I cried today for the first time in years
I cried today, and they were real tears
I cried not because I conquered my fears
Or because I lost all that was dear

I cried today, shedding tears like the rain
I cried today, letting go of all the pain
I cried so much, again and again
And these were tears I couldn't restrain

I cried today, cos' I finally understood me
Knowing fully well all that I could ever be
I lived in the shadows where no one could see
A prisoner to my thoughts wanting to be free

I cried today and these were tears of joy
I cried today, knowing I am a new born
A freed man, that was locked in the skin of a boy
A freed man whose life has just begun

I cried today and they were real tears
I cried today for the first time in many years

Put it to rest
Don't put it to test
That hatred of yours,
Deep down in your chest

Put it to test
Don't put it to rest
Those loving words you hold,
Deep down in your chest

For then, would you have emptied your chest
And completed your quest,
And you'll be rest assured
That your decision was the best.

I know this isn't a phase
I think i'd just cover my face
Stop before the start of the race
And just never leave this place

This is who I am
I am a loner

I've got poetic licence
So I can right however I want.
Even if whatever I right doesn't make sense
I kan right with whichever font.

I use my poetic licence in whatever I right
An sometimes, de thins I right does not look write

I have de power power 2 repeat rhymes
Over and over countless of times
I use abbreviations in de mst unusual ways
My, commas, and!!!!!, escalations, marks come!!! as they may!!!!

I've got poetic licence cos I am a poet
I use it in odes, elegys, ballads, epitaphs, and sometimes in sonnets.
I am never rong.
And with my poetic license I will remain strung.

This world is not my home
This life is not my own
Walking helplessly in this spherical dome,
I'd rather walk my life alone

This world is not your home
This life is not your own
Walking aimlessly in this spherical dome,
You'd better walk your life alone

This world is not our home
This life is not our own
Walking endlessly in this spherical dome,
It's best to walk this life alone

My greatest fear would be losing you
And if I do, I'll be the greatest fool
Because i feel true love with only you
And out of all these lies, that one's true

But nowadays it seems you are never pleased with whatever I do
Always bringing up a fight, yelling at me too
Showing me signs you want to see someone new
Telling me you want to end it, bringing it up out of the blue

So out of all these lies, this one is true
If you leave me, you'd be the greatest fool
And after i’m done crying for you
After the cold lonely nights, feeling sad and blue
I would move on, finding someone new
For my greatest fear is losing me to you.

If falling in love with you is gonna make me the stupidest of all beings to ever grace the surface of this earth.......i don't think I'd ever wanna be smart.

Dear God i'm so in love with you...i loose all rights to own a brain whenever I get just a glimpse of your beautiful face, the thought of you makes my body ache to be embraced by you...if even for just a quarter of a second.

I'd bumped into you in class....yeah that was when we first met, clumsy me, and when I stood there, ready to apologize for being so clumsy, You smiled....., and as you smiled, I saw in those hazel eyes of yours what heaven would feel like, my heaven. I was lost. Your dreamy eyes kept me in a trance, an hypnotic trance I dared not wish to get out of....Yes!!..when I looked into your eyes, I knew it was you, and I knew I had to have you. This is more love than lust. I don't think I'd ever be happy with any other person. I want you and you alone. I want your whole being.

We rush things up skipping the foreplay
I obey all your commands, as you are the only one with words to say
Your legs arched up, move in a dramatic sway
You tell me to keep hitting it, because you like it this way

Telling me you are ready
I slide into you, making love to you steady
The beating on the zinc roof indicates the rain is quite heavy
And you whisper slowly into my ears, ‘that’s it baby’

The cold from the weather could not overcome the heat
From the *** we had, after moving to the dining seat
I should ask for your name, in case of the next time we meet
This shouldn't be a fling, rather it should be kept on repeat.

I am the wind that blows your hair
I am the sun up the summer sky
I am the water that flows in the spring
I am the brightest amongst the stars

Again I saw them grieve at the grave
A nice speech the eulogist gave
Oh dear friends, weep no more
For if anyone should ask
I am not there...
I did not die!!!

I am a man of integrity
A being of values
A man of chances
A risk taker
A people's person
The weak's solicitor
A man of great morals
A said adonis
The emir of greatness
I am a good people
Rhythm of the redeemers
A daring entrepreneur
And after alls said and done
Despite all odds
I AM ME!!!

