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Rəhman JA Feb 2019
End of the December,
Little snow in weather.
I'm walking in 7th street,
With my cigarette and your dream.

I wish i can see you here,
Though it's 2am.
But i still have hope for it,
Cause i miss you real hard.

I'm thinking about my mistakes,
And feel what them takes.
They took you from me,
And that's my biggest regret.
Don't lose your love,be attentive and keep it fresh.
Rəhman JA Apr 2020
A man at the seaside and in his hand with cigarette,
Deep thoughts in his eyes and on the water silhouette.
In his left hand 38 calibre black colt cobra,
And 6 stray bullet in it creating an image.
The man is indesicive,his hands are shaking,
This endless coast is like cage for him.
And the man collecting all of his courage,
Put the gun on head for to end his captivity.
Wind blowing last ash of cigarette away,
Sound of gun reflecting from mounts to the way.
And the man is on ground,5 bullets in magazine,
First one fell from roll,lied a man on the ground.
Sound of working old belt of engine in the back,
Dead silence at the coast and wind running on track.
Rəhman JA Mar 2019
I'm here,under your window,
Looking to it for an hour.
It's begin to rain slowly,
I can feel cold of the wind.
I don't know why i'm here,
Maybe cause of i'm in love.
Or i'm just crazy a little.
But nothing can stop me,
Waiting here all night long,
Even cold of that wind.
Rəhman JA Feb 2018
Another day and i'm waiting at my place
No i'm not complaining or take off sense.
Just for the 20 seconds,
I've been waiting hour and 20 minutes.

So please go and say it's possible,
When you saw a crying boy with glasses
In the undergrounds.

Cause he want something impossible,
Cause his heart is under arrest.
Cause he is waiting for it,
He waiting for his dream come true.

And please go and say it's possible,
When you saw a crying boy with glasses
In the undergrounds.

He crossed boulevard of broken hearts,
With the rope and rose for suicide.
Cause he want see her other side.

Hey please go and say it's possible,
When you saw a crying boy with glasses
In the undergrounds.

Cause she's saying it's impossible,
And want to make him thinkin like this.
She wanted break his spirit,
But with the mistake she broke his heart.

They say time can heal everything,
But what can we do if time make my scar bigger.
Sometimes he feels like dying,
But she doesn't know about it.
Waiting for her every day at subway,same time,same place.Just for 10 or 20 seconds
Rəhman JA Feb 2018
I'm still at my place,
Waiting for you under the rain.
Remember your face,
It's giving me pain.

Days with you,
When i want to stop the time.
So good to be true,
I think killing my love is crime.

Don't look your back,
I'm okay.
With your lack,
I choose this way.

But one day if i see you again
Don't look into my eyes
Cause i can't carry this pain
Bury me at the paradise.

I lost you is wrong
Cause i've never had you.
So strange you think you lost
Someone you've never had.

Now we're happy
Me,my coffee and cigarette.
Be happy darling,
It's only thing can make me
Feeling good now.
Some words falling from burning heart.Love is curse,sweet poison,funny suicide.It's difficult to explain what's love.
Rəhman JA Mar 2019
Everyone's having fun,
And i'm staring to gun.
Am i want to die,
Or living in the lie?!
I don't know really,
But this hard feeling.
It's killing me slowly,
Death seems so lovely,
But i'm just little coward,
Loser for going forward.
Let me sleep forever,
Let me sleep forever.
Rəhman JA Feb 2019
I remember well,
The day when we met.
I can't explain my feelings,
Words are not enough for it.

Your eyes,i looked for first time,
My mind,gone away.
Then you broke my heart,
And you too gone away.

But i'm still waiting,
At the place we met.
With the hope of first day,
When you took my hand.
Rəhman JA Feb 2019
Her eyes like arrows,
Stucked in my heart.
Take my mind and gone away,
The girl with black eyes.

The only star,
In the darkness.
Killed me with one glance,
The girl with black eyes.
Rəhman JA Feb 2018
I'm waiting for her
Like a kid waiting
For merry-go-round.
Little excitement and
Little fear of someone will take
The merry-go-round.
Hey darling can you hear my silence?
My soul is chilling,
My heart will stop,
My last breathe will whisper to you
I love you...

