I'm so sorry
I never meant to hurt your feelings.
I tried and tried.
I tried to tell you so many times.

But always waiting for me was a smile.
Breakfast in bed, at the right times.
Always there, to kiss me good night.
Never faulting, ever the gentleman.

Your company, always a delight.
The host with the treats,
The guest with the gift.

You were always happy,
Always kind.
The nice guy.

I didn't want to take that away.
I didn't want to make you cry.
How do I tell you I don't love you anymore?

You remember the dates,
You always put me first.
You do everything right.

So, How do I tell you that 'perfect' isn't making me happy?
That 'Mr. Right' isn't enough for me.
It hurt every single day.
I just didn't know what to say.

I'm sorry.
I never meant for you to find out like this.
I know I messed up,
Please, forgive me!

Sadness.
Hollow; emptiness.
So much sorrow and bitterness.

The floodgates are open.
The tears are falling.
So much that your eyes are hurting.
So much, you feel some drops on your feet.

But this isn't the end of the journey.
Your story is still being written.
There are many chapters left to fill.
May the pages to come, bring a smile to your lips.

You set my mind,
Alight.
Mesmerized;
Every time,
I see your smile.

You're a treasure.
The one I cherish.
You're a beauty.
A sight to always relish.

You are precious.
Rare. Priceless.
A standout of no equal.
Peerless.

You're a treat.
Sweet as berry.
You're everything and more.
The cherry on top.

You're a prize.
The biggest catch any man could find.
Every other thing is benign,
So long as you're mine.

The night is dark.
The path is long.
The monsters are out.
In the shadows, they lurk.

Take my hand.
Let us find our way home.
No matter what comes tonight,
I promise to never leave you alone.

Why can't you tell me you love me?

Why is it so hard to just say it?
You say you feel it.
You don't have to say it.
But I want to hear it.

You say you don't want to be forward.
Please, take the jump.
Into my arms, you will fall.

You don't want to say it all the time.
You don't want it to lose its shine.
**** that! I want you to give me some peace of mind.

You don't want to say it first.
Fine, let me take that step.
Let that burden be lifted.

I love you like fish love the sea.
Without you, I can't breathe.
I will stare down the sun, I will go to the moon.
Just to hear you say, you love me too.

Write a story, she said.
You have a way with words.
Write a story just for us.

Write a story I would like,
A story that would make me smile.

Write about our first night.
That magical night.
A night of passion,
Pleasure, and delight.

The night I made you mine.
The night you made me, yours.

Kissing me in the right places.
Lingering, at the right spots.

Your touch,
Sending the right messages.
Oh God, my heart wouldn't stop.

That night was great,
One like no other.
The moon has come out to play,
Let us make this another.

The sun sets,
As the sky burns,
Crimson red.

Red mist in the air
A warning to all.
Hide, run.
Shake, and quiver with fear.

The blood moon shall come.
Come for us all.
And it shall only bring,
Tears and blood.

The clouds are darkening
Withdrawing the sun; concealing

The lighting is striking.
Glowing, electrifying.
The thunder is clapping.
Scary, deafening.

The air is dampening.
Cooling, moistening

The wind is howling.
The dust is rising.
The fires are dying.
The trees are shaking.

Roofs, flying.
Doors, slamming.
Windows, shutting.

The storm is brewing.
The people are running;
Hiding, retreating.
For the rain, is coming.

The night is cool.
The skies are open.
The weather is perfect.
I'm all alone, under the blanket.
I have everything else.
The only thing missing, is you.

The night is cool.
The skies are open.
The weather is perfect.
I'm all alone, under the blanket.
I have everything else.
The only thing missing, is you.

The birthplace of weapons.
The backbone of wars.
No sound but the throes of steel.
In fires that burn, unending.

Shaped by the beating of the blacksmith.
Each stroke, manifesting his will.
To forge the weapon of prophecy;
The sword to lead us to victory.
Bathed in the blood of its enemies.

Sitting on the ledge,
Admiring the view.
From the thirteenth floor,
Where everything seems so miniscule.

Breathe in and out,
Take in the sights.
The wind blowing,
I might just take flight. . .

Come, let's go.
We ride!
In the night.

On the hills, high.
With joy in our hearts,
Lips, draped in smiles.

Our troubles behind,
Into a future;
As bright,
As the moonlight.

Who will sit on the iron throne?
Will anyone outlive the doom to come?
For the winter forewarned,
Has reached our shores.
The threat scantly believed,
Is here to wipe out all that breathes.

The Night King is coming.
A dragon of ice in tow.  
To conquer Westeros,
And all that lay claim to the throne.

The wall will fall.
Innumerable lives will be lost.
Who will endure, to rule it all?
Only the Three-Eyed Raven knows. . .

