I pray you hear me in every voice that speaks
feel me in every absence
Utter my name in every sexual encounter
Search for me in every person passing by
An emptiness you feel that will forever be present
because i was the presence that kept it full
after me there is no one
You can't fill the void
Because I still & will always hold the key
The African sun.
So it's December
Summer in Africa
30cm away, that's how close the sun feels to the earth's surface
Naturally I have a short skirt on
And the worst thing I could have done is walk out the house
Because, you know
"I'm asking for it"
I walk past a few men
Who look at me like some meal
One walks towards me
He's basically undressing me with his eyes
As he goes behind me
HE SLAPS MY BUTT
Because I asked for it
Slap to the face
Because he too!
Asked for it
Three days ago I found my sunlight peeking through a crack on the back of a rusted dumpster. My body, forced into it by people unwilling to give me a second chance.
It was blistering cold and the wind cut like snowflake diamonds zipping all around. I remember I was walking home thinking “maybe this is all I have left to give”
So two days ago I decided I'd let that dumpster bright ray of sunshine go. If my only good moments were covered in filth, I'd rather just let them go.
My thoughts raced on what was ahead of me. A millennia of starscreams opening across the galaxy as my silhouette becomes the shadow of a dwarf.
I know I'll miss the sunlight though...and even through cracks in rust I think my sunlight might someday become platinum.
Yesterday I met a face that felt like hot shadows. She sung catapults of fire in my mind. I saw her on the stage at a local cafe, strumming demons away from my side. Her fingers bleeding sunshine through her fingertips. Dipped in ridges and vibration.
I found a fool's worth of hope in the skyline and lost a lifetimes worth on wishing.
If you actually knew your facts,
you would've kept your mouth shut.
You don't understand the situation.
I may, mistakenly, be changing up the facts.
Maybe you do know of the entire left side, and I am wrong
Yet I know-I know for a fact, that you sure as hell haven't heard the right.
So step back, seriously.
you don't know the power you've created.
I would say I warned you,
but it's too late for that.
Good Luck-You'll need it.
i probably shouldnt have posted this
but oh well