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Apr 13 · 222
GOURMET
Superseded my conditions with something simple, a vision for the mind to segue into:
An expedition to the stars, a journey towards difficulty fortified my convictions.
Experienced fourth dimensions, I have stepped into the infinite.
And none is perfect, I am aware of my impulses.
With a heart full of verses, I set the stage to play a role. This is all with a purpose.
I have indulged; I am at fault. There's so much to interpret.
Turbulence settled.
I learned to get leveled with vendettas developed since I was a kid, man.
Learned not to meddle; instructions were heaven-sent.
To go where few bodies had been, I had to find hobbies that aligned with the angels so that I could find the angle
to finally handle everything that I've been through.
A prevailing discomfort encompassed; imagine the troubles.
I rolled with the punches, and I came out triumphant.
From starving to marveling at the cosmic alignments and frequently fighting with God to having so many run-ins.
It's hard to keep a facade when destiny's tugging.
At war with myself, but the timing is perfect.
It has to be worth it; the truth has emerged.
Ever since I sunk into the depths where I dwelled and found my way to the surface.
a verse I wrote recently
Roaming through Rome's ancient roads all alone,
The days tally up when you're all that you know.
A piece of me hasn't ceased seeking Sicily,
I'm hoping to meet someone beautiful.
The flowers of Florence influence my poems,
Their petals, like verses, unfurl in full bloom.
Jan 30 · 542
balance
It felt like starvation; now only death can ease insatiable inquisitions.
Marveled by celestial decisions, And while the findings are marvelous, I still question existence.
My mind was traveling parsecs; I couldn't digest the doctrines—I was losing my religion.
Question it all.
I'm mad enough to go to war, but I can't save the world.
One must taste the dirt before all can be unearthed.
The further I ferret the rabbit hole, the more is known of which I don't.
I know there's nothing after this.
My environment, the catalyst, called for perspectives few could ever witness.
The story's just beginning.
The pieces coalesced for the nascent stages of my thesis.
Instead of hiding behind my intellect, I set sail on the Ship of Theseus.
Jan 13 · 73
instrumental
I used to be a different man, bent and mad,
Until a spiritual awakening, rude enough to shake a man,
Forced my hand to take the driver's seat,
To tackle my reality.

Full force is what it takes to move snakes from the grass,
Every path you tread should never be the last.
Know that even when it snows or slows,
It shows you weren't putting on a show,
Because you made it past every single one of your episodes.

I had to cut her loose, even though her caboose could move a moose,
My knuckles are bruised from doing too much Bruce Lee to Richard.

*****, you surprised?
You think if I knew I could rap like this,
I'd keep the disguise.

I euthanized the part of me that used to think
Part of me was incomplete,
Now I'm into pottery and quietly winning the lottery.
Pardon me, the oceans parted for me long ago.
If there's anything that you know that I don't, would you rehearse it?
Sometimes I feel that I've been cursed
With enough knowledge to have been bathed in the Lazarus Pit eternally.

I yearn for thee to come forth,
He who believes could spit better.
Ever since I learned to read, I had to see what they didn't want me to see.
It's deceit really to have been withheld from intimacy.

I mastered the art of plastering smiles through the anguish.
I'm an insane human who's come to disrupt the English language.
I'm fascinated by plains, dames, fractals, diamonds, societal changes, and women.

I grew up listening to mad rappers and what churches called sinning,
But I knew what was meant for me from the very beginning.
Dec 2023 · 296
pathfinder
ANTONIO Ainnoot Dec 2023
My biggest fear was dying, nowadays it's feeling alone. It took me twenty-eight years to peer into the looking glass. Somehow, I found that my habits weren't so destructive. Overly mindful of my own disruption, I was dangerously close to doing nothing.

Struggling, searching for pieces long removed from its subject, led me to the mountains. Time unveiled its wisdom; the pain made me philosophical as the years escaped my grasp. Alas, as the years amassed and the veil slowly faded, I came to understand that trials and tribulations should never foster hatred. It's never too late to ask. Every path you tread should never be your last.

Perfected words whisper through me as the pain comes to an end, and I delve into the depths where habits lie shattered. Self-destructive patterns become easier to distinguish. I knew I could pursue some new beginnings if I quit being distant.

Picture me fitting in. Picture me painting pictures in sync, not as a victim. There are things that I've been missing out on.
I just haven't been living.
I relinquish my resistance—for me.
Dec 2023 · 510
'tis the season
ANTONIO Ainnoot Dec 2023
Glass half empty, half filled, I cannot philosophize how much of a fool I've been.
To reminisce what we once were, then,
I continuously stare at pictures of you.
My most hopeful assumption is you're blossoming—that you're much happier.

All praise is due to the most omniscient.
Sometimes I wish you weren't so firm in your position.