How does it feel to fall out of love?
To wake up one morning, and say that you're done
Make up your mind, and tell me, it's fine
To fall out of love, 'cos you were never mine?

Love in itself can never be defined
It is a feeling that's blissful and divine
To love and be loved in return
I doubt, you'll ever see something as much fun

Don't you remember all you once said?
About our undying love and these feelings we shared
Do all these thoughts run in your head?
Or are they left blank, like my space on your bed

You woke up one morning, and said we were done
So I ask you, how did it feel, when you fell out of love?

I'd still love her with all her flaws
She is mine not yours
For her I'd break down many doors
She is mine not yours
**** your rules, **** your laws
Cos’ she is mine not yours
They say I am under a curse
Well she is still mine not yours
They say fighting for her is not a just cause
But she is still mine not yours
And for her my domino would always fall
Because she is mine and not yours.

I dream of a place with strawberry beds
Vanilla chairs
And chocolate stairs

I dream of a place with golden white songs
Silver dark lights
And diamonds that shines bright

I dream of a place filled with female angels so bare
Looking unclad
And oh! How much would I stare

I dream of a place filled with a thousand more dreams
Oh! How I would sleep
And dream a thousand more dreams

I found a friend in whom my secrets wouldn't part
I found a friend to push me 'round in a cart
I found a friend to hold me in my hands
A friend to follow me to no man's land
Never to leave no matter the weather,
This promise we made, while we hugged each other.

I found a friend, who strived to make me suffer
A friend who held my grip with evil agendas
A friend who left me in the middle of desserts
A friend who pushed me out in anger
I found a friend who loved no other
A friend who pushed me out with a cart
A friend in whom my secrets did part

I cried today for the first time in years
I cried today, and they were real tears
I cried not because I conquered my fears
Or because I lost all that was dear

I cried today, shedding tears like the rain
I cried today, letting go of all the pain
I cried so much, again and again
And these were tears I couldn't restrain

I cried today, cos' I finally understood me
Knowing fully well all that I could ever be
I lived in the shadows where no one could see
A prisoner to my thoughts wanting to be free

I cried today and these were tears of joy
I cried today, knowing I am a new born
A freed man, that was locked in the skin of a boy
A freed man whose life has just begun

I cried today and they were real tears
I cried today for the first time in many years

Beneath the suede feel and nappa leather
Beneath the Jordan that sells for some many dollars
Rests a weary foot covered in torn silk
A little hole here
A little patch there

Beneath the Italian suit and that da Vinci scarf
Beneath the bear fur coat and the cashmere wool
Rest a broken soul covered with a broken body
A little wear here
Some many tear there

There's something about her dreamy eyes
That makes you want to be a dreamer
There's something about her soothing tongue
That makes you want to be a preacher
There's something about her lovely smile
That makes you want to be a painter
There's something about her great physique
That makes you want to be a sculptor
There's something about her intellect
That makes you want to be a professor
There's something about her being
That makes you want to be
There's something about her
That makes you want to be her lover

Dad is home again, little sister
Won't you run and hide away, little sister
He came back drunk again, little sister
I too, once felt your pain, little sister

Dad is home again, that monster
He's going up the stairs her way, to see her
He's had his way again, that monster
Now all she feels is pain, down under

Dad is home again, little sister
I already have a plan today, little sister
You see, he'll never hurt you again, that monster
I promise to keep you safe, always and forever

Close your eyes and sleep in my arms, little sister
For tonight, we sleep safe and sound with our maker.

I am doing this for you
I am doing this for her
I am doing this for him
I am doing this for them
I am doing this for the lots of you
So if I perish whilst doing it
Remember I did it for you


But not a thing did I do for me.

I don't think they understand
The thoughts that run in my head
I don't think they understand
The reason I lay awake on my bed

I don't think I understand
The thoughts that run in my head
I don't think I understand
The reason I lay awake on my bed

So why should they?

