For me
   Happiness is illegal,
And
   Sadness is my addiction.

You made me do the things I was scared to do
You pushed me hard to try new things
You let me explore the world
You give me strength all the time
You likes to see me smile and laugh
You made me feel warm when you give me hugs

I wish I know you better
I wish I have known your suffering too
I wish I get the chance to help you too
I wish you're still here
I wish I got to save you too
I wish I'm not blind to see it in your eyes

I miss you, my happy pill...

I stopped being me long time ago
I can't even remember who that was now

I am not addicted to alcohol or drugs,
   I am addicted of escaping reality.

When you see her
She looks perfectly fine
Look closely into her eyes
You'll see a hundred reasons
No, a million reasons
That you should have stayed.

Sabi mo'y ako lang hanggang dulo,
Pero bakit mag-isa nalang ako sa dulo?
Sabi mo'y ako lang ang iyong iibigin,
Pero bakit ako nalang ang umiibig?
Sabi mo'y walang bibitaw,
Pero bakit ikaw ang unang bumitaw?
Sabi mo'y walang iwanan,
Pero bakit ako'y iniwan?
Sabi mo'y tutuparin lahat ng pangako,
Pero bakit lahat ay napako?

Naniwala ako sa lahat,
Pero sana'y di nalang.
Kung lahat ng pinangako,
Dulot lang ay matinding sakit at lungkot.

What if I died today?
Would anyone miss me anyway?
What if I died today?
And I never had the chance to say goodbye.
Would you hate me,
Because I just wanted to stop the pain?
What if I died today?
Would you forget me that easily?
What if I died today?
Would you say good riddance
If you saw me lying there
No heartbeat, just a cold body.
What if I died today?
Would you trap me in your arms,
Like I was trapped in my own mind?
What if I died today?
Would you cry like I did
Every single night, Alone.
Because of the demons in my head.
What if I died today?
Would you realize how much
I wanted all of this to stop
And wish to see my worth.
What if I died today?
Would you see my scars
And wish you'd have noticed
How I was in so much pain?
What if I died today?
Would you care?
Like nobody does.
What if I died today...

I see you smile so bright
I heard you laugh so hard
I felt your touch that so warm
I know that your heart beats so fast.

So please hold on tight
And fight for your life
So us can survive
And every dark will be light.

Badly need someone to lean on
My knees are weak, so faint and down-and-out
My tears are falling, my pretention is over.

I was busy fixing other's life
But who fix me?

Can't run from it
Stuck in the middle
The worst is I'm trapped
In my own mind

The end is near
I can't keep trying
Stop asking if I'm okay
Cause I know I'll answer the same

My fake smile is getting heavy
My eyes can't hold it back
My mind lose it
Done living in the dark

Going through the motion
I guess its time to quit
Most people fear death
But some pray for it.

She cries at night.
She questions her worth.
She always finds her purpose.
She hates herself for loving too much.
She keeps putting the blame on herself.
She gets easily emotional and upset.

This is her story.
She is trying to fight the demons inside her.

I can't talk to anyone
I can't call you and ask how you are
I can't be friends with anyone
I can't raise my hand
Without the fear of being wrong
I can't hangout with new people

I can't live my life
That I wanted it to be
It's like being in a big ocean
I can get up but I feel numb
It's like wanting to do my best
It's like your drowning but you aren't
It's not a way to live
It's a way to die

I was dying to hear someone say
That I didn't need
To try so hard to be perfect,
That I was enough,
Its okay to cry,
And
To be just
Be me.

Would you look at me the same
      If you saw all my scars?
      If you knew all my pain?

You held my hand,
When I'm in the verge of giving up.
You caught me when I fell down.
Your one of my inspiration of being strong.
And everytime I think of you,
My mind kept on remembering your words.
Though I'll miss you,
I will remember all the memories that we shared.
In laughter and in sorrow,
In sunshine and through rain.
I know your there,
Someday we will meet again...

I like the way your eyes sparkle,
It makes me happy.
I like the way you smile,
It makes me smile too.
I like the way your heart beats whenever you're with me,
It makes my heart beats as fast as yours.

Met this man before
Wearing a simple gray shirt paring with dark blue jeans and a sneakers
I promised myself I wouldn't fall inlove to him
Never knew that an angel-good looking guy would make a stone-hearted women fell inlove to him

Stop saying it's okay
Because you don't get it, okay

Its not easy for me to explain
What was really the pain

I'm not trying to be lazy
I just wanted to escape

I don't have motivation to succeed
And I don't even know why

All I want is a peaceful life
Or maybe give it to me after I die.

The sun watches
     me while I smile
But the moon hears
     me when I cry

How you accept yourself
Is how you teach
Others to accept you

Frozen times and burning memories
Rising faith and new flowers blooming
Faith I had for so long
My heart was the words
And this is my voice.

Time is gold
But
Someone with a good heart is precious as gold.

I didn't sleep. Coz I'm scared
Scared of what might happen in the next morning.