all around me,
they are moving
to quickly for me
to focus my gaze.
in another dimension,
through space and time.
the world around me
speaking to me
through patterns and colors.
lost in fields
of iridescent flowers,
following the path
of my ancestors
to the holy
tree of knowledge.
You noticed me today,
I hope you notice me every day for the rest of the week, for the rest of the month, for the rest of the year
You said my name today,
It was like a song, it was music to my ears and it became my favorite
A song was stuck in my head, on repeat
You talked to me today,
I can't help but clinch my hand every time you express every word with a smile and just makes me want to listen to you all day long
We held hands today,
I felt every rush inside my veins
And a combination of all hearts of hearts as one
Although, at the same rush, i felt every single emotion of anyone could have
I felt happy
I felt confused
I felt happy, mostly confused
I felt happy and a little bit more happy
Until i felt nothing, nothing but confused
Your hand interlocked with mine felt like home
It was warm, gentle and fragile
A home should be taken good care of;
I can run home to you every day for the rest of my life
But it wasn't my home
It wasn't a home for me -
There's no running to because there never was a home
I stand between being confused and happy
Of letting myself go or setting you free
You said you loved me today,
I stand with a pause and you added a phrase, you said
"But leaving her isn't easy"
I was definitely stuck,
With a combination of bad luck,
Having the urge to earn a buck.
This desire is an appetite,
One worth a gigantic fight,
Don’t care if it takes all night.
These dreams are hard to achieve,
But I still believe,
Willing to proceed.
Trying not to explode,
While breaking this difficult code,
Willing to do the workload,
All for this successful road.
You have the momentum on your side
Keep at it and forge ahead
Enhance your mind always
And focus on your studies instead
The journey will challenge you
Let it build your inner strength
Move forward in a positive light
Brighten your spirits and do your best
When I feel scared, when I think that the next challenge could be tougher than I can manage,
when the bridge seems too shaky for me to cross... When the days are stormy and the roads thorny
and it feels like my bare feet won't get me a far... Wen the Ocean of life's too wavy for me to sail
and yet the voyage of time will not wait for the waves to pass, when the clouds are too thick
and the promise of the rain of despair is almost confirmed, when the stabbing drizzle has already started,
family's always my rainbow for no challenge will ever be greater than that which with my family I've overcome...
and no nights will ever be darker than those their light's seen me through... No matter how long,
no journey will ever beat the distance it's taken us to reach here... That's why no matter how hot the crucible may get,
I will always get through cooked for a better menu rather than burnt...Family's my last refuge,
family's my inspiration and most of all, family's my boat...
No Ocean will ever be rougher than my family can sail me through,
no love will ever be Family's true...
That's why no matter how far I go, how deep I think, how high I fly, how much I write
no matter how many battles I fight, the greatest weapon and armour God always blesses me with is family...
Popularity steers competition into unsafe borders,
As characteristics of adolescence is controversial.
Fighting for the ultimate acceptance,
Consuming drugs by peers sparking pressure.
Willing to sacrifice grades for fame,
Setting a harder path in an untold book.
The expansion of most friendships doesn’t exist,
As college tends to destroy bonds.
Since high school, I had limited friends by my side,
But they bled and expressed glory with me to this day.
Quantity usually leads to a flawed direction,
While quality consists of strength that last.
Choose a track with a future,
Instead of scenarios driven by deviance.
Always coming with a smile,
Substances are distributed by deception,
Manipulating the fragile soul.
Pressure paralyzes youths in the moment,
As awkwardness tries to dispel tension.
Agony is the flame which triggers addiction,
Trying to ease the horrors of mental anguish.
Denying the drug can be a strenuous assignment,
Fighting sinister forces mixed with complexity.
Knowledge will devise a plan for defeating temptation,
Assembling a foundation of awareness through logic.
I found God
In the gaze of my lover
As we lay still on the water
In the stupor of fear
I found God
When I fled alone to discover
I was trapped with no other
Until he appeared
I found God
In my haggard reflection,
Torn dress by the ocean
Wondering if I was in the clear
I found God
Watching lost men die free,
Succumbing to clarity
Thinking my time was near
I found God
When I lost all hope
My heart was breaking on the waves
And I didn't know how to steer
I found God
In a longing embrace
Finally feeling in my place
Knowing our time was now and here
Fact: My sister is a wonderful human being.
After hearing about the tragedies happening around us, she decides to make paper stars. Lots and lots of stars.
She asks for empty bottles from the neighbours and her friends. She fills the bottles with these stars, folding away all her problems into glass bottles and jars of all shapes and sizes. After she fills the bottles and jars she hands them to her friends and family.
She gives one to me.
The paper stars in a rainbow pattern, they seem so full of wonder. Even if they are nothing more than paper encased in glass.
I take the glass jar and place it on the top shelf of my school locker. Reminding me that I can keep a piece of home and happiness close to me.
But it didn't last.
After I made some mistakes I didn't feel as though I wanted any happiness near me. I wanted to take every bit of hope and hide it away.
I took the jar of paper stars out of my locker 2 days ago.
Holding it close to my chest as I walked down the halls of my school.
My head hanging.
Eyes glued to the floor.
Walking away from everything.
But still sort of hopeful...
Wishing for a bit more optimism.
A shining star.