This could've been us.
Laughing, smiling.
Happy beyond our dreams,
With no care in the world

But you broke my heart.
You chose another one,
Instead of me.

How could you do this to me?
I gave you everything.
But for you, that wasn't enough.
I loved you so much.
****!
What the hell did I do wrong?

Was I too nice,
Or I wasn't playful enough?
Was I too aggressive,
Or did I tease you too much?

Tell me what I missed,
Please, I don't understand.
Just tell me something.
Anything.
Talk to me.
I can't take it anymore.

**** this!
Why does love hurt this much?
I thought you were the one.
I thought I had it all.

I don't know what I did.
To make you walk out the door.
I can't help but think.
That it was all my fault.

The Quest for Peace. . .*

Where has all the happiness gone?
The enthusiasm, the spirit, the passion?
How did it all go wrong?
When did reality start to dawn?

Can't a brother just dream?
Is it too much to ask for it all to be real?
Is it too much to long for a life of ease?
Is it too much to just want to be at peace?

I want to live like a king. Of that life, I want a taste.
I want to cross the seas. On a yacht, I want to set sail.
I want to live in a mansion. In my house, I will take a trip.
I want them to sing my songs, my name on their lips.

But, When did my dreams start to fail?
What wrong step did I take?
Am I not good enough, or this is simply my fate?
What is left of this life? What else remains?

I search for ears to hear my story.
Maybe they'll see it wasn't my fault, that I wasn't playing.
Maybe they'll see my tears are real, that I'm not pretending.
Maybe they'll give me a fresh start, a new beginning.

'Try Try Try', they keep chanting.
'I'm giving it my all', I keep saying.
'Why did you fail', they keep asking.
I tried my best, yet was found wanting.

Help me get back up, I keep begging.
'You brought this on yourself', they keep yelling.
I know I messed up, but I need your help. Please, I'm begging!!!
'This is your mess', they say, You alone shall do the cleaning.

Deaf ears and blind eyes are all I keep getting.
'You're a man', they keep saying.
'This isn't the way you should be acting'.
You'll be fine, just get up and keep pushing.
I know this, but why am I still hurting?

I go out to the balcony,
Where the wind is howling.
With tears streaming;
On top of my voice, I start screaming!!!

Who would come to my aid?
Who would help me with this pain?
God, please, I need this agony to go away!
I promise I'll do anything, no matter what it takes!

But echoes are all I hear.
I look at myself as I drown in despair.
This is too much for me to bare.
This life isn't for me. ****, man. This isn't fair.

Maybe I just need to get some relief.
Something to take away all this grief.
Maybe everything just needs to cease.
So I take flight, hoping, that I find some peace.

I'm down on one knee.
In the background, good music.
Floor, littered with roses.
Perfect lighting, candles lit.

The love of my life.
Standing, in front of me.
A picture of beauty, stunning.
Beaming with joy, smiling.

I promise to make you happy.
To give you peace, for eternity.
To put you first, above anything.

So, I'm asking.

Will you make my dreams a reality?
Make me happy,
More than I could ever imagine.

Would you be my partner?
My lover, my significant other.
Would you be the one I wake up beside?
For the rest of my life.

Will you marry me?

The right person is worth the wait.
Worth the near misses, the 'almosts', the delays.
Worth the struggles, worth the pain.
Worth all the tears on your face.

The right person is worth all the rejects.
All the mockery, insults and jests.
The right person is worth it, whatever it takes.
Worth it, no matter how short the stay

The right person is the one.
The one you've always dreamt of,
For so long.
The one to calm all the storms
The one to overlook all your faults.

The one to bring your sadness,
To an end.
Give you joy, give you happiness.
Give you peace for all the days you have left.
Staying with you, till the very end.

The right person is the one.
The one that would make you forget.
The right person is the one.
That would be worth it, in the end.

The spot you see it all.
The locus, with the right elevation.
Hidden, in the right vegetation.
Away, from any detection.

The view is strategic.
Targets unaware, roaming.
The moment is nearing.
Nothing escapes your sight,
Save for the blinking of an eye.

The rifle is set.
Scope, adjusted.
Wind bearing, calculated.
Heartbeat, decelerated.

Breath, bated.
Muzzle, pressed.
Down, goes the target. . .

What is this love thing?
Why is it so hard to reach?
I keep chasing,
It keeps on eluding me.

I keep trying.
But now I see,
That there is no limit.
To the heart's pieces.

At this point,
I'm not even choosy.
I just want someone,
Who can make me happy.

'Today, The Jay...'*

I open my eyes to see its a new day.
Today, What's the day?
Is it Saturday or Sunday?
The only thing of which I'm certain
Is that its not a weekday.

So, What can I do today?
Without delay,
The first thing I do is get my tray
Light a blunt to take the pain away.
Inhale and exhale,
Through the passageways.
Chill. . . Then, light another, just because its today.
I'm still in bed, but it's already a good day.

