I wish, I wish upon a star
that I have a fancy car,
bewitch whoever you are.

I wish, I wish upon a lamp
that I know who I am,
I don't stay awake till 4am.

I wish, I wish upon a sign
that all I do suffice,
there is no need for sacrifice.

I wish, I wish upon everyone
that we find what we want
we become Someone.

I wish,  I wish wishes come true,
we won't be so blue,
Life would be so cool.

Little do you know
the songs and their
meanings,
those days and their
callings.

Little do you know
the twisted lies and their
truth,
those freed sorrow and their
remnants.

Little do you know
the paths I take and their
consequences,
those breaking points and their
change.

Little do you know
Who I've become
and I
you.

It can be determination
but if it leads to manipulation,
It is already exploitation.

It can be coincidental
but if it becomes incidental,
It is no longer accidental.

It can be impressive
but if it forces people to be submissive,
It is being oppressive.

It can be thoughtful
but if it is just going to be playful,
It is then not purposeful.

It can be everything
but if it is not leading to something,
It is eventually nothing.

Guess it's true
I'm not good, at a one night stand.
It's even harder to picture, that you're not here next to me.

Sipping on rosé, sipping on sun, coming up all lazy
You make me crazier, crazier, crazier,
Kiss me like the world is gonna disappear.

Cause when a heart breaks, no it don't break-even,
You don't have to **** so kind, pretend to ease my mind,
As sweet as a song, as right as a wrong.

This love has taken it's toll on me,
I want you bad and I won't have it any other way.
How did I miss you when I didn't know you?

You make it easier when life gets hard,
I'm trying not to think about you, can't you just let me be?
You can't feel anything that your heart don't wanna feel,
I can't tell you something that ain't real.

You said move on
Where do I go?
No, don't be scared that I'm gonna tie you down.

I'm never gonna say goodbye,
I'll leave the door on the latch, if you ever come back,
if you ever come back.
And in time I know that we'll both see, that we're all we need.

You and your morals
get to me.

I thought maybe you would be softened
by my secretly seductive scent,
the way I work my curves,
how I voice your name.

I was wishing
your will might switch off that little song
which is telling you this is all wrong.

I hope that you fall back on me.
Just let yourself go,
Immerse in my sweet nothings,
as our noses rubbed gently.

Let me do everything to you
and leave regrets to tomorrow
leave guilt to old age.

But no.
you're Moral.

And that's what I love about you.

I betrayed love for companionship,
Left you
when you were bounded
and he was giving explicitly more.

I forgone faithfulness for lust,
Abandoned you.
Leaped ahead for butterflies in stomach,
kisses on my clavicles.

I forgot about you for I was lonely,
I craved for you but
You weren't here so I
Conveniently made him a substitute.

But no,
Never is there a substitute for the first love
Never is there a substitute for you.

"I felt nothing."

I felt it cringed,
As if it objected,
Denying the possibility of this answer.

It wasn't shocked,
Just sad.
Sad that what was expected
(but the least expected)
Came true.

It accepted it,
Your answer.
But it is not accepting defeat.

My heart isn't accepting defeat.

I know you're afraid
Things might fall apart again,
I don't understand you as much.

I know you're worried
We are just romanticising the past,
Perhaps we are just lonely.

I know you're speculating
I might make the same mistake.
I know you're anticipating
You might feel the same hurt.

But don't you feel the same?
That it's wasted.
We are compatible,
Second to none.

Give it shot,

Give us a chance?

People say I don't actually love you.
They had also said that the sun revolves around us.

People say I don't actually need you.
They had also said that we can never go to the moon.

So Time

will prove,
the ignorance of these people and
lead me back to you.

You're perfect.
Well grown
Well taught
Well delivered.

You're perfect.
Your poise.
Your smile.
Your humour.

You're perfect.
You romanticize.
You coax.
You submit.

The only imperfection
lies in me.
The inability to see your perfections.

They say it takes two hands to clap
Two hearts to love
Two souls to last.

Then what is this
Romance with myself?

So romantic still
Because of your invisible presence,
Your words
Your concern.

Maybe,
Slowly,
Someone will take your place
And walk with me.

Never completely,
Never fully,
Never thoroughly,

But slowly.

Guard down
Barrier destroyed
Fence torn

Vulnerable
Sensitive
Loving

Guard on
Barrier up
Fence walled

Strong
Rational
Cold

I hope you feel safer this way.
But I hope more,

That you're happy.

Feeling so sick and tired of
Feeling sick and tired of
Being so sick and tired.

You didn't **** me,
Not literally.

Figuratively-
You stab me deep,
left me to bleed,
scarred from weep.

Emotionally-
You left my heart voided,
it couldn't be avoided,
Abandoned and unaided.

Mentally-
You chose to pursue,
things which were untrue,
I had no rights to sue.

You didn't **** me,
Not literally.

Not yet.

You hide behind your soft facade
making me think you're
Moral
Gentlemanly
Assuring.

But you forgot actions speak louder than
words.
They always do.

And you
Swinging by
Leading me on to
Woo
Chase
Fail.

You're not getting to me this time round.

No dear,
Not anymore.

I can give you space to breathe,
Ample space.

I can space out those memories,
Diligently space.

I can create a space for us,
Special space.

I hope you leave a space for me too,
In your future.