May your garden be adorned with galore, all your memories recorded, and when you hear your calling, may you not ignore it.
May all your bouquets be orchids, and cups filled to the brim.
I hope that you're in love with all that you've conceived,
And when he sings how much he loves, may you believe in him.
Dec 2023 · 460
pensando 2021
ANTONIO Ainnoot Dec 2023
There’s nothing novel in my possession
simply a puzzle mind with a broad perspective
Replete with concepts and dozens of questions
Sometimes I wonder if time will confess to its intentions
Does more await of quasars remnant?
Because I see where the dots connected
I am receptive to the astral message hidden amongst the stars
Though if on this journey, were I ever to embark, I must leave the mind ajar
existential fog
Nov 2019 · 335
n o. t i t l e
ANTONIO Ainnoot Nov 2019
(Verse 1)
Although right now this means nothing,
all I can offer is an apology
so pardon me for the tears that shed.
I kept us hidden cause I wasn’t ****.
Our world was filled with secrets
that I feared others could never accept.
I eradicated all of the intimate pics you’ve ever sent
All I have are mental mementos.
The memories are only gone when I’m faded.
It helps not to remember because
I’m haunted by “we almost made it”.
I dare not remember the sweetest kiss I’ve ever been graced with
or let the next one even remotely resemble
the control that was over me.
You’re not the one I thought you’d be.
Truthfully, I wish you were here,
so I keep you in my poetry to feel you near.

(Interlude)
I write and write but there’s always something missing.

(Verse 2)
I miss,
sitting on top of the world and being understood.
I miss,
the gaze into my eyes so I could focus on yours.
I miss,
the day's love songs would resonate a bit more.
I miss,
our dope conversations and the breaks I‘d take just to get my fix.
Now my walks home are quiet and my playlist just doesn’t sound the same.

(Outro)
I write and write because there’s always something missing.
I know that I talked your ear off
…I just hope you listened.
Oct 2019 · 228
lovers body
ANTONIO Ainnoot Oct 2019
You know the things you do for validation obscure your worth, but you go for it anyway because there’s nothing that feels worse than the hurt.
A little reminder that something you’ve had since birth is desired lights a fire fierce enough to remove your shirt.

You’re lost, but still, find yourself in other people.
You keep finding the pain, the kindness, it’s an endless sequel.
idk
Oct 2019 · 196
The Blemish
ANTONIO Ainnoot Oct 2019
I thought all I wanted was to show my truth,
but I’ve been lying to myself that I’m over you.
I doused a flame with gas to boost an ego and it burned me.
How lovely, I have no shame, I keep bringing you up to myself.

I thought I needed this, but now I know that some people make other’s “happy” wherever they go;others; whenever they go.
-Antonio Espinal /Oscar Wilde
Sep 2019 · 693
Dear
ANTONIO Ainnoot Sep 2019
I wanted to kiss you goodbye,
but you’re such a light sleeper.
You were dancing with the angels, I could tell.
You were smiling with no worries,
I know life can be hell.
Couldn’t disturb your peace,
when you make my pain ease.
I wanted to hug you goodbye, your arms feel safe.
You are my haven, but I’ll tell you at my pace.
I will repay my debt.
You gave me all the right things,
when I had nothing left.
I was leaving and wanted to dismiss myself, but you had a long night.

You became a mom to me and I thank you for it.

https://www.instagram.com/the7thsunday
ANTONIO Ainnoot Aug 2019
I really did believe
that absence
made the heart grow fonder,
but truth is...

I waited so long
for you that the only
thing I became fond of
was my loneliness.
ANTONIO Ainnoot Aug 2019
the heart doesn't breakeven.
she definitely has the bigger half.
if she doesn't come back.
I won't have much to give.

she somehow always
finds more, meanwhile, I'm limited.

I know she's meant to love many,
so I get lightheaded when my heart gets heavy.
Grammar is out the window sorry.
Aug 2019 · 295
rewind.
ANTONIO Ainnoot Aug 2019
I replayed my side of the story
a different way,
every day you were gone.
Until saying nothing
became all I had to say.
No more stars in my eyes.
You were the eclipse to my sun.
You made it hard to shine.
Not my best
Aug 2019 · 155
Wacko!
ANTONIO Ainnoot Aug 2019
No promises or guarantees
that I’m not crazy.
I know it’s only been a week,
so I haven’t told my shrink
how much you’ve grown on me
Aug 2019 · 167
hopeful
ANTONIO Ainnoot Aug 2019
I can only wish my presence were enough to satisfy my absence.
Aug 2019 · 375
Are you serious?
ANTONIO Ainnoot Aug 2019
A jester who won’t accept heartbreak just laughs at himself.
Jul 2019 · 626
Misery loves company.
ANTONIO Ainnoot Jul 2019
she helped me put up with me.
Jul 2019 · 410
I wish.
ANTONIO Ainnoot Jul 2019
I wish her smile wasn’t perfect,
that her laugh wouldn’t hypnotize.
I wish every greeting wouldn’t wave a sea of emotions within me and that she wasn’t kind.
I wish she would hurt me and not apologize.
To think that It took hers to finally see through a woman’s eyes.
I wish It wasn’t her presence that made my anguish subside.
I wish the pain wouldn’t diminish when she hugged me.
I wish she wasn’t her, I wish she were ugly.
Jul 2019 · 146
hurt
ANTONIO Ainnoot Jul 2019
It hurts to watch you
attempt to heal,
but it hurts even more
to watch the healing method fail.
Jun 2019 · 690
Colors
ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2019
So violently violet.
I’m a bruised discolored soul.
The grass looked so green
when I was blue,
but not every light means go!
Halsey had a lyric that said

