I see beauty in loss for that's when true love shows itself

I can here my heart
Thump...Thump
Always when i get this feeling
Thump...Thump
This feeling of want and happiness
Thump...Thump
It is you that my heart beats for
Thump...Thump
It wants and yearns for you
Thump...Thump
But my brain is bad with words
Thump...Thump
Good thing actions are louder
Thump...Thump
Because without you
Thump
My heart would
Die...

Dear Death,
I have nothing left
No more room on these arms
No more room for these scars

Nothing but a empty shell
Happiness left as tears fell
What is left for you to take?
How many more years must I wait?

The light shines bright in my face
Not ready to imbrace
The love she radiates
Lifting off the shoulder weights

Why did you set her apart in my eyes?
To give me hope then turn it into lies?
She said she loves me for being me
But does she truly know me

The wars in my head
The countless of times I wanted to be dead
She can never know what she truly saved me from
I love her even if i dont know where she came from

3 years now I count her as a blessing
I dont feel the need to be depressing
My arms are free of scars
And happiness runs through me like shooting stars

For people who suffer
Surround yourself with love its so much tougher
Be who you want to be
What you want to strive to be

I live after all I've been through
And you can to
But the first step comes from you
And only you

What doesn't **** you
Makes you stronger
Well the first part isn't true
It doesn't **** it conquers

It wipes over every thought
To the point you think nothing but
And with every muscle you fought
It wasn't enough to even leave a small cut

See this thing takes over
Lives and breathes disaster
Leaving your arms and leg cover
Shutting people out so you speak no answer

Pushing family and friends away
Going to that dark place
Letting your mind decay
Needing someone to embrace

But in a time when everything was broken
I looked up and you was standing there
with a smile on my face my heart awoken
Healing me like walking Medicare

And now 3 years later we are getting married
We grew so much together
When your close I feel like I'm in a sanctuary
Our love for each other is a tether

We survived with each other
Through the bad and worst times
We have watched over one another
To make sure we dont cross lines

From here it's all uphill
Making memories and creating pacts
I love you and forever will
Nothing can change that

Really is that what you see
A broken human more likely
Searching for what's inside oneself
Forgetting that heart on the shelf

Crying in the dark
For that one spark
To soar them higher
And make themselves brighter

Hiding from society
Giving in to anxiety
Can't speak without a stutter
Or act without a stomach flutter

Only finding safety in words written with ink
Is like having your mind in a prison I think
A written poem may sound lovely
But stop and look more deeply

For a broken mind is complicated
So everything it does must be translated
Deeply studied and documented
And see how bad their soul was tormented

So next time you read a poem
Get the chance to read about them
For a poets life is much different from yours
And who knows you maybe the cure

If it was the last time
we saw each other
what would you say to me
If anything

Would you use your last dime
To call and find the words to utter
Sing a song horribly off key
Or give a gift wrapped with string

Even nothing wouldn't be a crime
I will just smile and say sucker
As I lay there waiting to be free
Like laying back on a swing

I sit letting my spirit climb
To sigh for I do not suffer
Then begin to ***
From the laughter at everything

From friends jokes and funny chimes
Family who come with faces full of color
Bringing me cookies and hot tea
Thanking everyone for being

So if it was the last time
We see each other
What would you say
If anything

Can I ask you something?

Will anyone remember the names
Remember those eyes
Remember these pain’s
Or the lie’s

Or will you just go straight to blame
Put it on someone else instead of ourselves
Putting the names to flame
And then the incidents on shelves

We keep our nose to the ground
Because of the topic
We keep ourselves bound
Like we all have atopic

Depression can be fought
But we must start caring for others
By giving what shouldn’t need bought
To pay attention to our sisters and brothers

We must join hands
And fight together
To be each other’s fans
To act as a tether

We need to be the voices
Because other need help
The help with the choices
For the ones that can’t self-help

This is a song of humanity
It sing for us
Through history
As it gathers dust

For all the misery
It awaits for death
And all the victory
It takes a breath

Through the love
And the hate
It flies like a dove
Not knowing it's own fate

It doesn't learn
So it repeat
It gives nothing in return
And always finds away to cheat

But don't lose faith
Of that curse
It is has no wraith
But always ends with a hearse

The river runs dry
As my heart cry
I don’t know what to do
Without you

Everytime we separate
I miss your heart rate
Cause I love you
That much is true

For when we are together
My life feels complete forever
My smile never disappears
And my thinking is clear