I remember what we did last night
I still picture you in those **** tights
******* pulled down in a brilliant flash
Unveiling what was once carefully stashed

The taste of your lips linger in my mouth
And you know I love when it makes a pout
We never really know what this is about
Even when everything seems to be going south

But what really matters is the fact,
That whatever we’re into doesn’t require a pact
So when I called you over to my house
You came running without your blouse

The ignition wasn’t off in your car
You stood by the door, looking hot as hell in your bra
Taking my shirt off and dropping it on the floor
You waltzed in further, slamming behind you, the door

I rose to meet your gaze as my hands fell on your hip
But you also rose to meet my pace and gently undid my zip
A little bit of nibbling and a series of selective pecks
I caressed your face and softly kissed you on the neck

You hungered and ached for me to feel you from the inside
Your knees grew weak, as my fingers went in with an easy slide
Moaning with pleasure as I took you on a pleasure ride
You pushed me over, telling me to hit it from the other side

It took a little of my time before I was finally done
I then laid on my back, eagerly awaiting my turn
You held on to my shaft, saying to me ‘let’s have some fun’
And before I knew it, your tongue was on it, in a circular motion

After you were done, you looked up to me straight
And as we stared into each other’s eyes like we were new soul mates
You climbed on top of me, guiding me to your holy gate
And I moved slowly inside, treading carefully in a foreign state

I laid you on your back and went in slowly and nice
And with every move I made, you had this look in your eyes
I whispered to you ‘I love you’, even when you knew it was a lie
But you didn’t care about that, cos’ you were about to *** twice

Every ****** I made, took you to a new height
I couldn’t get enough, cos’ to God who made me you felt tight
My muscles ached as I made love to you with all my might
And you didn’t let go, not until we were through with the night

What went on later seems to be a blur
I can’t tell how long we held on for
But I know it was a sweet surrender
When as captives of lust, we freed ourselves together

She said she was being real
She knew that cut would never heal
She thought about this as she ate her meal
And minutes later she took another pill

She's aborted her last
Her future has been destroyed by her past
She now covers her face with a mask
She knows her womb would never embark on any task

He felt he was being real
He smoked cannabis, and just wanted to chill
He drank most of those mixtures and popped many pills
His mates cheered him on, he felt the immense thrill

That operation was the last
His kidney could not work as fast
His future has been destroyed by his past
And he drowned in his sorrows....for his sorrows were vast

They thought they were being real
They future was destroyed by their past
They both took the pill
And they both died with their dreams at last

Let the sun shine
Let the rain fall
You'd still be mine
And i'd still be yours

Whence comes the flat line
As the GRIM REAPER calls
You'd still be mine
And i'd still be yours

Let me tell you about my baby
She's the prettiest girl I've ever seen
And my baby is such a classy lady
But she's not proud, 'cos pride is a mortal sin
My baby's got the key to drive me crazy
But she likes her place in the passenger's seat

Let me tell you about my lady
My lady acts tough, but she's as cute as a baby
And something about her that drives me crazy
Is that...she knows what she wants, there's no maybe.

Let me tell you about my baby
My baby is the best 'cos she makes me happy
She calls me her baby and I call her my lady
And we love each other like crazy

I woke up today
I can't say much of the people I slept with yesterday
Some woke with problems, while most passed away
But he gave me the grace to stay another day
I'm filled with joyful songs and words to say
Because through thick and thin he paved my way
Even though I was unworthy, he still chose to stay
I was pulled by the world and led astray
I realised this and dropped on my knees to pray
Father Lord, here I am do not drive me away
I have sinned and I know I've got my price to pay
I need your blood to cleanse me and wash this sins away
In only you I will trust for you do not betray
And in your cosy ***** i'll love to lay.

I know that Jesus 'still alive I can feel him breathing
So all I just gotta do is pray and keep believing

Sugar on your lips
I like the taste
My hands on your hips
Makes home on your waist

Pull me in close
Let's ignite a flame
You are a drug i overdose
I'm a wild dog you need to tame

Honey from your tongue
I take a sip
It is with you I belong
Your being is my keep

In truth.. if I smiled as much as I use the smiley emoticon in a chat, or laughed as hard as when I use the various abbreviations 'lol' '*****' '****' and sorts, I think my life wouldn't be as ****** up as it is right now.

Mirror mirror on the wall
Might I ask a question more
Of which will be the saddest fall
A bullet between the core of my skull..,
Or a jump off the great china's wall?
I presume the latter would bring much greater fun
As it would end instantly if done with a gun
Yes, i'll like to bask in the moment.....more
Who doesn't cherish a battle won...
So as I fall from great china's wall
I would fill my head with thoughts of exotic halls
Beautiful girls, dances and malls
How greatly would I miss them all
So yes, all life would go by in a flash
As my body hits the floor with a splash
And then my soul floats up in bliss
Looking down at a thing....it'll miss.
Oh dear!!

