I know boys
Such petty creatures
Making girls swoon with a caress of the neck
I know boys
With off-putting features
Reaching for the supple warmth of a breast
I know a boy
Whom in fact I once loved
Fixing breaking mending taking trying not to cut
I know a boy
Who should watch as he does
For girls are not known to keep their mouths shut

Blonde, she is fair
Her thoughts flow like air
But no one loves a girl with brown hair
Copper, she rocks
Cannon balling off docks
But no one loves a girl with brown locks
Ginger, she looks best
In fiery red dresses
But no one loves a girl with brown tresses
Ebony, she has fangs
The most mysterious of dames
But no one loves a girl with brown bangs
All tales been shared
Of beauties been spared
But no one loves a girl with brown hair

They won't understand us my dear
We are far too complex for even our own comprehension
They can't conquer us though we may feel conquered
They can't hinder us though we may feel hindered
They can't torment us, tear us down or toss us aside like yesterdays news
We are a fit of passion like the closest embrace
We are an army of one united by our hearts that rarely beat and occasionally
Beat too hard and fast
We won't stop in the name of all that is ungodly
We are too good for this world
They know it
You know it
I am starting to believe it
We are poets, writers, artists, lovers
The world is our oyster and we are allergic to shellfish
It's not that we are misfits
It's that this day and age is still too baggy on our bodies
And I pray to a God I don't believe in that we will never grow into those rags
Because we aren't pearls
Or one of a billion
We are beautiful creatures
They are waiting for the day we bite the pills and overdose on bullets
But you won't let them have that bitter satisfaction
And I shouldn't either
We are the beings ardent for what we can take in quantities from this life
So we may write about them
And tell everyone our story
And watch them melt
To our stolen golden lies

You were a glorious chain of smoke and mirrors when I loved you
But now that love is dead, I wish you were
Instead you turned into something darker
Crueler
A monster
Love doesn't dare reside in you for you are a massacre
I'll leave you to rot in the abuse you gave me
Maggots of irony
The blowflies won't mind the bleach
Stay dead
Decay looks good on you

Move over now lovestruck child
Your tears cannot bring me to my knees
Its an old tale of wrath and discord
I don't love you or your deep blue seas
It ***** to be a girl like me
Hush hush little crush
Stop that foolish quickening heart beat
You hold no warmth to my flame
My passion could traumatize your petty dreams
No one could truly love a girl like me

I hate being called "alternative"
I am not an option
I'm one of a
kind

It was always the lies
He told them to me with a rose and stabbed me with the thorns from behind
I was his possession
Not a thought of running away could save me from his side
I was always alone
Without a song in my heart in a false mess I could deny
I was broken
I was weak
Then this person was sent to me somehow somewhere like an angel from the sky
He changed me
For good
I learnt I was worth more than what lay naked before his eyes
I got out
I got free
It hurt me
But I won't cry
Because the love I feel for myself now was worth living through those lies

Don't look at me when I know you can't stand me
Don't act like you care, I'm vulnerable as you can see
Don't touch my cuts they aren't for you to caress
Don't tell me to sleep you know I won't rest
Don't lead me on when I know you won't show
Don't tell me you love me, don't ever let me know
I'm too far gone to be considered in my head
Just leave me to rot in self pity, I'm as good as dead

Baby won't you stay?
Just once don't leave
Stay a little longer
I want you here
With me
Baby put down your phone
I'm struggling to compete
With this social media wall
You hold between you
And me
Baby keep me warm tonight
I love you can't you see?
Despite the coldness of our hands
You and I
Are meant to be

Leave the lights on I want to look at you
Don't you dare let the music stop
Hold my hand it doesn't matter if it doesn't fit
Take me under you I like when you're on top
Kiss my collarbones and trace my wrists
Give it to me anyway you like I love you
I love this
I love it