Hey darling
I'm missing you,
Every second.
Waiting is so hard
But knowing you'll never come
Is more harder.
I start to walk to the end
But there's no end.

Hey darling,maybe one day,
You'll love me too.
With the hope of that day,
Goodbye my dear.
Goodbye...
True feelings.
Rəhman JA Feb 2018
I am the silhouette of the dark,
I am the kid lost in the park.
I am the light of shooting star,
I can't see you it's so far.
I am the bullet in the Syria,
I didn't see anything like this in Biblia.
I am the last person of humanity,
I think it's just brutality.
I am the screams of dead kids,
They are open for all the bids.
I am the silence of this chaos,
I am calling you so "Vamos!".
I am the sound this despair,
I think it's not so fair.
I am just nothing
Cause i can't do anything for this...
I can't find a word for explain what i feel.
Rəhman JA Mar 2019
I give up on dreaming,
Because my every dream broke.
I give up on hoping,
Cause none of my dreams didn't come true.
I give up on wanting,
Cause everything that i want,going away as i want it more.
I'm tired and bored,
Little resentful and little meek.
I give up on my fears,
Stayed alone in nights,
I give up loneliness,
I give up on myself,
And fighting.
Not on tobacco,wine or fall in love,
I give up on living.
Rəhman JA Jan 2019
The scar will never heal,
Die is now the best deal.
You feel like falling down,
You want to leave this town.

Times when she's in your mind,
Now you lost her and can't find.
The day she gone away,
Now there's no word to say.

Then someone find me in the deep,
Took my hand and make me sleep.
Sleeping is best way for forget,
She took my hand erase the regret.
You can Fall in Love again.
Rəhman JA Feb 2018
I want to be a winter wind
And walk between your hairs.
I want to be a rain drop
And touch to your face.
I want to be a bird
Can see you everywhere.
I want to be moonlight
Shining on your eyes every night.
I just want to be with you.

I want to be a pen
Write my endless love for you.
I want to be a star
Always be close to you.
I want to be love
And enter into your heart.
Nothing,only, i just,
I just want to be with you.
But i can't...
Rəhman JA Jan 2019
I have never been so brave,
And noone will cry on my grave.
My demon and angel are crying on my shoulders,
Like a long lost loser soldiers.

You are the ***** page of my destiny,
I've read it thousand times,what a pity!
I feel the whiskey and cigarette on your breathe,
You are such a beautiful mess.

Short story of my life from last age,
Full of love and much more rage.
I am walking in the darkest night,
I found you and you became my light.
Rəhman JA Jan 2019
I'm crying in the corner,
Waiting for someone
For wipe away my tears.
I'm dreaming in the corner,
Waiting for you
For make them true.
I'm losing in the end,
Waiting for collapse
For can start again.
I'm fighting in the center,
Waiting for vicotry
For get my reward.
I'm giving up now,
Waiting for new hope
For giving me second chance.
Rəhman JA Feb 2018
Sunrise at the 6.18,
I'm here and wating,
Don't know for what,
Doesn't matter a lot.

Waiting for her,
At the top of the street,
It's time she's coming home,
Hoping i'll see her

And here she's,
I saw her,
How beautiful she's,
Hairs like waterfall,
Eyes looking like marble,
I can't walk to her,
I couldn't.
I'm afraid.
I'm not brave.
Love loves brave people.
Rəhman JA Feb 2018
You can't understand me
If you're not fall in love.
You're actually not free
If you're fall in love.

Dreaming every dream every night
Want to hug her till end of my life.
She's my air,she's my light
I can end this pain with sharp knife.

I just want to comb her hairs
I just want to look her eyes
I just want to see her face
Every night
And with every morning light.

Why she refused all my love?
Why she broke my heart like dove?
Where the divine justice?
Who will answer for this?
Only the ones can understand who tasted the holy poison of Love.
Rəhman JA Jan 2019
You're sleeping well,
Your room is hot.
But i'm in the bottom of well,
My room is not.

