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Jan 18 · 185
Lavender Dreams.
Jay Lewis Jan 18
In the golden hour,
we held hands through the grass as we roamed through the fields of flowers.
We blew dandelions and chased their tails,
hearing the birds sing and share their tales.

I remember
I plucked pretty yellows clovers,
and placed them under your chin.
I checked the data and analysed,
to see if you liked butter
in your sandwiches.
And of course
the results are in.
- You did.

Do you know how many little buds we wasted before they were in their full bloom?
Pulling off each petal,
to reveal the stem,
alone in the gloom.
One-by-one,
one afternoon,
as the petals fell,
we asked the fairies too,
if the boys we liked
loved us or not.
And we didn’t like the answer
we’d tell them to go and rot.
We were too young to have any clue.
Pulling flowers seemed like such an innocent thing to do.

But don’t you miss those days?
When we would
make those dainty
little daisy chains.

This now seems like a distant memory.
But we’ll forever be known as
The Meadow Queens,
dancing in the fields,
before the stars would come out
and lull us to sleep.
What a sweet
Lavender Dream.
Jan 12 · 106
Comprehending Emotions
Jay Lewis Jan 12
I don’t know how long I have,
as macabre as it sounds.
I may be blessed to grow old with you,
or I might be unlucky and pass away young.

Sadly neither you or I can tell the future,
but I’d like to tell you how fortunate I have been to love you.

I know you want to start a family,
to go see the world,
and make beautiful memories together.
Even if we don’t get around to everything on our bucket list it’s okay.

My life has been worth living because of you.
And as saying goes “Until death do us part”, I want you to know that even in death my soul will stay close to yours and you will always have my heart.
Jan 10 · 201
Distance
Jay Lewis Jan 10
We lived in different cities,
we were two worlds apart.
Each night I knew,
we felt less lonelier,
when we looked up,
at the moon and the stars.

Now we live in the same house.
Trying to make it a home.
Yet I get the feeling,
That we’re not on our own.

And it’s not the stars,
that are watching us now.
There are these shadows,
they seem to linger around.

I have the strangest gut instinct that your being distant.
And as the phrase “Distance makes the heart grow fonder” would have been enough to hold back any of my worries or woes.
Yet my mind has began wonder,
And I think to myself:
What happens when that feeling goes?
Jan 10 · 98
Leading Lady.
Jay Lewis Jan 10
Do you remember that time we snuck into the studio and danced together?
What about our first kiss under the lamppost?
Do you also remember all of this joy?
The carelessness of being young and having fun.
It went from catching feelings, to boarding trains just so we could spend more moments together even if it meant just running through the rain…

and then
The door closed.
You had another leading lady in your life.
Our chapter had come to an end.
And as I stood on the stage.
We faded to black.

I trembled thinking what life would be like without you.
Jan 8 · 135
Your bad habit.
Jay Lewis Jan 8
Please stop sending
the late night texts.
When your feeling lonely
And your binge-drinking in bed.

Please stop sending
Us these strange images.
When your feeling h*rny
And your thinking that he’s into it.

This obsession
isn’t healthy,
Let me help you
understand.

He doesn’t love you,
like you want him to.
Because he sees you
as a friend.

So don’t you think
that your bad habit
should come to an end?
Jan 8 · 210
Eat-up.
Jay Lewis Jan 8
Does it make you feel good?
When your digesting me.
Just so your mouth,
Has some gossip to speak.
Jan 7 · 105
Now that your gone…
Jay Lewis Jan 7
I keep hoping it’s a dream,
Or a nightmare I can flee,
But then I wake up to reality.
Can’t my sleep stop fooling me?

What am I supposed to do?
I look for an answer or a clue,
But then I get stuck because,
I can’t believe we’ve lost you.
Jan 7 · 828
What took you so long?
Jay Lewis Jan 7
At 10 past 5
You waved goodbye
To your old life
Saying; “I’ll see you all on the other side”.

You saw your son
For the first time
In over a decade
I swear you both must have cheered and cried.

And with his arms open wide your son was singing; “Dad what took you so long?”
Dec 2024 · 174
Short but sweet.
Jay Lewis Dec 2024
Your smile lights up a room.
When you laugh,
I feel I’ve been cured of all my wounds.