Just like how the Jesus in the Christian’s bible
Turned water to wine
I will hold you at gunpoint with my heart's rifle
And make all your being be mine
....Magic!!

Take the reins of the sail
Steer and evade life's falling hail
Be the king of the ocean
Set for yourself an easy going motion

Take the reins of the car
Take it and drive yourself very far
Swerve past every troublesome lane
Drive your life past the reach of pain

Take the reins of the horse
Set for yourself a designated course
Ride all night through the fiery storm
There'd be peace, when morning comes

Take the reins of your life
Make sure to evade all troubles and strife

Why am I still holding on
You already left me before I realised you were gone
You made my heart a personal hell
And left me there alone to burn

I cried so hard during the nights,
I felt my heart searching for the light
Maybe at the end of the tunnel, right before that bend
It will be there for me, looking so bright

I hope you die and crash and burn
And then i'd laugh 'cos now it's your turn
A sight it would be to watch you cry
'Cos baby, your sorrow is now my fun

Green is the colour of ewedu leaves
Green is the colour of herbal trees
Green is the colour of something green
Green is the colour of something I see

Don't talk so much as you drink your tea
The sight is obscene as I watch you eat
Don't make a smile or grin at me
‘Cos green is the colour of what's stuck in your teeth.

It's a place filled with red
Burning flames hurting the dead
They didn't listen, but they heard
About the messiah, and all he said

It's a place filled with light
The Messiah's home, looking so bright
Golden gates made of white
Opened for only those who did right

The choice is yours
Hell is wide with open doors
Either stay wrong or right your flaws
Heaven is yours, if you abide by his laws

I am weak
Simply because I can't find what I seek
What I seek is not something that's bleak
It takes the form of a solid, bulky and thick
From a selection I was asked to pick
Not to slow to act, always think quick
From the start of the day, till the end of the week
Climbing up a smooth mountain at a bid to reach the peak

Sometimes late at night I start to feel sick
I feel it inside of me as it begins to kick
I was told not to utter a word, don't even speak
But I was dying inside, as my strength began to deplete.

It takes the form of a solid, bulky and thick
The thing I seek might be a little bleak
And because I won't find what i seek
I would always continue to remain weak

At twenty one
Life with you is so much fun
At thirty two
The only girl I'd still love is you
At forty three
In our family house, we sit under a tree
At fifty four
I can't get enough of you...I want more
At sixty five
You are still the only woman in my life
At seventy six
Sitting room is filled with our grandkids pics
At eighty seven
Your arms still remains my safe haven
At ninety eight
I hope we live a century...if none of us is late.

The darkness is here
It's come to stay,
And with it comes fear
Inside the void I heard them say
We've come for you and all you hold dear
I'm scared friend, i'm scared
Why must the end begin with fear
It's been crushed, that hope for a brighter day
Alas, I am to go with them
To a place, farther than heaven's bay
Friend, I have no reason to stay
For in moments time I will wake
In another world, in another place
The end is here

I don't do poems
Or maybe I do
But I'm not a poet
And that's not true
My mistress is stressed
But she's a much better muse
And she asked for a poem
To spark up her fuse
But I'm not a poet
And that's not true
Because I really do poems
When it's for you.

She looks beautiful in that light
She makes my soul want to take flight
She's all I need in a wife
She's all I need in my life

She makes me happy each night
Even when we get into deep fights
I hope I make her my wife
If not now, I pray in my next life

You make me happy each night
You make my soul want to take flight
I hope I make you my wife
Come this moment, come whatever life

Someone once asked me

Why are your poems so dark?
Why is your light so black?
Why is your face so sad?
And why are you so clad?
If you die tonight, would you be glad?
To give your life up, and raise the white flag...
Do you seldom feel like to pack your bags?
Just up and leave, because your life is a ***?
Do you do these things because you miss your dad?
You feel a little bit close to him as you write about death on your pad?
Do you think you deserve less than you've had?
Or you think your good will outweigh the bad?

This someone never felt the need to know the answers to this questions
This someone knew the answers, hearing them would be like a priest hearing his own confessions
This someone wasn't a he, this someone wasn't a she
This someone was me