“You were red, and you liked me because I was blue
But you touched me, and suddenly I was a lilac sky
Then you decided purple just wasn't for you“

I thought it was great and wanted to play with the theme of color.
Jun 2019 · 707
filling/feeling
ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2019
She doesn’t want to be loved, just wants to be felt.
She wants a full feeling, not something fulfilling
Jun 2019 · 243
you are
ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2019
the reason love songs now resonate.
the only destination that rain won't discourage.
a dream while I am awake.
You feed my soul to keep my heart nourished.
Away
Jun 2019 · 352
First time
ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2019
Somehow I never remember
all the times I got high.
Somehow every time
feels like the first time.
Every time I am a ******
to this Mary Jane.
Every puff is a secret, I keep it in.
Every puff keeps me sane.
Jun 2019 · 534
as promised
ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2019
You illuminated my life just
as the sun lights the earth
when it is most needed.
When the moon could no longer be seen
because the moon meant "to dream"
and the dreams that I had of love
were no longer in existence.
That was when you arrived,
when the illusion was leaving.
Illusions are like dreams,
nothing more, just that one is conscious.
How ironic that to this day
I can't get you out of my mind.
I guess "forever" was promised.
I was high when I wrote this at 3 am. It was originally written in Spanish, by me. This is the translation.
Jun 2019 · 349
Pretty
ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2019
I wanted badly to impress you.
To somehow enhance my creativity.
I was my best when you were with me.
You used to be my world,
but now you’re just pretty.
Jun 2019 · 202
Where are they?
ANTONIO Ainnoot Jun 2019
We watch friends change and show new colors. Sometimes we need to let them leave
because if autumn taught me anything it’s that you can’t put back something that fell off.
That’s just the nature of things.
I need to stop with the seasons, it’s getting old.
May 2019 · 182
mellifluous
ANTONIO Ainnoot May 2019
Your voice
is the melody
of the song
I’ve never heard.
May 2019 · 519
one of a kind.
ANTONIO Ainnoot May 2019
I’m drunk on desire.
You’ve fulfilled many wishes.
You shine bright.
What you are outdoes
my imagination’s limit.
No matter how inspired,
I could never create
something as exquisite
May 2019 · 1.0k
#Mermaiding
ANTONIO Ainnoot May 2019
You’re hurting, I know.
I hope to bring solace
to a desolate soul.
Even If I tried
I couldn’t replace you.
I must admit you‘re
my favorite shade of blue.
What is said is true of the plenty
of fish in the sea,
but you are a mermaid
basking by the beach.
it was on a shirt and yea idk. cringe? maybe.. mean it? also maybe.  This note? also cringe. ***** it, right
May 2019 · 270
I wish...
ANTONIO Ainnoot May 2019
My lips orchestrated lies
They said she was one of a kind
That all the stars were In her eyes
Sadly she can’t get me out of her mind.
I hope she forgives me
I really wish I loved her.
She’s picked up my habits
So when I drop her
I just hope she recovers.
I really wish I loved her
The way she deserves to be
no matter how I touched her
I forged an illusion
And that’s all on me.
I began this a year ago.
May 2019 · 515
Mistakes
ANTONIO Ainnoot May 2019
I’ll erase you
“we”
weren’t carved in stone.
Life is what you make it,
but you go where the winds blown.
What you sold was *******.
I was ripped off,
your love was counterfeit.
“Us”
just lost its appeal,
so I had to split.
May 2019 · 237
Too much
ANTONIO Ainnoot May 2019
I gave you more than you deserved,
you were overwhelmed.
don’t pretend to be hurt,
don’t lie to yourself,
but do what brings you comfort.
This was quite the show,
but there’s no encore for this concert.
You have some nerve,
your wounds are self inflicted.
Remind me who called first.
Just admit you became addicted, now you’re having withdrawals.
Let’s be realistic.
  I Invested so much of my time and went over my budget.
Relationships always sink, I just hope you plummet.
It’s best you learn to swim,
it’s a deep abyss.
It’s not a dog-eat-dog world,
you’re just a b*tch.
May 2019 · 221
Everlasting
ANTONIO Ainnoot May 2019
you left a mark and the thing is,
the love drug has no effect
If you’re not holding the syringes.
Swore I wouldn’t get addicted
you brought me ecstasy
and cured me of a sickness
You made away with my depression,
but Mary Jane is my mistress.
May 2019 · 349
Fall off
ANTONIO Ainnoot May 2019
It was easy for you to fall.
You weren’t balanced
and I put you on too high a pedestal.
I helped you get back up on your feet,
but you must really love to crawl.
Apr 2019 · 2.5k
2U
ANTONIO Ainnoot Apr 2019
2U
I am an addict
in need of saving.
You're my heroine
Apr 2019 · 1.4k
haunted by our almost
ANTONIO Ainnoot Apr 2019
We used to be so uplifting to each other.
I have never felt so featherless.
They say the early bird gets the worm
but is that really why you left?
was I holding you back? when I only wished you the best.
it seems the good times have faded, like your love for me.
I stay by the phone hoping one day you'll be calling.
I see you in my darkest dreams.
I can't wait to go to sleep.
You are so hauntingly beautiful
Apr 2019 · 951
Dear M...,
ANTONIO Ainnoot Apr 2019
We watch movies together.
I feel lighter with every flick.
My comedian, you make everything funny.
I don’t care if you can’t love me
because with you I feel lovely.
You take away my blues,
Yes, take all my money.
I wish you were here when I  feel gray at night
because, against my darkest depression, you always win the fight.
When it comes to food
you make the greatest suggestions every time.
You accompany me during flights.
You understand all my needs.
You’ve become my obsession.
I think I love you.
I saw a post in my email and I felt a little inspired. Credits to Renée for the inspiration.
ANTONIO Ainnoot Apr 2019
You put a halt on progression.