You make me feel protected.
You make me feel loved.
Dec 2024 · 200
Loving you
Jay Lewis Dec 2024
I wish I could tell you,
How much you mean to me.
When I try to write about my feelings,
They simply escape me.
Dec 2024 · 155
Pushover.
Jay Lewis Dec 2024
You dim the light of others,
just so you can shine.

Does it make you feel good smirking
when you hear them cry?

You take our kindness for granted
and we’d help you every time.

One day you might fall over
as we won’t be your shoulder to cry on this time.
Dec 2024 · 132
Toxic.
Jay Lewis Dec 2024
I watch your stories,
I see you guys,
Together somewhere,
I hope that it’s nice.

Sometimes I wish I was there with you too,
But if you wanted me there you would have invited me too.

You never bother, so why should I?
You make me question, am I a bad guy?
You make me feel so alone.
As I walk away I whisper,
“I’d be better off on my own”.
Jul 2019 · 367
what could have been.
Jay Lewis Jul 2019
Every night,
Before I dream,
I wonder what our lives could have been.
May 2019 · 448
Hurt.
Jay Lewis May 2019
Filling up the ashtray,
Mascara running down my face,
Already on my third glass,
Can't believe you'd do that.
To me.
Mar 2019 · 1.0k
It's ok.
Jay Lewis Mar 2019
The sun beams dry up my teary face,
I'm worn out trying to seem ok.

and It's ok,
that I'm not ok.
Mar 2019 · 852
Stay
Jay Lewis Mar 2019
Spend a little longer
with me darling,
I'm missing your touch
your so charming.

Why does it have to be this way?
Why can't you just stay?
Jan 2019 · 987
Cross the line.
Jay Lewis Jan 2019
Repressing your feelings,

   Like I'm repressing mine.
  
      Pretending we're just friends,

         We dare not risk nor cross that line.
Jan 2019 · 523
With you.
Jay Lewis Jan 2019
I can't help this feeling
All I want is an evening.
If you just made the first move.
I just want to be with you.
Jan 2019 · 310
Starlight.
Jay Lewis Jan 2019
I wonder if the stars get so lonely being in the cold night sky,
That they decide to burn themselves out
so they might feel some warmth before they die.
Nov 2018 · 230
Untitled
Jay Lewis Nov 2018
I yearn to write endless poems about you
But there's no right words to encrypt what I feel towards you.
Jun 2018 · 582
Her.
Jay Lewis Jun 2018
You never wanted to be apart.
I split my soul and gave you half.

~For my Dearest.
Jun 2018 · 4.7k
Drop by.
Jay Lewis Jun 2018
I have spiders crawling up and down my spine,
I'm so nervous,
so I'll bide my time
I'm hanging on the line
Just waiting for you to drop by.
Apr 2018 · 1.8k
You.
Jay Lewis Apr 2018
You.
You know who you are.
I miss you more
than the moon misses the morning blood star.

I wish I had the courage to tell you
But I'll keep my distance stay afar
and be proud of who you are
The things you've done.
But I hope in years to come
If you see me alone
or with my family who's grown
To look at me with happy eyes and a smile corroding your face
And recall memories and begin to trace every detail like it was yesterday

Do you remember me?
Because I'll never forget you.
And I'll never replace you.
And it's hard to explain
this blood pumping through my veins whenever I hear your name.
I'll never be the same
after everything
We've been through
When I see you to this day
You
look at me like I'm a stranger
A shadow that fades away.
Apr 2018 · 1.1k
Him.
Jay Lewis Apr 2018
Eyes meet,
across the room.
I look away,
but still think of you.

A smile appears,
upon my face.
Can't replace this feeling
& You're to blame.
Feb 2018 · 773
Drop Dead.
Jay Lewis Feb 2018
Black tie,
Black suit.
I'm Thinking of you.
Black dress,
Black shoes.
Good god Girl.
I'm missing you.

Where are you?
Where did you go?
Lord don't take her,
her body's not even cold.
I need you.
Please don't go.
Take my hand.
Let's grow old.
Don't give up
on me just yet.
At least wait
until my final breath.

