cover & avoid obstacles.
I never hated you.
I just wanted to be me.
I never hated you.
Sincerely, myself.
787 · Feb 2015
My pledge.
Adriean New Feb 2015
I will give you my hoodies
when you're cold,
even if I'm cold too.
I will buy snacks when you're
in the mood for something sweet.
I will rub your feet after
a long day.
I will try to fix your car problems.
I will cook for you
at 2 in the morning.
I will run your bath water &
wash you down if you're too tired,
or not feeling well.
I will run to the drug store
whenever you need medicine
so you don't get sick.
I will kiss all your booboo's.
I will buy you little gifts
& I will clean the house for you
just to give you a break.
I will hold your hand so you
don't feel alone.
I will kiss you right before you go to sleep
& right when you wake up.
I will love you.
Oh yes,
I will love you.
Because you deserve the best.
679 · Jul 2014
Up Late
Adriean New Jul 2014
I'm up late,
thinking about you.
You run across my mind in the late
hours of the night.
I try chasing you, but
it's like you know the hiding spots inside my head.
You smile at me from behind the wise trees,
rooted on my brain.
I think I found you.
I spotted you.
You're right there. I can almost reach you, then
BOOM
I tripped on the tree roots.
Looking up, you're gone.
You're playing mind games,
in the late hours of the night.
Just like you always do.
You're tricky
567 · Jul 2014
Us
Adriean New Jul 2014
Us
You're here for me,
& I'm here for you.
You're what comforts me,
I'm what covers you.
We fit together,
I swear were meant to be.
We look at each other,
& get lost in each others eyes.
The deep brown of yours,
& the shallow green of mine.
Your touch sends sparks through my body,
& my touch gives you chills.
Being together is our own kind of fairy tale.
We'll have a happy forever.
We fit together.
We love each other.
That's our own feeling.
One no one can feel,
ever.
We stick together,
like each others doctor.
You heal me, &
I heal you.
Darling, I love you
& I know you do too.
It's true.
531 · Aug 2014
My Favorite Things
Adriean New Aug 2014
Poetry
The Beach
Alcohol
Pizza
&
you.
Are my favorite things.
528 · Jul 2014
The Power You Have
Adriean New Jul 2014
You have the power to make me feel anything
just by your words that slip
through your beautiful
lips.
You can make me
feel on top of the world,
then
tear me down & make
my heart ache.
You have the power to break me,
but I gave you my heart.
Knowing you could do it,
hoping your love is strong enough
for me, that you won't.
505 · Aug 2014
Heaven
Adriean New Aug 2014
I searched the streets for you.
I've searched the church
& your house.
I didn't give up
so I searched the sky.
Surprised I saw you.
You were up there looking
down at me.
I miss you, please come back.
But I know it's silly to say that.
Knowing God took you for a reason.
But I really miss you
I miss you Grandpa
446 · Jul 2014
I Want You
Adriean New Jul 2014
I'm trying to show you that I love you.
I'm trying to show you I need you.
Darling, please hear me when I say,
I want you in my life.
I want to wake up next to you.
I want to make you breakfast when the sun rises.
I want to cuddle & watch movies when the
moon shines bright.
I can be your one & only,
if...
you'll be my one & only too, darling.
427 · Jul 2014
Nothing Bothers You
Adriean New Jul 2014
I often talk out loud.
But it doesn't seem to bother you.
I know I talk in my sleep about
my awful past.
But it doesn't seem to bother you,
either.
I know I rant about the pain.
But that doesn't seem to bother.
After everything I do,
you listen.
You care.
You're different.
415 · Jul 2014
I Told Them
Adriean New Jul 2014
I told her, "Momma I don't like boys, I'm sorry."
I told him, " Daddy I don't like boys, I'm sorry."
I told them, "Grandma, Grandpa I don't like boys, I'm sorry."

They never said it was okay or that I was accepted.

I told my friends, "Guys, I don't like boys."

They said they still loved me for me & they accept me.

Sometimes you have really good friends. Sometimes your friends are family.
True story
410 · Oct 2014
Toss & Turn
Adriean New Oct 2014
You toss & turn at night
Trying to find comfort.
You think you got it till
Your body aches.
You realize why the
Comfort isn't there.
It's because no one is
in that bed.
No ones there to comfort
Your head.
No one is there to save you from
Those bad dreams.
No ones there to steal the night.
We toss & turn & fight at night.
408 · Aug 2014
Late Night
Adriean New Aug 2014
It's late in the night
& I want to show you whats right.
I'll take you to a whole new height.
I'll be the one who protects you,
just like a knight.
Up in the air, do you see this sight?
I'm not talking about the moonlight.
Darling, I'm talking about you tonight.
I can hold you tight.
There might be a problem though,
the sunlight is coming up.
I'll invite you again tomorrow,
we'll see the starlight,
once again. darling.
380 · Aug 2014
You're Everywhere
Adriean New Aug 2014
I've spent hours of days of a week for months
just to get you out of my head.
I think I get closer everyday,
until I hear a certain song
or see something that reminds me
of you.
No matter how hard I try,
you're always there.
Walking around inside my head.
Stomping, causing me headaches.
I haven't talked to you in months,
but there you are on the radio
or there you are on the internet.
You're everywhere
& nowhere all at once.
Aren't you tired?
I know I am.
Admit it, that person came up again while reading this.
374 · Jul 2014
The World We Live In
Adriean New Jul 2014
We live in a world where,
people are killing others.
Where people are stealing because
they can't afford what our government
prices so high.
Where people are homeless,
because they couldn't pay rent.
We live in a world that's not equal & not free.
We live in a world of hatred & power.
Where we can't shower because the water got shut off.
A world where war is so high
& the poor isn't cared for.
A world where the rich are greedy,
& the poor will do more
for the less fortune.
This is just some of how the world we live in

really is.
I see a problem. Don't you?
371 · Jul 2014
Depression Is The Worst
Adriean New Jul 2014
Depression is the worst.
The pain it gives you.
It sinks deep deep down inside you.
Some of us handle it by
smoking cigarettes.
Some drink their pain away.
Others, like me,
cut red lines like tally's
across our skin.
None of these ways are good for us.
But what are we to really do?
We feel alone.
We feel destroyed.
We feel  disconnected.
The prescriptions ****.
Why do we have to have something
to swallow to make us feel better?

We shouldn't.

But some of us do.

Depression is the worst.
I would know, & so would you.
Adriean New Sep 2014
I think our eyes play tricks on us.
Am I really seeing her with bruises?
Am I really seeing that man sleeping on the street?
Am I really seeing her arms marked like tally marks on a test?
I think our eyes play tricks on us.
Or am really hearing silence in the family home that should be filled with laughter.
Or am I really seeing the kid at school wearing the same things over & over?
No.
I don't think our eyes play tricks on us.
I think our eyes see the truth of our world.
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