I push the sheets and pillows out the way
Then I get up to empty last night's fluids away.
Then to the kitchen, wondering what I can eat today
What can I do, to keep the hunger at bay?
Maybe some rice and filet?
A little something to kickstart the day.

While the food preps, I go back to my tray.
I smile and giggle as I sculpt my one true love, the Jay
With me at any time, anywhere, in any form, on any day.
Even though I'm already high; 'Hooray'.
I still want another hit of the Jay

The Jay,
Hits, Without delay.
Stays,
When everyone goes away.
Fades,
All the pain away.

My worries, It allays.
My happiness, it brings to the fray.
Keeps my mind, from going astray.
Literally, takes my breath away.

Causes, no form of decay
Keeps me, from getting 'ire'
Doesn't negotiate, doesn't parlay.
Just good vibes, all the way.

The love of the Jay;
Isn't just a single foray.
Its a constant exchange,
Everyday.

It's a feeling, that once attained,
Nothing, will ever take its place.
And there goes the tale of my day,
Spent with my true love, the Jay.

Together. . .*

Look into my eyes, What do you see?
Happiness unbridled, joy that can fill all the seas.
It doesn't have to be pretty.
It doesn't have to be beautiful
All that matters is that we're happy,
And that we are joyful.

It doesn't have to be glamorous.
Nor does it have to be a spectacle.
All that matters is that I'm yours.
And together we will pull through.
Never doubt these words, not a single bit.
Cause Baby with you at my side, the world is at our feet.

At the end of the day,
All that matters is the smile on your face,
The fruits that we've made,
And the promise, of your stay.

You never had time for me
But you went to see him.

I called for weeks.
Hoping to see you,
Even if it was for a minute

But you said you were busy.
Had things to do.
Things that could not wait.
Things that were more important,
Than anything.

Imagine my disbelief.
When I saw you under that tree.
Holding his hand; smiling
Laughing, bearing all your teeth.
Touching his face, affectionately.
Leaning in, going for a kiss.
My God, I couldn't believe it.

I thought we had something.
I thought you said it was just me.
I thought you said I was your everything.

I'm not even mad or angry
I'm only sad,
You never looked at me.
The way you looked at him.

I'm waiting for you,
On that bridge, we met.
I hope we meet again,
No matter how brief the moment.

I will be here,
No matter what the heavens send.
Just to see your smile again,
In the shadow of the sunset. . .

Why do I love you?
A million reasons, a million things.
More that what you could imagine.
Where do I even begin?

Is it your smile that lights up any room?
Your smile that eases whatever I'm going through.
A smile like no other.
A gift from God. A treasure, a wonder.

Could it be the sound of your voice?
The melody in your words?
It could be the sweetness in your whisper.
The one that melts my heart, makes me tender.

Perhaps, its the way you overlook my faults.
Maybe it's in the rhythm to your walk?
The pump in your strut?
Always focused, filled with guts.

Or is it the way you calm the storms within?
Or the way your touch feels without?
Is it the beauty from inside?
Or the shape, the curves on the outside?

Let's not even get into the food.
Every stir, every sprinkle.
Poetry in motion. Masterful.
Happiness, in every mouthful.

I could go on forever.
It's not one thing exactly or the other.
All I know is I will never tire;
Of reasons, why I love you.

'Wish You Were Here. . .'*

Christmas.
That special time of the year.
A time to merry,
A time to cheer.
A time of happiness.
A time to share.
Everything would've been perfect.
If only you were here.

By Fọlábòmí Àmọ̀ó

I don’t want somebody like you.
An imitation, a copy.
A partial resemblance, or a general likeness.
A picture of charm, wit and/or kindness.

I don’t want someone as good.
I don’t want someone better.
I don’t want somebody like you.
I only want you.

I wasn’t looking for love,
Until I found you.
I never knew what it was,
Till the first time I saw you.

Happiness and joy,
Of this, now, my life is full.
I didn’t know it at first.
I just know, that I love you.

I don't care,
About the other messages;
Popping up,
At the top of my screen.

I just want to stay here,
And wait;
For your next message,
To come in.

I wanna take your pain away.
Make you feel everything is okay.
Wipe your tears away; Every single day.
Don't trip. Baby, I'm here to stay.

I don't need anything but your smile.
That beautiful smile.
That smile that can light up a room, no matter how dark.
That smile that can brighten up a day, no matter the weather.
The smile that can solve any problem, no matter how stark.
The smile that can hold anybody down, without any tether.

I'm talking about the one that makes my pain go away.
The one that makes me want to stay.
The one I will never trade for anything.
The one I know that when I have it, I have everything.

Baby, You have to know that these words are true.
I don't ever want to be with nobody, but you.
No backups, no fallbacks, no side boos.
That smile is all I need from you.