These are words,
He never said.
Maybe he'll say them
when I drop dead.
Jan 2018 · 889
Him.
Jay Lewis Jan 2018
I looked at old photos of us today,
I wonder if you were really happy being with me.

I choked up seeing your handwriting again,
wondering if we could ever make amends.

I know we haven't spoken in such a long time,
And I can barely get you off of my mind.

I know you couldn't stand me towards the end but I miss you because you were my best friend.

I am sorry for hurting you.
And I forgive you for hurting me.
I just wanted it like before when you said you loved me.
Jan 2018 · 836
Drag you down.
Jay Lewis Jan 2018
I am from Myths and tales.
The one that sailors,
wish to prevail.
I am the girl,
who wails.
The one that men,
can't resist.
I am the Siren,
named Bliss.

With just one kiss,
I'll drain you up,
and you'll think,
it's true love.

I'll take you all,
I'll drag you down.
I'll drown you in perfection,
until the next guy comes around.

I would happily drag you down.
Dec 2017 · 879
Gone.
Jay Lewis Dec 2017
As plain as it is to see,
I think of you,
when he's with me.
I still love you,
and it kills me.

Every single time,
I try to leave,
I hear your voice saying,
Don't you dare,
give up on me.

I tried to live as if you were by my side,
But theres only so much acting,
I can do to get by.
I've loved you through this year alone.
And I can't do it anymore on my own.
Nov 2017 · 923
Mourning you.
Jay Lewis Nov 2017
Take me back to that night,
where the lamppost was the only light in the sky.
Where you turned around and looked into my eyes, I held my breath and your lips met mine.

I felt you die in my arms that morning,
You left without any warning.
You left without a word,
You broke my wings so it would take me longer to walk away from the hurt.

It was your last chance.
And you left,
Without any regret.
I wish you held on,
I can never move on,
this for you is my swan song.

I'm Mourning you every day.
No one compares,
you were the one for me.
But I wasn't enough,
I've tried to become tough.
But his love wasn't strong enough to stay.
I wish you could see my pain.
I'm mourning you until my dying day.
Oct 2017 · 1.2k
Mind Games.
Jay Lewis Oct 2017
You played the Joker,
I was the Queen of Hearts.
But I didn't know the deck was filled with false cards.

You were the Magician.
And Me as the assistant.
A swish of dust and I went cold,
distant.

Did you really think you could win me back?
I'm not as simple as pulling white rabbits out of black top hats.

No,
I'm not planning on
the great escape,
No,
I'm not buying anymore of your
Mind Games.
Sep 2017 · 1.0k
Inseperable.
Jay Lewis Sep 2017
I still have the stuffed toy that you once gave me.
I kept your shirt in my dresser honey.
When I get depressed,
I hold it and think of you.
What happened to us?
I don't have a clue.

I miss the way that you use to call my name,
When other guys say it,
well it doesn't sound the same.
Now I'm here in this mind maze,
caught in a web of deceit.
You write such beautiful poetry about things that could be.

While you brushed it off,
I tied the knot in the rope that you handed me.
Yeah you smiled a lot,
I began to choke on my jealous.
While you were out with all your friends,
I was patiently waiting for my life to end.

We were inseparable,
Joint at the hip.
But now I'm drinking so much it makes me sick.
Where did it all go so wrong?
I thought you were the one.

We were inseparable.
Now you can barely look at me.
It hurts so much that I wasn't enough, you never even tried to chase me.
It's plain to see you never really loved me.
Sep 2017 · 2.3k
Stardust
Jay Lewis Sep 2017
Do you ever forget,
how lonely you are?
When the silence creeps in,
like the moon and the stars.
And all they see above so high,
is untold stories,
seen by those twinkling lights.

Everything that we once knew,
It was false, untrue.
We didn't know the truth,
Watching the stars burn as they die.

We're made of stardust too,
When I look at them,
I think of you.
They know our untold story
and how it'll never touch pen to page.
Why do you think it rains?
They're crying for us two,
Don't feel lonely,
when I'm always with you.

— The End —