Everyday she walks alone
Keeping her head bowed down
But she knows she's a princess
With an imaginary crown

One day she met a boy
She thought whom was the one
Made her promises of forever
Asked for everything but none

But colors fade away
So did her perfect guy
He found someone 'better'
Left without any 'goodbye'

Now her heart was broken
She walks alone again
Left with nothing but memories
Of a boy she loved back then.


© Leigh Herondale  *January 2015

We may be a tangent line
Meant to meet only once,
There is one thing i'm sure of tho
That moment I held your eyes with mine
I swear we were infinite



Leigh Herondale   *August 2015

Sometimes I wonder
If somebody out there
Also feels the way I do.
Does she make others laugh
With her cosmic gags
And novel flops?
And at the end of the day
Does she ever feel sad
Down, broken,
And alone as ever?

Last night
I told God
That I don't want it anymore
I gave Him permission
To take me away for good
But he didn't
And now I don't know
What to do with my life.

Counting down the days after that day
You said goodbye and walk away
If only I knew that it would hurt me so
I never ever should have let you go

Tracing back the steps up to your door
Where we'd lie awake up until four
We'd fight in your car and then make up again
Now my heart is torn, refusing to mend

I remember that day you played your guitar
Those nights we'd wish upon a star
Praying that this would never end
Now we aren't even friends

We were so many things, so many places
So many dreams, waterfalls of kisses
If only I knew it would be this way
I never should have left that day


©Leigh Herondale  *September 2015

That girl who always smiles,
She's crying deep inside.
When you think you really know,
Well newsflash honey, you don't.

When she says "I'm fine"
Please don't believe her lies
She'll never tell you why
But at least give it a try

When she says "I hate myself"
It most likely is true.
So please be there for her
And tell her to not be blue

That girl who always clowns around
And makes everybody laugh
Believe me when I say she's unhappy,
I know 'cause she is me




© Leigh Herondale  *July 2015

You picked up my poem so I guess you want to know
Of such old story I witnessed long ago
Some might sob and feel their heart tear
Others might shrug, pass it all in one ear
Some may either laugh, even call me a loon
For I once knew a girl who fell in love with the moon
She had him on her fingertips but couldn't ever catch
So close yet so far, impossible to touch
Bittersweet moments comes when nighttime falls
I can hear her heart, I bled over its silent calls
I had the liberty to watch her moon-lit face
The sadness it reflects I want to drench in my embrace
Years passed but still she couldn't hide
The way she looks at him, eyes could never lie
Alas! the delight of seeing her love under the blanket of the night
Days, week, decades, I've lost count
But I still think about her, here and now
Haunted by the memory of remorse and regret
And that face of a girl I couldn't quite forget
It kills me that I never got to tell
That all these time I loved her, I also fell
And for eternity, with this I have to dwell.

Leigh Herondale  *May 2015

So there, the two of us were, holding hands
You were the expert, teaching me how to dance
Both utterly oblivious that
Tho you were training my feet
It's my heart that learned how to properly beat.


Translated from: "Ang Huling El *****" by Parokya ni Edgar (chorus part)
Translated by: Jaina Marie Alexis

That girl who likes to cheer
This boy who likes to cheat
That girl who loves to laugh
This boy who loves to sneak
That girl who truly cares
This boy who always lie
That girl who fully trusts
This boy who's somewhat sly
One day they met,
I'll let you decide for the rest.



© Leigh Herondale  July 2015



© **Leigh Herondale

Google isn't always the answer

When I die,
Do not talk about me
Like I am the most wonderful person
To have ever graced this Earth;

Instead, tell them I am mad.
How my ***** nails dug ugly scars
Within my dark, burning soul
Fed with rage uncontrolled.

Tell them I am selfish.
With an eye for love I have not
That my heart rejoices but in sorrow
Only coldness and loath would grow.

Tell them I am broken.
That these crevices that he left
In the regions of my heart
Will not ever heal completely again.