Grey eyes
You captivated me from the moment I first saw you
Keyboard Kafe. Cheesecake and Bourbon
Too young to drink without your fake ID
I loved your youth
Skinny jeans for summer
Singlets and jandals for winter
Uniform otherwise
You looked smart in blue
**** in black
Washed out in red
Like death in white
You escaped to Oklahoma of all places
Discovered the music in your heart
Came home with a farmers tan
Work was an issue
At least you tried
***** was the only cure you could find for your lonely soul
If only you had found me
Friends came and went along with your
Umpteen love affairs
Self respect
Confidence
Inspiration
You had cared all your life until nobody cared for you
Your tan faded
It was time to get off the couch and out of bed every morning
Janice kicked you out
You refused to pay rent
Branna and Harrison discarded you too
You were a man of many friends
Yet the loneliness in your soul reduced you to tears every night
In the bed you wish you hadn't made
You traveled
To Perth
Alaska
The dairy down the road
Prices were reasonable
Divorce rate low
Fake tans ever popular
You could get away with anything
I loved your perspective
Burgers, fries and coke
All you could afford but kept the weight off
You were always handsome
And always in need of a shower
You never married, I know
You never met the right one
You never met me
Your blonde hair faded and your eyes grew redder
A nip of gin and three bottles of whisky kept you sane
You gave up on drugs
And cigarettes
Just drank until you fell
                                              down
Janice
A three year old daughter in her arms with eyes like yours
Grey eyes
Came by your house
Full of spite
She stormed in
You hung by your belt from the trellis in the back garden
It was a sad day
Like today
You've always looked **** in black
I hate the fake tan the mortician plastered on you
I hate the fact that Janice spat on you in front of the wee girl
I hate that you don't remember me
I hate that High School was a *****

And that I was shy

But life got the better of you
So I don't blame you
I love you

I wanted her in the most primitive way
If only she knew what I've wanted to say
I can't shake this feeling when she comes over it's like
I'm an addict, when she's gone I'm sober
My brother doesn't know what hes missing
When his girl and I are in the bathroom kissing it's only
Meant to be
When I hold her hips to mine
And make her laugh, you see
A girls infatuation with other girls is not rare
It happens when bare skin touches bare

Because you fell in love you're telling me to go
For no other reason no no no
You fell in love and now I'm in the wrong
Because I love someone else and not your song
Because you fell in love I lost my best friend
Someone kind and special who I'd fight for til the end
Sure I have someone to go home to and call my own
But because you fell in love, without him, I'm all alone

In the beginning you treated my body like a land you pursued
The grass was greener on the other side
And that other side was me
In the beginning you made love to me like I was everything you craved
You had come off a roller coaster ride
And you wanted to ride with me
In the beginning you talked sweet lip bitten words the poet in you conjured
You had me at your every tongue flick
And you flicked your tongue for me
In the beginning we were like newly weds with dreams and highs
You told me to be yours
I still want you to be mine
The beginning seems so long ago...

Husk life, transient
Drifting from bed to bed, couch to mattress to rolled out sleeping bag
They had everything going for them
Their futures glowing with possibilities
Their hearts recycled for a place to belong
Until it happened
Anxiety to depression, depression to bipolar disorder to a fixed self doubt
The only thing permanent in their lives;
The constant consistency of tar in their lungs
And shivers down their spines
Wandering drifting adapting struggling to survive

He's a man he's a home
He's the body that I know
I'm haunted by a dream of a life I can't conceive
In the closet I am warm with the love I can receive
While I lay half awake in bed with a girl in my dreams
There's a wolf there's a wolf
Howling at me there's a wolf
He finds his way into my closet as he scratches at the wood
He's a man he's a past
Tapping on the glass
But I won't let him in for that will do us no good

She's not pretty
Kind of twisted in fact
Into knots of every strand of emotion possible
Beauty comes from within
But within she is fighting
Fighting against these knots that have become all she knows
She is crying
But sadness is only temporary
For bipolar disorder makes her feel so many different things at once
One minute she'll be high
The next she'll be arguing with herself
Until she can't understand anything anymore and the last word is hers
But from an unknown source
She is pretty
But she doesn't know it
She won't believe it for she doesn't know how
Her head is full of so many contradicting thoughts and feelings
Like you wouldn't even believe

How can I be so evil to the one I used to breathe for?
I am hurt and so spiteful
I am mad and ill met
I am sorry

Lead me to your bedroom and lay me down on a box of glass
Take me like the others you drowned in to keep away your past
Moan someone else's name I want to feel your every gasp
As you **** me like they all ****** with you, at last
The irony is bitter,
Sour...
But it will pass
I love you to the depths of my soul and wounded heart
But this can be the only way I realize this too fast
Thinking too much will only **** you,
Come to me baby
Let's give this one more chance