Love always shines
Through darkness and grapevines
For you I give my heart
Cause you're the one that gave me this fresh start

Forever and always
This isn't just a phrase
It’s a promise to you
That this won't be the last adieu

Where have I been and what have I done?
My shoulders seem to weigh a ton.
Why am I here and when will it end?
Where is everyone I called friend.
Can anyone save me?
To help these thoughts in my head be free.
Is it possible to run from yourself?
To push back these feeling people dealt.
When will my voice be amplified?
Over this mass mental genocide.
When will they notice our plea’s?
Our plea for help that's sent across oceans and seas.
How can we let these deaths go unjustified?
This topic must stop being brushed aside.
Why do 105 people a day have to die?
To dream, fall, crash, then suicide.

Time is all i need
for my memory to be freed
knowing one day will be my last
anticipating it so it wont go fast

Finding someone i love
someone who is pretty as a dove
to marry that someone
means your life has just begun

Time is i need
for my soul to be set freed
laying next to my wife
is all i ask for in this life

Hey, how are you doing
I'm doing just fine
I lied
I'm dying inside.

I'm one foot in the grave
How about you
My mind is like a cave
And it doesn't really matter what I do

But hey how are you
I'm fine
I lied
I'm dying inside

I may crack smiles
But my heart is racing at 60 miles
And behind a closed door
Tears crash to the floor

But hey how are you
I'm doing just fine
I lied
I'm dying in...

Why does this world hate me
    The way i talk and the way i breath
Why do people despise me
     Is it the way i look or things i see
Please tell me why i cry everynight
     Why i havent given up the fight
I guess this is my fate
     Ill remember it to the date
Were my heart died
     And no-one cried
I guess noone cares for this empty shell
     If one did they would of called my cell
So this is goodbye for now
     Youll never know
How you treated this soul of mine
      But i guess its fine

Love, don't worry
About this story
I write for us
Please do trust

In me
Soon you shall see
There are no endings
Only more beginnings

Our lifes are true
We came together like it was on cue
See our story may end
But in the exposition one has begined

Our childern well pass on our story
So please dont worry
For there is no ending
Just the sound of the binding bending

And my pencil may break
Or my hands start to ache
But i look at a pen like a flame to an arsonist
Picking it up to start making things permanent

Hello?
Talk to me
I'm all ears cause I lived in your shoes.
So don't be afraid because you not alone.
You can always message me on here and I'll respond.
Or if you find me on facebook feel free to message me there.
I want to help in every way possible.
Battling depression is not a single fight but a war and you need people to fight with you to help you to win.
So please feel free to talk to me if you need a ear I'll give you mine.
If you need feedback I'll give it.
Just dont give up cause there's people willing to fight with you.
https://www.facebook.com/aaron.layton.967
This is me please let me help

Once the Devil told me "You're not strong enough to fight the storm." Today, I whispered into his ear "I am the storm."- unknown

Hello my friend
How have you been
Don’t answer yet
But don't fret

See me and you debate
About everything to the date
I guess opposites do attract
And sometimes we lose contact

But you are always there
When the weather is fair
So we can go to the park
Until it turns dark

Then we go to your place
Like its our secret base
Those where the good days
Thinking of ways

To mess with madison
Laughing so much to hurt our abdomens
I miss the feeling
Of our hearts sealing

So how are you
And the crew
Do to miss it
The night where we talk and sit

Madison my friend
Our friendship will never end
You’re the sister i never had
And even though sometimes i got mad

I still had you at my side
Even when i almost committed suicide
You saved me from it
Never making me quit

I am grateful to you
If only you knew
How much
My life needed your touch

This is your poem
Just a little token
I hope you know
To me you glow

Like a guardian angel
Keeping people faithful
This poem is ending
But our friendship is just beginning

Waging a war in my head
I don't know why I'm not dead
It hurts to think
Wishing the memories sink
Do or don't do I dare not try
For most thoughts are of suicide
People say they know how you feel
But do they know the deal
the bargain you made
But still having the person fade
What are you willing to give
So a love one may live

Hard and warm
Soft and cold
Safe from harm
A tree shaped by a mold

Once was living
Cold and dark
Now has no feeling
Buryed in a park

A park with others
Just the same
Buried with fathers and mothers
Well some the same

