I looked at old photos of us today,
I wonder if you were really happy being with me.

I choked up seeing your handwriting again,
wondering if we could ever make amends.

I know we haven't spoken in such a long time,
And I can barely get you off of my mind.

I know you couldn't stand me towards the end but I miss you because you were my best friend.

I am sorry for hurting you.
And I forgive you for hurting me.
I just wanted it like before when you said you loved me.

As plain as it is to see,
I think of you,
when he's with me.
I still love you,
and it kills me.

Every single time,
I try to leave,
I hear your voice saying,
Don't you dare,
give up on me.

I tried to live as if you were by my side,
But theres only so much acting,
I can do to get by.
I've loved you through this year alone.
And I can't do it anymore on my own.

Take me back to that night,
where the lamppost was the only light in the sky.
Where you turned around and looked into my eyes, I held my breath and your lips met mine.

I felt you die in my arms that morning,
You left without any warning.
You left without a word,
You broke my wings so it would take me longer to walk away from the hurt.

It was your last chance.
And you left,
Without any regret.
I wish you held on,
I can never move on,
this for you is my swan song.

I'm Mourning you every day.
No one compares,
you were the one for me.
But I wasn't enough,
I've tried to become tough.
But his love wasn't strong enough to stay.
I wish you could see my pain.
I'm mourning you until my dying day.

I forget, Sometimes.
I tear up when your in my mind.
But you see, You were right.
To leave.

You saved me,
And you gave my life back.
You showed me, No one owns me,
No one knows me like that.
You gave me the best gift when you left.
It was a curse but now it's been lifted.

I can finally breathe,
And focus on me.
Before I couldn't see,
my anger was clouding me.
I'm sorry I was reckless,
It was the only way to get through this.

I miss your touch,
but your dangerous.
I love your mind,
but you can never be mine.
I miss our time,
but I've been through enough.
The best gift you gave me was ending us.

I still have the stuffed toy that you once gave me.
I kept your shirt in my dresser honey.
When I get depressed,
I hold it and think of you.
What happened to us?
I don't have a clue.

I miss the way that you use to call my name,
When other guys say it,
well it doesn't sound the same.
Now I'm here in this mind maze,
caught in a web of deceit.
You write such beautiful poetry about things that could be.

While you brushed it off,
I tied the knot in the rope that you handed me.
Yeah you smiled a lot,
I began to choke on my jealous.
While you were out with all your friends,
I was patiently waiting for my life to end.

We were inseparable,
Joint at the hip.
But now I'm drinking so much it makes me sick.
Where did it all go so wrong?
I thought you were the one.

We were inseparable.
Now you can barely look at me.
It hurts so much that I wasn't enough, you never even tried to chase me.
It's plain to see you never really loved me.