That I walked wide-eyed yet half-awake
Torn between the fantasy of his lips so sweet,
And the gleam of his pointed teeth.

Tell them all my sins.
My uglies.
My glories.
And only after that,
That then,

Maybe you can tell them I was beautiful.


©Leigh
Feb. 14, 2017

I like old songs and undiscovered poems
Just like the girl at the shop
But i'm not her
I don't like the taste of coffee
Just like that girl in your Math
But i'm not her

I don't want to be a trend
I just want to be a part of history

Hope tomorrow never happens...

Deleting things I really meant
Only to replace with words of pretend
Life has always been like this for me
I say one nice thing
Take it back with profanity
Like iron walls surrounding me like a prison
It remain's all year
No matter what the season
Wolf's skin draped over my shoulder
You'll never see through exactly what i'm hiding under


©Leigh
Oct. 25, 2016

Who got a helmet
I'm losing my mind
We used to run along
But now we're running out of time

Said you'd hold my hand
Said you'd make a stand
But what am I doing here
Alone in this island?

We were the stars that align
Shining alongside the night sky
We thought it was forever
Then the sun came and lighted us over

I'd give up everything to kiss the moon

I love to get sad.

She was always too smart, too afraid, too strong
Too cautious to fall in love
Too perfect to get hurt

Always on guard
Always in charge of her heart
Eyes always open wide

But behind this fort that
She's learned to build around herself
She's as vulnerable as a child
Who can't afford to cry

I'm worthless

Hindi ko malaman kung anong dahilan
At ngayon ay nagsimula akong malibang
Sa taong dati ay halos kamuhian

Come save me
help me
feel my suicidal soul
Or will you just hate me
Harass me
Feed my heart
To the cruel
Heartless ghoul

One day I'll have my freedom i'll never look back.


© Leigh

Death is constant
Death is inevitable
Death takes away the pain and misery
Death is the most certain thing
We can ever expect from life
At some point
Love and happiness may fail
But death will always succeed


Leigh Herondale  *September 2015

How did I get from nervously starting college while missing my old high school friends to leaving it behind for the real world?
It's like time has gone by in a glimpse of an eye. Where has the time gone?
Earlier in class, our professor even told us to start applying for our own insurance, health cards, postal IDs, etc, adult stuffs I don't even know of. Life is speeding up and i'm not sure if I will be able to spend Christmas with my family this year. For the first time in my almost 20-year existence, I don't think I can celebrate it with them. Life is speeding up and soon i'm gonna fully leave behind all my youthful memories, life is speeding up but i'm not ready. Not yet.

Of course, I am never alone
But why do I feel otherwise?

All alone again tonight
In my head screaming
"I hate my life"
Don't know how long
can I hold on
Or will I just
start moving on?
Been screaming for help
But nobody tried
Tell me how.
Am I supposed win this fight?




© Leigh Herondale  *July 2015

Would you still bother to read my poems
Even if I tell you it only sings of heartaches and sad songs

Lumapit ka sa akin kapag nasasaktan ka na
Hindi ko tatanungin kung alin
Hindi ko hahanapin kung saan
Lalong hindi ako mag-aaksayang alamin kung pano
Yayakapin lang kita
Mainit na yakap na hindi mo naramdaman sa kanya
Mahigpit na yakap na hindi mo mararamdaman sa iba
Na sana kahit papano ay
Makapagpapaalis ng kirot
At magpaalala na nandito pa rin ako


Leigh Herondale  *October 1, 2015

Just know when to hold on
when to quit,
and when to move on,
and you'll be fine.

They don't always
Look dull
Or restless
Some even laugh
Joke around
And get crazy
With you
Everyday
They always
Got your back
Smiling and
Cheering you on
Because
They know how it feels
To be loathed
Broken
Unwanted
And them hurting alone
Is enough


©Leigh Herondale  *October 2015