Friends come and go
Some stay but never know
What they truly mean to you
And how you feel towards them
One might become more
And one that will never show
Feelings for you
even though you do
Friends till the end
To fend again and again

You were in the hospital for weeks.
When the news spread it hurt us down deep.
All the families from everywhere
All came to stop and stare
At what is now to be our beloved
The angel that was sent from up above
He had a wife and 2 kids
To give up they forbid
He also had a sickness that would not fail
The sad part is he didn't live to tell the tale
Some days he wasn't comprehending
But today I am wondering if the world is ending
Because all my loved ones are being taken
All the good people if I'm not mistaken
Well he had to spread his wings to fly away
Well I guess its good-bye for now, till another day

It's funny how people dreams come true
A perfect life as god drew
For you
But people forget
That nightmares are dreams to
who knew
God drew those two

From east to west
I've seen the best
Moss on a stone
Contacts on my phone

I’ve met friends
Knowing it all ends
Moving
Proving

That I can restart
But keeping the one that's in my heart
She will always be there
A coat my heart wears

For when it gets cold
In this void
She will be there
To warm the air

Help me understand
This lonely land
That i stand in
Or where i been

Help me speak
I'm to weak
To tell my pains
The fight against these chains

Help me see
The life locked with a key
To remember my mistakes
Mostly heartbreaks

Help me pass
Lay me on the soft grass
Peacefully gone
Into the new dawn

How did I fall in love with an angel
So bright so pure
To think I’m Jack to your Jill
My only cure

You are my star in the sky
My moon light when it's dark
My pillow when i cry
My slide in a park

I love you Sara’Ann
I can’t really explain
I’m your biggest fan
Even when i was in pain

I'll be by your side
Through thick and thin
Even if i died
I will always lift your chin

You're the love of my life
My best friend
And soon to be wife
Until the end

As my mind spins around
I feel six feet underground
A noose around my throat
A fall in the water wish I brung my coat
A car crash where I die
But to afraid to say goodbye
The feeling of being numb
As I see death come
I turn away
To go with him another day
Then wondering when
As I walk back to where I have been
As my life goes on
I will sit here at dawn
Wishing to fall
Or get a life saving phone call
See I won't die
Or say goodbye
But everyday I get closer to death
Because I'm not scared of taking my last breath

The Winds roar past my ears
Taking away my fears
Looking out from the hill
waiting for it to fill
with men and steel
nothing can explain what I feel

The water swirl
as fingers curl
turning into fists that protest death
wanting to fight for this earth
Fears in the eyes of those men
while multiplying it by ten

blood starts to flow
bombs start to blow
men fall dead
no one was left
life was taken in a theft

set free the fire in your heart
free your mind like a dart
let your body be sore
at least you know you soar

live for the now and not for the later
your life is much much greater
don't wait for a date
because of your fast heart rate

learn to be outgoing
life's to short for undergoing
when all you have is nothing
you'll find you have everything

Can you see the sky
Where the birds fly
Blue as the sea
Please tell me you can see

Can you feel the air
Is the temperture fair
Moves with a howl
Ask yourself if it was a growl

Can you hear the bomb
Exploding after the calm
People running and screaming
As you're on the ground bleeding

Love flows through your body like a creek
Leaving engravings in rocks, in souls like greeks
Love causes you to fly in the air
Thinking will you have in hier
Love stings like a bee
Throwing away the key
Love can ****
By leaving a hole that has to fill
Love destroys everything
As thinking it's a king

My mother taught me all the fables
I stopped leaving my feelings on the tables
To keep them inside and not let them show
Once in awhile they'll slip out a window

Another night again
Another journey without friends
Buried somewhere deep beneath my skin
There's a war I have to win

The nightmares I wake to every night
Makes me want to give up the fight
To crawl into a ball and cry
Wanting to do nothing but die

Look into my eyes
See pass my disguise
Do you see the tears
That have fallen through the years

But every morning I'll get up
Put on a smile like daily make-up
Suffer though the days
So in the night my mind decay'

The end is where everyone dies
So why does it matter if u commit suicide
When the end is near
And no answer is clear
Where after all
For me there's no life saving phone call

Why should I say goodbye
Right before I die
Or write letters to friends
Tying up loose ends

My life is one big mess
Having me feel so useless
There are friends I will miss
And regret about one that I didn't kiss

Well this is the end
For me do not defend
This is goodbye
For soon we all will die