loving you was wrong,
I just learned my lesson.
I understand the blues and
I picked up your depression.
My heads in the clouds
but I know you won’t see heaven.
You are a wolf
in sheep’s clothing
not a blessing in disguise.
No matter how it’s woven
you keep on fabricating lies
Apr 2019 · 195
Far From Happy
ANTONIO Ainnoot Apr 2019
I yearn for the comforts of death.
If you took a glimpse into my soul
you’d see the depths of pain so vividly
how much more can I sustain?
When there’s little strength in me
I tread lightly on earths terrain  
Sleep in my bed ‘til I see the moon
‘cause the road to happiness
comes with lots of lanes
but my ecstasy‘s on Neptune.
These drugs are no help either
Someone whisper to the reaper
I don’t need a breather
I need my last one.
Not suicidal. Just on my mind
Mar 2019 · 133
Something
ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019
What kind of kiss do you give?
Am I someone you’ve missed?
Am I an escape from the life you live?
Are you in need of touch?
Do you need more than a hug?
What kind of kiss do you give?
Could it mean nothing?
I’ll see your smile as an invitation .
I won’t convince myself we have something
but I’ll always over think our conversations
Mar 2019 · 735
inconvenience.
ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019
The milks gone bad
My drinks all flat
The lights now flicker
My favorite fruit‘s bitter
Every morning a pimple
My shirts always wrinkled
I’m sleeping less
My hairs a mess
If you were faking it
round of applause
for my favorite actor
So help me god
since you’ve been gone, Love.
my life’s a disaster.
Mar 2019 · 103
9 words
ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019
She’s broken.
I’m addicted.
We both need a fix.
Mar 2019 · 101
the storm
ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019
I weathered the storm
now the rain hits the ground
The mountains have nothing on me
My heads in the clouds
..
and you’re the only one there.
Mar 2019 · 190
the pain of time
ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019
Nothing hurts more than
waking up to my own Alarms
you always had three
and I had you,
sleeping in my arms
Mar 2019 · 76
the giggle
ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019
I always knew what I had

never thought about it after

How could I ever stay mad?

Have you ever heard her laugh?
Mar 2019 · 150
flower
ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019
I wanted to give her my seed
She dragged my name through the dirt
She takes more than she needs
She's never been down to earth
Mar 2019 · 889
the other one
ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019
I was ready to let you go
at a moments notice.
I hope you know what you did
with that F'ing slow kiss.
While I drown in my sorrow
You float like a lotus flower.
Mar 2019 · 132
oblivious
ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019
The world could be submerged,
probably no longer on this earth.
The ground has split In two.
I don’t know a thing
‘cause all I can
think about is
you
Mar 2019 · 76
let me fall
ANTONIO Ainnoot Mar 2019
You let me fall for you
I became so used to your touch
now I am paying for your wrongs
I know where I messed up.
I feel so ashamed
of the love coursing
through my veins.
the flame of passion
that you left me remains
but you being someone else’s
will never change.
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