You have parents and you shout them,
I have no friends and noone know my name.
My name is trouble i'm all alone,
I have no home or phone.

My home is streets,my family is my pains.
My dreams not so big just heat and meal for day.
My days are hard and no hope in skyline.
My name is trouble i'm dying everyday.
Wait for a minute and think about the people who have no home.
Rəhman JA Jan 2019
In my blood just nicotine and caffeine,
They are running stray in my vein,
Sometimes even i can't feel my brain,
Numbers are falling on me like rain.

Torture is illegal,but exam not,
I'm okay till here what i've got,
How the hell answer can change with the dot,
We choose the math but suicide methods a lot.
Exams are harmful for your health
Rəhman JA Feb 2019
Clouds dancing in the sky,
Birds singing songs,
Kids laughing from heart,
For our love darling.
Rəhman JA Dec 2019
Lovin you is like chasing a ghost,
I'm freaked out n in darkness i've lost.
Your love was ma sun,now ma heart is frost,
Liftin up ma drink,but without a toast.
I promise myself i'll never love someone again,
Because i've so tired from all of its pain.
Maybe i did wrong,there's noone i can blame,
I thought i forgot,then i hear your name.
Silence sounds better with the time,without you,
Spending ma time with u,feels like i do something true.
Truth or dare,tears n fear are only things i ever knew,
I was good boy with bad life,hatin someone is new.
Rəhman JA Feb 2018
She's cause of my tears,
All my smiles
All my regrets
And all my life.

Her smile is divine,
Her eyes are like a sun.
But she's not smile to me,
She doesn't looking me.

Her hairs is waterfall,
Her voice is the music.
But i can't comb them,
She doesn't talk with me.

Her face is perfect,
Her dreams are so big.
But i can't see it,
And i'm not in these dreams.

Hey stranger,can you **** me?
Can you bury me
Cause i can't see her.
Hey stranger,can you fill me?
With the love
Cause i have no more.

I'll wait
Cause i still have a hope.
I'll wait
Or i have also suicide rope.

I'm so tired from asking,
Why....
Why?
Rəhman JA Jan 2019
I'm lying on my bed and Green Day is singing,
I'm drinking my tea and sometimes i'm thinking.
Dreaming about the time when we'll be together,
If you left me alone tell me i'll go to where?

My cat is sleeping early today as always,
I've tried to walk to you with the all ways.
But you burned down every bridge between us,
You gone away and now i'm totally in muss.
Every single night far away from her filling with sorrow
Rəhman JA Jan 2019
Love is like a war,
Easy to begin and hard to stop.
Know what you fighting for,
What you'll do when reach the top.

And i'm the soldier of love,
I'm broken hearted black peace dove.
I'm the loser of this war,
But i'll keep fighting anymore.

Time is flying like bullets,
Modern age loves for wallets.
But i'm the last soldier of love,
I'll fight till end of my life.
Don't let the Love lose this war
Rəhman JA Jan 2019
Today i met with the stranger,
Suddenly i feel like i'm in danger.
She looked into my eyes and smiled,
I think i fly and then fell and died.

Just for a second in the subway,
But i'll never forget this day.
Hope of seeing again she,
One day she and me be we.

That glance made a scar in my heart,
Living with this will be so hard.
I don't want to heal this scar,
She's my bright shooting star.
For all the sudden loves,cheers!
Rəhman JA Feb 2018
She's happy now
But i'm dying everyday.
It's enough for me now
Seeing her happy,that's okay.

But i can't understand
Why she didn't accept my love?!
My love was bigger than mountains
My love was deeper than trechs
I loved her like a kid loving his mother

It's good to see her smiling
Although not to me.
It's bad to see me crying
Under this jasmine tree.

I don't know what i must to do
I just want to look her eyes
Till the end of my ******* life...
One day we'll be happy.I can see,these dark days will over and we can laugh from heart.
Rəhman JA Feb 2019
My only mission is loving you,
I can't smile,i can't live,
If i stop to loving you.
Only the ones understand who loves.

If your love is poison,
I'll drink it still.
If your love is death,
I'm ready to die.
I don't know anything,
Except loving you,
Only the ones understand who loves.
Love till the end!

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